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[lordsalehi]

a reflection of berlin avery salehi / memories: 

a  memory  of  when  they  felt  HAPPINESS

her  eyes  drifted  up  from  the  neck  of  the  guitar ,  neels’  fingers  desperately  trying  to  find  the  right  chords  of  his  favorite  song .  they’d  stopped  the  official  lessons  a  while  back ,  but  they  continued  to  hang  out ,  berlin  letting  him  pick  up  her  guitar  and  try  to  play  fleetwood  mac  for  the  umpteenth  time .  there  was  something  about  the  way  his  brow  scrunched  or  the  way  his  tongue  darted  out  to  wet  his  lips  when  he  was  deep  in  concentration  that  made  her  smile .  she  didn’t  get  to  hang  out  with  people ,  not  usually ,  she  was  either  helping  her  mom  or  teaching ,  but  the  time  she  spent  now  with  neels  didn’t  feel  like  another  weight  on  her  shoulders .  the  clashing  of  the  wrong  strings  being  strummed  broke  her  from  her  daydream ,  laughing  while  reaching  out  for  the  guitar .  “ you  know  i  can  just  play  songs  for  you  right ? ”  she  asks  while  taking  the  guitar’s  place  in  his  lap .  her  hands  run  through  his  hair , tilting  his  head  back  so  he  could  look  up  at  her .  berlin’s  voice  dropped  to  a  whisper ,  leaning  down  so  her  lips  brushed  his  as  she  continued  to  drag  his  playing ,  “ or  must  you  insist  on  wrecking  my  ear  drums  every  time  you  come  over ? ”

a  memory  of  when  they  felt  GRIEF

her  mom  sat  her  down  on  the  couch ,  her  smile  nervous ,  her  eyes  watery .  the  first  thing  she  asked  her  was  ‘ what’s  wrong ? ‘  nervously  waiting  for  a  response  from  her  mom .  nearly  a  month  ago  she  had  given  berlin  what  she  thought  could  be  the  worst  news  of  her  life ,  but  her  mother’s  demeanor  now  almost  suggested  otherwise .  her  mom’s  hands  reached  out  for  her  own  giving  them  a  squeeze  before  brushing  hair  away  from  berlin’s  face .  her  next  words  were  calculated ,  trying  to  think  of  the  best  way  to  break  the  news  to  a  ten  year  old .  “ so  i  got  a  letter  from  your  father  today , ”  her  mom  starts  slowly ,  not  waiting  for  her  daughter  to  ask  questions  before  she  continues ,  “ um ... he  said  things  were  too  complicated  for  him .  but  that  he  loves  you  very  much ,  and  that  he  hopes  one  day  you  can  forgive  him . ”  berlin’s  face  had  wrinkled  with  confusion ,  but  knew  she  should  be  upset  about  it .  “ maman ,  what  do  you  mean ? ”  the  question  leaves  her  softly ,  scared  that  if  she  spoke  too  loud  her  mother  would  start  crying .  the  look  she’s  given  is  gentle ,  apologetic ,  and  sad .  instead  of  cushioning  the  damage  it  only  made  it  worse  when  she  finally  told  her .  “ he  left  us ...  i’m  sorry . ”

a  memory  of  when  they  felt  TRUST

she  stared  at  the  hand  outstretched  to  her ,  eyes  revealing  her  uncertainty .  she  didn’t  trust  people ,  not  really  anyway .  alejandro  stood  there  patiently  waiting  for  her  to  take  his  hand .  if  their  agreement  was  going  to  work  she  had  to  trust  him .  so  she  placed  her  hand  in  his ,  giving  him  a  small  smile  as  he  helped  her  out  of  the  car .  the  hand  he  placed  on  her  back  was  comforting ,  protective ,  she  felt  like  she  was  his  despite  the  fact  they  were  sinking  away  towards  the  back  of  the  restaurant ,  away  from  prying  eyes .  it  was  his  charm  and  the  way  he  called  her  beautiful ,  that  made  resisting  him  difficult ,  especially  when  he  offered  to  help ,  offered  to  care .  it’s  over  the  course  of  dinner  that  berlin  feels  herself  relax ,  finding  talking  to  him  easier  than  it  had  before .  he  was  arrogant ,  self - absorbed ,  and  thought  the  world  revolved  around  him .  he  thought  he  deserved  every  nice  thing  to  exist  and  she  was  lucky  enough  to  be  considered  one .  they  made  their  deal ,  she  had  to  believe  that  he  would  actually  keep it . 

