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summer lovin ☀️

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My personal favorite buddie proposal idea is that Eddie sidles into a storage closet at the station one day while Buck is doing inventory and asks "hey can I talk to you as my best friend instead of as the love of my life?"

And once Buck is done having heart palpitations (love of his life! best friend!) he's like "yeah of course" and even sets aside his clipboard so he can give Eddie his full attention

And Eddie gives him a shy/smug little look because he knows what he's doing and says "so I've decided to propose to my boyfriend-" he gives Buck a second to start thinking in full sentences again (boyfriend! that's me! propose! marriage! forever! choosing me forever!) before finishing "-and I was hoping that, as my best friend, you'd come ring shopping with me"

And Buck manages to say "yeah - I'd - I'd love to" and he means the ring shopping but he also kind of means the proposal and they both know it and they spend the rest of the shift barely meeting each other's eyes and then looking away to smile and giggle like teenagers

And they do go ring shopping and they pick out something Buck really likes while pretending very seriously that Buck and Eddie's future fiancé are not the same person

But THEN, before Eddie has a chance to actually propose (he has PLANS), Buck gets him alone at the station and is all "hey, so, can I ask something as your best friend instead of as the love of your life?"

And Eddie is like this sounds familiar but he's also having heart palpitations because he's just as gone on Buck as Buck is on him, so he says "yes of course"

And Buck is like "I think my boyfriend is going to propose, and when I say yes I want to have a ring for him-" he gives Eddie a second to be able to form thoughts beyond he's going to say yes!!!! even though he KNEW he was going to say yes, before continuing "-so I was hoping my best friend would help me pick one out"

And Eddie feels a little drunk (is this what Buck felt when he did this to him?) but he says "I'd love to, yeah" and they spend the rest of the shift not getting farther than a foot away from each other and smiling down at whatever they're pretending to be working on

So they go ring shopping again. They get the same salesperson, and pretend very seriously that this is a return favor for Buck helping Eddie last week, and that they're definitely marrying different people, they're just here as each other's best friend

And Buck carries the ring they picked out for Eddie around in his pocket until Eddie proposes because he wants to be ready, and it takes a couple weeks for Eddie to get it all set up and they both feel electrified the whole time

I don't know how Eddie eventually proposes, but Buck loves it and cries and says yes and gives Eddie his ring, and all their friends are very happy for them while also thinking how insufferable they are

And then they live happily ever after

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TRUST!

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"I get used to it, I guess. Kind of. After a while,” Eddie says. Then, very quietly, “I’m just, uh, sensitive.” “Oh,” Buck says. Eddie's just sensitive. Eddie, his best friend, who he has now seen when he comes. Who comes in under a minute if he isn’t getting some on the regs. This is – this is – interesting.

Love and premature ejaculation.

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The thing about an "Oh. /Oh./" moment. People have begun using it as a general shorthand for feelings realizations in stories. Which is fine, but I think the thing people were originally drawn to with it was the sort of two-part arc it creates. The first "Oh." is the feeling itself hitting, a logical deduction that emerges from emotional chaos. It's an elegant solution to internal torment. There's some shock, but also maybe a little... thrill? Joy? It's exciting to feel so deeply.

And the second "/Oh./" is reality setting in, and all that entails-- the anxiety of not knowing whether the happiness they just briefly envisioned is possible, the inevitable change this brings to their previous dynamic, the fact that they will have to subject themselves to the mortifying ordeal of being known in order to reap the rewards of being loved.

Not to say the first "Oh." is all positive and the second "/Oh./" is all negative. It's more that it works best when the characters have a one-two punch of realizations so large that each of them needs to be their own paragraph, even if the author doesn't spell it out in so many words.

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Every day, you heal a little bit more. Then one morning, you wake up and losing her isn't the first thing you think about.

BOBBY NASH and EDDIE DIAZ for @wernerherzogs

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#yes you are

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“What kind of toy was it?” Buck says, before he can stop himself. He doesn't want to push Eddie too far with this, but he simply must know.

Eddie bites his lip. “A strap-on.”

Buck, as he so often does when he imagines Eddie having sex, blacks out for a second.

He's not really sure what his reaction is, in the sense that he doesn't know what his face does, and he doesn't know what his feelings are. He feels a little like a TV tuned to a nonexistent channel— just fuzz and white noise.

Or: Buck and Eddie have a conversation about sex. Everything kind of spirals from there.

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Not that it matters all that much, but I changed my ao3 username from LottieAnna to SirMxALotts for gender reasons and also because it was too good. Still posting most stuff under the lotts pseud though!

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Eddie's house

[Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5]

I made a thread on twitter explaining eddie's house in detail, and I wanna post it here too, but because of pic limit this might take a few separate posts so bear with me! I'll links all the other posts in every one i make so it'll be easier to keep track of them

Setting that aside, let's get started with this main image and break it down from there:

Starting with the front door. I'm sure there must've been some makeovers over s2 and s3 because several things change out of nowhere, like that window (? is it a window?) on the wall

The front door leads directly to the living room. (I didn't put all pic references because of time limit but it's all on twitter if you wanna see that!)

Then the living room leads to this part of the house, which I honestly love:

The rest is all posted here, check the above links, but if you wanna see it with more detail you can check the twitter thread where it's explained more widely :)

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Evan “Buck” Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV) Characters: Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Tommy Kinard, Evan “Buck” Buckley, Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Marisol (9-1-1 TV) Additional Tags: Minor Eddie Diaz/Tommy Kinard, Minor Eddie Diaz/Marisol (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz/OMC - Freeform, Bad Idea Sex, Disassociation, Grindr, Repression, Internalized Homophobia, Closeted Character, Panic Attacks, alternate s7, in this house we love Tommy Kinard Summary:

If he saw this profile, he’d think: closeted. Probably cheating. Kind of an asshole.

He never has trouble finding someone.

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Eddie’s on grindr, and also back on his bullshit.

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“Where’s the pathetic element?” Exactly Tom Hardy. Exactly.

(x)

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praying tumblr doesnt flag this

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“When’s the first day of school?” Chris asks.

“August 26th.”

“Okay,” Chris says again, and then, quieter: “Can I come home before then, maybe?”

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“When’s the first day of school?” Chris asks.

“August 26th.”

“Okay,” Chris says again, and then, quieter: “Can I come home before then, maybe?”

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Had a dream this morning that Archive of our Own had a Random button which would simply take you to a random fanfic, like Wikipedia has. (AO3 does not appear to really have this, I checked and couldn't find one, but I kinda wish they did.) Someone had started a game where whatever fic you got, that was your new fandom, which is very fun! I would love this meme in real life.

The problem came in where so many people used the button that it broke and just started sending everyone to Stealing Harry, and like...I have fond memories of Stealing Harry but it's not my best work and nobody should be assigned to be a Harry Potter fan in this day and age.

So I decide to go off and find Astolat and demand she fix this but when I finally did (there was a whole quest) she turned to me like the baddie in a horror flick and said, "But that's the most random story there is" in a dark voice and I was terrified and woke up.

In the cold light of day I know there are more random stories by me on the archive, let alone by others, but I'm not going to try to get back there to argue my case. Pretty sure whatever I spoke to was actually the demon specifically assigned to plague fandom and not Astolat at all.

I'd say "get thee behind me, demon" but I know just how many porny fics on AO3 begin with that premise. (I've written some.) Begone foul spirit, and take your Satanic Panic with you!

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Always trying to spot a bird

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crying over this bookmark someone left on one of my fics smdndnensnfndndndn