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Plea in Our Eyes

in your eyes, there's a plea

as if they're in search of something warm and sweet

the look that you gave me sparked something

something very dangerous that needs to be handled with care and free

free of insecurities for it to bloom

bloom in the best shade of blue

my plea is to hold you dearly and close

never letting go of your hand and let it freeze

in november's cold when it's snowing outside the window

i'll build something with snow and let you laugh at me

my plea is to forever hold you close

and peace will never leave our door

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Ghost in a Glittery Room

there's a ghost in my glitter filled room

that reminds me of you

and says, "you are my only muse"

night is the hour of peace

but once the clock strikes at midnight

the ghost comes out to take me to hell

loving you was never a crime

but when i'm trying to move on

your memories still lingering around this time

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In Denial, On Fire

in denial

but pacing while room is on fire

motion capture fail to paint his emotions

"I'm fine"- a product of his illusion

litany of reasons but pain stuck under his skin

too afraid to pen about, too afraid to scream it out

demons are his rulers, will demons be the winners?

help! he is drowning he can't put out this fire

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Well in Well?

went to the well to fetch some water

to water the plants and to drink some water

but fell in endless well with no bottom

he went to the well to fetch some water

the hope of his dreams is way bigger

the fruition period slipped before the reaches

fell in the well, a never ending torture

close his eyes? will the nightmare be over?

the demons are the rulers,

the demons are the winners

who will pull him down

gravity- a force stronger

[maanvinderpilania]

Victory After the Cold

cold barren land

plants have died out in the fog

long winter days with no warmth of sun

dreams I planted have died out in the cold

2 years of hell for this and that

for to fall behind him and her

gave my blood, sweat and tears

for to be back at the beginning

lost all my hope

lost all my faith

i reached my heights

i reached my patience

a ray of hope, ray of sun

brought the warmth lost for years 2

"my dreams"- a product of my work and efforts

but a grand victory awaits ahead

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a savior in the war

oh my! oh my!

i always prayed for days like these

"when i would run late for the class

and someone saving me a spot"

though something it speaks to me

of truth i'm facing bigger than my dreams

"this ain't your dream college

this ain't what you worked for"

but something it speaks to me

"avenoir a great this desire, till you see the worst"

a savior in the war

a refuge from my demons

shelter till i fly again

my cold barren land

has already dug my grave

i'll stay till the summer arrive

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poetry of the end

fire raining down from the sky

and my planet turned to hell

with no sign of life but only cries

of his, her and their memories at midnight

strange streams leaking my from eyes

i wonder , "will i even survive?"

poetry i write from every dying

pieces of memories and fragments of my life

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cemetery of dreams

at the cemetery of my dreams

buried but not achieved

their dead Souls rises at night

to haunt my existence

and remind those good dreams

something i added on the fabric

something i penned on the paper

remained unforgettable

and i find myself reeling and mourning

days turned to nights

and nights turned to days

with no sign of goodbye

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That Momentary Encounter

fleeting memory of you

one fateful encounter

you are my muse

a solace in that moment

standing across the road

our roads will never cross

you see I'm a "sad amorist"

i will always say, "our stars will never align"

i will paint my knuckles red

just for a glimpse of you

but scared of the thought

you belong to someone else

I'll leave a letter at your door

my idea of you will never fade

my ink for you will never run dry

it's a letter that i will never fly

[maanvinderpilania]

apocalypse, girl by jenny hval (review)

hello folks, maanvinder here and just like other days i'm back here for shit posting. haha but this post is not. So a few days ago i came across this album while looking for a new album "that is poetic" or in other words, i was looking for an album with great songwriting because that is what i care about the most. i want to read the lyrics and analyze them. It's such a great album and i believe it will take me some time to fathom and analyze each lyrics with every listen. I don't like how album critics give an album a score after only one listen. it's so stupid to me like how can you feel everything in the songs together. in my opinion, album reviews should be written or at least released after a week of the album release.

The album I'm talking about is a 2015 album and is called "apocalypse, girl", by Jenny Hval who is a Norwegian singer, songwriter and a novelist. in this review, i will not talk about all songs on the album but some specific which i believe are most underrated. The song  "white underground" is both haunting and heavenly. it gave me chills and its just track 4 and i can say this album is not like your normal albums that you listen to. in my mind, this album is for all those people's who love poetry, who are feminist and that is why it's not limited to one gender only. music has no gender. So i suggest you to plug your headphones and sit outside on the porch with a book in your head. in other words, immerse yourself in the cinematic world of apocalypse, girl.

Songwriting and production on this album along with the vocals delivery is good and it's easily one of the best albums i've ever listened to. I like how she is singing in it; she would sing slowly or fast either at beginning, middle or the end. everything about this album is perfect and i must say pitchfork did injustice to this album by giving a score of 7.9, at least 8 or 8.2 would've been fine. This album draws inspiration from various films, books and music that she listened during the album making process and also from the poetries she read. She challenged herself and for once ket her art speak for her by not following the "normal normes" that a woman shouldn't use curse words in her songs. While talking about the album, she herself told that this album was the result of thoughtful conversations with her producer on philosophy and films, music, they would watch during that time of album production. So this is not your any album where you would wanna speculate who is this song about? to be honest, it's a toxic mentality that a woman will always write a song about a man. Male artists also do that but no one asks any question. This album certainly shows her growth as an artist. Even though this review is short but i will for sure update it in future as you know with each listen, its meaning and this album will grow over me. 