a  memory  of  when  they  felt  ANGER

a  week .  her  brother  had  waited  a  week  after  she  turned  sixteen  to  pack  up  his  things  and  leave  them .  instead  of  letting  her  find  a  job  so  she  could  help  contribute  he  decided  he  needed  to  be  selfish  and  leave  her  with  their  mother  and  her  mountain  of  medical  bills .  he  had  tried  to  slip  out  while  she  was  at  school ,  but  hadn’t  finished  packing  his  things  in  time ,  berlin  finding  him  standing  over  his  bed  with  two  half  packed  suitcases .  it  was  wrong ,  to  let  the  hot  anger  consume  her  as  quickly  as  it  did ,  but  it  was  her  only  other  option  next  to  crying ,  which  she  wasn’t  about  to  do .  his  weak  excuse  only  fueled  the  fire  already  ignited ,  berlin’s  hands  tearing  through  the  drawers  of  his  dresser , throwing  whatever  articles  of  clothing  she  happened  to  land  on  towards  him . “ i  bet  you  sat  here  for  ages  thinking  about  what  you  were  going  to  write  on  some  fucking  letter  for  me  and  mom  right ?  tried  to  remember  what  dad  did  and  said  and  took  a  page  from  his  book ? ”  her  hands  found  the  bottle  of  cologne  that  sat  on  his  dresser  and  aimed  it  at  his  head ,  watching  his  hands  come  up  to  catch  it  only  infuriating  her  more .  she  was  about  to  pick  up  something  else  that  decorated  his  dresser  top  when  the  tired  sound  of  her  name  came  from  the  door  way .  “ berlin ,  just  let  him  go . ”  her  mother  looked  at  her  begging ,  pleading .  her  eyes  asked  her  mom  the  question  she  couldn’t ,  being  met  with  an  equal  reaction  to  answer .  berlin  turned  to  look  her  brother  dead  in  the  eyes  one  last  time ,  her  words  cold  and  unwavering .  “ you’re  a  coward .  just  like  dad . ”

a  memory  of  when  they  felt  LOVE

she’s  four  when  her  mother  brings  her  onto  her  lap ,  sitting  her  in  front  of  the  piano .  instead  of  letting  her  mess around  with  the  keys  like  she  used  to , she  starts  pointing  out  names  of  notes  and  keys  and  putting  them  together  in  chords .  her  hands  fit  easily  over  her  own ,  guiding  her  through  a  short  and  sweet  song .  the  excitement  in  her  mother’s  voice  is  evident  as  she  encourages  her  daughter  to  keep  learning  how  to  play  telling  her  that  as  long  as  she  has  music ,  she’ll  never  be  alone .  of  course ,  berlin’s  attention  had  run  dry  by  the  time  her  mom  finishes ,  letting  her  eagerly  run  back  off  to  play .

a  memory  of  when  they  felt  LONELY

more  often  than  not ,  alejandro  couldn’t  be  bothered  to  walk  her  out ,  leaving  her  to  figure  out  her  own  way  of  the  elaborate  mansion  he  called home .  she  typically  left  as  soon  as  possible ,  avoiding  any  staff ,  and  especially  any  potential  of  running  into  his  wife  or  his  daughter .  this  time  on  her  way  out ,  she  happened  to  look  up ,  her  eyes  lifting  from  the  floor  only  to  land  on  a  picture  of  him  and  his  family  posted  above  their  fireplace .  it  was  rare  that  she  ever  cared  enough  to  take  a  moment  to  realize  she  was  helping  someone  cheat ,  and  this  wasn’t  exactly  that .  it  bordered  on  guilt ,  but  really  all  berlin  felt  was  an  overwhelming  loneliness .  after  the  few  hours  he  kept  her  around  for  entertainment ,  she  meant  nothing  to  him .  her  mind  danced  between  the  people  she  knew ,  thinking  of  which  might  even  consider  her  a  friend ,  berlin  positive  the  only  person  who  ever  cared  for  her  as  more  now  hated  her .  a  chill  of  fear  runs  through  her  body  with  the  realization  that  she’s  completely  alone .  that  once  her  mom  is  gone  and  alejandro  moves  on  to  his  next  toy ,  there’s  no  one  that  would  bat  an  eye  at  her .  as  quickly  as  she  came  to  the  realization ,  she’s  forcing  herself  to  forget ,  blinking  quickly  to  dry  her  eyes .  her  foot  falls  are  faster  than  before ,  eager  to  get  to  the  front  door .

