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For the second time I've had a nightmare I still had genitals since I got Nullification surgery, woke up in a child sweat.

I have 2 major regrets with nullification surgery: not getting it sooner and not getting more removed while I was there. (I was pressured to keep my nerves from my genitals under the skin)

If you're thinking about nullification surgery, look into it! If you're confident pursue it! And don't let anyone else, family or otherwise, make you choose anything less than exactly what you want from it.

If you have any questions about nullification surgery or my experience with it feel free to send an ask or DM!

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For the second time I've had a nightmare I still had genitals since I got Nullification surgery, woke up in a child sweat.

I have 2 major regrets with nullification surgery: not getting it sooner and not getting more removed while I was there. (I was pressured to keep my nerves from my genitals under the skin)

If you're thinking about nullification surgery, look into it! If you're confident pursue it! And don't let anyone else, family or otherwise, make you choose anything less than exactly what you want from it.

If you have any questions about nullification surgery or my experience with it feel free to send an ask or DM!

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i don't want to sound like i'm forcefully shoving identities on people who don't want it (who am i to do it, the patriarchy?), but.

"lots of people with PCOS/gynecomastia don't identify as intersex/don't want to be called intersex!" may it have something to do with all this aggressive gatekeeping around intersex label? with medical workers and scientists purposefully narrowing the definition of being intersex to exclude as many people as they can? with medical workers NOT SAYING even the actual diagnosis and being like "oh your hormones are messy you need to take these pills/get surgery?" with all these terfs screaming about "just disordered women/men?" with blatant misinformation around the definition of intersexness? with these ideas that intersex = visible difference at genitalia (at best) / bigenitalia (at worst)? with all these ideas that intersex people are rare freaky freaks, and it's nearly impossible to even see one of us, not to say BE one of us? may it have something to do with this?

"but we can't just say that 10% of people are intersex!" WHY? what makes you so scared of this idea? what makes you think that being intersex has to be something extremely rare? what you're afraid of?

i don't want to push labels on someone and pressure someone to identify with community they don't want to. but i'm really sure that gatekeeping and stigma play a big role in choices of people who don't identify as intersex while have body traits that fit the definition (not the narrow gatekeepy one but the community one).

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2 months and 2 weeks post op. It's crazy how I haven't had any suicidal ideation in 6 weeks now - before nullification surgery it was unheard of for me to go a week without having several times when I actively had to fight off the desire to kill myself.

And I've been in some STRESSFUL family situations recently and killing myself didn't even occur to me! Only thought about it while reflecting on my mental health.

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2 months and 2 weeks post op. It's crazy how I haven't had any suicidal ideation in 6 weeks now - before nullification surgery it was unheard of for me to go a week without having several times when I actively had to fight off the desire to kill myself.

And I've been in some STRESSFUL family situations recently and killing myself didn't even occur to me! Only thought about it while reflecting on my mental health.

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Had a nightmare last night that I didn't get Nullification surgery. Literally such fear and panic and frustration as I realized I had genitals again. When I done up I was SO glad lol

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Just started taking hormones!

Probably should have done that before I started experimenting significant symptoms of menopause due to my body stopping producing sex hormones 8 what ago lol.

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Love and support neopronouns but why does hinge have like 6 sets of them but no it/its pronouns? Like I get it when a form just has he/she/they and it's like okay you're sticking with the more common stuff. But like I feel like when you're including several sets of neopronouns including ones for a fictional alien race you're clearly trying to accommodate peeps with niche pronouns, and they don't even have an "other" option, just a "don't display pronouns" option

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Not me! I got rid of them both! (I am currently pursuing getting to medically healthy levels, right now I'm basically going through menopause in my 20s though)

Everyone has goth sex hormones it came free with your fucking existence.

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As someone who would only select one of these options, yeah

this is a way better model... you'll still get transphobic & intersexist drs of course but i prefer this to male / female or even having separate questions for gender & sex.

[we can't see the full form, but i'd suggest having a "something else" option and dominant hormone question too.]

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Green eyes shouldn’t actually be considered an eye color. It’s just not common enough, it’s a VERY SMALL percentage of the population, 1-2%. Green eyes are also caused by an irregular mutation. Most people have blue or brown eyes, so those are the two eye colors.

All the “green eyes” positivity is actually a bad thing, by the way. Having green eyes is linked to higher rates of retinal melanoma. You’re celebrating something dangerous that can cause suffering.

And besides, most people with “green eyes” lean closer to blue or brown anyways. They should just make up their minds and be brown eyed or green eyed. And if it’s too hard to tell, they should get corrective surgery (because green eyes are dangerous, and associated with more difficult medical care!) or at the least wear contacts so they don’t confuse people. But also they should be required to

I hate to sound like this, but green eyes are a far more recent development than blue eyes in the mutagenic history of humans. So humans weren’t created to have green eyes.

And hazel eyes? Those are just a variant of brown eyes—come on, they’re far closer to brown than green. They just have a couple greenish traits. And there’s no way there’s that many green eyed people, or a wide variety of eye colors… It’s just not natural.

I don’t have a problem with green eyed people, they didn’t ask to be born that way—but there’s just too few of them for it to be an actual eye color. We don’t need all this “green eye positivity” or putting green eyes in media. The internet is making people delude themselves into thinking it’s more common than it really is.

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At Thanksgiving with my *super progressive* family who will all tell me how happy they are that I'm happy with my surgery, and then immediately make fun of my haircut and constantly misgender me, like most of the time they successfully correct themselves to they/them but then actively tell me they would never refer to me as it/its for the fifth time even though I haven't mentioned it since the first time they proclaimed that years ago.

Like I do appreciate them generally but I swear they jump on any way they can make fun of my gender expression or tell me they don't respect my gender in a socially acceptable way. After being interrupted while saying how much I appreciate them with an insult to my hair I just needed to vent.

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Me when my sister feels the need to unprompted tell me for the seventh time that if I said I only wanted to be referred to as it/its she would never refer to me as such:

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Wow!!! I'm significantly less worried about my family history of diabetes now!

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I used to hate exercise and hate being in public, it was a good day if I walked down a couple blocks and back. Sometimes I'd enjoy a day in a park separated from everyone else, but how I'm doing daily 5K walks - I might even start running or jogging!!

It's crazy what having a body that doesn't feel inherently wrong will do to you.

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What about an aggressive designer virus that just causes lactase production?

If I was a billionaire I'd throw millions at a biotech startup to make brown cows that give chocolate milk, just to make the world a little better

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Just had my first dream that acknowledged my Nullification surgery!!!!