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“Can you tell me one of those stories again?”

“Which one?”

“Pick whichever you want, I love them all.”

“As you wish. Once upon a time…

There was a lost boy. He lived in a house made of books and papers. He lived alone, without friends, without mother or father, without anybody. But he wasn’t lonely. He had his books, and so he was happy. But later, when the boy grew up, he felt what he never did before - loneliness.

But he was too scared to go on a journey. What if the house will disappear? What if someone hurt his books? What if someone hurts him?

And so he lived in his house a bit longer, until one day, a strong wind came from nowhere and the house was pulled down.

So the boy who was no longer a boy had to go.

He was scared. But he had no choice. He made one step. And another. And another. He walked away, without looking back. He knew that once he look back, his heart will be broke again.

On his journey, he met another boy. The boy, who was not a boy either, was as lost as our hero. So they walked together. They smiled, laughed, talked, and later fell in love. But our hero was a coward. He was afraid, once again, that the other one will tell him no, that he will reject him. He decided to kept his feelings for himself.

They met another great people. A girl with eyes full of fire. A girl who knew the future. A boy who had a vision. A boy who just wanted to be free.

But our hero still kept his emotions towards his best friend for himself. And everytime he saw him with somebody else, his heart sank a little bit more. Until one day, he lost his heart.

He looked everywhere, but he couldn’t find it. He distanced himself from others. He was scared to look anybody in the eyes, he was scared they will find out.

One day, at the starry night, his best friend told him to follow him. So he did, obedient, emotionless.

“Look at me.” his friend said, and when our hero looked, he found his heart. His best friend had it in his hands, approaching our hero and putting it back where it belonged.

And the true feelings were revealed.

They kissed under the stars and the moon.

After that night, they finally arrived into their destination. They discovered a lost city called Jericho, where he and all of his friends settled.

They found a new home.”

“That boy was hopeless.”

“That he was.”

“…you know I love you, right?”

“I do. And I love you too, Josh.”

“I want to hear it again, please, Simon.”

“I love you, Josh.”

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Josh Appreciation Week - Day 6: Hope

The last thing to die

9th November 2039 - 9:43 p.m.

Josh didn’t realize he was nervously moving his legs while sitting on the public bus until North, who was sitting next to him, suddenly placed a hand on his knee, in order to stop the unconscious bouncing movement.

“Jeez, Josh, relax”, North whispered, pressing Josh’s knee softly, “I’m sure everything will be alright, so don’t chicken out for nothing”

Josh exhaled a still little nervous laugh, placing his hand over North’s one.

“Are you sure you are alright, North? It doesn’t suit you to be so optimistic”

The WR400 clicked her tongue, removing her hand from Josh’s knee for the sake of elbowing her friend.

“I wonder who is at fault for that”

Josh smiled softly and took a deep breath, trying to calm down. The bus stopped at that moment and among the new humans and deviants that entered there was a rather old lady, so Josh immediately stood up to lend her his seat. The woman looked at him with surprise for a moment but eventually smiled gratefully and accepted the seat, murmuring a soft ‘Thank you�� that Josh returned with another smile.

A year had passed since the Android Revolution finished and there were still things to work on in order to assure androids had the same rights than humans, but no one could deny that things were progressing, like the fact that now androids and humans were taking a bus without having to be separated.

Three stops later Josh and North stepped down the bus. Their destination was the place where Jericho once was, and where a sculpture representing the androids breaking their inner wall to fall into deviancy had been built. Carl Manfred had been the one in designing it, and along the sculpted wall the names and models of the deviants that had died that 9th November of 2038 were written.

It was a symbol that represented their fight and sacrifice to gain their freedom, and when it was finished Josh thought it would be a good idea to commemorate the anniversary of that day. They proposed Josh’s idea to President Warren, who accepted, and an announcement was made in the news encouraging people to go to that place to pay their respects.

Since winter in Detroit was really cold and that night was snowing pretty heavily Josh had assumed that there wouldn’t be many humans in the place they were walking towards.

He was mistaken.

