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Today’s Daily Degurechaff is… she failed

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happy new years! i'm so grateful to be part of this fandom, can't wait to go into 2025

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so i’m stupid and forgot to post this here- ranpoe christmas art!!!

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Drawing every Youjo Senki characters until season 2 release!

Week 23 : Drake

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GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. YEAYHHAHBEHBHABHABA I LOVE HIMMMMMMMM. your art is amazing

some habit for the season...

+ a very rough sketch of habit as that one santa sevika by @ribbedtank on twitter!!

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@sugarblast watch your husband suffer!!!

Tanya projecting her period cramps onto rerugen (I haven't drawn in month lmao)

I've been in an art block for so long, but Tanya got me out of it for some reason??

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a bird flew into my window

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@kugelblitzzed

Viktor and Jayce Paperdolls!!

My hand almost fell off making these lol

I used card stock paper and double sided tape to assemble them and it worked quite well.

All I ask is that they don’t get reposted around without credit and my signature doesn’t get removed! Other than that feel free to use them as you all wish

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YEAAAAAAHWHEHAGAHAHAH SEMI REALISIRIC TANYA!! I LOVE YOUR ART

Semi realistic tanya... i tried guys

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ICONIC. TANYA IS SLAYING THAT DRESS. ANOTHER BANGER FROM PINK AS USUAL!!

Lil comic before christmas!!

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i drew her!! thank you for letting me draw her in this design, rimu. MERRY CHRISTMAS

okay so basically this is a thought i had out of nowhere and now i want to share it with you,Tanya degurechaff and Friends as magical girls ✨ yay! glitter,cute clothes and a explosion of colors✨

ah yes the perfect don't you agree? just imagine Tanya and her friends on magical(and weirdly mortal and dangerous) Adventures!!! ah yes simply perfect!

The first piece of art on this blog that I fully complete with clean lineart, color, and shading… and it's magical girl art. That's so painfully on brand for me I can't even be surprised by it.

I actually have quite a few Thoughts about magical girl Tanya (specifically in the context of a potential PMMM/Youjo Senki crossover) that are just living Rent Free in my head which I would love to just go off about. Maybe another time though bc I started this at like 3pm and its now 10. help. (7 hours. This is what happens when ur stuck inside all day bc of covid i guess.)

I'll put it very simply for now. I love the idea of magical girl Tanya and friends. I would love to do more for this it one day.

Anyway, regarding the design I ended up drawing... So we saw in the afterword of novel 5, Shinobu Shinotsuki did an illustration of Tanya as a magical girl (And also in the afterword of 9 we got Visha), but I wanted to design one myself, as while the illustration is wonderful and hilarious it just wasn't quite what I wanted. The end result I got was of course this.

She doesn't have a lot of the frill that you usually see on magical girl designs, but y'know with her personality I don't think frills really suit her anyway.

I'm quite happy with it. Maybe another time I'll do some sketches for some of the other characters like Mary and Visha :,)

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I'm not gay, but I will 100% take the opportunity to be fucked by a dude. I wouldn't even say I'm bi, since I have zero interest in a relationship with a man. I just love getting pounded is all. If I get fucked and swallow some cum and have an orgasm or two, I generally feel ready to go again, but I definitely don't want to hang out with the guy or kiss or hold hands or any of that gay shit afterwards. Wouldn't say I'm attracted to men at all really.

good for you ? i thjnk?

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Tanya casually devouring her boyfriend

Today's Daily Degurechaff is… heartless casual cannibalism

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Im trying to prove a point to my mum

Repost if school has caused:

Anxiety Depression Suicidal thoughts Social anxiety Eating disorders Self harm Stress

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fyodor just.. fuck off already oh my god. I hate this man

there’s two of them?????

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GOOD NEWS. I AM ESCAPING WALMART. I AM GETTING A NEW JOB. WE WILL BE FREE FROM THE MINES. ITS OVER. I AM NEVER STEPPING FOOT IN ANOTHER WALMART EVER AGAIN

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I wanna talk about Odasaku for a second, and his character arc in Dark Era

I love Odasaku, and one of the things I love about him is that he's not just there to be the friend Dazai loved and lost, he's a really deep character who grows over the course of the Dark Era novel, and he learns how to speak up.

I feel like his arc is mitigated in the anime, and I'm not going to be blaming it necessarily, it's just that a book written in first person POV is able to achieve a lot more depth to the MC over the anime , which is forced in nature to take a more third person, observational take to the character.

Dark Era spoilers, obviously.

The first thing I would like to bring up is Oda's personality, and for that, I'm actually going to start this analysis off with using a quote from Beast, of all things, because this was honestly the best description of Odasaku ever.

The best way to describe Odasaku's personality is obliviously perceptive. He's really smart, and somehow a complete airhead at the same time. When you read either Dark Era or The Day I Picked Up Dazai, you can sense this in an instant. How this pertains to his relationship to Dazai in particular is that he sees things. He knows that Dazai is hurting deeply, he's one of the only people who sees past the dark exterior and the child deep within, but at the beginning of the book, he won't say anything. He puts Dazai on this pedestal in a sense, and doesn't believe that his input is warranted, and he says nothing, even when Dazai is a walking cry for help. After listening to Dazai casually admit to a suicide attempt via banging his head against a hard tofu block without batting an eye, that's when Ango arrives and tells him off.

