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When death seems easier and better than life. When your purpose of living is always defeated with every hard work you do, feels exhausting and frustrating.

Anyways need to get up and get stronger. Yass I can do it.

[lostnconfused-mum]

Again filled with mixed emotions, dunno what is really happening. Dunno how to feel. Feeling lost and confused again. Hate this feeling.

Maybe today is that shitty kinda day.Hope the rest of you'll doing great!

Let's reach out to each other to understand what is really happening!

[lostnconfused-mum]

Good day all!.

Been on my periods so this explains alot of my feelings of emotions that just overflew last week. But still they are genuine feelings that got a little out of hand. Trying to be calm and sound now. But cant say when things can go haywire again lol.

Every good things take time they say. Been waiting a long time still nothing seems good. Guess the grass is greener always on the other side. It's all about the perception of our minds in the end.

Hopefully there is light soon.

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Woke up really early today. Started wondering about the day. Why is life so unprecedented I ponder. But then what fun is it if it was predictable. Every hurdle In life teaches us to be stronger and braver than before.

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Just feeling a bit positive now. Guess my negative vibes have faded for the time being. Hoping peace and love to all out there.

Thanks to tumblr, helping me keep sane during my times of craziness.

[lostnconfused-mum]

Tired of fighting the negative demon inside me. How many times I try to overcome it, there will be instances where they pop again and again. Making me feel low, upset, angry and vulnerable. Just want to fight them once for all.

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Today feeling much better than yesterday. Still sulking for the fact that I'm not able to find anything that I'm suited for. Everyone around me know and also say " you're a smart girl,you will get job easily". Just kinda doubting myself whether I'm really worth getting a job.

Dunno when will I stop underestimating myself.

[lostnconfused-mum]

Just sitting in my 1bhk flat with my child. He is busy watching TV and I'm just sulking in my failed attempts of being a successful woman.

God has never given me anything easily but atleast I had the belief I could do something in life but pheww alas!!!!!!!.....

#depressedmum #tumblrdiaries #thoughtful

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Needed to share my pain, no one is available as everyone is busy in their lives and I dont like troubling anyone.

Thanks Tumblr, making me write my emotions here.making me feel better!

#depressedme #solost #mentalhealth #tumblrdiaries #relievingpain

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It's been around 20days, since then applied for nearly 50 to 60 jobs. But got only few interview calls, all ended up in rejecting me. Feeling too low. Want to do something in my life.want to become independent again ,but guess the world doesn't want a woman to grow.

Not victimising myself. Just feeling hopeless, completely useless.

Have not achieved anything in life other than only asking for money from my father,then my brothers and now my husband. Such a worthless piece of crap I am.

Wanted to become financial independent but things arent working in my favour.

#feellikegivingup #mentalhealth #affectingme

[lostnconfused-mum]

Feeling lost and confused. Been sometime that I did not step into the job world. Currently trying for the same but getting rejections, and not finding anything suitable has made me feel like a complete loser. Maybe I don't deserve or I'm not worth being into the corporate world.

#upset #depressedmum #nojobs #gettingrejected #feelingemotional