lysung

[lysung]

Are you going to any protests?

nice try FBI; if anybody gets a message like this don’t be stupid and share anything about whether or not you’ll be attending a specific action. spreading the word from official social medias of your local BYP100/black lives matter chapters is one thing (though still be careful), don’t fuck around with sharing info about your location, who you’re going with to actions, etc. 

[lysung]

[lysung]

by any chance, would yall be interested if i wrote for other groups?

i want to write for victon too since im in their fandom now (and actually only theirs other than khh tbh). i've been quite far from most skz content and news these past 3 years, but lately i've been thinking of coming back 🤔

but it's ok if any of yall would like something from another member from another group, specially if they're from 3rd gen since i know these groups better! just ask me whoever you'd like me to write to and i'll try my best ❤️

[lysung]

For everyone

1.      Stop spending so much money at the vending machine, it adds up to more than you think

2.      If you’re hungry, eat. Don’t look around at other people, don’t wait for them not to be looking, just eat.

3.      Don’t hold your pee for that long, no one is talking about you for going to the bathroom, just go.

4.      Laugh when it’s funny, your laugh is beautiful and unique, let others hear it.

5.      Your mom is more than likely right, that person is being fake.

6.      Don’t be afraid to reject a guy if you don’t like him; think of yourself first.

7.      Don’t think that your bothering others, unless they say it, don’t think it.

8.      Your mind is your biggest prison, and I know that it’s hard to escape it…but at least try. Fight to get out, don’t let those thoughts and doubts overwhelm you.

9.      You’re funny, someone finds you funny, and that’s because you are.

10.  Your voice is beautiful, speak and sing your heart out.

11.  Your hair isn’t ugly, don’t be insecure of it.

12.  You’re not too skinny/fat…you’re the way you are because it’s perfect just for you.

13.  Eat all you want, stop starving your beautiful self.

14.  People that matter care…people that don’t matter don’t.

15.  When they ask you what’s wrong, that means they care…say something.

16.  Don’t hold it back, don’t keep it in, don’t tell yourself that you’ll get over it, don’t tell yourself that you’ll be bothering others, don’t tell yourself that nobody cares, SAY SOMETHING.

17.  Crying is alright, no one thinks less of you for it.

18.  Stop covering yourself so much, it’s unhealthy both mentally, emotionally, and physically.

19.  Get out of your room more, even if you are depressed, staying in there won’t help you at all.

20.  Take a moment to pause everything, everything, and just breathe… You made it.

21.  At the end of the day, you worked hard, pat yourself on the shoulder, think about what you did well and the mistakes you won’t need to do again, then call it a day.

22.  Say I’m sorry

23.  Forgive, but don’t be so naïve to let your heart get trampled on again.

24.  If they hurt you once, okay…twice, don’t bring them back as if nothing happened.

25.  Learn to go with your gut, believe me, sometimes it’s right.

26.  Just because is five for $4 doesn’t mean you should buy 20…buy what you need.

27.  Think about others before yourself, it helps lessen the anxiety too.

28.  Write…and if you’re not good at writing, paint. It doesn’t need to be a masterpiece, it just needs to be you…

29.  Grades do not define you. Give your all to your grades, but if you still don’t pass, it’s not your fault, it’s not YOU.

30.  Mistakes happen, learn, but don’t let them chain you up and drag you down. It’s not YOU.

31.  Sleep, just one hour more of sleep can change everything.

32.  Take a warm shower, it helps.

33.  Drink more water, it’ll help with the headaches.

34.  I love saying this – “Live until you laugh, laugh until it hurts, hurt until you cry, cry until you Heal”…please, never hold it in.

