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“6 wings” “2 heads” “6 legs” linocuts from the exhibition “7 maa ja mere taga”

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Frustrating that the echo of our first unrequited love exists for pretty much all of us in some form.

Well, mostly for Louis and I. Fucking Amelia. Never get turned by a sadistic, manic-depressive vampire artist, she will ruin your (un)life. /sigh

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A fun fact is that Adam has a list of actors/celebrities that he says could be face claims. It includes Ed Westwick (c. 2007-2012), Tamino and Damiano David.

Another fun fact is that for some reason, we strongly associate American Psycho with Adam.

We. Don't exactly know why other than he's actually rather a fan of the musical :p

He's the only one of us to have a favorite musician; Hozier.

He has this dumb lopsided little smirk he does and it's part of how I recognize him -- along with the resting bitch face vibes.

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anyone else wish they would get roped into a freaky friday body swap situation just for the hope that the other person will go "oh jesus fuck how do you live like this" and instantly validate your feelings of being Strange and Built Wrong.

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Become obsessed with your OCs they said. Surely, nothing will happen, they said.

unless like, you have an undiagnosed dissociative condition and spent so long in their heads that they become fucking sapient.

Like trust me, I did not actually base the main characters of my novel on my alters. The fictional characters came first...

(well, with Morgan it's complicated because back when we were still more of a median system we developed this "Vampire Queen" mask that we wore a LOT that developed into the fictional character Morgan...)

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Touring Superleggera Veloce12 Barchetta, 2025. The Italian coachbuilder has used The Quail, A Motorsports Gathering to present a convertible version of their Veloce12 coupé, based on the Ferrari 550 Maranello. Production will be limited to 30 examples. There are lots of upgrades including a completely new cabin. Pininfarina's orginal styling has been "evolved" by Touring Superleggera.

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Nice to be able to feel Morgan, at least. I think Louis was here a bit too.

I'm really hoping going back down to 5mg of Abilify will make a difference

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Got to be Morgan a little bit last night :) she got so excited about our upcoming Scion game she's gonna play in that I got shoved out of front.

Even if it was only for a little while it was nice to see her again.

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oh hey btw

sysmeds shouldn't get to be upset that pro-endos (anti fakeclaimers btw) call them sysmeds.

if being compared to a transmed because you have similar views just for a different group makes you upset, then you need to reevaluate your "opinion"

btw it isn't an opinion, you don't get to decide if someone else or someone's experience is real or not. its the same arguments as transphobia, homophobia, transmedicalism, etc. its just aimed at systems instead.

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If you're one of the last two but not 100% sure which one, please just choose whichever one feels closer! Apologies for any confusion!

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Whenever I’m alone with you, you make me feel like I am fun again

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System ask game stolen and edited from r/systemcringe

❤are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

🧡if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

💛do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

💚does your system have introjects of any kind?

💙do you have any subsystems?

💜who are your frequent fronters?

🤎do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are they?

🖤do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the system?

🤍does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

🔴does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

🟠how much amnesia do you experience?

🟡do you experience black out amnesia?

🟢what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

🔵do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

🟣do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get 'un-stuck'?

🟤do you ever not notice you've switched, and suddenly realise that 'you haven't been you' for a while?

⚫can you switch 'on command" or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

⚪do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

🟥how easily accessed is your headspace? (If you have one)

🟧is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

🟨do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

🟩is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

🟦do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

🟪did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

🟫how did you pick your system name?

⬛how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

⬜is there anyone specific in your system you don't get along with?

❤️‍🔥are you 'out' as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

❤️‍🩹how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

💔are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones?

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hang on I’m trying to see something

don’t tell me the name of your pet, just tell me in the tags the name you call them that’s got nothing to do with their actual name

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MY PARTNER FUCKING PLAYED ME LIKE A FIDDLE.

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And like it's not a matter of him not wanting to front. I don't think anyway. Cause I can't grab anyone else. Theoretically I could try Laci, I guess. She's the only one who's managed to front while we're sober since our Abilify got upped to 10mg...

Found out that abilify can diminish internal communication in DID systems... Which would explain kind of why everything has been so quiet since my dosage got upped.

I'm so mad I can't be honest with my psychiatrist about wanting to go off it. It helps with my OCD but I don't...I don't like that it makes my head so quiet and seems to inhibit switching.

(It's the only change I can find between now and April when we were having pretty stable switching behavior and easily able to share a day unless I'm just that depressed... Which considering I'm sleeping 12-16 hours a day right now ... Might be possible)

I esp feel bad because today Adam was supposed to get to front because it's his canonical birthday :(