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// Dakota Allens [oc] //

– for: @aspie-boy –

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parame for criminal minds has appeared, ,, , , he looks a bit more like me n his name is gabe/gabriel and he’s an avid tony stark fan (iron man/rdj himself is his special interest)

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don’t u just love making ur characters suffer

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Personal Aesthetic + male, dark hair, science, candy, stars at the sky, black coffee and skulls

Requested by Anon

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“Gimme that. Who the hell are you? Do you know how dangerous that guy is? Are you out of your mind???”

// daydream shenanigans and character development

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You’re a sky full of stars (by Marialuisa Rea)

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a new parame has appeared!!!! lmao

his name is dakota allens and he’s another parame from one of my daydream universes :p

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the most terrifying thing about maladaptive daydreaming (in my opinion) is that it’s a disorder that makes you love it.

like it whispers in your ear and covers your eyes and strokes your face while it pulls your hair. maladaptive daydreaming holds you by the throat and tells you to think of it as a hug.

you can’t feel time slip away, minutes and hours adding up to years. you can’t see how your own eyes glass over. it makes you a ghost of a person, a hollow shell and the thing that’s supposed to be inside is literally worlds away, but all you feel is the rush. it wrecks you from the inside out but even as it hurts you, it tells you “i’m the only one who understands, stay with me, be mine, you’re mine.”

it’s a disorder that completely enslaves you and that. is. so. scary.

and the second scariest thing? how it disguises itself. “shh. it’s okay. it’s not a big deal. everyone daydreams.” or, “you have a vivid imagination. you’re lucky. you’re special. be glad.”

maladaptive daydreaming is a poison.

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parame moodboard;; hayden

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para moodboard;; lily

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Hidden Gem

by Jason Scottish

IG: jscottish

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Rainy Berlin | gmobosch

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i don’t know if i should call these paras since they were characters from my dream last night, but i still thought i’d share them!! they’re all unnamed brothers who have some sort of kinesis/power - that’s all i can remember at least, lol

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Can you tell me a bit about each of your paras? (Is that the right word) you don't have to go into a lot of detail if you don't want, since there's a few different ones, but you can describe them however works for you! I'd love to know more about them either way

(yes that’s the right word haha)

not all of them are ~super developed~ yet, but i’ll give you random facts about why they exist and whatnot i guess if that’s okay!!

my parame (hayden) is my daydream self and is also my Idealized version of myself, lol. he’s 18 years old, post-transmale, and he has adhd + autism (like me!!). he’s quoiromantic and is in a QPR with eli. i don’t really know what to say about him - he’s literally me, but just an Improved™ version of me lmao

eli was subconsciously created after my friend rejected me when i asked to be in a QPR with them; hayden and eli’s relationship is a reflection of how i wanted things to be. everything that i wanted or could’ve happened is always just imagined with hayden and eli. it’s more of a coping mechanism honestly lol, eli’s “existence” has been temporarily filling a void and it’s been helping slightly. he’s kinda also my idealized “Dream Partner™” i suppose. 

also eli is a demiboy and he has adhd in case u were curious

tyler was most recently created so i don’t have much about him down yet, but i’ve always wanted an older brother, so…there he is!! my parame’s older brother!!

lily used to be my parame when i was younger, so i guess you could say that she’s literally a reflection of my younger self. i don’t remember ever creating her honestly, she was always just kinda,,, there. i used her as a self-insert character whenever i daydreamed about being a part of my favorite shows too lol, it was (and still is) pretty fun “D

kieran was created because i simply wanted a character who could use optikinesis at first, but then it turned into something more. i’ve already talked about him quite a bit here, so i don’t really know what to say haha;;; i guess, well…i’m thinking of making it so either his parents try to kill him or he runs away on his own accord or something. i’m not really sure rip

savi was created to be a friend of kieran’s, so i don’t really have anything down for him yet except for he can use hemokinesis and he wears yellow contacts to hide his white eyes. sorry;;

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Rainy Day Roses, by Cate♪.

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Oh, sing to me of loss

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