[lordsalehi]

(    *    & .    —    THE  UMBRELLA  ACADEMY  SENTENCE  STARTERS .

‘  you’re  are  depraving  some  village  of  their  idiot .  ’

‘  i  miss you .  i  miss  you  every  day  that  i’m  not  with  you .  ’

‘  i  didn’t  think  it  was  possible  to  miss  a  person  this  much .  ’

‘  if  you  love  music  then  you’re  in  the  right  place .  ’

‘  the  ties  that  bind  you  together  make  you  stronger  than  you  are  alone .  ’

‘  i  can’t  just  call  him  in  the  afterlife  and  be  like ,  ‘ can  you  please  stop  playing  tennis  with  hitler  for  a  moment  and  take  a  quick  call ? ’  ’

‘  get  up .  we’re  going  to  save  the  world .  ’

‘  it’s  not  spandex ,  it’s  leather .  and  you  used  to  like  it .  a  lot ,  if  i  recall .  ’

‘  we  can  accomplish  anything  when  we  accept  responsibility  together .  this  is  what  creates  trust .  ’

‘  you  never  know  when  to  stop ,  do  you ?  ’

‘  you  got  enough  material  for  your  sequel  yet ?  ’

‘  i  bet  you’re  loving  this ,  hm ?  the  team  at  it’s  best .  it’s  just  like  old  times .  ’

‘  he  hated  children  too  and  he  had  plenty  of  us .  ’

‘  if  you  believe  in  yourself ,  just  once ,  great  things  are  gonna  happen  for  you .  ’

‘  i  know  that  i  let  you  down ,  but  i  could  do  anything  for  you .  ’

‘  you  know ,  i  liked  you  a  lot  better  before  you  got  laid .  ’

‘  oh  yeah ,  it  is  your  skirt .  i  found  it  in  your  room .  it’s  a  little  dated ,  but  it’s  very  breathy  on  the …  bits .  ’

‘  you’re  the  most  important  person  in  the  world  to  me .  ’

‘  best .  funeral .  ever !  ’

‘  sometimes  men  are  unredeemable  shits .  ’

‘  we  were …  we  were  just  kids .  little  kids .  ’

‘  we  all  came  home .  since  we’re  here ,  we  might  as  well  save  the  world .  ’

‘  i’ve  decided  you’re  the  only  one  i  can  trust .  ’

‘  if  you’re  raised  to  believe  that  nothing  about  you  is  special ,  if  the  benchmark  is  extraordinary ,  what  do  you  do  if  you’re  not ?  ’

‘  eternal  peace  is  probably  overrated .  ’

‘  we  all  wanted  to  be  loved  by  a  man  incapable  of  giving  love .  ’

‘  one  grows  used  to  things ,  even  if ,  sometimes  one  shouldn’t .  ’

‘  look ,  you  wanna  pay  your  respects ?  go  ahead .  but  at  least  be  honest  about  the  kind  of  man  he  was .  ’

‘  you  of  all  people  should  be  on  my  side .  he  had  to  send  you  a  million  miles  away .  that’s  how  much  he  couldn’t  stand  the  sight  of  you .  ’

‘  i  feel  like  we  should  stop  him ,  but  then  again  i  also  just  kinda  wanna  see  what  happens .  ’

‘  you  make  me  want  to  wake  up  each  day  and  you’re  in  my  dreams  every  night .  ’

‘  you  also  told  me  that  licking  a  nine  volt  battery  would  give  me  pubes .  ’

‘  i’m  just  gonna  go  murder  mom ,  i’ll  be  right  back .  ’