In front of the sculpture, that had been called ‘Breaking Free’, a small platform with a microphone had been installed, and in front of it, waiting patiently for the ceremony to begin, there was a gigantic crowd composed of deviants but also humans, each of them carrying LED candles and artificial flowers of different colors like the ones North and him were carrying themselves.

With his mouth still open wide Josh pinpointed some familiar faces: Kara, Luther and little Alice were there accompanied by Rose, John had also arrived and was animatedly talking with a young woman that seemed to be his coworker and friend, Dominika was there too with her husband and her daughter, and of course Markus, Connor and Hank were already there.

“Just in time”, Markus greeted them with a smile, and Josh was surprised when the leader grabbed his arm, beginning to drag him towards the front line, “come one, everyone is waiting”

“Wait, waiting for what?”, Josh said with confusion, missing the way North bit her bottom lip with amusement.

Markus looked at him without understanding.

“Uhm…for you speech?”

Josh’s mouth fell opened.

“WHAT?”

“Wait, haven’t you prepared anything?”

“Of course I haven’t! You are the leader, I thought that you were going to do the talk!”

“But I don’t understand. I talked to North yesterday and told her that since it was your idea it was more logical that you gave the speech, didn’t she tell you anything?”

Josh closed her eyes with patience before looking at North, who was looking back at him innocently.

“If I had told you, you would have panicked even more, so you should actually thank me!”

If Josh didn’t have such a pacific nature, he would strangle that evil redhead right then…or at least he would try.

“Come on, Josh, I’m sure you will do it fine”, Connor said with an encouraging smile.

“Yeah, kid, don’t stress you over it”, Hank intervened, “and I bet that after Markus’ hellish long speeches, everyone will be grateful if you keep it short”

“Thank you, lieutenant Anderson. It’s always a pleasure to count with your support”, Markus said ironically, making Hank snort while the rest laughed.

“Well, Josh, don’t keep us waiting”, North grinned and winked at him, and against his will Josh couldn’t help to suppress a resigned smile before finally beginning to walk towards the platform.

The murmur that had been invading the place got quiet when Josh stepped in front of the microphone. He gulped with nervousness when seeing so many people focusing on him, but when seeing North making a thumb up gesture from the crowd he was about to chuckle, forgetting already that she was the culprit of him being standing there.

“G-Good evening”, Josh cleared his throat, obviously nervous, but when he looked at the crowd again and he saw some people smiling at him encouragingly, being Dominika obviously among them, he suddenly felt less nervous, “I have to confess that I didn’t know I would be the one in speaking here tonight, so I apologize in advance because this speech would be surely poor compared to the ones Markus had you got used to”

Everyone laughed quietly, which gave Josh courage to continue talking more at ease, words falling from his lips with more fluency that he was expecting.

“Exactly one year ago, around this hour, the place that used to be our home was attacked, causing several deviants to lose their lives. For the ones who survived, myself included, that was the day in which we were about to abandon hope, thinking that we would never have a place in this world”

Josh’s tone, solemn until that moment, acquired a hint of emotion.

“But we were mistaken. The fact that we are here today, that you are here today, proves that there are people who knows…”, Josh signaled the sculpture behind him with a emphatic gesture, “…that we always deserved to be free, that we deserve a place in this world; people who think that we can try to make the world better, by working together; people who will fight to prevent more incidents like that November 9th from happening again. So thank you”

With slightly trembling hands Josh turned on the LED candle he was carrying.

“Thank you for being here , and confirm us once again that not losing hope was the correct thing to do”

Gradually, all the crowed lit their own candles while keeping a respectful silence.

After a minute had passed, Josh nodded towards the crowd and said a new final thank you that provoked a wave of loud applause that took Josh completely by surprise, causing him to blush slightly. He nodded awkwardly towards the people before abandoning the platform to come back with his friends.

“Well, with the exception of that initial stutter it wasn’t that bad”, North joked while still applauding, but Josh smiled when seeing that her eyes were brighter, showing that she had liked the speech a lot even if probably she would never admit it aloud.

“You did it fantastic, Josh”, Markus said, hugging him.

“Yep, congratulations kid”, Hank said winking at him, causing Josh to chuckle. At that moment he saw Dominika waving her hand towards him so he approached to hug her and share some more words.

