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oh god, I fucking love you and damn all I wanna do is kiss you

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I swear no one even dates anymore, people just wheel for a week then get over it and that makes me sick

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i just want to kiss you again

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do u have that one person who you kinda just 

im so happy youre alive i dont care that youre miles and miles away i just love you a lot and care for you so much

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Stages Of Me No Longer Fuckin With You:

- taking the emoji out of your contact name and/or changing your contact name to simply your first name

- no longer liking your shit on Instagram

- purposely waiting an hour or more to respond to your texts

- purposely ignoring your texts

- unfollowing/unfriending you on all social sites

- deleting your number… You not coming back from that

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Falling for you scares the living shit out of me

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part 2. I went home smiling to myself. Your face was forever imprinted in my mind. I ranted about your smile and your laugh to my best friend, they said I had caught feelings. Feelings... the one thing I have been avoiding for all these months. I broke the promises I made to myself about never catching feelings, I caught them all over for you again in a matter of hours, minutes, seconds. I was going to call you that night, or at least text. To say hello and ask to meet again. I have missed you, I have missed you so much. But then I saw your profile, endless flirts stained your feed. There was a girl, I have never heard of before. You told her you loves her and teased her as well, thats when it hit me. The fact isn't that I love you, it's that you don't love me. I held back the tears and stopped myself from contacting you. You seemed happy and not affected by the moment we had that day. It meant nothing to you. I decide to choke back these feelings, because feelings only hurt people. You are happy, you don't care for me, and you are doing just fine without me. And never in the world would I ever want to ruin that. I will always love you, just from the sideline where my thoughts and feelings will forever remain hidden.

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I spoke to you yesterday for the first time in months. You were so close to me, I almost forgot how to breathe. I was scared to look up and meet you eyes so I walked away. You then later talked to me again, being your silly jerk headed self. I laughed when you teased me and when I teased you. I forgot all my problems and just focused on the boy in front of me. When you looked me in the eyes, and held it for what felt like an infinity: thats when I knew I still loved you after all those years.

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I have to accept that you're not the same person anymore

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'Why do you do this to yourself?' I shrugged, 'Because it's easier to destroy something you love, than it is to watch it leave.'

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I found more comfort in a voice that wasn't my own

-I never should have called

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I could be dying and you would still ignore my call

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i fucking hate crying. i hate the feeling and i hate the reason. human bodies are made up of water and we need it to survive. when you cry your body lets out the most valuable source it needs to exist. here i am at midnight crying in my fucking bed in the fucking dark because of you. its always you. i don't get it. I don't get how you can be such a dick. you saved me. you loved me. you made me feel things I didn't even know was possible. then you left. you fucking left me. alone. here i am crying myself to sleep while you talk to her. i cant feel anymore. theres a deep feeling inside me eating me out. my heart is being clawed. my lungs and being compressed. i cant eat. i cant sleep. i cant think. I haven't slept since the last time that we spoke. a week ago. i wish the pain would go away. i wish i could erase all my memory. i wish i never met you. i wish you just loved me. i wish you never left. i wish i would just die.

-there's no one left to talk to so here i am ranting on tumblr

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you don't listen don't care don't try, thats the reason and this is why

-this is why, hey violet

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"It's fine, like it's whatever I'm pretty used to it by now." "You shouldn't be." "...I know..."

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