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In Search of Light

Some days, I want to be left alone,

while on others, I want someone to hold my hand.

Either I walk out of the woods alone,

or I need a light to guide me through this pain.

My ghosts feed upon my thoughts,

even when I assure myself I'll be just fine.

My sighs never forget their true self,

and my heart continues to beat like a drum.

In a pitch-dark room, I sit, broken and unaware.

The future seems too harsh to live in,

and my present doesn't even care.

Either way, I long for the light that can save me.

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The Mirror

Is it all in my head?

Or does everyone think of me the same way?

When I stand before a mirror, I want to smile,

But even the mirror forces me to cry.

“you are a failure who couldn’t achieve his dream”—

It screams at my face, telling the truth.

These days, I look miserable and in despair,

So my friend told me, “The mirror is a liar.”

But how can it be a lie, I asked myself,

When I see my face turning gray in the mirror?

A mirror shows our reflection,

And even my mind knows this simple truth.

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The Silence

Memories chained around my neck

That comes to life at midnight

Just like a snake bite with its fangs

Their voices sink their teeth into my skin

Release their poison and absorb a part of me

Then they speak to me: "Kneel to the ground and surrender yourself."

I close my ears, as the deafening silence takes over me

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Echoes of Despair

in a corner of my mind

the shattered me sits in utter silence

unable to carry and fly with wind’s pace

the weight on my chest drags me down to same place

even the pills can’t help me calm down

the screams get louder with harrowing memories

the daggers in my chest are hard to remove

every task i face, a mountain hard to move

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The Dark Room

this dark room, a bottomless pit,

a place in my mind, but in motion of free falling,

witness to my pain and the anxiety I bore,

a feast for the beast that rules in its whole.

"You should try hard," they proposed,

without being aware of the beast the cage holds.

nights are haunted by the ghost of loss,

one way of getting out—but life is that cost.

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Shadows Within: A Poetry Series

A poetry series exploring poems on the theme of depression, anxiety and loneliness.

Spotify playlist below

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Child of Moon Awake with Ghosts

your ghosts keep you awake at night

you hate the nights but are forced to be a nyctophile

night is supposed to be an hour of peace

but something burned rises from the ashes

goodbye came as if it’s always by your side

your eyes rained turning red in pain

but like a warrior, you keep that mask

hiding the painful truth behind that smile

you see yourself as a grown-up version

always trying to bring daylight into the dark

but what can you do in daylight with daylight

when in both hours, demons rule your mind

you carry a dagger stabbed in your heart

but suppress the tears full of guilt and pain

You’re a child of the moon

Light your own world for once

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Stevie Wonder- Songs in the Key of Life (1976)

Hello folks so i'm listening and kind of reviewing the 500 Greatest Albums on the list compiled by the Rolling Stone. And at no 4 is Songs in the key of Life (1976) by StevieWonder. Below is the link to the playlist and video review.

Skipless?- NOOOOOO

Key Tracks- As, Love's in need of Love Today

Favourite Track- Knocks Me Off My Feet

Songwriting/ Production- great songwriting with use of metaphors and the production is lush with songs ranging from being energetic to soulful.

Vibe- intimate, dreamy, euphonious

Recommendation- I recommend this to anyone who is into jazz, r&b.

Rating- 7/10

How I Rate Albums

I rate albums based on the songs I vibe with. I count the tracks I enjoy and calculate the score as a percentage:

(Songs I like ÷ Total songs) × 100

My reviews are subjective and focus purely on personal enjoyment rather than technical aspects like production or songwriting. I highlight the tracks that resonate with me, making my ratings a reflection of my connection with the music.

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Joni Mitchell- Blue (1971)

Hello folks so i'm listening and kind of reviewing the 500 Greatest Albums on the list compiled by the Rolling Stone. And i'm kicking it off with the album that is ranked at no 3 which is Blue (1971) JoniMitchell. Below is the link to the playlist and video review.

Skipless?- no. it flows perfectly from one track to another. Emotionally heavy but there’s no skip

Key Tracks- River, A Case of You

Songwriting/ Production- powerful songwriting that is very poetic and the production is amazing and intimate.

Recommendation- I recommend this to anyone who is into folk music and someone who likes the emotionally rich stuff.

Rating- 7/10

Why 7?- well i like every song on this album but only 5 stood out the most for me, as in like how many I loved listening on repeat. It’s a classic album, so there’s indeed room for a lot to appreciate.

