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Love

I miss it—the peaceful simplicity of those moments when you look into someone's eyes and know, without words, that you love each other. It feels warm, like home, enveloping you in a sense of calm. In those instances, everything aligns perfectly, and all feels right with the world. I long to experience that peace again someday.

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Every time I see you, I never know if you're joking, Or if you want me, and that’s what really kills me.

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I'm known to put up walls and you to mask your feelings.

A perfect storm from the start.

I wish I could stop this feeling.

You somehow know everything I'm thinking.

And yet I can't seem to shake the idea of you leaving.

They say not to live in the past

But what happens when your past stabs your present to death with all of these nightmarish memories?

I put up walls

You mask your feelings

Maybe someday we can both learn to stop concealing all of these torments

and begin healing.

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In an alternate universe I hope I am loved.

unconditionally,

irrevocably,

eternally,

and endlessly.

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𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐰...𝐰𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧’𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞

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“It has made me better, loving you.”

— Henry James // The Portrait of a Lady

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“I think hell is something you carry around with you. Not somewhere you go.”

— Neil Gaiman, The Sandman

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My body and mind feels as if it has time travelled to the future without me knowing. It’s confusing having this feeling that something isn’t right and I can’t place why. The constant nostalgic feeling is always there for things and a times that I have never experienced or known. It always feels as if my timing is off.

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Image by Trần Hùng

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A Light Beckons

Watercolor On Black Cotton Paper

2022, 26" x 33"

Winter Cherries, Ashwagandha, Withania somnifera

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Knowing happiness makes the sadness all the more painful.

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The worlds best sad song. Grieving and missing you.

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“She’s in my head again, she knows where I have been, I’m going down that road again…”

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Amazing view..

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It’s sad, that I am so used to feeling the melancholy of the world. It sometimes feels as if I am looking on a life that isn’t my own, like watching a sad bittersweet movie.

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Trying the best and getting the worst seems to be an unavoidable pattern in my life.