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I used to hate exercise and hate being in public, it was a good day if I walked down a couple blocks and back. Sometimes I'd enjoy a day in a park separated from everyone else, but how I'm doing daily 5K walks - I might even start running or jogging!!

It's crazy what having a body that doesn't feel inherently wrong will do to you.

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What about an aggressive designer virus that just causes lactase production?

If I was a billionaire I'd throw millions at a biotech startup to make brown cows that give chocolate milk, just to make the world a little better

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Just had my first dream that acknowledged my Nullification surgery!!!!

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HOLY SHIT I LOVE MY NEW FORM!!!!!

Unexpected benefit of Nullification surgery: due to the hormone changes I can actually cry again!!!! Like in therapy today instead of just starting to tear up and then it getting turned inwards/emotional response during down and replaced with "slam your head into a wall" repeating over and over like it had done I just cried!!! It was great and cathartic

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I've hit the post Nullification surgery testosterone decrease lack of hornyness and TBH I'm really vibing with it??? Like I didn't really think of that as something I was excited for but TBH I'm actually really happy with it!

IDK if I'm asexual, I've always identified with pan and assumed my lack of enjoyment using my body was a dysphoria thing. I'm def panromantic but IDK, and that's okay.

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As someone with no genitals, can confirm I definitely have sexual desires and am sexy according to at least one other person. (The lack of genitals is only a month old, but both points have only increased post surgery)

I have to disagree with this take. Yes, yes, ace rights and all. I am aspec myself. But it shouldn't be a huge leap in logic to understand that lacking genitals says nothing about one's sexuality, nor about one's ability to be sexy. I do not expect Margot Robbie to even have considered that real people might not possess genitals, but I know that queer people online certainly have done so. Be you Margot Robbie or Tumblr genderthing, let me remind you: You can feel sexual desire without having genitals.

You can be sexy without having genitals.

And yes, if you get a little creative, you can even have sex without having genitals.

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The saddest part of getting Nullification surgery is I'll likely never again have a bad memory gender affirmation day.

This is an occasion which has happened at least 3 times when I get really confused if I'm trans or not for half a day because I forget non-binary gender exists and I'm like "wait I don't think I'm really female, but thinking and it male doesn't seem right either??? Am I trans or cis????" Resulting in confusion and so I put it on the back burner until I'm like "okay what if I'm done kind of third option ???? Is that a t- oooohhhhh right I'm non-binary"

But NOW I'll be like "what's my gender situation?" And immediately realize based on my surgery.

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Character: Perrito!(Perrito is the name of a character)

DreamWorks subtitles: (speaks foreign language)

netflix subtitles are great for when you want to read a caption with like 50% resemblance to what's being spoken

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If you're getting nullification surgery and think you don't want to keep sensitive nerves there - don't let yourself be pressured into it! It's my one regret with my surgery (other than not getting it done sooner)

I never liked having sensitive sensation there, and I was pretty confident that would remain the case, but my mom for some reason decided it was incredibly important for me to keep the nerves. I have no idea why she would be concerned about that at all, but with how insistent she was being I decided the easiest way to get out of the incredibly uncomfortable situation was to just agree.

I regret that decision, and I urge anyone seeing this to make surgical decisions based on what you want, not based on what your parents or anyone wants or what they think your future partners will want.

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A glimpse into the psyche of me right after Nullification surgery fresh off the anastesia through a phone note I just found:

(this was in reference to wondering if it'd be used for research or just thrown out, a subject I kept meaning to inquire about and forgetting)

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one of the papers im using says they proved something, and mentioned someone else proved it as well, but doesnt actually write out the proof, or cite either of these proofs. so i emailed the author, and he responded which is nice given he's long-retired, but he says he doesn't remember how he proved it (but it "wasn't difficult"). but i cant figure out how to prove it. so like. cmon man. am i just supposed to take your word for it. fermat behavior

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Omg that's great! It works so well in toki pona too cuz you could even think of it like "poki-mon(suta)"

toki pona compatible word: pokemon

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You're welcome! I'm so happy I was able to help you find out!!! TBH I highly recommend it! The surgery is very safe and much easier recovery than other bottom surgery updates!

I'm 4 weeks post-op and I can already say the ordeal was worth it, and I'm just about healed up now! If you have any questions about it I made this alt basically purely to spread awareness that nullification surgery is an option and answer questions about it!

Hey all you trans peeps, especially nonbinary peeps, have your ever heard of Nullification surgery? If you ever wanted to have no genitals it's the option for you AND it has a much safer, faster, and easier recovery than other bottom surgery!!!!!!

This option is soooo underrepresented and too many people don't know about it, so please feel free to reblog it even if you're not interested!

I'm also super happy to answer any questions about it as someone who has received it recently at 22 years old!

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As of today bleeding has essentially completely stopped! No more pads for me! Still some swelling and minor pain but things are going to normal with a body I feel much more comfortable in!

My personal Nullification surgery timeline:

Find surgeon who seemed great (Dr.Praful Rameneni) and schedule surgery 4 months in advance

Get 2 letters, one from my therapist and one from someone she referred me to (both free, there's a whole network of therapists who will assess and write letters for free)

Get referral from my PCP for insurance

Submit insurance 2 months ahead of time but they have several issues with my PCPs referral letter it's mostly my PCPs offices fault (stuff like not mentioning any information about the surgeon or their hospital)

Get approved for surgery 2 DAYS beforehand (Cry from relief)

Surgery!!! (Went well)

Hospital for 2 days (no epidural just pain meds, could have left earlier or stayed later but 2 days was best for me) - left with a bunch of pads

After 1 week only using 1 pad a day (probably could have the whole time)

2 weeks no longer feel need for pain meds (unless I overexert myself a bunch)

And now, 4 weeks later, can't imagine having genitals and pain is down to 0.5/10 when lying down!!! Swelling still a bit more than I'd like, it should keep going down though. Now that I'm most of the way out of the recovery I can definitely say it was all worth it for me.

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*This includes anyone who does not fall into the binary of "always, wholly, and exclusively male" or "always, wholly, and exclusively female," even if you don't necessarily identify with the nonbinary label specifically.

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My personal Nullification surgery timeline:

Find surgeon who seemed great (Dr.Praful Rameneni) and schedule surgery 4 months in advance

Get 2 letters, one from my therapist and one from someone she referred me to (both free, there's a whole network of therapists who will assess and write letters for free)

Get referral from my PCP for insurance

Submit insurance 2 months ahead of time but they have several issues with my PCPs referral letter it's mostly my PCPs offices fault (stuff like not mentioning any information about the surgeon or their hospital)

Get approved for surgery 2 DAYS beforehand (Cry from relief)

Surgery!!! (Went well)

Hospital for 2 days (no epidural just pain meds, could have left earlier or stayed later but 2 days was best for me) - left with a bunch of pads

After 1 week only using 1 pad a day (probably could have the whole time)

2 weeks no longer feel need for pain meds (unless I overexert myself a bunch)

And now, 4 weeks later, can't imagine having genitals and pain is down to 0.5/10 when lying down!!! Swelling still a bit more than I'd like, it should keep going down though. Now that I'm most of the way out of the recovery I can definitely say it was all worth it for me.

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