35.  What people say about you doesn’t define you, what you say about yourself does.

36.  Let it out, but don’t let everyone know every single detail about your life, keep somethings private.

37.  Call your mom, tell her you love her.

38.  Listen to your grandmother, even when she starts to rant.

39.  You can’t please everyone because some people just don’t want to be pleased, erase them from your life.

40.  Pray. If you believe in God, even prayer helps you so much when you’re hurting, trust me.

41.  Say thank you, even for another day of life that went terribly.

42.  Don’t procrastinate, even if you write one word/sentence a day since the assignment was given…do that.

43.  Don’t eat out all the time

44.  Remember the good days when times go bad, appreciate the lessons learned when days are good.

45.  You don’t NEED to go to prom, you don’t NEED to go to homecomings or parties, you won’t miss things if you don’t.

46.  Being an introvert isn’t a curse, love yourself whether you’re outgoing or not.

47.  They don’t need to tell you that you’re beautiful for you to be beautiful, it was already a fact before they stated it.

48.  You don’t NEED a boyfriend, no matter how many of your friends or peers have one. Don’t rush into a relationship just because you’re the odd one out.

49.  Keep your virginity, and it you lose it, don’t end your life or future because of it.

50.  Love others freely. And yourself too.

51.  Organize yourself, nothing sucks worse than getting a zero on a paper because you couldn’t find it, not because you didn’t do it.

52.  Learn to let go if it hurts you, don’t hang on to something/someone that brings you pain.

53.  Keep in touch with teachers who were there for you.

54.  Someone loves you, someone will miss you when you’re gone…remember that.

55.  You’re not a burden.

56.  You worked hard.

57.  Think of that future someone for you and smile.

58.  If things don’t go on as plan, don’t be afraid to throw everything out the window and start all over again…breathe, and do it.

59.  You’ll survive without them, even if it hurts now, you already are.

60.  Worry more about what you do than how you look. Character lasts, looks don’t.

I saw something like this and wanted to do my own version for this…

I love you all

[lysung]

what if... WHAT IF..... i made a series on this and wrote one scenario for each member

hmmm i just reaaalllyyyy feel like writing something lately should i go with a marriage proposal what do yall think

[lysung]

...... should i go and try to start using this more often and try to interact with yall??? i have this blog for like 3 years and i've never really tried to do so. i think i was lucky enough to have met some rlly cool people in here and i think it would be nice if i did interact more in here.... but by doing this i would have to work on a masterlist (not like i didn't have to work on one without interacting but my lazy assssss... yk 💀) omg

[lysung]

hmmm i just reaaalllyyyy feel like writing something lately should i go with a marriage proposal what do yall think

[lysung]

public enemy - lee minho

recently, minho's relationship with you, a non public person, got exposed with photos from your most recent dates coming out and, since then, things started to feel different, as if they weren't meant to be.

cw: mentions of hate comments and first stages of depression

genre: angsty fluff (?)

reader's gender: neutral! no pronouns used for the reader :)

words: 875

requests: open

a/n: so today is my 9th "monthversary" with my fiance (and yes, fiance 😌) and i usually write something for him every 30th, but i wanted to write something else and post here, too. i thought it'd be cool to put a little bit of what i feel about my relationship (because we've been though some rough stuff these past months) and mix up with all this dating/marriage/parenting "scandals" that have been coming out lately, so this one is slightly different from what i usually post. if you're one of this kind of fan who gets upset or even mad when one of your faves start dating, please read this and think about it. do you have the guts to say it on their face? do you think they would be happy with your reactions and behavior when they aren't even close to you? anyways. hope you enjoy this one too and please write something if you reblog 😭 i love to read your reactions and opinions!!! and yes, the title is a reference to the king, hanse from victon. i just couldn't think of anything better and couldn't make this one another timestamp lol anyways stream take over for clear skin ✨ and, once again, enjoy! now i'm going to sleep. thank you for your support again 🙏

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things had been rough lately. there were some positive and supportive comments on news and posts but, of course, the negative comments would get more attention from both of you. minho have been getting more and more hate comments on photos and videos, and you feel like you'll never get used to people staring at you and whispering to each other, as if you wouldn't know it's about you and most likely not anything good is coming from them.

your relationship wasn't exactly ruined by it - you were still close and happy with each other, just deep and clearly tired from this. you promised each other none of you wouldn't give up, and you repeated this moment endlessly to yourself as a friendly reminder whenever you felt blameful for everything he's going through.

but it didn't last long.

you two were cuddling on the sofa, watching a random movie, but you couldn't pay attention at all; nor to the movie, nor to minho. your head was filled with all the hate comments you read and heard, fans staring at you with anger filled in their eyes and, principally, what someone told you on your face earlier - "his whole career is ruined because of you". having him in your life was a relief, but life itself still felt painful. tears were quiet and slowly running through your face.

