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ATTENTION

IF YOU HAVE BEEN FOLLOWED BY A BLOG NAMED 'merciless-clean-freak' BEFORE BEING UNFOLLOWED AGAIN -- THAT WAS ME. 

I was going to change from my dean blog to that blog on my phone - and somehow tumblr messed up it all an my other blog followed all the blogs i follow here.. now we all know that would result in nothing but chaos for my other blog since it's not spn related - SO I APOLOGIZE DEARLY FOR THIS MISTAKE, BUT DON'T BLAME ME. IT WAS TUMBLR WHO DID IT.

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My Dean muse has once again noped on me --

I'll be here.

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if you compliment me online there’s a 6378% chance i’m sitting in front of my computer like

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Ok, I just kind of woke up so I'll be slow now.

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     >> He blinked, hating to see his own brother like this, but he had to suck it up. He couldn't let Sam change the future - which was why it had been a bad idea to even approach his little brother. He was risking to change everything in the future - even the bond he had with Sam.

     ❝Look.. The reason why I am dying, is because I'm saving you. You mean everything to me, Sam, believe it or not. Please don't try to change the future, because that might mess up everything I have now. You'll have to be brave, be strong.❞

Sam shook his head, but he didn't try to wriggle out of Dean's grip. Dean was always stronger than him. He took in a slow, shaky breath, trying to calm himself down.

"There's nothing I can do to stop it?" he asked, quiet and weak and brittle. "What if I didn't go to college? Would that change anything?" he didn't want to condemn himself to this life, but his brother was his everything. He couldn't lose him. Not for real.

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     >> Dean didn't move. No matter how many times his name was called - no matter how many slaps he got, he didn't wake up. His heart was still beating though, and his body was ticking, he was simply just unconscious from the possession - a normal reaction to it. However, in a matter of minutes, his eyes shot open and he looked around himself, utterly confused before he groaned in pain at the wound that seemed to hurt even more now than earlier in the small moment he got outside of his own head.

" Dean!!!" She was running to the body and shaked him a little bit. " Dean!…fuck Dean say something!!" she pulled the body away from the House and  then put his head on her Lap and slapped his face softly. " Dean open your eyes…C´mon! Dean!!!"  She looked around them and outside it was getting Darker and Darker. The Moon was already up. How long was she in there with the Dean and why was she still alive? " Dean C´mon! For Sammy! Open your eyes!"

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      >> Dean was surprised by the sudden outburst from the other one, and he immediately grabbed his wrists in a gentle grip, crouching down a little so he could see Sam's face.

     ❝Sammy, calm down!❞ He sighed a little and looked down. ❝It's what's going to happen and I'm sorry about that, but I am going to return. You'll survive four months without me.. Well, that will feel like 40 years for me, but you can do it. It's still years until it happens too.. I'm standing here, aren't I? I'm not lying..❞ He had to calm his little brother down.

Sam's eyes filled with tears despite himself, and he could feel his heart break. What if Dean died... because of him? He curled his hands into fists, pounding them on Dean's chest.

"I know what Purgatory is, you fucking jerk!" he yelled, his voice cracking. "You can't die, you can't leave me! You can't, Dean, you can't, you can't, you just fucking can't," he whimpered.

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     >> Dean faked a soft chuckle and looked at Castiel before he crossed his arms. ❝Cas, it's fine.❞ It wasn't all fine. He didn't like it when he argued with Castiel in any way, because the angel never quite understood his sides of thing, and it was pointless trying to make him understand.

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      >> Dean didn't know what to say. Sam had always been staring right through him, and the fact that he asked so straight out made Dean speechless for a moment, because what lie could cover up the fact that he wouldn't die just once? After all - Sam did experience seeing his brother die lots of times, even if it was fake..

     ❝Sammy.. I need you to be strong about it, alright? I.. I do die. I go to Hell for christ sake, but I am coming back. I also go to Purgatory - google it.❞ He smiled, trying to make this all a joke to not become all sappy about it.

Sam listened carefully, furrowing his eyebrows. He didn't want to believe Dean, but his brother would never lie to him. Not after all the stories of Dad being a secret agent. They'd never lie to each other, right?

"After you what?" he asked, pulling away to look up at Dean. "You don't die, do you?" his voice became high pitched and almost desperate, hoping to hear the opposite of what he was thinking.

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     >> Dean wanted to laugh about Sam's musical comment, but decided that just a slight smile would help for now. Sam was really serious about this -- too serious. As he mentioned London, Dean's eyes widened and he stared at his brother for a while. ❝Are you serious? D'you expect me to live like friggin' werewolf in London or some shit? C'mon man, you can't be serious!❞

     But he was, and when Sam's hands were on Dean's shoulders, the oldest Winchester shut up immediately, blinking a little at the eye contact that was made. What Sam said next caused him to open his mouth to speak, but nothing came out - well, if he tried, nothing intelligent would come out.

