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Look at you, hacker, a pathetic creature of meat and bone. How can you challenge a perfect, immortal machine?

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what if there was a snabbit. just consider it

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white and brown mackerel tabby

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Messing around with gradients in blender

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herrrrrrrrrrr

Dead Master from Black Rock Shooter if it were an n64 game

dedicated to Seraphim<3

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we learned everything there is to learn about how to calm storms. within ourselves, and for others around us. we had to. and that' s mine now. i think it's beautiful. i think our presence is something that people value about us, and it makes me happy we've made that our own. we have a very special patient gentleness, and i love it and i love those of us who love it too.

what we need the most help with is letting ourselves be stormy. and letting storms happen around us, especially when that's what people need. holding it in is a bad way a lot of the time, even if grace under pressure can be beautiful. we get better at it little by little. Is good to get angry With people. And is good to let yourself let go when you feel done.

We gotta help ourselves and accept help to get there, cause it doesn't come naturally

Really love this moment from The Strange Case of Harley and Harleen

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I like when fairies get a bit more bug with it. Sneak a little extra chitin on her. It won't hurt.

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why birthdays are tough (CW childhood trauma vague discussion)

so the way we got through our trauma eventually was to believe that on some level, we didn't exist. that there was nothing to us. it was more comfortable that way. we detached ourselves from having any kind of emotional stake in what happened to us. it kept us from facing the reality of what happened and how much it hurt. we learned how to feel that way super early, so deep deep down that belief stays with us. it keeps us safe from our memories and from the pain we couldn't face back then. and believe me, i have nothing but love and sympathy for us. it was too much to face back then. we needed some kind of workaround and i bless us for finding a way to get through.

but that means when we get to a day where we're supposed to celebrate being alive, there's so many emotions that come up. it throws a wrench in how we were supposed to get through things. deep down, we weren't supposed to believe we were alive, at least in the same way as everyone else. having a day just about us and how we're special made all that really hard, and we're still healing, so it still does. i can feel our instincts pushing back against it even today. we feel so disconnected from the world on our bday.

it's coming up in a couple of days. i'm sad for us having this kind of experience with a day that should be happy, but i also want to meet us where we're at. it is hard. i haven't found what exactly we want for ourselves on that day. it's a balance. i want to keep piling on the love, little by little push back against those false truths we had to teach ourselves to survive. but i want to sit with us too, hold our hand, say it's okay for it to be hard, say it's okay to cry.

i guess some mixture of the two. it's hard, none of this is supposed to happen so there's not a lot of right answers out there. just like any parent or friend or love, i guess you gotta make something out of what you have and keep tryin.

maybe a piece of cake to celebrate & a candle to hold vigil. that might be it. god life moves so fast but we'll keep thinking on it.

cause we arent gonna give up. too much love <3 bless the babies

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Does anybody here like pretty, customized old-school game consoles??

I did this last year & I'm still kinda proud of it.

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if ur posting "trans people you have to survive" go do something about it? how many homeless trans people have u materially helped today? nothing changed right now. we been suffering already. where the fuck have u been every day that's not election day

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I Won't Hurt You

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if ILTV was a N64 game 💗

Part 6 (Epilogue): After Hours

Rae Taylor & Claire François the dears from I'm in Love with the Villainess

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mental health rant stuff

ptsd is like 70% of my life lately. it's so easy to slip into the worst of our fear, to lose parts of our awareness & dissociate. it's like your fear got trained to escalate to life & death mode, so anything that scares you brings you all the way up to that place. we are always so exhausted and self care tasks are just miles away. it's hard to face them cause that comes with so many feelings and they all start to turn fever pitch. I'm just like picturing a light that means hope to me and keeping it in my minds eye. my babe was out crying just saying I'm so tired, I'm so tired. it's so hard to sleep cause we get bad nightmares & lying down feels unsafe. we've been in so deep for so long. I just. we are holding this ship together. and it makes us loners a bit. it's hard to bring this stuff out in a way that lets you be with people on it. we are so in over our heads. I'm so ready for some kind of change. whatever it is. this path is just gonna wear us all the way out.

keeping our eye out for all the love we can find in life because deep down, more than anything else, i know that's the key. I'm staying here <3

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if ILTV was a N64 game 💗

Part 6 (Epilogue): After Hours

Rae Taylor & Claire François the dears from I'm in Love with the Villainess