‘  last  time  we  tried  to  stop  it ,  we  all  died .  what  makes  this  time  any  different ?  ’

‘  we  actually  have  the  chance  of  saving  the  lives  of  billions  of  people .  ’

‘  it  wasn’t  his  fault  ‘cause  he  was  ridiculously  high ,  right ?  and  the  girl ,  she  thought  he  was  a  furry …  ’

‘  i  think  maybe  you’re  the  only  person  who  really  knows  who  i  am  and  still  likes  me  anyway .  ’

‘  you  don’t  get  to  blame  your  problems  on  anyone  but  yourself .  ’

‘  we  didn’t  choose  this  life .  we’re  just  living it .  ’

‘  than  christ  he’s  not  our  real  father ,  so  we  couldn’t  inherit  those  cold ,  dead  eyes .  ’

‘  you  don’t  have  to  apologize  just  for  existing .  ’

‘  when  something  seems  to  perfect ,  it’s  usually  anything  but .  ’

‘  all  the  what - if’s  start  to  haunt  you .  ’

‘  i’m  done  playing  their  games .  i’m  ready  for  a  change .  ’

‘  i  would  love  to  play  cops  and  robbers ,  wear  a  mask ,  and  feel  important ,  but  guess  what ?  recess  is  over .  it’s  grown - up  time .  ’

‘  we  have  a  great  job .  the  best  job .  we  got  it  made ,  asshole .  ’

‘  people  still  don’t  take  me  seriously .  i  wanna  be  numb  again .  ’

‘  i  stayed  because  the  world  needed  me .  ’

‘  at  least  i  make  my  own  decisions .  ’

‘  i  have  been  left  out  of  everything  for  as  long  as  i  can  remember .  ’

‘  nowhere  to  go .  no  way  to  change .  ’

‘  but  now ,  i  know  nothing  in  my  life  was  real .  so  i’m  starting  over .  ’

‘  you  do  whatever  it  takes  to  survive .  or  you  die .  ’

‘  i  don’t  belong  anywhere ,  thanks  to  you !  you  made  me  a  killer !  ’

‘  i’ve  done  unimaginable  things ,  things  you  couldn’t  even  comprehend ,  just  to  get  back  here  and  save  you .  ’

‘  she  needs  our  help  and  we  can’t  do  that  if  she’s  locked  in  a  cage .  ’

‘  i  mean ,  it  must  be  scary .  terrifying ,  really .  to  discover  that  you  can  do  something  that  you  never  thought  you  could  do .  ’

‘  it’s  not  difficult  to  accept ,  it’s  impossible  to  accept !  ’

‘  what  are  you  still  doing  here ?  we’re  trying  to  have  a  serious  conversation .  ’

‘  what’s  going  on  with  you ?  and  don’t  tell  me  everything  is  alright  because  i  saw  you  in  there .  you  were  crying  like  a  baby .  ’

‘  you  saved  my  life !  ’

‘  i  don’t  want  them  to  see  me  like  this .  besides ,  you  know ,  i’d  just  hold  them  back .  ’

‘  how  about  we  ask  him  after  we  kill  him ?  ’

‘  maybe  they’ll  brood  each  other  to  death .   ’

‘  you’re  a  real  sick  bastard .  ’

‘  would  you  stop  it ?  why  are  you  putting  this  shit  in  your  body ?  ’

‘  he  must  have  been  a  very  special  person  to  put  up  with  your  weird - ass  shit .  ’

‘  you  were  my  greatest  disappointment .  you  only  scratched  the  surface  of  what  you  were  capable  of .  ’

‘  i  lost  someone .  the  only …  the  only  person  i’ve  ever  truly  loved  more  than  myself .  ’

‘  you  know ,  before  you  kill  him ,  you  might  want  to  hear  what  he  has  to  say .  ’

‘  we  all  came  home .  since  we’re  here , we  might  as  well  save  the  world .  ’

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ostcntatious‌:

𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖙𝖊𝖗 / ​ @lordsalehi​ !

