maddmacaw

[maddmacaw]

me: *looks for fic with extremely specific scenario that I made up*

fic: *doesn’t exist*

me:

[maddmacaw]

“Everyone daydreams that much” do you? Do you devote hours of your day to daydreaming? Do you feel if you don’t daydream you’ll explode? Do you turn off your cellphone or television to daydream? Or do you daydream to pass the time?

-C

Does anyone else want to tell someone know about this but are afraid they'll either judge you or say they have it too, only to describe regular daydreaming and not this thing that has consumed your life?

All the time

-L

[maddmacaw]

Does anyone else want to tell someone know about this but are afraid they'll either judge you or say they have it too, only to describe regular daydreaming and not this thing that has consumed your life?

All the time

-L

[maddmacaw]

Can BPD cause maladaptive daydreaming?

I found a lot of discussions about this in some forums/BPD communities online! Maladaptive daydreaming and BPD can both be caused by abuse/trauma, a symptom of BPD is depression and maladaptive daydreaming can be caused by depression, etc. So there is a good bit of overlap there. 

With that being said, there isn’t a whole lot of official information on maladaptive daydreaming since it’s not an officially recognized disorder at this point, but that doesn’t mean you can’t discuss it with a therapist. But what there is a lot more information on is dissociation. 

BPD can cause dissociation, and daydreaming is a form of that. There’s a lot of information out there linking dissociation and BPD, and here’s some resources on that!

Mind.org.uk’s page on dissociation

Dissociation and BPD

About dissociation and trauma

Hope that helped!

- Cornet

[maddmacaw]

I often feel like i'm faking my madd because my paracosms aren't as intense and well-developed as others that I see.

I guarantee a lot of other MADDers feel exactly the same

-L

[maddmacaw]

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Explaining MaDD is just layers of bullshit. 1. Confront the problem that it seems like no one else on the planet has. 2. Get them to understand it's a problem bc "everyone daydreams." 3. The vulnerability of talking about /content/ I'm just now seeing the worst layer. I don't know how to explain that sometimes daydreams are absolutely horrific, disgusting, vile scenes and somehow those scenes still feel /good/

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I have MaDD since i was ten i guess.. It was hard for me to focus on not only school work but daily chores and anything about socializing.I remember refusing to go out just to sit in my room and pace while daydreaming.It was causing me have delusions and anxiety.Living in my mind was easier than my real life.The think about people have MaDD is they are really creative.I hope everyone is doing well and my advice is don’t stop dreaming but take action in your real life. ✌🏻

[maddmacaw]

Hey, idk if this blog is still active cuz I haven’t been on Tumblr in years. But being at home and in my room alone a lot with the lockdown and quarantine, daydreaming is the only thing I do now lol. And the last time it was this bad it was when I found out I had it and I remember looking it up on tumblr and finding your blog and I just wanted to say that it helped me so much back then. So yeah, thank you for this blog, it made me realize I’m not crazy lol

We hope everyone is okay during these unusual times! Stay safe

-L

[maddmacaw]

you’re telling me there are people who listen to music and DON’T use it as the soundtrack for the intense cinematic daydream plot they’ve always got playing in the back of their head???

[maddmacaw]

My main character has always served as a way to process my emotions. They exist in my head and experience everything for me, my goods and bads. I don’t even experience things first hands, it’s always my fictional protector. In the past, I’ve had some protectors who were my parents but now they rarely interact with me, only with my other main characters. I’ve noticed that some, like Dick Grayson, were good protectors because they were constantly there and experiencing my daily life (Pt 1)

(Pt 2) While others, like the most recent Katsuki Bakugou fail to show up when I’m working, only when I’m driving to stop me from making bad decisions and when I’m in class/around campus. All of these (my anchors I call them) are triggered very strongly by physical activity, and they basically take over my body and use my limbs while I just second hand process things said to me and respond which is very difficult. Sometimes I can’t separate myself from a character at all,

(Pt 3) and I feel like I’ve become a vessel for that character to actually exist. But they never front like an alter for DID, though they do hold my trauma and take my flashbacks. I’m terrified to tell my psychiatrist because I can’t lose these characters, I’d be so horribly lonely. But I’m not sure if it’s maladaptive daydreaming anymore or if it’s borderline obsessive. I can’t function without a fictional character serving as an anchor and existing more than I do in my own brain

Please tell your psychiatrist the truth. It’s a coping mechanism but it could have lasting consequences in the future. I’m not a professional tho, so who knows. 

[maddmacaw]

Hi. I found out what maladaptive daydreaming was today, just a few hours ago. I tought on telling my family or my friends the situation I am in but I ended up trusting nobody, so I am writing here all the symptoms I got, please help me make my mind up. My mother says she used to tell me stories since she learned she was pregnant. I have vids that I "read" books when I am like 3 and turned out I didn't just say random words, I committed every single word of them to my memory because I made my ~

My mom read them over and over. She says I was a really weird child, I could have fun with so simple things for so long- like a wallet or a pen. I just looked at them. Just looking made me happy somehow. Then I got myself imaginary friends. one of them was an owl and the other was a ghost and I always imagined they left me by saying "we have to go now and look after other children , you have grown. Never forget us" when I was 5 and I still remember that day, I never talked with them again. ~

Then I grew up, like to 3rd grade or something. And I started using the school bus. God, I can't tell you how happy that made me. I loved sitting by the window. I imagined myself running by the road as the bus moved. I jumped through the trees, the buildings. I got excited every time I got on that bus. And I talked to myself all the time. Like ALL THE TIME. That scared my parents sometimes but I never thought it was weird. Then in 6th grade we started having writing lessons. I remember my~

Teacher reading my paper and then coming up to me and saying "you are going to be a writer, you know that? You have an extraordinary imagination" I always was the one who handed the paper lastly in writing. I couldn't stop(I still can't as you can see). And in 7th grade, things got weirder. My study desk in home was near a mirror. And when I looked up I saw myself. I started making up ideas, and they turned into daydreams. I had several scenarios that I was the main character in. I lipsynced~

The things I had to say in these scenarios. I sometimes stopped studying completely and daydreaming looking at the mirror. That started happening more frequently. And I now was not just daydreaming in my room, I did that everywhere I could, in the shower in school by a window, everywhere. But unlike most maladaptive daydreamers, I don't walk or do a certain thing, I most of the time just look at the mirror or look outside by a window. That is what makes me question if Im maladaptive or not.

Definitely seems like maladaptive daydreaming to me, but the main question to ask yourself is does your daydreaming have an acute impact on your day to day life? It sounds like it, but only you can answer that.

-L

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(Sorry for my bad english)I am 14 and since I remember myself i daydream.Right now im obsessed with the walking dead and wattpad fanfiction helps me a lot.I cant study beacause i just dream myself being an actress in the walking dead and being super famous.

I get hyper focused on various fandoms like that too. It’s important to study, though!! You should reach out to someone you trust as a study buddy to keep you on track.

-L

[maddmacaw]

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I am actually really proud of my daydreams because they’re elaborate and I’ve spent years curating them. Sometimes I will return to the same “scenes” and keep reimagining them until they’re exactly how I want. I wish my daydreams could be visualized into a film or that I would write them down and start a book but I don’t have the motivation to do that.

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One of my biggest struggles with MADD is having to hide it from people. I live with my parents and I pace/listen to music really loudly with my earphones so I need to run water to drown out the noise so they don’t hear me.