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[m1yabi]

"SILENT CRY"

"You can show me your tears that you've quietly hidden, to me."

Hyunjin x idol!Reader

Genre: Angst to Comfort

"Going through an endless loop of tears, self abuse, mental pain, breakdowns and selfless acts after forced smiles and fake affection is not easy, especially if you are going through this pitiful loop alone. However, your best friend, Hyunjin, pulled you out of that pit. After accidentally walking in you breaking down, he knew you needed a shoulder to lean on and a chest to cry on."

"Y/n, I told you to drink less coffee!" Your best friend, Hyunjin, said as he got your 4th cup of coffee for this day. "I'll start listening to you, when you listen to your self. How many coffees did you drink today?" You said teasingly. "..That's not important, what's important is you." He said with a sigh. "We are preparing for our comeback and next week we have a concert. Coffee is currently, the only thing keeping me stable." You jokingly said.

"Please just take care of yourself." He sighed as he hugged you. Your body stiffens. It's not rare for him to hug you, you just needed those words and that hug after everything. You can feel tears form, and you pushed him away from the hug. "..Ahem, I will. I have to record something and practice. Talk to you later." You said with a slight shake in your voice, which left Hyunjin even more worried.

You ran to your dorm and in to your room. Locked the door, straight to the bathroom, and washed your face. Trying to cover your tears with water. "Fuck. Why am I like this, so fucking sensitive." You clench your teeth as you mumbled to yourself. "Practice doesn't start till 5..its 2 right now." You said with a shaky voice, still trying to fight your tears. After fighting and trying to hold your tears, you conceded defeat. Tears streamed down as your knees collapsed onto the floor.

Hands on your eyes, wiping tears that came out endlessly. Bad thoughts came rushing through your mind. You bit your lip hard, making sure not a single sob was heard.

knock knock knock

"y/n? It's me Hyunjin. You forgot your phone!" Hyunjin opened the door. It seems that you didn't lock it properly. "Y/n?? Are you in the bathro..." as he opened the door, he was met with a side of you that he never saw. Your eyes as wide as his, mascara smudged all over your face, hair messy from scratching it a lot, and eyes red from the endless tears.

"Ah—Fuck, Hyunjin," You mumbled, immediately standing up and washing your face. "I was about to shower but shampoo got in my eye." You let out a chuckle. The chuckle he always heard. "Oh and my makeup is smudge because I kept washing my face-" you were interrupted by a hug.

"Stop. Please, just stop." He whispered into your ears. His voice was shaking, he sounded like he was gonna cry. "Hyunjin.." Your voice broke as your body collapse onto his, and you began to sob. You were gripping onto his clothes and crying onto his chest. "Let it all out." He said crying a little. He couldn't stand seeing you in such a state. He blamed himself for not noticing sooner.

You both stayed like that for a few minutes before you finally slowly stopped. "Let me get some water." Hyunjin said breaking the silence and standing up to get water. You grabbed his arm, "Please don't leave me." You said in a broken voice. "I'm not going anywhere." He said in the most gentle voice ever.

"I will always listen to your problems, don't be stuck in this loop alone. You can let it all out on me." He said hugging you tightly.

"Please, if possible, let out all of your tears that you've hidden, to me."

[m1yabi]

"Bewailed"

Hyunjin x Fem!Reader

Genre: Angst

(Kinda inspired by the song "Ex by Stray Kids")

Hyunjin wasn't the best boyfriend. He was immature, treated you wrong, made you feel lonely, and most importantly, made you despise him. He greatly regretted his decision after a day without you. He's pining for you, craving your touch every second, yearning your presence all the time, and wishing that he had known better. 3 years later, he meets you again in a nearby cafe as a barista.

(Hyunjin's disgusted face before scrolling)

2019, April 24th

"Hwang Hyunjin, I don't think this is working out." You said along with a sigh. "Likewise." Hyunjin huffed out with anger. "Since we both know we aren't compatible being together, why don't we just break up?" Hyunjin finally snapped. You both had a huge fight. Ever since Stray Kids won their first reward for their comeback, "MIROH" Hyunjin got very busy. He came from canceling dates to full on neglecting you. Due to his lack of sleep because of the heavy schedule he's on, he tends to have mood swings and you sometimes are affected by it.

You had enough of this. You did not want a boyfriend who would treat you like this. This wasn't the first time this happened either. Ever since he became an idol, he has been busy. You can't blame him, so instead, you realized you and him were not compatible with each other.

After tears stream down your eyes from his words, he had regretted everything. He went to hug you, but you pushed him away. "I'll pack my things tonight. Goodbye." You said with a broken voice. As you shut the door, he fell on to his knees and sobbed. And sobbed. And sobbed. He knew more than anyone else that he was wrong. Letting out his anger at you, neglecting you, canceling dates, acting cold towards you, the list goes on.

He didn't have the strength to even stand up anymore. You were his best friend, his sidekick, his significant other, his other half, his soulmate, his lover. Or should he say, ex lover. Losing someone he had known for many years before his fame was devastating.

The night was spent with tears from both you and him. You slowly opened the door to see Hyunjin shocked to see you, relieved even. "Y-Y/n..let's talk. please?" He said. Though you expected him not to care as he was the one who suggested you guys to break up, he seems just as miserable as you. Messy hair, red and puffy eyes, red nose, and even some broken nails from biting it.

"I'm sorry-" You were interrupted with a hug at your waist. He hugged you tight. "Y/n, I'm so sorry. Just the word sorry can't express my regret. I- I really am sorry. Please- give me another chance. You can hate me and let your anger out at me, so please-" You pushed him away.

"Hyunjin,.." This was the first time you saw him like this. So desperate and so pitiful. However, you have had enough. He has treated you the same way for 3 years. You'd be lying if you said you lost feelings for him, because you still loved him. But, you know, that he was not the one. "I can't do it anymore Hyunjin. I can't stand to see your face." Was all that you said.

Hyunjin felt his heart drop. Eyes widen at your words, and petrified. "I understand. I'll stay in my room till you are done packing. Please lock the door once you are done." He said with a forced smile. You really wanted to run to him, hold him, and forgive him, but you can't anymore. It was too late.

2022 October 23rd

"Have a great day!" You smiled at the costumer. "Fucking bitch she almost got me fired" you mumbled under your breath once the costumer walked away. "Y/n, can you fix the board outside? Some kids kicked it again." You co-worker said. "Ah, yeah yeah sure."

Hyunjin saw a eye catching cafe. Recently, he had been obsessed with coffee, having 3 cups a day. He saw the board and saw pictures of the sold coffees. He couldn't resist. "Felix, you guys can go first. I'm gonna to check something out." Hyunjin said his farewells and happily went to the cafe.

He came to a pause when he saw you, wearing a work uniform, and fixing the board you saw minutes ago. "Ughh those damned kids. I swear, everyone is stopping me from getting a promotion!" You groaned. "Excuse me" A man's voice was heard, which sounded oddly familiar. "Ah- oh, hello mamm sir, what may I get yo..." You were in shock to see him. Hwang Hyunjin.

"Long time no see, Y/n" Hyunjin greeted you with the happiest smile ever. "Hyun...jin? Is that really you?" You asked in disbelief. "Your one and only."