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One year on since I made the post that I had been terrified to make, yet it reached such a wide and wonderful audience.

Since it’s PCOS awareness month for 2023, I just want to send the biggest hug to every single woman who is fighting the same battle. I know it’s exhausting. I know that it physically and emotionally hurts like hell. I know that it feels like nobody will ever fully understand. But if I can get through it, so can you.

I finally got to work with an endocrinology consultant who I owe so much to, for listening to me and taking every symptom and detail on board. We’re working on a treatment plan which has been trial and error (at times there was a lot of error, and that’s totally okay) but I’m finally starting to see small changes that indicate that I’m responding to treatment, which is such a relief.

The amount of hospital and GP visits, tests, stress and times where I’ve been left in so much pain that I wasn’t able to move taught me that I really need to enjoy every moment of this life. So that’s what I’ve been doing as much as I can. So far this year I’ve got a city apartment, appeared on national TV for my work in social innovation, travelled to some of my bucket list destinations and achieved some life goals that at one stage felt like they would only ever be dreams.

Also, today I finally got to meet and hold one of the newest additions to my (very large) extended family. It’s moments like these that make me pray one day I’ll become a momma and be able to hold my own little miracle in my arms, because there is nothing more precious than the gift of life, or the amount of love a little one can fuel you with.

I wish the same for everyone else who shares the same dream. Nobody could ever describe the hurt that comes with being told you’ll struggle with your fertility, but I’m a strong believer in miracles. One day, they will be ours, and until then we will continue to fight 🙏

If anyone has any questions about the help and treatment I’ve been getting, or just wants somebody to talk to, because I know how easy it is to feel isolated, please reach out to me. There is nothing I’d like more than to support and help others, because I know just how hard it is. But I promise you’re never alone 🩵

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I was scrolling through Pinterest and stumbled across this! I’d recognise that bedroom anywhere 😌

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Random but this came up on my fyp and I instantly thought MC should have these on her wedding dress in honour of the Miami dress 🥺

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If anyone wants to get in their Ethan in the Amazon era feels listen to this:

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Honest opinions on June? I feel like thoughts on her are very mixed and she’s a mysterious kind of character so I’m curious to know what everyone thinks 👀

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I’m 99.9% sure somebody may have made this point before so if you have then I’m sorry but I saw a meme with this guy in it a few minutes ago and all I can see is Alan loool

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Saw this and it made me think of all the swiftie MC’s who send these sort of texts to Ethan 😂

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Do you HC Ethan being a gifted/naturally good student back in med school or more of a "I had to work hard" kind of student?

I think he was naturally intelligent (Alan would say that it was down to the fact that he was so inquisitive as a child)

But that didn’t mean that he didn’t have to work hard and study a lot. Med school was definitely a lot of all nighters and you would almost always find Ethan with a textbook.

I think Ethan also used work as a distraction from his trauma as a child. If he was thinking about school/college work then he couldn’t think about Louise and all that entailed. He’s been a workaholic since the start, no doubt about it

Thanks for the ask!

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Me when a song fits an OH scene perfectly

*adds to playlist*

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CEO of being the worst at trying to be subtle

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I said before how much I love the fact that Ethan dropped Harper off first so he could spend more time alone with MC.. But now that I replayed it again I love how as soon as Harper leaves the facade comes down and MC is so comfortable being completely herself with Ethan which in this case is complaining of being too full 😂

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If Ethan had to be a colour, it would be blue

It just makes sense. His eyes, his clothes, it also symbolises inspiration and wisdom which is exactly what MC admired about him from before they even met

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I blame Ethan Ramsey for making me such a sucker for blue eyes

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So proud - and what a weekend for it ☘️

The perfect storyline win on Paddy's weekend💚💚

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He believed in MC so much from day one, even when they didn’t believe in themself. I love them so much it hurts

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Be gentle with yourself this week. Take each day as it comes, and remember that there can be something good in every day, no matter how small it might be. Try to hold on to those moments, and you will get through the challenges you face. You got this!💛 (PS- don't forget to drink some water)

Some monday motivation for anyone who may need it 💕

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To my friend with the best OH playlists and taste in lawyers... I hope you have a great birthday week! 💕

Cari, this is so sweet - THANK YOU!!

I had the best birthday and am very much looking forward to the rest of the celebrations 🍾 My heart is so full!

Thank you my OH playlist twin, I love you! 💕