How I Rate Albums

I rate albums based on the songs I vibe with. I count the tracks I enjoy and calculate the score as a percentage:

(Songs I like ÷ Total songs) × 100

My reviews are subjective and focus purely on personal enjoyment rather than technical aspects like production or songwriting. I highlight the tracks that resonate with me, making my ratings a reflection of my connection with the music.

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The Beach Boys- Pet Sounds (1966)

Hello folks so i'm listening and kind of reviewing the 500 Greatest Albums on the list compiled by the Rolling Stone. And i'm kicking it off with the album that is ranked at no 2 which is Pet Sounds (1966) The Beach Boys. Below is the link to the playlist and video review.

Skipless? : a big YES

Key Tracks: Wouldn't it Be Nice, God Only Knows

Favorite Track: I Know There's an Answer

Songwriting: deeply emotional lyrics, a rock album but leans more into art pop

Vibe: dreamy, emotional, exploring themes of love, longing

Would i recommend? absolutely yes and i get it why it's a timeless classic

Rating: Out of 13 tracks, I vibed with 8, which gives it a base score of ~62%. However, considering its impact and overall artistry, I’d rate it a solid 8/10.

How I Rate Albums

I rate albums based on the songs I vibe with. I count the tracks I enjoy and calculate the score as a percentage:

(Songs I like ÷ Total songs) × 100

My reviews are subjective and focus purely on personal enjoyment rather than technical aspects like production or songwriting. I highlight the tracks that resonate with me, making my ratings a reflection of my connection with the music.

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Memories and Melodies

memories blending with the melodies

melodies i hear that bleed memories

memories that are covered in gray

melodies make me relive the pain

wind up in the circle with nowhere to escape

nostalgia is a sin to commit, melodies are my bane

memories holds a grip on me, don't associate song with your pain

cadence is a song that nature hums

after goodbyes, never meant to happen

live or die, the world moves on

i'm too weary to play this tortured game

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Unspoken Affections: Part-X

our secret moments and i was high in that feeling

watching film on a reel with you but now all i can do is reeling

looking back at memories that were full of laughter

the night we had, i couldn't look away after,

so close yet i couldn't bring it up to you

i'm still in love when the lights went out

under the moonlight, it felt like a movie

and woke up to find your lips close to mine

in my fatal fantasies we're always together

but the next morning brought desertion in the light

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Marvin Gaye- What's Going On (1970)

Hello folks so i'm listening and kind of reviewing the 500 Greatest Albums on the list compiled by the Rolling Stone. And i'm kicking it off with the album that is ranked at no 1 which is What's Going On (1970) by Marvin Gaye.

Skipless? : yes, the album flows perfectly from start to finish.

Key Tracks: What's Going On, Mercy Mercy Me (The Ecology) and Save The Children

Favorite Track: Mercy Mercy Me (The Ecology)

Songwriting: Powerful songwriting with great use of metaphors.

Vibe: A timeless commentary on social and political issues like war, poverty and environment.

Would i recommend? absolutely yes, a big yes if i'm being honest. a must listen for anyone who is into soul and R&B music.

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Unspoken Affections: Part-IX

If I could fly in the sky, I will declare my love to the people on ground

If I could talk to the birds, I will ask them to add some melodies in the scene

But you stood across the road, denying something you started

The look from your eyes and its torturing action- my cheeks grew warmer

But something in this moment without you, I feel how far we really are

Our places close but hearts still hundred miles far

My desk is the only place I can write about my muse

Thinking you’re closer to me but it’s a poem you will never learn of

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Unspoken Affections: Part-VIII

I meet you in my dreams but

the fear of desertion continue to exist

emotions in my dream seem far more stronger

in reality too both our faces looks so gray

i can’t even console you in your grief

i don’t want you to know about how i feel

It’s supposed to be a love affair meant to die

either in grave or by moving on with time

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Unspoken Affections: Part-VII

staring into your eyes but 10 seconds  seemed bit harder

hot flush from your stare and I felt my cheeks grew warmer

your face slacking happiness and heart covered in dark gray

i wanted to whisper you ‘my love’ and tell you i’m here for you

putting your faith in me, you uttered your agonizing  account

if i tell you ‘I love you’, would you let me share your pain?

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Unspoken Affections: Part-VI

Looking into your seraph eyes

Ferris wheel had put us high

Being lifted up in the air

But with you it felt safe and divine

lights from the ground reaching the sky

we had the world below our feet’s

with no one to tell who to love

we held each other close before the fall

 

mesmerized by the look in your eyes

i wanted to whisper a secret

exhilaration hit us soft and sweet

so the fall felt so haunting and divine

put desertion away in that moment

the moment of beauty in your charm

we both screamed at top of our lungs

and shared our secrets before the rise