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“Never trust your tongue when your heart is bitter.”

— Samuel J. Hurwitt

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GOD has a plan for your life. A plan that's uniquely designed for you alone. And GOD who started it will take it to completion.

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If your not happy single, you won't be happy in a relationship either. Happiness comes from musical soundtracks, not relationships.

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ALEXANDER HAMILTON

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Watch "How Does Jesus' Death Reverse the Curse?" on YouTube

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“Whenever you are alone, remind yourself that God has sent everyone else away so that there is only you and Him.”

— Rumi

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““If we wait until we are ready we will be waiting for the rest of our lives.” Lemony Snicket”

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“Conditions are never perfect. ‘Someday’ is a disease that will take your dreams to the grave with you. If it’s important to you and you want to do it ‘eventually’, just do it and correct the course along the way.”

— Tim Ferriss

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“Just because I said nothing doesn’t mean I didn’t notice.”

— Unknown

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“Don’t abuse a kind heart. You may never be offered one again.”

— Pokello Nare

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11.11 Hoax

Today I realized something I already know.

Today, I'm closest to admitting something that I've always denied.

Today I felt. Today it sunk in.

When I saw you on the news today, a rouge feeling crept inside of me. My guards are down and I was defenseless. You broke all the walls and wreaked havoc in my mind. What you made me feel had a special tinge of pain in it, something unusual yet unsurprising. But I'm happy for you, I really am, with all my heart, I hope that you had finally found what you were looking for with her. But I need to feel what I'm feeling, I need to recognize the damage done, I need to process this emotion that I thought I never had for you. Because I don't want to see you smile and feel hurt, I don't want to hear your laugh and miss you, I don't want to see you well and question myself. See, we've met in an unplanned circumstance, I wasn't expecting you but when you caught my eye, it was as clear as day to me that I'll be dreaming of you by night. You made it so easy, so safe. You had me with those righteous values you hold, that striking bravery behind your piercing blue eyes, that soft smile that feels like home, your calm voice and warm presence, a hero of fairy book tales. And I said I know the difference and yet here I am today, simmingly confused in the tangle of reality and fiction. I was so sure of what I feel for you but now it all seems to be a blur. I know deep inside that this day would come yet I still failed to prepare for what might hit me. I was still laughing at my own demise, but deep inside my shield is broken, I'm bruised and wounded, bleeding all over, trembling with fleeing hopes...but still here, standing in front of an army in a losing battle, and this time you're not by my side anymore. But as I cry along the thunderstorm, I'm reminded that I'm worthy, that goodness has not left me, I can still be assembled back with all the broken pieces I remain to have, and though it will continue to hurt everytime I'm reminded of today, I'd still confidently say, "I can do this all day".

NP: Hoax by Taylor Swift

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My mind is a stranger to me.

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And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's meant to be broken I just want you to know who I am

Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls

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Random Thought #001

There’s a pain that you don’t have words for.

It sometimes disguises as anger, sometimes it’s in the form of tears, sometimes in the shaking of your voice and sometimes it’s your body trembling with your head throbbing, out of the blue you’re catching your breath like you’re drowning from all the questions that are starting to fill you up, everything rushing in to your consciousness all at once.

Some other times it’s that small smile, or a crackling laugh, or a go-getter attitude—ready to take on the world, or that strict perfectionism, trying to make everything the best they can be based on those imaginary standards you’ve set yourself. It’s masked as that tiresome persistence, keeping on pushing the limits of things, pushing on the limits of people, pushing on the limits of yourself, pushing on and on even in the danger of losing the very things you’ve fought for in the first place.

And then all of a sudden, it transforms into a silent numb feeling...like nothing is there, not even a pulse, nor a heartbeat, you may see your chest rising up and down but not sure if there’s air coming in or going out. It’s like you’re just there... existing, physically tangible but not truly present, like floating in a void, or sinking slowly in a dark abyss, the world muted, but somehow you know...somehow you know, it’s pain.

It is, right? Because, what else could it be?

Unless you have another word for it.

~ Luna Cálë 

25 August 2022

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Strawberry moon.

(June 14, 2022)

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““Be happy, Your happiness matters, Your feelings matter, Your life matters, You matter. You are special and unique. Never forget that!” - Unknown”

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