- hey, what's up? what happened? — minho noticed and you sighed deeply while wiping your tears.

- i-i'm just really tired today, you know? today felt longer than other day. i'll try to sleep a little——

- tell me. i know something happened. you can trust me, my love. did those people harass you again? — he cut you off, knowing "going to sleep" was just an excuse.

you hesitated for a while before telling him with details about everything, from the comments to your feelings, until you managed to hold your tears completely.

- sometimes i feel like we don't deserve each other. like... you're lee minho. lee know. you have a whole career and i'm just a nobody who's ruining it bit by bit every day. if i didn't exist in your life, you wouldn't be going through this, people would still love and support you endlessly and you would still be happy. i'm sorry. i'm really sorry. — you sighed again, your eyes lifeless and avoiding his gaze, not having any energy left to keep yourself up, nor crying anymore.

- babe... first of all, i am sorry for not being able to do much and just watch you going though all this. now... don't say that we don't deserve each other again. don't put yourself down for not being a public figure either. — he started calmly, making you look at him in the eyes. — if you didn't exist in my life, i wouldn't be half as happy as i am today because of you. i would still think i don't deserve to be truly loved. if i didn't have you, i would still feel the emptiness that only you could fulfill. i need you in my life.

at that moment, all the tears you held back just made their way down your face again and you didn't have any strenght to stop them again.

- look, we promised not to give up on each other, right? i'm keeping my word. you know, i'm dating you, not the public. you're not ruining my career at all, they are. my fans do make my happy but, at the end of the day, it's your love and attention that i actually need, even if i don't have any fan left. i will never stop fighting for you. i'm gonna say it again if you need; i'm not giving up on us. not even because of them. i will do anything for you.

you bawled your eyes out and held him tight. you just knew it's him. it had always been him and will always be.

- i love you so much, my prince...

- i love you too, angel. forever.

♡♡♡

in the following days, things had changed. minho went live just to talk about this and his "fans’" harassment. he said everything was needed for this situation to calm down bit by bit. of course people would talk about this live endlessly for days - some thought he was being rude because of his tone, but most of them applauded him and kept sending the video's link as a response to any senseless comment on him or you two. he was only slightly punished for this, since it had brought him and the group attention and now you could barely find any hate comment.

once again, you couldn't be any happier and satisfied with life while being next to minho. loving him was the best choice you've ever made, and nothing is going to change this; not even hate comments from people who think they own others who don't even know them.

you promised yourself not to bring yourself down like this again, and to open up more often about your feelings. your hero, lee minho, will definitely know what to do to change it and make you happy again.

[lysung]

IM SO SORRY FOR EVERYONE I DIDN'T REPLYYYYYY I PROMISE I'LL REPLY TOMORROW AFTER I WAKE UP 😭😭 these past weeks went insane for me, i've been busy with uni and spent a few days sick going back and forth from the hospital (im fine now tho) 😔 still, thank you for being patient and not giving up on meeeee ilysm mwahhhh see you later!

[lysung]

artist: wednesday holmes (ig @hellomynameiswednesday)

[lysung]

waking up to only almost 50 notifs made me feel weird. it's been so long since i've properly written i barely appear in here in 2 years (bc i "stopped stanning" skz bc of lack of time) but wow. this makes me feel sososo special and noticed 🥺

y'all, thank you so much for everything! i'll definitely try to write more often from now on!! (and if you can pls write something on your tags when you reblog i love reading your comments and reactions :((( yall cute ❤️)

everything motivates me more than you think. if y'all interested, i had an au plot saved from years ago and didn't get the chance to work on it at all. it's not a fluff one, so i wonder if you'd be interested in it 🧐

happy first times - bang chan

you and bang chan's daughter comes back home from school earlier than expected and started acting weird, as if she's hiding something.