After almost five minutes of people approaching him to congratulate him (Josh honestly admired Markus for being able to deal with that each day with a straight face), everyone approached the sculpture to leave the artificial flowers they had brought.

Josh was about to do the same when suddenly he felt someone staring at him.

He looked at that direction, and his LED began to blink in yellow when recognizing two of the students that attacked him that day when he became deviant, some meters away from him.

Josh’s first reaction was to tense, getting ready to attack in case it was necessary, but then he noticed two things: first, both students were also carrying flowers and candles; and second, the shame and regret that bathed their expression was impossible to miss.

When noticing that, Josh’s LED came back to blue immediately, realizing that those students were probably struggling to find the proper words to apologize to him. However, if Josh was completely honest to himself, he didn’t need any apologizes anymore, so he simply smiled and nodded towards them, causing both students to look at him in disbelief before awkwardly nodding towards his direction, before finally approaching the wall to leave their offerings.

“Hey, you okay?”

Josh turned around and found North looking at him and the students alternatively, probably deducing who they were.

The PJ500 nodded, his smile serene while approaching the sculpture to leave the flowers he had brought for Simon and Lucy, because now he knew without a doubt that hope was the last thing to die.

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lili-typos · 6 years ago

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Josh Appreciation Week - Day 5: Happiness

It’s been a while

“That’s not fair, Sam! I have seen it before!”

“Come on, Lena, you already have a bunch of things! It’s my turn now”

“You have a lot of things too!”

“But I just have one toy! I want this one so that it has a friend, so let me have it!

“No”

“Yes”

“NO”

“YES”

“NO NO NO NO”

“YES YES YES YE--”

“Okay, what’s going on here?”

The two YK500 child androids stopped fighting immediately when Josh approached them with his hands on his hips. One of the children was sustaining a rather old bunny toy by its legs while the other did it by its ears, almost wrestling to keep it, and probably if Josh hadn’t appeared at that moment, the poor stuffed animal would have ended torn off.

“So?”, Josh inquired, looking at the children alternatively, “what’s the problem?”

The children interchanged an angry glance and, predictably, both of them began to speak at the same time, causing Josh to raise his index finger in the air.

“Ah ah, one at a time, please. Lena, you first”

Josh more or less managed to make both children to take turns in explaining what had happened. He listened to their arguments in silence, allowing them to speak all they wanted, and just then he decided to talk.

“Very well, I have understood the problem. And I know how to solve it”

Both Sam and Lena looked at Josh expectant, obviously waiting to be the one PJ500 chose to have the toy.

“Since both of you already have one toy...”, Josh gently took the stuffed animal and the children followed Josh’s movement with their eyes, “...I think it’s better if we give it to another child that doesn’t have any”

Josh was expecting too when Sam and Lena began to protest, so he crouched in front of them.

“Because…”, the children immediately shut up when Josh’s tone became a little sad, “...there are children that are still recovering from their stay in the camps”

Sam and Lena gulped when hearing Josh, so the PJ500 left the bunny on the ground next to him with delicacy before taking Sam and Lena’s hands respectively.

“And right now, they need all the help we can offer them. And I really think that if you both go to visit them and lend them that toy, even if it’s just for a while…”, Josh smiled at them, “...they will get better”

This time, Sam and Lena interchanged a look that was hesitant at first, but almost immediately they smiled at each other, looked at Josh again and nodded with energy, causing the J500 to chuckle before dragging the children towards him in a tight hug that they effusively returned.

“Thank you”, Josh said sincerely, standing up with the toy before offering it to the children again, “would you like to deliver it to the children yourselves?”

Sam and Lena nodded again and reached for the toy at the same time, but this time instead of fighting to have it Sam took the bunny’s right arm while Lena took the left and together abandoned the room in such a hurry that they almost stomped against North, who had about to enter the room.

“Hey, be careful, you little demons!”

The children apologized but the cheery ‘sorry’ that they said while laughing made the apology lose part of its effect.

“Don’t try it, North”, Josh joked, “your bad aura just works with adults. Children are able to see that deep inside you are a softi-ouch!”