          𝐎𝐏𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐀  𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒  𝐍𝐎𝐓  like  berlin  .  she  has  no  reason  to  ,  after  all  –––  there  is  no  family  name  that  would  make  her  plaster  on  the  smile  she  has  spent  hours  perfecting  in  front  of  a  mirror  ,  no  wealth  to  earn  the  other  an  invitation  to  lunch  at  phe’s  favorite  restaurant  .  no  ,  berlin  has  nothing  that  would  interest  ophelia  …  until  she  does  ,  and  a  simple  inquiry  into  the  other’s  backstory  leaves  ophelia  with  the  unwelcome  realization  that  she  has  something  (  or  someone  ,  rather  )  in  common  with  a  scholarship  student  .  her  own  bitterness  leading  to  displays  of  pettiness  ,  passive  aggressive  remarks  falling  from  red  lips  naturally  .  it’s  easy  to  be  mean  ,  so  easy  ,  when  she  knows  it  so  well  –––  even  when  berlin  shrugs  her  off  with  similar  ease  ,  offering  little  to  no  reaction  to  ophelia’s  consistent  attacks  .  ophelia  steps  into  a  coffee  shop  ,  sneers  at  those  waiting  in  line  –––  she  already  intends  to  cut  it  ,  valuing  her  time  above  everyone  else’s  ,  eager  to  use  her  reputation  as  a  shield  .  her  wealth  makes  her  rise  above  others  ,  her  cruelty  makes  her  untouchable  .  and  the  sight  of  berlin  at  the  front  of  the  line  is  enough  to  solidify  her  intentions  ,  routine  shifting  into  game  .  so  ophelia  steps  right  to  the  front  of  the  queue  ,  louboutins  carrying  her  towards  the  barista  without  a  second  thought  ,  words  already  falling  as  a  wallet  is  extracted  delicately  from  her  chanel  purse  .  ’  an  espresso  ,  please  .  ’  she  may  be  cruel  ,  but  ophelia  still  has  manners  .  even  when  cutting  in  line  right  in  front  of  berlin  ,  barely  giving  the  other  more  than  a  sideways  glance  .

she  wishes  she  could  say  she  was  surprised ,  but  the  one  and  only  ophelia  song  jumping  in  front  of  her  in  line  was  expected ,  what  was  shocking  though  was  that  she  dared  to�� even  get  this  close  to  berlin .  her  entire  ordeal  came  from  the  fact  they  had  both  dated  neels  and  still  she  couldn’t  quite  figure  out  why  the  other  girl  even  gave  a  fuck .  it  was  in  the  past ,  nearly  four  years  in  the  past ,  as  was  ophelia’s  relationship  with  neels  if  she  remembered  correctly .  looking  into  things  she  could  see  how  they  were  similar ,  what  his  appeal  to  the  girl  in  front  of  her  could  be .  except  berlin  never  wanted  to  hurt  neels .  that’s  where  they  differed .  if  you  asked  her  to  bet  on  it ,  she’d  say  the  only  reason  ophelia  even  still  cared  was  because  he  embarrassed  her  in  public .  the  blonde  had  nothing  but  wealth  related  pride  and  a  superiority  complex  attached  to  an  empty  last  name .  from  behind  the  girl’s  shoulder ,  berlin  flashed  the  barista  a  tight  lipped  smile .  “ tall  black  coffee . ”  she  adds  right  after  ophelia’s  order .  before  she  can  protest ,  berlin  has  a  hand  out  telling  her  to  wait ,  “ i  thought  since  you  were  joining  me  that  meant  you  were  buying .  you  have  money  don’t  you ?  or  should  i  take  out  my  wallet  i  got  from  the  ninety - nine - cent  store  the  last  time  i  went  to  new  york ? ”

[lordsalehi]

release your inner bitches feel the rain on your skin 

[lordsalehi]

lulucias‌:

-    (   OPEN.

       watching the SUNSET is one of lucia’s favorite things, gives her a sense of serenity she rarely feels throughout her day. she thinks she has a whole collection of pictures dedicated to watching the sunset and capturing the moment it’s the most BEAUTIFUL – the different colors of cotton candy pink and smoky orange blending together to create a FASCINATING image that leaves her captivated. lucia is more of a night owl, usually missing the rise of the sun, but rarely misses it when it sets, only to be replaced by the moon and the stars she can’t help ADORING either. it was no different today, however, camera ready to snap up the perfect image when someone stands in front of her way. “if you wanted me to give you a photoshoot, all you had to do was ask for the price. i would’ve gladly had you as one of my models.” her tone is playful and teasing, bringing the camera down to look at the other rather than the sunset behind them. tomorrow was another day and she’ll capture the incredible shot then.

