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Some Mental Health Reminders

Some Mental Health Reminders

Mental health is never easy. We all have our struggles. As I put it into words it seems so simple but yet is extremely complicated. As someone who’s struggled for a few years and now is doing better, take it from me when I say that there’s hope. Even when everything seems dark and you don’t know which direction you’re heading in, there still is hope. Use it to let it get you to a point beyond…

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Anxiety : A Routine

Anxiety : A Routine

You start your morning routine waking up a little bit too late to catch the bus that will take you to work on time. But that’s okay, getting to work sweaty uncomfortable is part of your routine.

You spend exactly 6 minutes looking up notifications on your phone. You’re running out of time, but that’s okay, that’s how long you usually do it. You run out of notifications after 4 minutes and spend…

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Thought Of The Day Vexation has been shattering me for few weeks on, Another wakening some five hours before desired.

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Thought Of The Day

Thought Of The Day

“Have you heard of the multiverse theory?” she turns to look at me, curious eyes over thick-rimmed glasses. i shrug.

“sort of,” i say. “but explain it to me anyway.” i know she likes doing that, teaching people.

“well, there’s not much science behind it,” she says, a hint of pink staining her cheekbones as she admits it. “it’s more poetic than anything. but i like it.” she sets down the papers…

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Thought Of The Day Jenny Young: Do you think I can have one more kiss? I'll find closure on your lips, and then I'll go.

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Thought Of The Day "I have decided I’m just going to be free and follow my muse and do whatever I want, because I’m 70 years old and I can." —  Stevie Nicks, eternal muse and inspiration - Rolling Stone, February 28, 2019.

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Thought Of The Day

Thought Of The Day

I understand that your mind is a battlefield, that you’re fighting each day and each night to make it out alive, but tell me; who’s going to win when you’re going to war against yourself?

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Thought Of The Day

Thought Of The Day

“Things went to hell when I stopped writing for myself, when the emotions running in me became figures on a shelf, my chest aches for the words that had once filled my lungs with oxygen, where tightness had been once.

There is nothing more natural than poetry filling my pages and yet I can’t find it in me, haven’t created anything in ages.

Because even right now I cannot tell if these lines were…

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Thought Of The Day "Monsters are always hungry, darling, and they’re only a few steps behind you, finding the flaw, the poor weld, the place where we weren’t stitched up quite right, the place they could almost slip right into through if the skin wasn’t trying to keep them out." — Richard Siken, Snow and Dirty Rain

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Thought Of The Day

Thought Of The Day

“Here I stand at the edge of the great divide

hanging on to remnants of time.

All that was good was washed out to sea,

all that was bad has settled on me.

Here I stand at the crossroads of life

with a heavy heart and burdened with choice.

The wind whispers of storm clouds and bloody skies

and leaves me with drizzle and a grey sunrise.

Here I am at the end of all things

with nothing to cling to…

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Thought Of The Day

Thought Of The Day

“Mi sento male perchè sento di non viverle, queste cazzo di giornate. Sento che le faccio passare, che faccio scorrere il tempo senza usarlo, senza prenderlo per il culo e magari farmi quattro risate e basta. Non sto vivendo, io sto solo passando.”

“I feel bad because I feel I do not live them, these fucking days. I feel like I let them pass, I run the time without using it, without taking it for…

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Thought Of The Day

Thought Of The Day

“Our love had an expiration date. we were half-soured milk, five dollar sunglasses that break the next day, impermanence stuck like corn in our teeth. we were stopwatch kids, race against the clock, feel as much as you can before it’s gone.

and we tried, didn’t we? …to stick the label forever over something already expired, over this love, this sunburn love, gone as soon as it came.

sometimes I…

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Thought Of The Day "I wanted to be as lipstick-stained as her morning mug of coffee. I wanted to be buried in the graveyard…

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Thought Of The Day

Thought Of The Day

Ya es muy tarde para correr a mis brazos cansados de esperarte es muy tarde para conmoverme con tu pálida sonrisa con tus lágrimas corriendo río abajo

ya no quiero estar donde solía querer ni imaginar el amanecer contigo manos de papel fuego de lluvia manto oscuro de palabras

tú lo decidiste tomaste el otro camino te perdiste y yo dejé de buscarte me acostumbré a no pensarte a vivir mis días sin…

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Tell Me A Story – part 6

Tell Me A Story – part 6; "It’s not your fault for being white, but it’s your fault if you blame us for not being white."

“I’m a first year undergrad arts student, and I took anthropology as one of my electives for this semester. The topic for the week was ethnicity and race and during class, our professor made us all stand up and move to the far side of the lecture hall, all backing up in a line against a wall. We were doing an activity known as “race to the wall”, where you our prof would tell us statements, and…

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Tell Me A Story – part 5

Tell Me A Story – part 5 ; "I waited for death everyday until I saw a child being born."

“The Wait Never Ends I waited under the blazed sun despising the heat I waited by the seaside for the waves to crash against my feet

I waited till my sister moved out of my room I waited impatiently for my groom

I waited for my parents to leave I waited for my barren self to conceive

I waited for him to show me signs of relief I waited for Him to show me how to believe

I waited in the fields for…

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Tell Me A Story – part 4

Tell Me A Story – part 4

“The hard thing I had to go through was loving my skin. I had acne since I was 10 and everyone, especially the desi community, felt the need to make fun of me and ask me why my skin is so bad or have I thought of washing my face. The common derogatory suggestions. My self esteem was so bad to the point where I’d cancel school and stay at home if I got a new pimple.

10 years later, I am finally at…