A/N: hi hi! sorry for being so inactive, uni had me messed up the whole year :( anyways. it's been quite some time since i wrote and posted anything in here, and i haven't been practicing english often either, i'm not sure if i'm doing anything right in here but i hope it's understandable and enjoyable 😭 also, i'm not sure how things work where you live, but at the elementary school where i studied, if you weren't feeling well, felt lots of pain or anything like this, and no one were home to get you back home, someone specific would drop you home. i wrote this based on this vague memory. you can pretend this happens where you live too if it doesn't lol and a fun fact: i've been struggling trying to pay attention to stuff that i wondered if my mind was still working properly, and after watching a clip of chan talking about periods, i was more than sure it was working very well 🥴. took the chance to write this.

genre: fluff

cw: overflowing cuteness, bang chan being the best man ever you'll ba your eyes out because you still can't believe someone this precious exist.

reader's gender is neutral! your daughter can be biological or adopted if you want to, all up to you! feel comfortable <3

this wasn't proofread because it's literally 6am when i'm posting this and maybe i didn't sleep at all just to finish this, but i'll try to remember to do so later today! pls tell me if you find any mistake too <3

hope you guys enjoy it! requests are open ✨

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[09:50]

today is a sunny, fresh and bright day. bang chan, your husband, is taking some time off after his promotions were finally over. although you still had to go to work, today's the day when you're supposed to leave earlier. today just couldn't feel any better than this.

while waiting for you, chan was watching tv until he hears a noise coming from the front door. immediately he thought you would be home, but got confused as he saw your daughter coming in by herself.

- baby? what are you doing here this early? you're supposed to be at-

- iknow, i know. one of my teachers had to leave earlier today and she left me here, because you just wouldn't pick up your phone... — she cut him off with a sad and tired gaze, and chan instantly regretted leaving his phone so far from him earlier.

- ohhhh, i'm sorry so sorry my angeeel — he hugged her while carressing her hair, and she just responded with a quiet yet lovely "it's okay, dad" — but are you okay? what happened that you had to come back home this early?

- i just... don't feel good, my stomach aches way too much... but you don't have to worry, they just- they told me to take some medicine and rest for today — she explained, her voice crackling a bit, as if she was looking for the right words and was about to cry.

chan noticed her unusual behaviour and expressions. at first, he didn't intend to tell her about it or get mad, and just decided to pay extra attention for the rest of the day. as she distanced herself from him, he notices something else - the vivid red stain on her pants, on the inner side of her legs.

reality never hit him this hard. both of you were aware she was growing up, that's just how tome works, but once again, time felt like flying. as if watching her taking her first steps, saying her first words, making her first dawings and friends... everything felt like it hadn't been this long. every moment felt like a blessing. everything gives you two a specific feeling that probably no one will ever be able to put in perfect words.

chan felt his eyes tearing up as so many memories flashed one after another, finding himself at loss of words from the insane mix of feelings.

she turned to him to ask for something, just to find him with his head down, coverig his own face with one hand, sobbing quietly. the feeling of rgret instantly filled her up, as she was still confused and scared, fearing bad things to happen. she was so afraid and ashamed that she could barely tell or show it to anyone at school. but she calms down as she hears his words noticeably filled with love:

- my baby... i love you so much. but do you know what's happening to you now? — chan got closer to his precious daughter to hold her face with his hands and stare deeply into her eyes.

- ah, n-no... it's nothing bad, right? everything is gonna be fine, right? — she asked, fear still clear on her eyes and voice.