admittedly ,  once  she  realized  she  had  walked  in  front  of  the  other  girl’s  shot  she  felt  kind  of  bad .  it  was  the  whole  artist’s  muse  thing ,  she  got  it .  moving  so  that  she  was  standing  to  the  side  of  her ,  berlin  cracked  a  smile .  “ you  know  i  think  the  last  time  i  took  actual  pictures  was  for  graduation .  high  school  graduation . ”  the  golden  reflection  of  the  sun  off  the  other  girl  highlighted  all  her  finest  features ,  something  she  couldn’t  help  but  notice .  instead  of  a  continued  gaze ,  she  redirected  her  eyes  to  the  horizon ,  admiring  the  sunset  the  same  way  she  had  been .  “ i  never  knew  how  pretty  some  of  the  views  around  campus  were . ” 

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marlbros‌:

          maren  ,   open  . 

maren  was  never  well - acquainted  with  luxury  .    her  parents  weren't  the  type  to  live  above  their  means  ,   meaning  a  childhood  devoid  of  splurging  on  snack  foods  and  the  latest  toys  (  plus  the  not  included  batteries  .  )   the  iphone  8  plus  she’d  bought  duty  free  in  portland’s  airport  was  easily  the  most  expensive  thing  she’d  ever  touched  ,  and  she  treated  it  as  if  it  were  a  bar  of  solid  gold  .   she  scrolls  through  the  app  store  like  a   tourist  without  a  map  ,  chewing  on  her  bottom  lip  as  she  waits  for  temple  run  to  finish  installing  ,    clutching  her  horse - embossed  fleece  zip  up  closed  at  the  neck  .   “   what’s  onlyfans  ?   it’s  like  ,   number  one  .   ”   

it  was  always   a  good  moment  when  she  didn’t  have  to  fill   silence   with  the  sound  of   her  voice .   the   company   maren  provided  from  her  spot  across   the  couch  was   enough   for   her   for   the   most  part ,  but   the  girl’s  question   drew  her   attention   up   from  the  little   keyboard  on  her   screen .  berlin   didn’t  even  know  what  the  apps   purpose  was ,  her  own   input   being  close  to  useless .  “ isn’t   that   like ...  the  app   where  people  can  make  money  off  their  pictures ?  i  think  it’s  something   like  that . ”   she  shrugs  and  returns  her   focus  back  to  her   phone ,   “ i   think  it’s  creepier   than   just   finding  someone  to   do   the  same  thing  in  real   life . ”

[lordsalehi]

ASK MY MUSE ABOUT THEIR MUSIC TASTE.

Send a music note to ask my muse about their taste in music.

Send ♩  to learn the very last song my muse listened to. Send ♪  to learn my muses go to break up/down in out song. Send ♫ to learn a song that my muse plays on repeat a lot. Send ♬ to learn a song that my muse knows all the words to. Send ♭  to learn a song that my muse absolutely can’t stand. Send ♯  to learn what types of genre my muse prefers to listen to.

[lordsalehi]

mcybebailey·:

    /       snap sent   →  @lordsari··

@bayleymaybey: so i accidentally dropped my favorite hoodie in mud @bayleymaybey: i’m in PAIN right now i hate this timeline

berlins99  :  the blue one or the gray one?? berlins99  :  you think we can clean it?    

