livingcontradictions

[livingcontradictions]

Did I miss the mass 2015 human update?

I feel like I have the cranium the size of a walnut with the smoothness of the clearest of marbles. Been living in Windows 4 as everyone else has been slowly updating all the way to Windows 11. I’ve now just got it all in a single month after sperging out and raging in a notebook, and somehow gave myself therapy.

When I think about all the 4th wall and put it into perspective. I realized something. That’s all it really is in real life.

Perspective. (and maybe some control)

   I came to realize this isn’t about a single story. The 4th wall is us, in a sense, waking up looking back at who is controlling us, being self-aware of our own actions and how people view us, as if looking through a TV screen to catch you; Bosses, cameras? Where we don't want to fall out of line, or be caught, otherwise it's Wanda Vision all over again. We have rules and laws for a reason.

Ads and stories that are too conveniently popping up on matters we're dealing with, surfing through the web until we're convinced of something, God directing us for divine intervention cause everyone's fighting? Heck if one can take the necessary requirements, they could be the next big thing, the next Big Shot...

   How they want to control our actions as we do content creators and how streamers use it for personal gain too, but also to make us happy, sad, mad, informed. But if you're not funny, enjoyable, or if there's something dastardly hidden, you'll be locked away and go crazy as the world keeps spinning. I ain't asking what the Dog doing, chill out and throw some ice, could care less, he brought something amazing out that got me back into the spirit of thinking and creating.

Gaster isn’t just some random entity, he’s a person, a concept, an epiphany that requires those “fun, key values” of those who remember themselves, and or him/her/them, whatever Gaster is…

    Someone who, when we see what they were capable of, from building a soul-extracting machine and something to power the entire civilization of people, the core, we ask who Gaster is, what Gaster is, when was Gaster, where was Gaster….. But we never ask, How is Gaster… at least before the fall.

  We don't really know who Gaster is so we come up with our own narrative, from him being just sad goop droop in comic form, or even better, where he was a faceless monster creating more. All we know is that he was the previous Royal Scientist, but the dude did more than just advanced science. He had to know how to build things like an engineer, nothing just pops into existence, if I recall correctly it does say he built the core.

  When we do find something that only we want to see, we scream “Eureka! I found it!”, like Isaac Newton… or Gaster when we touch him. But he doesn’t stay… he vanishes… he runs…

It says Gaster fell, but did he really? 

Is it possible that he willingly let himself be ripped apart in time?

There’s a word for this in Japan, Hikikomori, someone who severely socially withdraws, who hides away and gives up.

(God fucking damn I became the thing I swore to destroy, a goddamn literature teacher, I don’t know why the curtains are blue, they’re depressed??)

...Depression can be like running on autopilot, just going day by day without thinking, just existing without any substance.

(…Thank you, to all the Youtubers, Comedians, Memers, People who i’m about to name drop, who’ve helped me get through funky times and learn to value myself and what is legitimately wrong from right. To all the friends I made along the way.)

   We realized what Gaster could have been, maybe he was logical, funny, and ironic like Sans, or was someone we looked up to, for me it was people like Dave Chappelle, Bill Burr, Aries Spears, “Fluffy” aka Gabriel Iglesias, FredoOnTV, and especially Classicmand. 

  To the dorky and endearing, salty, unyieldingly positive and infectiously bright Papyrus, Jordan the Stallion (The CEO of Fast Food secrets), CalebCity, Dashie, Markiplier, and JackScepticEye. 

   Who’s intentions were for good like Asgore, The Pope, MatPat from GameTheory, MeatCanyon, Avocado Animations, Neytrix, TheDadvocate, DougDoug’s hilariously random, nonsensical videos ,  and so, so, SO, many more who created amazing, horrifying, and inspirational art that helped me to try and understand people more.

 But maybe… he could’ve been the exact opposite. Only a few monsters; people, actually knew him after all and they don't stay for long and disappear. We're not even sure what his true appearance is but we choose the aesthetically pleasing one.

 “Beware the man, that speaks in hands. It's rude to talk about someone who's listening” and more.

We'll never know what kind of person they're until we truly get to sit down and talk with them. Because Gaster can be any of us for someone else.

Me and my word vomit.

[livingcontradictions]

Omega Flowey Theory

Omega Flowey Theory

So I think i've come to realize something that ALL writers must have and by Dog, Toby you mastermind. This is gonna get a little heavy though. I'm sorry for whistleblowing. He deserves love and support.

If it was to be explained all at once, well, I'd have a bad time. One where i'd be the monsters, er players', Chara, so uh, nah.

We know what the 4th wall is. A character who can tell someone is watching them. Flowey. Flowey is someone who can't understand anyone us well, completely misdirecting the player the moment it starts saying his "attack" are "friendlyness pellets"

After we get hurt, all the rest of the monsters "attacks" seem to just be that. But what if, that was just the way they communicated? What if they're just talking with us and are exuberantly expressive in the way they do, and we maneuver our heart, our feelings around it to not get hurt.

Well, what if we took that that literally with Omega Flowey? When OF first appears, we knows he's terrifying, but then we get caught off guard by his dorky fa- nope nevermind. Nightmare fuel.

If we take in Omega Flowey's appearance literally. Especially the TV head. Someone, behind a screen, attacking us. If we brought that to real life...

Omega Flowey's an internet troll. From flaming, somehow saving info, back tracking and finding thread or vine he can. Buzzing in your ears all the time. The bouncing thing with mouths, gossip?

All his attacks, that were so confusing and sometimes had nothing to do with him actually make a lot more sense now.

Maybe sometime long ago, Toby was harassed like this and felt like he couldn't do anything. Jokes on them he's laughing all the while now and made a game that captured so many of our hearts, it's amazing.