- no, it's nothing bad. you're just growing up and this is completely normal for you. i'll grab you a cup of warm water, sit down and i'll tell you everything i know about it. but relax, you're fine, baby. — he calmed her down while trying to control his proud smile, and ended with a kiss on her forehead before leaving, taking a little longer as expected to get a bag of warm water as well.

sat down next to each other, she drank her water calmly as she listened to her dad. she always knew how understanding chan can be, but this sudden situation made every kind of thought come to her head to the point nothing from the outside world would get in or make sense to her. yet, each and every word that came out of him would tranquilize her more and more. he felt like heaven to her, and she couldn't feel any more safer and happier with her precious dad.

while she showered and changed, chan left to buy meds and chocolate, hoping it would make her feel at least a little bit better. he spent the next few hours taking care of her as much as possible - making hot chocolate for her, listening to everything she wanted to say, watching her favorite series with her, massaging her wherever it hurted, trying his best to make her feel as comfortable as possible.

- honey, i'm home! — you announced happily after a long and exausting day. work felt endless and you couldn't wait to eat a little bit and sleep a little more. you were about to say something more, until you found the loves of your life sleeping next to each other on your sofabed, a movie playing on the tv, mugs on the tables next to them - a cute, calm smile on your sleeping daughter's face.

you went to the kitchen to grab water and noticed a paper on the table, which said "don't be scared, she's growing up faster than we thought and had her period at school today. she's fine! sorry for not telling you earlier. love you!"

you watched them sleep a little bit more. it was the best view you could have - your incredible and beautiful family. the moment also made you tear up a little bit, but it didn't take long for you to hold it and lay with them. it was unfortunate that you couldn't take care of your daughter as well, but there was nothing to worry or feel upset about. you knew both you and your daughter would be safe and sound if you have bang chan - the best friend, husband, dad and person.

you two couldn't love him any more than this.

[lysung]

HEHEH THANK YOU SO MUCH AND YESSSS WE DON'T 😭😭 call me a simp (AND I'LL AGREE?!) but he's a literal angel i- ✋😩 in the clip i watched of him talking about periods he didn't say "women" at all, he just straight out said "people" every. single. time. and the fact that im not marrying this man is so insulting like wtf !?? .

happy first times - bang chan

you and bang chan's daughter comes back home from school earlier than expected and started acting weird, as if she's hiding something.

A/N: hi hi! sorry for being so inactive, uni had me messed up the whole year :( anyways. it's been quite some time since i wrote and posted anything in here, and i haven't been practicing english often either, i'm not sure if i'm doing anything right in here but i hope it's understandable and enjoyable 😭 also, i'm not sure how things work where you live, but at the elementary school where i studied, if you weren't feeling well, felt lots of pain or anything like this, and no one were home to get you back home, someone specific would drop you home. i wrote this based on this vague memory. you can pretend this happens where you live too if it doesn't lol and a fun fact: i've been struggling trying to pay attention to stuff that i wondered if my mind was still working properly, and after watching a clip of chan talking about periods, i was more than sure it was working very well 🥴. took the chance to write this.

genre: fluff

cw: overflowing cuteness, bang chan being the best man ever you'll ba your eyes out because you still can't believe someone this precious exist.

reader's gender is neutral! your daughter can be biological or adopted if you want to, all up to you! feel comfortable <3

this wasn't proofread because it's literally 6am when i'm posting this and maybe i didn't sleep at all just to finish this, but i'll try to remember to do so later today! pls tell me if you find any mistake too <3

hope you guys enjoy it! requests are open ✨

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[09:50]

today is a sunny, fresh and bright day. bang chan, your husband, is taking some time off after his promotions were finally over. although you still had to go to work, today's the day when you're supposed to leave earlier. today just couldn't feel any better than this.

while waiting for you, chan was watching tv until he hears a noise coming from the front door. immediately he thought you would be home, but got confused as he saw your daughter coming in by herself.

- baby? what are you doing here this early? you're supposed to be at-

- iknow, i know. one of my teachers had to leave earlier today and she left me here, because you just wouldn't pick up your phone... — she cut him off with a sad and tired gaze, and chan instantly regretted leaving his phone so far from him earlier.

- ohhhh, i'm sorry so sorry my angeeel — he hugged her while carressing her hair, and she just responded with a quiet yet lovely "it's okay, dad" — but are you okay? what happened that you had to come back home this early?