“Who are you calling softie, you idiot?”

“North, it was a compliment”, Josh protested while rubbing his arm in the place North had hit him.

“Not for me”

North shook her head towards the door and after sighing with patience Josh followed the female deviant, who was also suppressing a smile, out of the room.

Two weeks had passed since the revolution ended and while Markus and Connor, who was on their side now, negotiated with the President Warren about their rights, the deviants had installed in several abandoned buildings on the outskirts Detroit.

It was something provisional until they had a legal right to own a home, but Josh found himself pretty satisfied for now. After all, compared to Jericho where they had been forced to live hidden without being able to see the sunlight, now they could go outside whenever they wanted. Of course they had suffered some incidents of anti-android people that had tried to sneak to throw them things and insult them, but it was nice to see that there were other people that supported them, and that also approached to help them and offer them supplies.

Everything was changing. Slowly, that was true, but it was a start.

“By the way, you haven’t told me where we are going”

“It’s a surprise”, North snorted when Josh looked at her with scared eyes, “fuck, can you just relax? For once if something bad”

“Are you sure? Because I haven’t recovered from you last ‘surprise’”

“Come on, it wasn’t that bad”

“…”

“What? You are a history freak, so I thought you would like to know that there were some pretty old documents on one of the basements!”

“Oh, and I liked the documents. But I could have lived without the damn room collapsing, almost burying me alive”

“And how the heck was I going to know that?! Don’t you dare to blame me for it!”

“I don’t! I just say that I would very much prefer not to have more surprise of that kind and…”

…and Josh shut up, mouth falling opened in disbelief while looking at an specific spot next to one of the demolished buildings.

“See?”, North crossed her arms with a smile, “I told you it was a good surprise”

Josh didn’t say anything. He was busy staring at the woman who was waiting for him sitting on a bench outside the building, with an adorable two years-old baby sitting on her lap.

“Hey”, the woman carefully left her daughter on the floor and stood up, “it’s been a while…professor Josh”

Josh gulped, not knowing well how to react at first, but when the woman smiled in that familiar shy way all his hesitation disappeared and he approached in a couple of rapid steps to hug her with forec.

“Dominika”

The woman chuckled with astonishment.

“You still remember me”

It was Josh’s turn to chuckle while separating a little to look at the young woman.

“Of course I do. You were the only person who saw that I was more than a simple machine, even before than myself”, Josh’s tone turned apologetic, “At the moment I didn’t realize it, but after waking up I remembered that you were always alone. People called you ‘the android freak’ for defending me when no one else did”, Josh’s tone kept sounding guilty but also grateful, “thank you. You don’t have any idea of how much what you did for me then has helped me now”

Dominika gulped, clearly moved by Josh’s words.

“It’s funny you say that”, Dominika took her daughter’s hand while this one kept looking up at Josh with curiosity, “because I’ve come here to thank you”

Josh looked at the woman with surprise, but before he could ask anything she continued, her non-American accent more evident with the rapid way she was talking.

“When I heard about what those students did to you, I feared the worst. I thought you were dead. But when the androids began the revolution, something inside me told me you were with them. And then I saw you in the march, in first line leading the rest of deviants, and decided that as soon as I could I had to see you again to thank you for choosing a pacific revolution. For not giving up on us”, Dominka’s smile widened while taking one of Josh’s hands in hers, “I couldn’t be more proud when I told my daughter that the man leading the march and bringing hope to human and androids was my teacher”

Josh didn’t realize he was silently crying until his vision got suddenly blurry.

However, unlike the other times he had cried to let out his pain, the tears that covered now his eyes were different, warmer, because they had been provoked for his former students’ kind words. Words that were the proof that Josh hadn’t been mistaken, that all the sacrifices hadn’t been for nothing, that there were nice people like Dominika who believed in them and were ready to fight by their side.

“Please, tell me something: Josh was such a crybaby when he was a teacher?”

Josh turned towards North with a glare while Dominika began to laugh, but when seeing the way North was teasingly smirking at him Josh couldn’t pretend to be annoyed and ended chuckling too while removing his remaining tears with the tissue the young woman offered him.

