lostandconfusesss

[lostandconfusesss]

I have no idea how to start this. Other than my family is need of help.Hi All, My name is Ashtan and in August we learned that the company that owns the rental house is almost doubling the rent…from $1600 to $2900 we have till the 15 this month to vacate.. as soon as we got the news we started putting back and I put AngelLeigh.Creations (our small business) on hold and started packing…while working on Sunday the 5th My husband got into a wreck; he is thankfully unharmed, and understandably shaken up as well as out of work till the car comes out of shop which is at minimum 3weeks…the real kicker is that Monday(6th) the very next day we got the approval for a new place even have signed the lease but the landlord is only giving us till Friday to get the deposit and first month paid which comes to $1800.. and due to insurance deductible we now do not have anything. We’ve gone to every loan place around our area, every family member we could think of and we don’t know what to do anymore. We are in major need and I don’t want my child to have to go with out. If it was just me and my husband we’d have no problem roughing it out.Our PDA autistic 5 year old would not understand and I don’t want to have to put her through this situation. If ANYBODY can help..please .. I don’t know what else to do

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Have to tell some one…. I just pissed all over myself in my living room in my clothes and my pussy is throbbing , god I want something long and hard pounding into this nasty pussy…. Mmm🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤 any takers

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What are you wanting?

A simple yet extremely complicated question in my opinion , regrading life, regarding a relationship, regarding myself… maybe instead I’ll start with who I am…

Who am I? I am a mom, a friend, A Sister, A Daughter, A lover, A partner,A wife, A Granddaughter, a business women, an artist…what do those mean

A mom- taking care of our baby, helping her grow and thrive in life (feeling about that failure)

A Friend- someone who is there when the going gets tuff and there for emotional support that they can get from their family.. (feeling about that: lost)

A Sister- someone who you grow up with the “first friend” in your life also a brothers keeper (feeling: indifferent)

A lover: a comfortable jacket one that been warn a few times (feeling: content/ that’s a lie)

A partner- is supposed to be someone who is with you giving what you can’t and vice Versa 80/20 30/70 someone who is in capable of picking up the prices when the world is wrong.(feeling: overwhelming)

A wife- locked together for life and possibly more, ( feeling: unsure)

A Daughter-a mothers mini-me, a Best Friend,mothers secret keeper (feeling: caged)

A Granddaughter: servant. (Feeling: indifferent)

A business Women: starting a small business, hand making things overwhelmed, underwhelmed, (feeling:drowning)

An artist: is to make things and try not to hate what you make, and then confidently slide into the business women mask and sale yourself and your work. (Feeling: suffocated)

Sigh there’s still so much to unpack but my mind and thought are erratic and chaotic. Deep thoughts are for another day. Maybe next post can be something easier 8/21/22