     So, instead he looked away and nodded. ❝Yeah, I love you too, Sammy,❞ he said in more of a joking manner. He meant it, but Dean had never been the guy who'd manage to say those words to anyone easily like that. ❝Now, let's not get sappy. No chick-flick moments, remember?❞ he said in a rather nervous tone as he patted Sam's shoulder, moving to go take that shower his little brother told him to get.

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     >> ❝Already checked the bathroom,❞ was Dean's reply to what she said. ❝He's nowhere.❞

     This was the time for him to start freaking out. His brother was missing, he was nowhere to be seen outside either, and he couldn't have just left. Also - Sam did not sleepwalk, so it couldn't have been anything like that either, even if Dean wished it was.

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Luci looked to Dean seeing how he was looking for his brother as she tugged on his wrist some.

"Dean he might be taking a shower. Relax Dean, freaking out won’t help anything," Luci told him in a calm and soothing tone.

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     >> As Dean saw the angel pop in, he just couldn't hide the wicked grin that graced Dean Winchester's features. He loved how fast it went for the other one to actually realize what was going on, and the threats were hilarious to him. Obviously - Castiel didn't know enough about him to realize the fact that possessing Dean was quite easy if he knew his plan. It had been hard work indeed, but in the end, it was easier than expected.

     Dean stood up from the chair, this time letting his eyes turn black without caring about hiding them. Castiel knew - and trying to fool him wouldn't work, no matter how in character the demon had managed to get with Dean Winchester.

                     ❝Oh, I'm so very scared.❞

     He placed his hands on the table, leaning his whole weight on them as he smirked at the angel.

             ❝Castiel. Finally I got a chance to meet you. I was hoping you'd pop in sooner or later, because honestly, little baby brother was getting boring..❞ The demon had decided to mess around with Castiel, try to make him believe that Sam Winchester was already dead. Just to test how far he could go before the angel would realize the lies.

     ❝You're probably wondering how in the world I managed to possess Dean Winchester. Ayye? Well, it was a tough job, but easy too. Did you know he's an animal? He can turn into a wolf whenever he pleases - Sammy doesn't know about this though - and I grabbed the chance. However, staying inside of the damn meatsuit was hard when he immediately turned back into human, and the tattoo was there, but I managed to be strong enough just in time to do this..❞

     He pulled his shirt down enough for Castiel to see what had become of the tattoo; nothing but scratches. Red and violent, still bleeding, scratches that had destroyed the tattoo completely. ❝After that, I was exhausted from fighting him, now he's screaming your name. Quite annoying if you ask me..❞

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     >> Dean blinked a little at the sudden hug, then he frowned when he heard what Sam said. He thought it was his fault? How the hell could anything of this be his fault? Dean placed his hands on Sam's shoulders so he could push him away enough to see his face - that broken gaze.. ❝Sammy, none of this is your fault. I swear. If only.. If only you knew the real thing, you'd understand.❞ He was a monster. Dean Winchester had become a monster, and every day he had to wake up in hope that his brother was still there next to him, not wrapped up in bloody bed sheets.

Sam's eyes widened slightly, Dean was. ..going to stay? But...why? Sam knew he was a wreak, worthless, Hell he wasn't really sure if he was entirely human. Nothing for Dean to stay for. Pulling his brother into a hug Sam sobbrd into his shoulder "Why? Dean what did I do? I'm sorry whatever it was I'm sorry" everything else was his fault so Dean trying to kill himself had to be because of him, Sam reasoned.

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     >> As Dean was about to turn and leave, he stopped for a moment, realizing just what had happened. A smile tugged on his lips and he looked back at the other one. ❝Hey, thanks,❞ he called out before he turned back and started to walk, soon picking up his pace in hope that he could still make it to the room before his brother went crazy about finding him.

Hey, God, it's Dean Winchester again.

She waved him then. ” Alright , i´m sure he´s glad to see your face again. And tell him that a Demon wrote this note okay? That wont be so awkward”  Miuki laughed a little bit and smilled at the Hunter. This little game they played there was giving Dean new power to Move on.She really stoped him from killing himself.Even tho she had to take a risk. Now the Wound on her hand was Healing .

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     >> Dean frowned and immediately let go of the other one when he spoke to him like that. ❝Ey, Cas, I didn't mean it that way..❞ He bit his lip and shook his head as he looked down before hie gaze went back up to Castiel. ❝Well, fine then. Do whatever the hell you want, just.. try to notify me before you pop in.❞

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