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"you're really scraping the bottom of the barrel" girl i am living that balsamic life, that's the mommy down there at the bottom.

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I'm napping in yo sink

sorry i hit the faucet sorry

sorry sorry omg I hit the switch sorrryy

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It is so disingenuous when supermarkets have "grown by: Farmer X" on their packaging because it's like, I'll be looking at a pack of strawberries grown by farmer x and he'll actually be the managing director of a fruit farm that employs 2,000 people as pickers!

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I know, on an intellectual level, that murder is worse. But it *feels* to me on a very deep level like making peace with this, that *accepting mediocrity* is the number one worst thing one could ever do, and that killing or even destroying the world would be better, and dying/committing suicide would certainly be the more correct option. Making peace with it is like a pit of infinite badness!

the whole "washed up gifted kid" thing is cringe or whatever, yada yada, but i think its expressing in its clumsy self-aggrandizing way a real tragedy (maybe too strong. a sorrowful-fact) about adulthood. when youre a kid, and then an adolescent, your capabilities are *yet undetermined*. it's not really possible for you to show what youre capable of, except in a few constrained ways, and it's all about building your capabilities, as you become a full person. and then you pop out the other end of adolescence, youre a full real person and...you've got the capabilities you've got. of course you can develop yourself, gain new skills, whatever. but the extent of your innate capacities, and in particular the boundary of that extend, your limitations, slip into clarity. and in all likelihood, you are not as capable as you *might have been*. no one could know how capable you were before, it was yet to be seen. now it is seen. and in all likelihood, youve not pulled the golden ticket. you are capable an ordinary amount, and you can no longer hope that any day now the chrysalis will crack open and you'll fly away. you're who you are, and nothing more.

which to be clear, is *fine*, obviously. but it's perfectly logical to be disappointed. it takes some work, and some time, to make your peace with it

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One of my mutuals (foss?) remarked that Factorio is the best videogame about colonialism, it doesn't overbearingly lecture and it doesn't explicitly tell you it's about colonialism, it directly invites you to see things from the viewpoint of the colonizer who landed in a new world and started extracting resources. If you know the game and look at the map here, you can trace a thought process embedded in the image that goes something like:

hmm, my rapacious industry (southeast) is upsetting the natives, maybe I should build some solar panels and restrain myself

hmmm, the solar panels are underwhelming, I'll build some guns and walls on my frontier to repel native raids instead

hmmm, those cliffs and lakes over there would be good chokepoints, I can drive out the natives to create a buffer zone

hmmm, the landmass ends there, conquering the entire north peninsula would be more convenient to give me a shorter border, I just have to cleanse it of the increasingly violent natives. gotta arm up heavily. Bring the earthmovers and deforestation, it'll be easier to draw straight lines on the map than keep working with the terrain at this point.

Diplomacy with the natives? the default interface presents no options for that.

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the whole "washed up gifted kid" thing is cringe or whatever, yada yada, but i think its expressing in its clumsy self-aggrandizing way a real tragedy (maybe too strong. a sorrowful-fact) about adulthood. when youre a kid, and then an adolescent, your capabilities are *yet undetermined*. it's not really possible for you to show what youre capable of, except in a few constrained ways, and it's all about building your capabilities, as you become a full person. and then you pop out the other end of adolescence, youre a full real person and...you've got the capabilities you've got. of course you can develop yourself, gain new skills, whatever. but the extent of your innate capacities, and in particular the boundary of that extend, your limitations, slip into clarity. and in all likelihood, you are not as capable as you *might have been*. no one could know how capable you were before, it was yet to be seen. now it is seen. and in all likelihood, youve not pulled the golden ticket. you are capable an ordinary amount, and you can no longer hope that any day now the chrysalis will crack open and you'll fly away. you're who you are, and nothing more.

which to be clear, is *fine*, obviously. but it's perfectly logical to be disappointed. it takes some work, and some time, to make your peace with it

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Basically I'm looking for something I can really engage with to distract myself on bad chess days. the way chess was meant to distract me from how badly my writing was going but then I started caring about chess too much and it started affecting me similarly to writing.

