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Kit to Ty

Election day: misery, stress, hair-pulling, at least for Americans (and a lot of other people around the world affected by our politics!) So I thought I'd post a distraction; I hope it helps and doesn't annoy!

A while ago I posted the beginning of a letter from Kit to Ty, created for a Kickstarter backer. Here's the full text:

A letter from Kit to Ty, never sent.

Ty, Ty, Ty.

Your name looks strange written out like that. Like an abbreviation. But Tiberius would be so formal. I never think of you that way. Or, I suppose I should say, I never thought of you that way. Tenses matter in these situations, I guess.

It’s late, past midnight, and I’m sitting on the windowsill in my bedroom at Cirenworth. Jem and Tessa gave me one of the best rooms. Of course they did. It has a view out over the gardens. Sometimes I see the ghost of a dog there, a golden retriever I’m pretty sure, running in and out of the flowerbeds. He seems like a pretty happy ghost. I think about how much you like animals and how much they love you, because of course they do. But it’s too late; this dog passed away a long time ago. You probably couldn’t even see him. It’s too late for a lot of things, now.  

I’m still mad at you, and I don’t feel good about that. Maybe if I could forget, I could forgive. But I can’t forget that night you brought Livvy back. I’ll suddenly remember even when I’m thinking about something else. I’ll be in the middle of helping Tessa in the garden and suddenly I’ll turn around and I’m back in Idris. 

I remember I told you I loved you. I remember I told you I would help you, but not if you raised Livvy from the dead. Not if you did necromancy. But you wanted that more than you wanted me.

And I understand that. I’m not angry about that. Here’s what I’m angry about: when you brought Livvy back, you changed yourself. You made yourself a different person than the one I loved. I don’t know the person you are now. You took yourself away from me. I can’t forgive that. And you made me someone who has to keep a secret I never wanted to keep. I was raised by someone who had so many awful secrets, and when I started my life as a Shadowhunter I wanted to do it openly, and honestly. But now I’m just someone else with secrets I can never tell. Just like my dad.

It makes me angry, so angry. I want to yell at you. I wish you were here so I could yell at you.

Kit

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Wait a minute I could've sworn your bio used to say 26

Damn, I wonder what coulda happened

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I don’t understand why so many people think that because I love Nesta I hate rhys😭. Is hating him a requirement to be a nesta stan? Like no he’s my scrumptious pookie who made acotar so much more enjoyable for me.

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2020s with every new year*

2020 with every new month

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Leon: Where's Merlin?

Arthur: Doing stuff.

Leon: I don't like the sound of that. Where's Gwaine?

Arthur: Trying to stop Merlin from doing the stuff.

Leon: And Lancelot?

Arthur: Trying to stop Gwaine from stopping Merlin from doing the stuff.

Leon: I see. And what are you doing here?

Arthur: I'm supposed to stop you from stopping Lancelot from stopping Gwaine from stopping Merlin from doing the stuff.

Leon: You woke up too late to go with Merlin, didn’t you?

Arthur: Merlin didn’t wake me up in time to go with him.

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characters have to be a little bit awful in ways that you cant defend. its good for the ecosystem. your honor he did do that. He did in fact do that

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The only scene I am living for, which can rival Tristan and Luna’s reunion, is one where Tristan and Dainn have the talk.

Lives will change. My squeal would be heard for miles. Every bookmark and tab in history will find its place in the book to mark the epic showdown.

I don’t want Tristan to be understanding. I don’t want Dainn to be anything but The Shadowman in that aftermath. As corny as it may sound I want The predator to speak with The shadowman and not Tristan and Dainn, at least for the most.

I want the hostility, the I-dont-like-you-but-cant-kill-you-because-it-would-hurt-lyla rage and the hilarity of it. And I want Dante to be the drama queen that fans the flames. It may not fit the plans Runyx has but a girl can dream.

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I'm so tired of people taking issue with the love interest not saying the L word back while they have shown through their actions how in love they are with the main character...

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Guilty as sin is a gwynriel song. Probably gwyn pov but it can very well be Az pov too. If we ever get the book, let this post be my witness

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a necromancer is just a really late healer

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Gwyn leaving hickeys on azriel's neck dot com

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Cardan is probably looking out a window right now.

He stares at a seemingly endless ocean with blocks of land spread over the horizon. He takes a breath. Two breaths. Three. Each one harder than the next. The King of Elfhame fights against the ache kneeding at his heart, tearing it to pieces. He attempts to push away the selfish need in his blood.

You did this to protect her, he tells himself.

You betrayed her because you love her, he tells himself.

You allowed yourself to love. Allowed her to love you. This is the cost.

Cardan is probably looking out a window right now.

He imagines his wife, hating him, but safe. Despising him, but safe. That is all that matters to him - that she is safe.

Danger and war builds in the distance. A storm he faces. Even if the need to have her close, to smell the scent of her hair, to touch the softness of her cheek or the sensible spot at the side of her neck, feels too much to bear. Even if it kills him.

For you, Jude.

It is all for you.

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guys who rarely wear suits look at least 385% hotter when wearing a suit while guys who usually wear suits look 451% hotter when wearing casual clothes trust me this is science

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Favourite Kings Rising quotes & moments [4/?]

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I finished goldfinch. I'm not feeling very good

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The moment you realize a new ship is blossoming

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We all know this site is US-user heavy, but I wanna know how many are vs aren't from the land of capitalism.