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Louis is so brave and kind and generous with his heart. Letting us all in. He doesn’t have to do this. And yet, we’re able to be right there with him in this moment. 💔

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as much as i'm hurting with them, i'm hurting for them so much more. if i'm this hurt, i can't even imagine what they all must be feeling

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LIAM PAYNE | 1993 ~ 2024

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I will never get over the amount of love one direction fans have for each other and for the boys, and the amount of love the boys have for us. I’m so proud to be in this fandom, to love those 5 incredible, amazing boys.

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not sure if listening to the entire one direction discography rn is going to be cathartic or send me into a tailspin but

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i feel so so awful for zayn, but i am so glad he is not trying to power through this and is taking the time to grieve before putting himself in such a stressful situation like touring, especially his first solo tour ever. i am sending him all my love.

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 thinkin about how niall once talked about how cool it was that a lot of the fans grew up with them and then how in best song ever when they say “i hope you remember how we danced” like…yeah . of course i’ll remember . i grew up with you guys . you were my best friends . 

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nothing describes one direction as well as this

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this is. unfathomable. i’m shell shocked.

i’m hugging all of you so strongly right now. no matter what was going on, liam was such a big part of my teenage years and even twenties. he was such a big part of that band. he had such a big heart. there’s so many feelings i cant even put into words just racing through my head right now. my heart hurts for his family, his friends, the boys god the boys.

we all kinda grew up together with them and to see something like this is ungodly to even comprehend. this is such a dark fucking day. i don’t even know what to say. i never ever ever wanted to ever hear this news and to see it like this on a fucking instagram canva post from ABC news. i’m nauseous.

heartbroken

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the absolute cruelty of death and it leaving this complete lack of ability to find and give closure. he deserved at least the chance to recover, heal, and make amends.

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I haven’t used my tumblr in four years, and I never thought the reason I’d be back for a bit would be because of something tragic happening. Never thought the first post on the One Direction page in years would be because of this.

I grew up with One Direction, been a fan since X factor and I was only 14. This fandom shaped me, I learnt English, met so many people from all around the world, I’ve woken up early to listen to their singles being released on the radio, I’ve cried, laughed. Made friendships that’ll last me a life time, traveled to see these friends. And I can’t help but feel some of this has been slightly tainted, there’ll always been some sort of sadness connected to this from now on.

I’ve spent my days watching compilations, reading people’s posts, listening to their music, talked to my friends. Crying on and off. It’s such a surreal and bittersweet situation.

I truly thought one day I’d be front from at their reunion tour again.

I’m having such a hard time putting everything into words.

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I left flowers and I piece of my heart💔

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Louis, Niall, Harry, and Zayn don’t owe anyone shit btw

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❤️

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I haven't felt this way in years. It finally feels like it used to be. Like a family. But unfortunately for the worst reasons.