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[lillie98]

this is arguably obvious to anyone who's ever heard dan speak for more than four minutes but like especially if you've been around for a long time and gone through... all of those eras... dan being at all willing to sign up for a channel that's just Dan And Phil, with no gimmick or plot or anything else he can pretend is the real focus, is straight up insane. literally forget everything else they've done, this would shock 2013 me so much more than them coming out

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I keep watching that clip from Survivor and crying my eyes out. Autistic meltdowns are debilitating, and it’s difficult to explain how it feels or reach out for help. Thank you, Jeff, for allowing Joe to comfort Eva. Thank you for seeing her humanity.

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but what do we know about show vs tell?

and anyway, lucas did end up "telling it right" (while mike couldn't)

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Argyle Van Dashboard (unpacking Magazines)

1. 1985 California Thomas Bros. Road Atlas & Driver's Guide

(Not surprised) Duffers didn't go for the 1986 edition and instead went for the 1985 edition ('RAINBOW' cover, which was tricky to find)

2. Reader's Digest, Glove Compartment Road Atlas & Vacation Guide Pamphlet Book, 1986 (3 Keys)

3. High Times, Feb 1986

This cannabis magazine, 'High Times,' apparently has a ton of social commentary.

Notable ones:

Ronald Reagan's criticism, aids policy, anti-christ comparison, Earthquake in Mexico

Scrambler phone Advert.

Mushrooms

so i googled some facts about mushrooms:

Function of a scrambler is to ensure the privacy and security of communications by making them difficult for unauthorized parties to intercept and understand.

Scramblers are sometimes referred to as "randomizers" or "encryption devices". You can think of a scrambler as an encryption device for analogue signals – an analogue signal is a continuously varying, smooth signal, whilst a digital signal has discrete values.

(Hawkins Lab eavesdropping on phones)

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woah woah woah

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the thing that always gets me ESPECIALLY about autistic representation in media is that we are universally portrayed as happy-go-lucky, whimsical children, completely oblivious to the fact that the world constantly judges and scorns and HATES us.

We notice. I noticed. The reason I am as messed up as I am today is because i spent 20 LONG years in an environment where every day i was subjected to that. To noticing.

what an absolutely neurotypical view of us. Coddling themselves, getting to act like the way they treat us is fine because we don't understand that our peers dont respect us. Why would we? We're so subhuman to them, it's like asking if your cat notices you playfully insulting it.

Every autistic person I've ever met is on some level bitter and angry and TRAUMATIZED at their upbringing. Of having to go through school as the laughing stock, as the weirdo with no friends who no one wants to talk to, as the animal in the corner you can make do cheap tricks so they can experience some Simulacra of what genuine human connection is.

Now tell me, does it sound like I didn't notice?

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I saw someone say “The Old Therebefore” works perfectly for Camp Half-Blood burning their funeral pyres. Everyone sings together as they watch the flames ascend to Olympus and the ashes to The Underworld. They all sob through the entire song.

The only person who doesn’t sing is Percy. He can’t bring himself to after everything he’s endured. The song makes him too emotional. Instead, he grips Annabeth’s hand and focuses on breathing through the emotions bubbling in his soul. Annabeth holds on tight because, if she doesn’t, Percy will bolt.

Last time, he ended up in the ocean and Annabeth and Grover spent the entire night coaxing him back to his cabin. Percy hates shroud burnings, they make his friends’ deaths feel real, but he knows his friends would want him here, so he comes. Stoic, silent, and one moment away from escaping.

Annabeth’s hand cramps from squeezing Percy’s so hard, but she doesn’t care. She’ll do anything to keep him safe. He’d do the same for her.

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Speaking my truth again, let's go.

Hopper wouldn't do any of that "Stop dating my kids, Wheeler" bullshit.

He cares for Mike, a lot. The reason he didn't like his and El's relationship was because it was bad for the both of them.

He'd see Mike and Will as a couple and no negative feelings would form at all. He'd see them and think back to the little Mike who sat next to Will's hospital bed, who fought to find him, who said that befriending Will was the best thing he'd ever done. Hopper would see this teenager, getting closer to being a young adult every day, and think back to the scared, confused, traumatized, overwhelmed, and self-hating child he'd once been.

Hopper would be incredibly happy for the both of them.

Fight the fucking wall.