However, the conversation quickly shifts, and the matter isn't brought up again.

The next time someone tells Odasaku to speak up when he's summoned to Mori's office, and is greeted with a rather...bizarre scene. Still, he's a low-grunt of the Mafia, and Mori is the boss, so he lets whatever stuff is going on fly, until he eventually interrupts, ignores whatever was going on, and announces his presence. Which prompts the following conversation:

Still, it's apparent he doesn't take these words to heart, and continues to perceive almost everything, but never comments. However, something soon happens which brings to the surface just how deeply ingrained Oda's reticence truly is.

After Oda was chased by the enemy snipers, most of them had enough holes in them never to rise again. Until one picks up a gun and aims it at Dazai, the enemy executive, all other backup too far away to offer any aid. Instead of trying to avoid it or stop it, Dazai walks right up to the enemy and says , paraphrased "shoot me, please shoot me." The whole time, Odasaku's desperation is palpable, and unlike the anime, he attempts to stop Dazai from this blatant self-destruction by calling his name and then screaming it, thinking that he felt they were a million miles apart. After the ordeal, when Dazai faces his friend again, he offers all his excuses, how he knew the sniper would miss, but Odasaku wasn't satisfied. And this is where we get the first hint at how Oda really feels about this:

He wants to say something. He wants to punch him for the stunt Dazai just pulled, because he sees the truth. He sees the child inside of him. But once again, he's restrained by the apparent gap between them in rank and mind. Another important thing to note is that throughout the novel, Odasaku considers their difference in rank a bigger barrier than Dazai does. He makes comments about Dazai helping him, the low runt in the Mafia, but the executive doesn't care. Here once again, Oda is inhibited by this apparent gap between them, but this scene is also growth for him in the sense that he understands that there's a problem here. Earlier, he passively listened to Dazai speak of suicide, but faced with a barely disguised attempt, with the true demons inside of Dazai's mind, he wants to stop him, to reach out, to tell him that it's not ok. But he can't. Not yet at least.

After a later incident, we're given a flat-out description of Odasaku's philosophy, and why he chooses to remain silent. When the two of them are at the restaurant, discussing the enemy, and when Dazai realizes they might actually be a formidable opponent, he laughs, elated with the notion that perhaps he might be beaten. And that's when we get perhaps the clearest look into Odasaku's mindset:

There's a lot to unpack in this interaction: first, we see how much Odasaku truly cares for Dazai, how much he wishes he could rid his heart of the darkness buried deep inside. But the problem is, he believes he can't. He doesn't think he could do anything, at first, he's not sure what to say to him because what could he say? He doesn't think he can reach him. And then the all important line "What we see is everything, and everything we see, we ignore. All we can do is stand before the deep ditch between us and others and keep silent." The thing is, not everyone sees everything. He doesn't realize this. He's so oblivious, he can't even comprehend that he's more perceptive than others, almost like Ranpo when he was younger. He doesn't know what to do with the information he receives but to ignore it, as he says, to see the distance and remain silent through it. But still, he makes a halfhearted attempt to reach out, but is interrupted when Dazai's phone rings, and doesn't bring it up again.

The biggest turning point is the kids and Gide. Gide, who drags Odasaku, a character who seemed to have the healthiest will to live, into the darkness. By removing all his hope, his proof that he could one day write a novel and give up killing forever, he brings Oda down into the pit of despair that he lives in, the pit that Dazai lives in. Where the sun won't shine again, and all that's left is revenge and then death. This is where the tables turn, and now Dazai is trying to save Odasaku from that darkness that he knows all too well. He tells him useless platitudes, cliches that must have been uttered to him over and over that he knows won't work, but Dazai is desperate to save the one he's on the verge of losing. But Odasaku won't let himself be consoled, and he goes on the suicide mission to fight Gide. And only now, now that he's about to die, now that he's in this place of solitude and despair, that he reflects on Dazai and their relationship.

It's only at the end does Odasaku wish he would have said something. When he understands the darkness, he sees Dazai for what he truly is - a lonely, sobbing child. And it's only after this realization that he should have invaded the solitude does he speak up when Dazai arrives, and tells him to be a good man. Because he realizes that the darkness is going to overwhelm him unless something changes, and with his dying breaths, Odasaku gives over the advice that changed his life, not a way out of the darkness, but a way to brighten it just a little, and make living a little more beautiful. Something only he could understand, having tried to walk that path for himself. It can't be that it never occurred to him earlier that Dazai's mental health may have benefited from a...change in vocation, but he never thought it was his business to say anything before. But now that the darkness has consumed him, that's the final push for him to finally say something and reach out to his friend at the last moment before it was too late.

And though I don't think the anime did all of this justice, the parallels between these moments will always kill me.