[lordsalehi]

simonfms‌: 

LIMITED  EDITION  ZELDA  SKIN  SWITCH  ,  clad  in  black  and  gold  ,  hangs  protectively  in  one  hand  where  the  average  would  rest  their  phones  .  pokemon  shield  was  at  the  ready  ——  preparing  his  team  for  the  game  expansion  that  would  release  in  two  months  time  .  recently  he  added  toxtricity  to  the  team  ——  sure  to  increase  the  power  of  the  team  when  facing  formidable  opponents  .  naturally  ,  he  comes  to  sit  with  berlin  and  immediately  pulls  the  game  into  his  view  ,  offering  a  beneficent  smile  before  returning  his  gaze  to  the  screen  .  “  totally  ,  ”  sj  spoke  with  a  nod  ,  “  my  dungeons  and  dragons  party  went  up  against  ,  ”  a  pause  ,  eyes  lifting  to  her  and  growing  wide  in  jest  ,  his  smile  shaping  to  match  it  ,  “  a  beholder  !  ah  —  the  horror  !  ”  sj  settles  back  into  his  seat  ,  the  smile  still  playing  on  lips  .  “  we  crushed  it  .  but  i  also  did  some  homework  .  what  about  you  ?  ”

sj was one person who refused to leave berlin alone, not in a bad or clingy way, but more in a way that he didn’t completely dump her after they finished their project for class together a year or so ago. at this point he’s probably considered a friend, especially since he knows more about her home life than anyone else at this school, but she still feels the need to keep him at an arms distance, not wanting him to see more than he really already has. as sj geeked out in front of her, berlin stared at him wide eyed and not understanding a single word he said. “i thought dungeons and dragons was like a fake game from the big bang theory or whatever.” she frowned, still not understanding anything he said, growing more confused they longer she sat on his words. “you stayed home and did homework instead of going to the party?” the disbelief in her voice was evident, “i had to work this weekend, needed the money for groceries and unfortunately a party doesn’t pay the bills. if you find a way for it though, let me know.” 

[lordsalehi]

ftaislinn‌:

aislinn enters the crowded room, she walks in search of an empty seat. every table she passes she hears someone speaking about the party whether it be about the video circulating among the students or the fights that broke out. either way, it was evident that the party was going to be the talk of the week. or the rest of the school year. she finally finds an empty seat, sliding into it, she notices the new face in front of her speak, “something like that.” she says, letting out a small laugh, “were you there?”

when berlin finally looks up, her blood runs a little cold. it was just her luck that aislinn  happened to sit across from her, having absolutely no clue who she was or that she existed before this moment while berlin had the power to deconstruct her family in a matter of seconds. smiling off the panic she felt by the others presence, she forces a laugh with a shake of her head. “god not at all, i had to go home for the weekend.” or something like that. “how did the night go for you though? you seem to be more awake and less red eyed than others.”

[lordsalehi]

lifecftheparty‌:

A DREAMY HAZE DRAPED OVER HIS BROWN HUES , much akin to a curtain that blocks out the sun, his radiant eyes appeared to be much more muted. still , a lazy grin decorated the young man’s face. he was coming down from his own star-studded weekend as well  — though not the spectacular extravaganza everyone couldn’t keep out their mouths.  lady luck always had a VENDETTA against fazil , no doubt did her wicked , toothy grin SHINE as her as she toyed with him this weekend. of course, acclaimed party connoisseur, fazil missed the literal party of the YEAR. whether it was just his luck  — or, just his karma , he wasn’t sure. what he did know ?  that his case of FOMO made him create a party of his own. attendees ? fazil and his grinding bowl. plopping down the seat across from her, his drowsiness shows form through a huff,  ❝ man , you have no idea. ❞ sleepy eyes flutter up to meet the girl’s face , his lazy grin beginning to look more like a smirk,  ❝ you should’ve stopped by  — i had the whole apartment to myself , ya’ know.  ❞

shutting her book, berlin grinned at the guy in front of her. he was one of the few non-scholarship kids she could stand, he didn’t carry himself like he was better than everyone else, never looked down his nose at them ( at least not that she was aware ) . “well i didn’t hear about your presence at the party to be at, so what did you get yourself up to at home?” his next comment causes her to roll her eyes playfully, even drawing a small laugh from her chest, but she knew full well if he had extended an invitation and she wasn’t busy she’d have gone over. “an empty apartment is always a tempting offer.” she returns the gentle turn of her lips, gently kicking her feet up onto his lap, “i was doing my own work, i have to make money somehow, you know.” her ‘work’ was really spending some quality time with alejandro busamante, who happened to give her a few hundred just for their date and evening alone. “you have any intel on what happened this weekend with your friends? you know i love to hear it.”