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no because this is THE fandom for people who grew up feeling like they were too much, too loud, too sensitive, too observant, to passionate, too hopeful, too up-in-the-clouds, too smart, too aware.

This is the fandom for the freaks who were left out of friend hang-outs, who spent hours on end watching shows and reading books, who cried themselves to sleep at the idea of not achieving their dreams, who got mad at the world for not understanding something so clear.

Byler!Nation is so much more than just byler. I feel like we’re connected through something words can’t encapsulate and i’m so glad this is a safe space for us to be unapologetically ourselves, however nerdy or loud or just- other we are

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“TOUCH MT BUTT, I DONT CARE!” and “Got me stressed out it’s not even my girlfriend” and “i piggybacked from pizza dough freezer” and “What was your test on again? Human anatomy?” and “Is that why you don’t have any friends?” and “You weren’t there?” and “Is it? Is it early, Michael?” and *max looking at dustin while he geeks about the hellfire shirts* and “Nancy?” *Mike comes into focus* will forever be comedy gold

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**Cough, Cough** Mike Wheeler!!!! **Cough, Cough**

"We need more complex characters" no, you need more media literacy because everytime a show/movie gives you one, you won't even bother to understand their actions and call them "annoying" instead

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By the end of this year, I will have:

•Entered my late 20s

•Witnessed the ending of Stranger Things (which I’ve loved for almost a decade)

•Watched Percy Jackson and The Olympians Season 2 (which I’ve absolutely fallen in love with this year)

•Started gearing up for PJO Season 3

Funny how life changes and also stays exactly the same. May Fandom never die.

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i fear that we do not talk about the implications of this sign often enough

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Thinking about Darrel watching Ponyboy pull away and watching him go quiet after everything that happens. Maybe go quiet isn’t right, Pony has always been quiet, now he was silent. And Darrel wishes he could snap his fingers and his brother would talk to him or talk to anyone about what’s going on in his head because Darrel can’t read his mind, no matter how badly he wishes he could.

I think there was one point where Darrel was watching his brother basically disassociate right in front of him and he wishes he could turn back time, even for a moment. He wishes he could go back to a time when large movements didn’t make his baby brother flinch back. A time when he was still starry eyed and completely hopeful.

He wants to go back and he wants to smack teenage Darrel over the head and tell him to start appreciating what he has. He wants to tell past him to stop skipping out on family dinners and stop complaining about taking his brothers to the drive in. He wants to shake his teenage self and tell him that he doesn’t know how good he has it. His parents make dinner. His dad watches football with him on Sundays. His mama makes the most perfect chocolate cake. His younger brother wears a real smile and laughs genuinely. His baby brother still follows him around and looks at him like he hung the stars in the sky. And he took it for granted.

Darrel’s chest aches when he remembers a time when he was still a kid and he had dreams of getting out. But it aches even more when he remembers a time when his brothers could still look at the world with hope instead of the fear and pain that fills their eyes now.

Maybe some part of Darrel knows that he isn’t the best person for his brothers. He knows they deserve more financial stability and a more present adult than he can ever give them. But the bigger and more selfish part of him refuses to give them up. Maybe Pony doesn’t follow him around anymore, maybe Soda’s smiles aren’t completely real anymore. Maybe they deserve more than he’ll ever be. But they’re the only family he has and he cannot lose them too.

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It’s that Byers family rizz. That kind of quirky, offbeat, maybe a little out there charm??? That underdog and low-key-kind-of-a-loser vibe??? The niche taste in music, thrifted clothes, shaggy haircut, and having to convince others that they’re not crazy energy??? Absolutely irresistible. It’s so funny that the Byers are canonically a weird and bullied, socially outcast family but that they all canonically have rizz 😭😭 Bc why is Jonathan pulling Nancy Wheeler??? Why does every girl who looks at Will want to kiss him??? Why is someone always talking Joyce on a date??? When you’re in a rizz competition and your opponent is the Byers family.

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Do you think Mike ever stayed up at night asking himself why he keeps destroying everything?

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Another s1-s4 parallel that makes me insane (I’m working on my s1 and s4 parallels post I promise)

And

(Will also didn’t have a heart beat)

+ before Will got taken to the library, he talked with El (in his head). Before Max got almost murdered by Vecna, she talked with El (in her head).