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I probably thought if I moved here I would fit in better. You know, I thought I might find more like-minded people or whatever. But honestly, the people here are a lot worse than the people I knew in school. (...) I just feel like I left Carricklea thinking I could have a different life. But I hate it here, and now I can never go back there again. I mean, those friendships are gone. Rob is gone, I can never see him again. I can never get that life back. NORMAL PEOPLE (2020) dir. Lenny Abrahamson, Hettie Macdonald

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Marianne Sheridan and Connell Waldron NORMAL PEOPLE (2020) | EPISODE 2

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“I’m making sure I still have a fulfilled life, regardless of external validation or success or love,” he says. “For as long as people love me or hate me, or for as long as I’m working or as long as I’m not, I need to be able to love myself and feel fulfilled outside of that.”

- Sebastian Croft

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“Running towards or running from?”

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I wish I could stop my thoughts.

I wish I could stop the feeling

of screwing up my life,

the anxiety of never knowing the significance of life,

the void of the meaninglessness.

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Isn't it funny how devastating the end of a book or film, movie can be. Sometimes it hits you hard and you feel like drowning into the void.

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what people think alice oseman books are like: blushing awkward first meetings, little chaste first kisses, giggling teenage boys holding hands what alice oseman books are actually like: hey what if your entire personality is actually a carefully constructed facade to make other people like you and to disguise the fact that you don't actually know who you are. if you stripped away all the walls, all the artificial things that you think make you up, what would be left? what would happen if you stopped living for other people and started living for yourself? is there even a person in there or just a gaping void with nothing left in it? wouldn't that be fucked up? do you even know yourself? do you even have a real personality anymore?

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I couldn’t imagine a life without suicidal thoughts back then and now I can’t remember when I had them last.

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What do you dream about

the void

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Utterly and hopelessly lost.

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Narrowing

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Sometimes I hate talking about it cause it feels like everyone immediately pities us. It’s a sad situation of course, I can see why you think it’s pitiful, but it’s quiet annoying. I don’t want your pity, sometimes it even makes it worse.

We are so much more than it.

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You can get a signed print when you pre-order my new book, POETRY COMICS. Details here: poetrycomics.chroniclebooks.com

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When you said you were wondering what is wrong with you, it fucking hurt so much. You were at the edge of crying and I wish i could take your pain away, cause you never deserved to experience it in the first place. Everything is right with you.

It hurts even more, because i know how it is to ask yourself what the fuck is wrong with me? I know exactly where you come from, how lonely it makes you feel and the self-hatred that comes with it.

The true is, everything is right with you and me.

Unfortunately, there is something wrong in this world and how we treat each other. We still have so much to learn.