- i just... don't feel good, my stomach aches way too much... but you don't have to worry, they just- they told me to take some medicine and rest for today — she explained, her voice crackling a bit, as if she was looking for the right words and was about to cry.

chan noticed her unusual behaviour and expressions. at first, he didn't intend to tell her about it or get mad, and just decided to pay extra attention for the rest of the day. as she distanced herself from him, he notices something else - the vivid red stain on her pants, on the inner side of her legs.

reality never hit him this hard. both of you were aware she was growing up, that's just how tome works, but once again, time felt like flying. as if watching her taking her first steps, saying her first words, making her first dawings and friends... everything felt like it hadn't been this long. every moment felt like a blessing. everything gives you two a specific feeling that probably no one will ever be able to put in perfect words.

chan felt his eyes tearing up as so many memories flashed one after another, finding himself at loss of words from the insane mix of feelings.

she turned to him to ask for something, just to find him with his head down, coverig his own face with one hand, sobbing quietly. the feeling of rgret instantly filled her up, as she was still confused and scared, fearing bad things to happen. she was so afraid and ashamed that she could barely tell or show it to anyone at school. but she calms down as she hears his words noticeably filled with love:

- my baby... i love you so much. but do you know what's happening to you now? — chan got closer to his precious daughter to hold her face with his hands and stare deeply into her eyes.

- ah, n-no... it's nothing bad, right? everything is gonna be fine, right? — she asked, fear still clear on her eyes and voice.

- no, it's nothing bad. you're just growing up and this is completely normal for you. i'll grab you a cup of warm water, sit down and i'll tell you everything i know about it. but relax, you're fine, baby. — he calmed her down while trying to control his proud smile, and ended with a kiss on her forehead before leaving, taking a little longer as expected to get a bag of warm water as well.

sat down next to each other, she drank her water calmly as she listened to her dad. she always knew how understanding chan can be, but this sudden situation made every kind of thought come to her head to the point nothing from the outside world would get in or make sense to her. yet, each and every word that came out of him would tranquilize her more and more. he felt like heaven to her, and she couldn't feel any more safer and happier with her precious dad.

while she showered and changed, chan left to buy meds and chocolate, hoping it would make her feel at least a little bit better. he spent the next few hours taking care of her as much as possible - making hot chocolate for her, listening to everything she wanted to say, watching her favorite series with her, massaging her wherever it hurted, trying his best to make her feel as comfortable as possible.

- honey, i'm home! — you announced happily after a long and exausting day. work felt endless and you couldn't wait to eat a little bit and sleep a little more. you were about to say something more, until you found the loves of your life sleeping next to each other on your sofabed, a movie playing on the tv, mugs on the tables next to them - a cute, calm smile on your sleeping daughter's face.

you went to the kitchen to grab water and noticed a paper on the table, which said "don't be scared, she's growing up faster than we thought and had her period at school today. she's fine! sorry for not telling you earlier. love you!"

you watched them sleep a little bit more. it was the best view you could have - your incredible and beautiful family. the moment also made you tear up a little bit, but it didn't take long for you to hold it and lay with them. it was unfortunate that you couldn't take care of your daughter as well, but there was nothing to worry or feel upset about. you knew both you and your daughter would be safe and sound if you have bang chan - the best friend, husband, dad and person.

you two couldn't love him any more than this.

[lysung]

happy first times - bang chan

you and bang chan's daughter comes back home from school earlier than expected and started acting weird, as if she's hiding something.

