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Enough is basically enough...

So basically, what happened this week is that i went to some sorority interest meeting and of course they wanted me to join they’re group. Tbh i just went to see what the sorority was about. I wasnt too sure about joining or not. im more interested in the deltas anyway but for some reason they havent been putting up their flyers. Anyway, i decided to give this sorority a try because i think sororities just do the same shit anyway, whats the difference??? but until they came up with all these rules i was like im not having that... no talking to boys, no going to parties, school events, i have to send them pictures of what im eating, and no social media??? hell no! im not having that. on top of that they tell me to meet them somewhere the last 10 min. like im sorry but i have a life, i love my social media life and i love talking to my friends and going out. if thats what i have to be in order to be a sister, then i dnt want it or im just nt ready for it. thats why i have been ghost on social media. also, shea decided to call me friday night on some wierd shit talking about i miss you and love you and tired of playing games. i wanna start something with you. i immediately told him cut the bs because thats all your talking. Plus your high af and its 4am in the morning. you dnt know wtf u want or what your saying... you want me, your gonna have to prove it. then i left. next night, of course it was the fucking track party and at 1st i went to the embry riddle house party then javon told me about the track party going on. even though i was there with daniel, a dude i just met not too long ago at a embry riddle party, i took him with me. of course he didnt have the money to get in so i was like wait here, cause i knew shea’s ass was in there. sure enough he was. im nt gonna lie he pulled me next to him and i danced with him for a few then of course he disappeared. the story goes on in the next post that im going to post.

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Blessings on blessings on blessings🙏🏽

I need to get social media famous and i need to start going to church so i can show god how much I appreciate and love him. Plus i need my blessings to come along.

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This morning

I hate waking up every Friday morning at 7am for my 8am work out class. But after the class is over and i eat a good ass breakfast my body feels so damn amazing!😁💪🏽🥞

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Talking to Yanni

I guess my roommate and her gf are officially done. I feel sad for her cause i know how she feels... i feel the same way with shea. Abandoned. Ive never seen her so sad. What sucks the most is that jonai, "her gf name" doesnt even wanna be friends with my roommate. After everything u been with someone how can u just get rid of them in a heartbeat? Its gonna be a long night for me and ima be tired for my 8am weights class tomorrow bt i know how she feels and ima just be a good friend and be here for her and give her the best advices that i have.

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What a day...

Im nt gonna lie i met some amazing guys after the break up with me and she but damn shit isnt the same... leandre is such a sweetheart and is almost everything i ask for in a man including jamel. I cant believe i made that long apology to jamel the other day but he deserved it because i was wrong listening to everyone telling me that he is a hoe. Bt isnt every college athlete a hoe? I guess i will give jamel a chance. Bt damn what about the other guys i gave my number to? Aaron, Mark, Sav, Leandre... smh. I mean Aaron told me he dnt want a relationship but damn im so attracted to him and he helps me forget about shea for some reason. Maybe its because he's hot. Damn it i need to stop falling for these pretty boys. Bt since ive been so upset about shea ive gotten myself in a situation i dnt wanna be in. And i dnt wanna be a heartbreaker. Ugh! I just dnt know what to do.!

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Single af

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If you’re black and single reblog this and see who follows you!!! 👀😏

Aight lets do it 🚂🚋🚝🚃

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Done and over

Its officially done and over with me and shea, i cant be with someone who is a liar and a cheater. Im honestly to the point in my life where i know im never gonna find love or get married. I just wanna have my kids and focus on them tbh. Love isnt real. Shea used me and my heart. This makes me wanna become a hoe and just fuck the living soul outta every guy with no care in the world. I think about it everyday but for some reason its just not in my heart. Thats a good thing that god has blessed me with a good heart yet a bad thing because it is at risk of becoming broken everyday since we have more rotton hearts than good hearts in this world... i feel like in order for me to move on i have to date someone else because with everything that i do to distract me frm thinking about him i still think about him. How do i move on? How do i meet new people?

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Loving this

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Lazyness...

Stay tuned... still dealing with my laziness.

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Lazy days

So much has happened the past few weeks... just been having some lazy days😴

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😍😍😍

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Me and shea...

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BCU

Made it back to my dorm. Its 4:29am and fb says he logged off about 46 min ago. I hope he wasnt with that bitch tonight. Why was she giving me dirty looks in the cafe today? They better not be fucking around. Im nt kidding! Ima ask too.

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Embry riddle

Embry riddle party with tafari aka sav. This is really helping me get my mind off shea.💯

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Hate

Relationship cut tf off again... its gotteb to the pount to where im starting to hate him💔

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13

I wish my pulse can beat the way it used to when i was 13. Fast, happy, and full of energy. I guess thats what happens when u enter the real world and see people's true colors. Especially the ones u love. Part of you just dies inside slowly and painfully💔

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Dont know what to do or think...

Two days after Shea's birthday... i celebrated it with him. Took him out to dinner and all. But of course after that he wanted to smoke with his friends after... but they didnt want to. Jessica was in her feelings and ant was chilling with a girl. So shea got upset and asked me to bring him home. After that i juat stayed in my dorm because i felt bad... i felt like my dinner wasnt good enough and he just doesn't appreciate me anymore😔next day i didnt hear frm him till 2:30, he came over to my dorm and told me he was going to a migos concert. Why did my heart drop when he told me that... he told me he was going with some friends... no name no nothing. I assumed what if their females. He's such a big flirt. I wanted to cry and question him all over again. But i left it alone because i didnt wanna start an arguement. He wanted sex that day but i couldnt give it to him because my period has just come on🙄😔😐then he asked for head and i gave it to him. I swear i always give him what he wants but he never gives me what i want. But i do it because i love him soooo much. Idk why... but i am madly in love with him. My world revolves around him. After that he left and told me he had things to do😐i told him u always leave after i give u what u want😔then he said no i dnt. I'll talk to u later. He left then accidentally left his ipad. Of course i went through it and on his fb he messaged a girl saying i miss u and your sexyness. I just wanted to cry hysterically. I felt like flushing his ipad down the toilet, and I felt like i was having anxiety. He came back for it 5 min later but of course i didnt say anything about it. He gave me a kiss and left... that was the last time i heard frm him. I told olrich about it... he told me nt to bring it up to him and i didnt. However i did call him last night and there was no answer. Yet he was on fb last night so i know he was ignoring my call. Now im back to my depression. He wont even mention me on social media, and that hurts even more. I guess im not part of his world... nor anybody's. Idk what to do anymore or what to think. Im dying all over again and just waiting for god to take me away. Not only because of him but because of alot of things. I cant do this anymore, im tired, tired of life, tired of being patient, and tired of so many disappointments. Im growing weaker and i just want peace and ima only find that once i go home to heaven🙏🏽