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november is my muse

wake me up when it's all over

"when the ink of my pen stops bleeding

when there is no trace of their memories"

wake me up when the nightmare is over

november's sadness will take me down

burn the bridges to the next run

lunar eclipse and pacing under the sun

gray will return in it's darkest shade

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happy diwali 🪔

I wish everyone who is celebrating this festival of lights, a very happy diwali. I hope tonight brings joy to everyone but make sure you don't use firecracker. xoxo

[maanvinderpilania]

1989 tv (my version)

a year ago, i woke up in the morning with a notification that said "your pre-saved album 1989 (Taylor's Version) is available for listen now" and that really made my day. Just like every other fan i was so excited to listen the production on some of my favorite songs and obviously from the vault tracks. I still can't believe, it's been a year already. I remember i was preparing for a big goal and after a year that goal had lost in time like a ship lost in the fog. it's excruciating but writing isn't. writing is my biggest power and so this post is result of it because i wanted to share my views and ofcourse my playlist!!

If i talk about my favorite tracks off the album then I certainly doesn't wanna talk about bank space and shake it off because it only makes you feel old. they're 10 years old songs and one of the biggest hit of this century. everyone knows about them and judge her entire discography saying "all her songs sounds like shake it and off and blank space" when they barely knows her 10 songs. Plus the scenario she only writes about her exes. this is some old age shit. every other artists write about them but they don't have any problem with them as they seem "authentic" wtf. okay two of my favorite songs from this album are This Love and All You Had to Do Was Stay. Let’s start with This Love. The best part of the song that I believe in my opinion is its intro. And the part from “in silence screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this” always makes me emotional. The second song from this album that is always stuck in my head is AYHTDWS and I believe the best part of the song is also in the intro, “all I know is that you drove us off the road” and then the “stay, hey all you had to do was stay…..”. And how can I forget about the style and its intro plus the out of the woods bridge. this whole album is flawless.

If you ask me about the other songs, then I would say Clean and You are In Love. It’s not I don’t like the remaining songs, I like them but these are the ones that are stuck inside my head and I keep hearing them. I love the idea of Clean and YAIL because one is about getting over someone and moving on and another one is about falling for someone’s charm. And the best part of Taylor’s Version is that we get to re-live those eras and for those of you thinking that they are the same albums so they must sound same but no they don’t. You can clearly tell which is Taylor’s Version(TV) and which is original. And make sure you stream Taylor’s Version only because these are the albums that mother has masters of, in simple terms right over her work. I can write a whole research paper on her songwriting but I'm limiting my words here.

Moving forward, another good thing about Taylor's Version is that you get to listen never heard before songs because they didn’t made the final cut at the time of the production of original album. I don’t know why they didn’t let her release those songs. I’m happy she has signed to a label which believes in her and now mother is the CHAIRMAN. She gets to decide what she wanna release and what she doesn’t. So yeah, those unreleased songs are called “From The Vault” tracks because they are deep in the vault waiting for her to unlock. So far, she has released 26 of these tracks on different re-records of like Fearless TV, Red TV, Speak Now TV and now the 1989 TV. 1989 TV has a total of 5 “From The Vault” tracks and they are:- Is It Over Now?, Now That We Don’t Talk, Slut, Suburban Legends, Say Don’t Go. And to be honest none of these Vault tracks are so called “bad, worst, too much songs,” as the haters would describe.. They are so addictive thanks to the bridge of these songs. You just cannot compare these tracks with each other. So yeah, that week was pretty amazing, the excitement that comes from the release of new music by your favorite artist is different and also the happiness of someone getting right over their own work is just amazing. What made the release week more interesting and amazing was not just the feeling and excitement you get from thinking about the release of the 1989 tv but also that Taylor dropping the Cruel Summer [Live From The Eras Tour] version. It was all what i needed at a time when I couldn't go to the eras tour as she is neither coming to India and also you are not rich enough to buy her concert's ticket. So you don’t feel left out and can scream the cruel summer bridge all you want. I also love the feature that Taylor did to generate your own 1989 covers and i enjoyed playing the puzzle she released in collaboration with the Google. One more thing about this Album & Taylor that i love is how Taylor never let anyone look down on her. Life is not easy for me. She gives me the confidence to be who i want to be because 'Haters gonna hate hate hate, baby i'm just gonna shake shake shake!' I cannot wait for debutation 🐍💚 happy 1y of 1989 tv 🩵

[maanvinderpilania]

Chained to the Memories

the chains that hold on to me

I kept 'hold on to the memories'

now screaming looking at the sky

beacon tell me will I survive?

the chains of the past

and pain stuck under my skin

the blood moon is on the rise

and something buried will come out at night

in chains of blood

in chains of memories

i try to survive

but haunting midnight comes after daylight

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Of Spirits, Memories, and Forget-Me-Not

to be someone's muse- a feeling unknown!

an honor so grand but beyond my hope,

the vastness of the sea before my eyes

it's secrets can't be hold in a rhyme,

midnight's darkness- a friend for so long

now a foe, never haunted me before,

a rose by other name can be 'forget-me-not'

'sorrows, sorrows and prayers' always knock at my door,

cemetery is the home for the spirits

cemetery is the home for the memories,

i long for the "good old days"

when summer never left me alone,

now in my winter's barren land

a glittery hope is what i pray for!

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my college life ain't boring anymore

these days I feel like I'm living those old school days again. Just a few days ago, I used to sit alone and wait for the day to be over but now I have friends to talk about. I'm just so happy and I think I might be healing because I didn't had any anxiety attacks in like 4 days.

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Winter's Call to Let it Go

oh my these beautiful days!

autumn has come and will soon be gone

with leaves falling down brown and pale

some leaves are clinging with the hope

will they even survive the winter's cold rage?

i summon the greatest of the force

to teach them how to fall away

hope is a devil in disguise

that will make everyday hard to survive

if you don't fall down, will have nowhere to stay