A/N: hi hi! sorry for being so inactive, uni had me messed up the whole year :( anyways. it's been quite some time since i wrote and posted anything in here, and i haven't been practicing english often either, i'm not sure if i'm doing anything right in here but i hope it's understandable and enjoyable 😭 also, i'm not sure how things work where you live, but at the elementary school where i studied, if you weren't feeling well, felt lots of pain or anything like this, and no one were home to get you back home, someone specific would drop you home. i wrote this based on this vague memory. you can pretend this happens where you live too if it doesn't lol and a fun fact: i've been struggling trying to pay attention to stuff that i wondered if my mind was still working properly, and after watching a clip of chan talking about periods, i was more than sure it was working very well 🥴. took the chance to write this.

genre: fluff

cw: overflowing cuteness, bang chan being the best man ever you'll ba your eyes out because you still can't believe someone this precious exist.

reader's gender is neutral! your daughter can be biological or adopted if you want to, all up to you! feel comfortable <3

this wasn't proofread because it's literally 6am when i'm posting this and maybe i didn't sleep at all just to finish this, but i'll try to remember to do so later today! pls tell me if you find any mistake too <3

hope you guys enjoy it! requests are open ✨

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[09:50]

today is a sunny, fresh and bright day. bang chan, your husband, is taking some time off after his promotions were finally over. although you still had to go to work, today's the day when you're supposed to leave earlier. today just couldn't feel any better than this.

while waiting for you, chan was watching tv until he hears a noise coming from the front door. immediately he thought you would be home, but got confused as he saw your daughter coming in by herself.

- baby? what are you doing here this early? you're supposed to be at-

- iknow, i know. one of my teachers had to leave earlier today and she left me here, because you just wouldn't pick up your phone... — she cut him off with a sad and tired gaze, and chan instantly regretted leaving his phone so far from him earlier.

- ohhhh, i'm sorry so sorry my angeeel — he hugged her while carressing her hair, and she just responded with a quiet yet lovely "it's okay, dad" — but are you okay? what happened that you had to come back home this early?

- i just... don't feel good, my stomach aches way too much... but you don't have to worry, they just- they told me to take some medicine and rest for today — she explained, her voice crackling a bit, as if she was looking for the right words and was about to cry.

chan noticed her unusual behaviour and expressions. at first, he didn't intend to tell her about it or get mad, and just decided to pay extra attention for the rest of the day. as she distanced herself from him, he notices something else - the vivid red stain on her pants, on the inner side of her legs.

reality never hit him this hard. both of you were aware she was growing up, that's just how tome works, but once again, time felt like flying. as if watching her taking her first steps, saying her first words, making her first dawings and friends... everything felt like it hadn't been this long. every moment felt like a blessing. everything gives you two a specific feeling that probably no one will ever be able to put in perfect words.

chan felt his eyes tearing up as so many memories flashed one after another, finding himself at loss of words from the insane mix of feelings.

she turned to him to ask for something, just to find him with his head down, coverig his own face with one hand, sobbing quietly. the feeling of rgret instantly filled her up, as she was still confused and scared, fearing bad things to happen. she was so afraid and ashamed that she could barely tell or show it to anyone at school. but she calms down as she hears his words noticeably filled with love:

- my baby... i love you so much. but do you know what's happening to you now? — chan got closer to his precious daughter to hold her face with his hands and stare deeply into her eyes.

- ah, n-no... it's nothing bad, right? everything is gonna be fine, right? — she asked, fear still clear on her eyes and voice.

- no, it's nothing bad. you're just growing up and this is completely normal for you. i'll grab you a cup of warm water, sit down and i'll tell you everything i know about it. but relax, you're fine, baby. — he calmed her down while trying to control his proud smile, and ended with a kiss on her forehead before leaving, taking a little longer as expected to get a bag of warm water as well.

sat down next to each other, she drank her water calmly as she listened to her dad. she always knew how understanding chan can be, but this sudden situation made every kind of thought come to her head to the point nothing from the outside world would get in or make sense to her. yet, each and every word that came out of him would tranquilize her more and more. he felt like heaven to her, and she couldn't feel any more safer and happier with her precious dad.

while she showered and changed, chan left to buy meds and chocolate, hoping it would make her feel at least a little bit better. he spent the next few hours taking care of her as much as possible - making hot chocolate for her, listening to everything she wanted to say, watching her favorite series with her, massaging her wherever it hurted, trying his best to make her feel as comfortable as possible.