Yes, that kind of tears were good.

Because they were born from happiness.

#joshappreciationweek #dbh josh #josh #dbh

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Josh Appreciation Week - Day 4: Serenity

How do you do it?

Josh didn’t know how much time he spent inside the cabin, but he realized he had unconsciously entered dormant mode when he opened his eyes and found himself lying on the floor in a curling position.

He took a deep breath and finally stood up to leave the small room. At least, having cried after practically collapsing from exhaustion had helped him feel better. Of course the pain of having lost Simon was still there, feeling heavy in his chest, but Josh had been aware that it would have to pass some time until it was more bearable.

It wasn’t until he was on the first floor when he discovered that he had woken up just in time to welcome the groups that had gone to attack CyberLife stores, and he immediately knew that something bad had happened when seeing the deviants’ expression. In fact, now that he paid attention, the deviants that had returned were way fewer than the ones that had left Jericho to carry out the mission.

“Josh”

It was Markus the one who had called his name, and Josh immediately panicked when seeing the leader’s sorrowful expression.

“What’s wrong?”, Josh felt his thirium pump stop beating for a moment, “wait, where is North? Is she okay?”

“Yes, she is”, Josh’s LED, that had turned yellow, came back to blue when Markus rapidly answered with a reassuring tone, “but I think you should check on her”

Josh looked hesitant.

“I don’t think she is very happy to see me. Last time we talked it didn’t go too well”

“I know”, Markus said with a soft tone that soon became darker, “but believe me, I am the last person she wants to see right now”

Josh frowned.

“Why?”

Markus exhaled a sigh, guilt present in his tone when talking next.

“The police attacked us even if we were carrying out a peaceful protest. They began to shoot at us and North saw a model like her die in front of her eyes”

Josh gulped.

“Damn”

Markus smiled sadly.

“Yeah. And then, even if I had the option of killing the officers that did that to us, I decided not to do so”

Josh didn’t hesitate in his answer.

“You did the correct thing”

Markus smiled at him gratefully before recovering his previous serious expression.

“I guess I did but I can’t blame North for feeling disappointed, or for even hating me. So...do you think you could talk to her?”

Josh wasn’t still sure if it was a good idea, but for a fearsome leader Markus surely knew how to make use of puppy eyes, so Josh eventually nodded.

Apparently North wanted to be alone after the mission in Capitol Park and had gone to the top floor of Jericho. It didn’t take Josh much to pinpoint her. She was leaning her forearms on the railing, her gaze focused on something she just could see, and Josh couldn’t help to think that seeing the usual vibrant North looking so serene was beautiful. Even if it was a fake serenity, because Josh knew her well enough already to detect when there was something that bothered her.

“Hey”

The way North glared at him didn’t take Josh by surprise at all, which just seemed to annoy North even more.

“I was wondering who Markus would send to talk to me”, she snorted, “I wasn’t expecting you agreed to do so”

Josh calmly approached North and mimicked her posture over the railing, keeping some distance between them.

“Well, call me crazy, but I think there aren’t many deviants able to stand the Violent Queen Glare”

North snorted, but Josh noticed the extremely brief hint of smile that had been about to appear on the female deviant’s face before it disappeared.

“How do you do it?”, North suddenly asked after some seconds of silence.

“Do what?”, Josh asked with curiosity.

“Being like that”, North made a wide gesture with her hand, signaling Josh.

Josh exhaled a surprised laugh.

“Being like what?”

“Like so ridiculously optimistic, and easy to forgive, and…calm”

North looked at Josh with a confused frown, and for the first time she didn’t mention Josh’s qualities as if they were bad, but as if she didn’t understand how he could have them.

Josh remained silent for a moment and, eventually, he just shrugged.

“To be honest I don’t think I’m ridiculously optimistic, I just try to postpone to do something violent until it is really unavoidable. Also, more than easy to forgive it’s just that I prefer to focus on the things that I can change in the present than trying to seek revenge for things I can’t do anything about. And about being calm…”, Josh averted his eyes, “someone once told me that I should always remember the happy memories when I felt lost, and even if sometimes it is difficult I just try to keep doing that”

A small silence fell between them before North talked.