[lordsalehi]

would you ever sleep with a friends love interest (not dating)??

“my first response would be yes… actually maybe, if i’m being morally correct. but i don’t have very many people i’d consider friends so i’d might reconsider that decision.”

[lordsalehi]

“ who do you think you are? “

she couldn’t help the smirk that twisted it’s way onto her lips, finding the fact that someone felt threatened enough by her to even pick this fight humorous. the beautiful thing was that berlin, quite frankly, didn’t care. there wasn’t time spent worrying about how she looked, what she said, who she talked to, what her ‘status’ was, or if she had any romantic connections. she didn’t care about anything everyone involved themselves in, her only goal was to finish her degree and leave. making direct eye contact with winona, berlin pouted while giving her a shrug. sweetening her voice, she chirps at the other girl, “no one important to you, ta-ta for now!” 

[lordsalehi]

ASK MY MUSE A QUESTION AND I CAN ONLY RESPOND WITH A GIF OF THEM

[lordsalehi]

random sentence starters

random sentences for any / multiple scenario(s). change around as you see fit.

“ who do you think you are? “

“ wait , did you just say you love me? “

“ please just … leave me alone. “

“ i’m so happy! “

“ is this a gift for me? “

“ hey! i’ve got something for you! wait right here! “

“ i love you. “

“ shut up! shut the fuck up! “

“ who told you that?! i didn’t say that! “

“ w — what? “

“ … i’m sorry. “

“ what? ME have a crush on YOU? whaaaaaat?! haha! what? pfft … shut up! “

“ bitch , guess what? “

“ oh my god … “

“ fuck you to fucking hell! “

“ man … go to hell. “

“ what did you just send me? “

“ what did you just say? “

“ they’re totally checking you out right now. “

“ jealous?! i’m not jealous! “

“ are you jealous? “

“ wow … you’re hot when you’re angry. “

“ wow … your smile is breathtaking. “

“ you’re so stupid. “

“ okay! that’s it! put your dukes up! “

“ you don’t want me. “

“ question , you’re not dating anyone , are you? “

“ let me take you out on a date. “

“ i swear to god i’m going to scream at the top of my lungs. “

“ no! don’t tickle me! “

“ i’m not good for you , trust me. “

“ no offense but i’m out of your league. “

“ so , how does it feel to know me? a blessing , isn’t it? “

“ … why does this card say ‘ happy 3rd birthday ‘? “

“ so what will it be tonight? “

“ please , let me listen to celine dion in the dark in peace. “

“ i don’t love you. “

“ you don’t love me. “

“ … is there something you want? “

“ you know , you’re really cute. “

“ god , just let me fucking love you , you idiot! “

“ shh … don’t cry. “

“ i just feel like everything is falling apart. “

“ DON’T YOU DARE! DON’T YOU FUCKING DARE! “

“ hello darkness my old friend … “

“ so … do i get a goodnight kiss? “

[lordsalehi]

[lordsalehi]

wtfyousef‌:

“ FUCK YEAH. you missed out, big time . “ yousef is grinning, still feeling the BASK of warmth over what a success his party was. he’s completely oblivious to the drama that came with it. completely in his own world about what a supposed  ‘ good time ‘ he had.  “ bit upset you couldn’t make it , but hey - i’m a forgivin’ man. “ yousef says. honestly, even if she HAD been there, yousef doubted he would have remembered, he was so BLIND. “ had better plans ?” he asks, grin on his features, easygoing as always. he holds no real ANGER over berlin not coming . in fact, he IS interested as to what she got up to instead. 

he hadn’t come in with any ferocity to him, which was a bit surprising considering how often she’d seen him otherwise. she chooses not to rain on his parade, knowing not to make things harder when they were already tough to be a valuable skill of hers. him saying he was upset she wasn’t there evicts a scoff from her, knowing her presence at the party in particular had no serious effect on anyone. “oh yeah, i had a piano at home calling my name.” berlin answers with a smile, only giving him half the truth. she was home, for the majority of the weekend. but she did have to make a stop at a special someone’s place to uphold their agreement. shutting her book, berlin directs her attention to yousef, “how much do you even remember from that night? from what i’ve heard you had a blast.”