- honey, i'm home! — you announced happily after a long and exausting day. work felt endless and you couldn't wait to eat a little bit and sleep a little more. you were about to say something more, until you found the loves of your life sleeping next to each other on your sofabed, a movie playing on the tv, mugs on the tables next to them - a cute, calm smile on your sleeping daughter's face.

you went to the kitchen to grab water and noticed a paper on the table, which said "don't be scared, she's growing up faster than we thought and had her period at school today. she's fine! sorry for not telling you earlier. love you!"

you watched them sleep a little bit more. it was the best view you could have - your incredible and beautiful family. the moment also made you tear up a little bit, but it didn't take long for you to hold it and lay with them. it was unfortunate that you couldn't take care of your daughter as well, but there was nothing to worry or feel upset about. you knew both you and your daughter would be safe and sound if you have bang chan - the best friend, husband, dad and person.

you two couldn't love him any more than this.

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[01:23]

sat on the veranda late in the night, a few hours after another breakdown, you felt amazing. it was incredible how felix would always quickly find a way to calm you down when you needed; tonight wasn't different.

he held you tight on his chest and made his best so both of you would be covered by the blanket you brought, without missing any part of your bodies. his soft voice telling you fun stories and singing to you made you melt more and more on his arms.

staring up at him, deep in the eyes, you wondered how you were so lucky for the universe decide to put someone so incredible and amazing in your life.

"what's it? is there something in my face?" felix asked, curious, touching his face with one hand.

"oh, yes, wait a minute..." you said, getting closer to take a better look at his face and pointed at his cheek, pretending to have found something. "perfection."

both of you laughed a bit at the lame pick up line and then stared happily at the stars.

the sky was starry and hypnotizing that night as well. there were many stars shining a lot brighter than others, yet the smaller ones also looked amazing. there were so many of them, looking like an ocean of stars and both of you were more than ready to swim on them.

you turned your head and stared at felix again. he amazingly held the stars on him, too - there were some in his eyes and a lot more on his face, as if they were sick of the sky and fell exactly on him, not leaving their beauty behind.

and then, you had an idea: you decided to count his freckles, not only as a way to keep you entertained, but also because you had a plan. whatever the result would be, you suddenly decided to give him the same number of kisses.

"one, two, three, four, five..." you started counting and felix quickly turned his head back to you, looking even more confused as earlier, before you told your pick up line.

"hm? what are you doing now?" he wondered, slightly turning his head and giving you an inquisitive gaze.

"stay still! ... i'm counting your freckles." you announced after wondering for a second if he should know it or not.

"but why?"

"um... just because. why not?" you said and started counting again, trying not to forget the number you stopped at. without a word, felix just shrugged his shoulders, letting you do whatever you wanted to do and staring back at you with heart eyes.

"... thirty five, thirty six, thirty seven, thirty eight, thir-" you were cut by a soft peck on your lips. felix looked at you with a playful smile, laughing cutely at your shocked expression.

"felix! i- i even forgot where i stopped at..." you complied and hid your face, avoiding eye contact with him.

"but what was it for, babe?" he caressed your hair with, this time, a calm expression on his face. you felt a little anxious and didn't know how to say it, so you just sulked, still avoiding eye contact.

"baaaabe! my love! my angel! please tell meee..." he insisted, slightly pushing your arms back and forth. knowing he would do this until you told him, you quickly gave up.

"i... i just had a weird idea. i thought of counting them and giving you the same amount of kisses... but now i have to do it all over again." you mumbled, deep in your heart hoping he wouldn't hear you, even though you knew he obviously would.

"oh? really?" he chuckled before continuing. "well, i won't complain at all. you can even kiss me as much as you remember you counted so far, and then you count from zero again. i'm actual okay with it." felix ended cutely smirking at you before pulling you closer to tickle you a little bit and give you a lot of kisses.

it had been a while since the last time you smiled and laughed this much. spending time with felix is never a bad idea, whether you need someone or not. instead, it's always magical and unforgettable. you could only thank universe for being able to meet him, who would always be ready to give you all the stars he could get.

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