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"hopeless" is such a sad descriptor of bob because not only does it harken to hopeless war and that cycle of violence and class fighting but also what it says about his character is so depressing. here's the guy you think has it made: he's got the girl he's got the friends he's got a comfortable life. he should be cruising along, but despite everything he has he's never been happy. and he's not been happy for so long that he's given up any hope that he ever will be, and at the end of the day, he's right. he's never able to find happiness because he dies at the hands of the same cycle he helped perpetuate because he never knew any better. isn't that fucked up

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THE OUTSIDERS MUSICAL WILL PERFORM AT THE MACYS THANKSGIVING DAY PARADE

I REPEAT THE OUTSIDERS MUSICAL WILL PERFORM AT THE MACYS THANKSGIVING DAY PARADE

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i truly believe that the audience learning about mike's suppressed trauma regarding his savior complex and sexuality/internalized homophobia as well as his feelings for will with mike himself as he's being vecna'd, especially because much of mike's internal struggles hasn't been explored, learning about them all with him would make it all very, very realistic, and besides being an interesting surprise, it would prove that him being a target makes a lot of sense. it would be the epitome of perfection actually.

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i think theres this idea in the general public that the "best" fanfic gets turned into real books like 50 shades of grey. but the truth is that the best fanfic can never be published as an actual book because its intricately woven into the canon material so its inseparable even if you change the names

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AGATHA ALL ALONG 1.08 - Follow Me My Friend / To Glory At The End

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A headcanon I gained in the shower and haven't stopped giggling about:

Ponyboy is probably going through or about to go through puberty, and when his voice begins to crack due to his voice changing, the gang calls it "whinnies", as in the whinny of a horse.

God, the way that Pony HATES it. It's bad enough his voice is cracking in the first place!! He's tired your honor, let the horse jokes GO. But alas...they won't. No matter how many offended glares he gives.

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A REALLY WHAT SEASON, FINN?

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it's so beautiful finding out that the ballad of the witches' road began between agatha and nicholas and their bond, and earlier on we find out that lorna wu created her version in order to protect alice I AM ABSOLUTELY DESTROYED.

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Joe Locke….your future is dizzingly bright. Well done.

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i keep thinking about that halloween night 40 years ago and about what happened on the way to mike's house. i keep thinking of the most gentle of whispers of "i'm sorry i wasn't there. i'm here now, okay? i'm here", promises of "i won't let anything happen to you, you're safe" and reassuring words of "you got this" and "you'll be okay" i keep thinking of soft touches and worried glances, of so much love and care and tenderness from mike, of will feeling safe and understood, heart filled with comfort and easiness.

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I watched Liam Pearce shine in How to Dance in Ohio and immediately knew he was a star. Now I’m watching him in & Juliet and I’m so emotional. He’s paving the way for future openly autistic talent and showing the world that disability belongs on stage.

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This exchange between Leo and Jason is really poignant. I like it. Rick Riordan gets almost philosophical with that line from Jason, and I really like it.

"Trust me, Hephaestus cabin doesn't see fire powers as cool. Nyssa told me they're super rare. When a demigod like me comes around, bad things happen. Really bad".

"Maybe it's the other way around," Jason suggested. "Maybe people with special gifts show up when bad things are happening because that's when they're needed most."

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the opening scene is s2 ep6 stresses me out not just because will is like nearly having a seizure and stuff but because MIKE AND JOYCE AND BOB ARE IN THE ROOM. as someone who works in the ER, in emergent situations like that you do NOT have the family in there!!!! also mike is literally 13???? like, oh my god, he should not be seeing all that???? and joyce is like freaking out, which could cause interference with the nurses and doctors???? i know i’m nitpicking but come on

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he already knows byler is endgame 🙂‍↕️

alsoo... unbelievable?? special??? SURREAL??? 🤭

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saw brent's story of the pastor costume

mind immediately went to religious trauma darry

then mind immediately went to you

please give us more thoughts

“then mind immediately went to you” well yes 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

ok i need you to hear me out and walk with me for this one. ponyboy about as atheist as they come bc he’s so naturally curious and i can’t see him taking religion at face value — is always questioning and looking for deeper meanings etc. soda who loves having god to believe in, probably prays pretty often esp post parents-death, says grace at mealtime if he can remember — he genuinely gives me very casually religious vibes idk why but i stand by it.

darry though. sigh. i think he WANTS to have religion in his life but if we’re going the gay route, obviously like…he grew up in a church in the midwest 50s where it’d be beat into his head that he is fundamentally made wrong and. you know. the internalized homophobia and religious guilt mix is nottttt to be played with. i think he doesn’t ever have gfs and kinda just fucks around and jumps headfirst into his studies (bc he needs grades more than girls anyway) and probably stops going to church around like. early teenage years, then by mid teenage years he meets paul and they begin their. whatever they do. i fr stand by that they alwaysss without fail meet on sunday mornings bc paul too has (more recently) dropped out of church and would rather spend sunday mornings w darry than be there. if they’re gonna be sinners n supposedly go to hell either way they may as well act on it and feel good in the moment u know

i also think entirely besides the whole Gay Thing™️ that he has a lottt of frustrations with god and with the idea of believing in higher power after his parents die. i think before it’s not so bad, he never had a family to worry about and his biggest beef w the church was them calling him a sinner for being gay but that’s like. he can sorta get over it if he stays closeted forever. but now it’s like. he’s getting told everything happens for a reason and this is all in gods plan by everyone he meets and he can’t even begging to understand why. why god has it out for him, why his family, what he did so wrong. i think he entirely rejects the concept of religion after this whereas soda probably leans more into it and seeks god for guidance which could be an interesting sorta rift between them and how they both personally cope. i do believe that when pony does missing for the week in windrixville darry is so so exhausted and at his wits end (considering “throwing in the towel”, whatever you personally think that means for him!) that he prays to his parents instead of god and asks for their help in bringing his baby brother home <3 (and it works!!!!!!!!)

this, of course, is all entirely separate from the fact that darry is a very by the book guy. he doesn’t play about fact and has little room for opinion in his head and beliefs. i think that def factors into how much he genuinely believes in god vs how much he thought he should growing up. if that makes any sense

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i’m obsessed with how it’s left open ended what happens to two-bit after jft

what if marcia doubled back after everyone left, watching him curled up into a ball on the ground, shaking and crying, jumping almost clean out of his skin when he felt someone close to him. what if she brought him back to her house and tried to patch him up as best as she could but paul may have broken one of his ribs and she’s never dealt with a burn like this before… “god, i’m so sorry, i didn’t think bev would ever think of doing something like this.”

what if he managed to get himself back to the curtis house and scared the life out of darry when he came home from work. what if two-bit told darry about the rumble while he was getting all the frozen vegetables out to help with the pain, what if soda had to keep him calm and still while darry rinsed out the burn with saline… “i know, buddy, he’s almost done, and then you can sleep, i promise.”

what if he ran for his life, not caring about how he could hardly breathe, and doesn’t stop until he gets to dally’s room at buck’s. what if dally tried to offer him a cigarette to calm him down, because jesus he’s never seen two so worked up, and two-bit acted like dally was gonna knife him. what if two-bit begged and pleaded with dally for any information about ponyboy and johnny… “please, dal, you gotta tell us where they are, just tell me that they’re okay.”

god the possibilities are endless and they’re all fucking devastating.