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okay update ! my waist is alr 23 1/2in so i’m going to aim for 21? and my thigh measurements are the same.

i havent eaten yet today & its 3pm so i’ll update when i do, it’ll probably be a bagel with tomatoes & light cream cheese on because thats the meal i’m hyperfixated on rn:) i might try going to the gym more since the hotel i’m staying at has a treadmill!

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im so scared lololol

i accepted food from my sister because i was on autopilot and only realized after what i agreed to. my cal limit is 700. i’ve already eaten ~400 and the food is ~500. i can just save it for tomorrow but i feel so guilty hggg.

and my bf told me today that he lost 20lbs,.. i’m proud of him, but god i feel defeated. like wow, even my bf is making progress and i’m not. and now i’m too scared to eat anything

i need to push myself harder. i can’t keep getting distracted and making excuses. i have a date, somewhere between aug 31-sept 4, i need to be at least 90lbs. i dont have a scale atm, so i’m gonna kinda have to wing it.. if i dont have a way to get my weight i’ll go by measurements. i’m hoping to lose 2 inches off my waist and maybe 2 off my thighs,, so my goal is

23in waist

16-15in thighs

ourgh.. wish me luck ig

[loversin-venice]

boys be like “im so shaky” MY BROTHER IN CHRIST UVE EATEN 300 CALORIES TODAY

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i feel accomplished!!! i burnt off most of the cals i ate that were over my limit. :)

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finally got safe foods!!! i can now eat without feeling soul crushing guilt!!! YIPEEE

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You are not just good enough the way you are - you are also good enough the way you feel, the way you think, the way you speak, the way you love. Every part of you matters, darling. Always remember that.