First of all it has to be significantly different from both chess and writing.

Second of all it has to be competitive in some way. It doesnt have to be directly facing off against somebody like in chess -- working my way up a ranked list of people is fine.

Third of all it has to be easy to make improvements in, at least in the beginning. I should also be able to beat people right away -- losing half the time is acceptable, but losing every time until I reach a certain skill level is not.

Fourth of all it has to flatter my ego to engage in, which most of the things listed in the reddit post would but any kind of physical activity would not. This also rules out most competitive video game stuff.

Fifth of all a "unit of competition" like a game of chess can't be something it takes months to set up. that's too much to invest in a likely failure. It also can't cost money. you think I'm going to pay to lose?

I wasn't even into this type of thing in high school but now I'm sad I don't have it as an adult. a couple of these contests I would absolutely 100% do if there were enough other fellow beginners and it was easy for beginners to make a lot of progress. you know like how when you start playing chess there are always a ton of other low Elo people and it's easy to gain Elo when you're first starting out.

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I wasn't even into this type of thing in high school but now I'm sad I don't have it as an adult. a couple of these contests I would absolutely 100% do if there were enough other fellow beginners and it was easy for beginners to make a lot of progress. you know like how when you start playing chess there are always a ton of other low Elo people and it's easy to gain Elo when you're first starting out.

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here’s the facts

donald J trump is extremely fully 11 months pregnant

he is pregnant with a litter of half pig half men, somewhat resembling orcs. they were genetically engineered to his specifications and are rumored to be “super soldiers”

the former president became pregnant via embryo transplant - he does not have ovaries or penetrative sex, so insemination is not an option

they are not in his butt or penis - the pentagon hollowed and ballooned out his prostate gland to act as a psuedowomb

donald j trump is in constant pain because of this so he’s constantly smoking weed which just makes him sadder and more pregnant and it’s not so good for the piglets

trump said he got this idea ���from sauron” of lord of the rings

when trump gives birth, his perineum will cleanly cleave in two, and a bucketful of viscous green nickelodean slime will dump forth onto the ground. he will steady himself against a ballet bar and dump out the pigfetuses one by one onto the floor with no umbilical cord

when pressed for comment, donald trump specified:

“I love my kids. They are the best. They’ve got strong blood. They’ve got good genes. But I could have better kids. I could have pigmen. Tall. Taller than me, if you can believe it. These piglets are the greatest — people are saying they’re the greatest!”

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Source

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theres a very weird thing to me abt modern AI doomers where like. i don't really understand the narrative anymore? the old AI that people were scared of were *control/management systems*! which have very clearly paths to doing evil things, their whole point is causing things to happen in the real world. but the AI advancements people are scared about now are all in LLMs, and it's not clear to me how they would, yknow, "go skynet". like. just on a basic sci fi narrative level. whats the *story* in these people's minds. it's easy to see how it could be a useful tool for a bad person to achieve bad goals. that would be bad but is a very different sort of bad from "AI takes over". what does a modern LLM ai takeover look like, they don't really have *goals*, let alone evil ones. theyre simulators

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scheming and plotting…

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Can’t reblog the post going round containing these two screenshots:

So I’ll put my addition here:

This also applies to women who complain about feminism requiring them to work, rather than being ‘ladies of leisure’. Women equivalent to them in the past always worked - who do they think were the maids, housekeepers, cooks, nannies, wet nurses, governesses, washerwomen, spinners, weavers, seamstresses, nurses, midwives, etc - and today’s equivalent of the past’s ladies of leisure can afford to be ladies of leisure now. Feminism fought for women’s work to be acknowledged, valued, and fairly paid, and that fight is still ongoing.