“It was Simon the one who told you that, right?”

Josh smiled sadly and nodded.

“Yes”

Josh was expecting that the next silence was broken with a snort, so he wasn’t expecting at all to hear a sob coming from North.

With his eyes snapped open Josh looked at the WR400, a lump forming in his throat when seeing North biting her bottom lip with force, while angry, frustrated tears rolled down her tears.

“I can’t do it”, North hissed between her gritted teeth, “I can’t simply forget that maybe if Markus had agreed on taking the stores by force, maybe more deviants would have returned tonight. Or also that if we had shot that guard…”, North grabbed the railway with force with both of her hands, “…maybe Simon…maybe he wouldn’t…”

North closed her eyes and bowed her head a little, her shoulders trembling violently.

Knowing well that, because of her past, North preferred to avoid as much physical contact as possible, Josh simply conformed himself with extending his hand towards North to settle it over North’s one.

He was surprised when after some seconds North’s hand relaxed, her fingers interlacing with his over the railway.

“How do you do it?”, North repeated in a whisper.

Josh took a deep breath, but his tone was serene when talking.

“I just told myself that if taking the peaceful route we are suffering so many losses, it would be even worse if we got more violent. I told myself that by focusing on the good things we still have, I will get strength by remembering for which we are fighting for. And I told myself that holding on just a little while longer, maybe we can get alive from this. And that maybe…”, he pressed North’s hand a little more, “…the people I care about will survive this time”

When hearing that last part North looked at Josh with surprise, just before clicking her tongue probably to hide her embarrassment. Josh couldn’t help to smile. That reaction was more North like.

“You should give Markus classes about how to give good speeches”

Josh chuckled quietly when hearing North’s ironic comment.

“Nah, I think he is good on his own”

Josh was about to release North’s hand when, suddenly, she gripped his hand with more force.

“Uhm…North?”

“Just to make something clear”, North took a deep breath before looking at Josh, “I may have just accepted that you are dumb enough to try the pacifistic route until the end…but you better do anything you can to survive, even if that means killing someone. Because if you dare to die without defending yourself with all your will…”, North’s tone turned dangerously menacing, “…I swear to RA9 that I will somehow bring you back to kill you myself, understood?”

Josh stared at North in disbelief.

Because without a doubt, that was the most beautiful thing that she had ever told him.

“I don’t hear you, Josh”

North’s impatient tone made Josh nod rapidly, which seemed to be acceptable enough for North because she finally released Josh’s hand.

“Come on, let’s go inside before Markus gets worried. And please remove that stupid smile from your face. It makes you look dumber”

But dumber or not, Josh was still smiling when entering Jericho once again.

#joshappreciationweek #Josh #dbh josh #dbh

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Josh Appreciation Week - Day 3: Sadness

Androids do feel pain

“I can’t move my legs...”

“Okay, don’t worry! We’re gonna get you back…”

“They’re coming, Markus. We have to jump, now!”

“He won’t be able to make the jump…If they find him, they’ll access his memory...They’ll know everything…”

“Josh”

The PJ500 came back to reality when finding North in front of him. He had been sitting on the first floor of Jericho next to the improvised infirmary where Lucy worked, lost in his thoughts.

“Yes?”

Josh tried to sound as always but he was unable to mask his worry and discontent. He hadn't been able to focus the whole day either, his thoughts coming back over and over again to what had happened in the Stratford Tower, coming back to the instant in which they decided to leave Simon behind.

“Markus wants to see us in the control room in 10 minutes”

Without waiting for his answer North turned around and began to walk towards the stairs leading to the second floor. With a final sigh Josh stood up and followed the female deviant’s steps.

With the exception of the androids being treated in the infirmary there weren’t many people around Jericho. After all it was 1.40 a.m. and although androids didn’t need to sleep most part of them had adopted that habit as humans did. So yes, everything was pretty calm.

Which contrasted with the way Josh was feeling inside.

Forcing himself to push away the multiple negative outcomes that never stopped coming to his mind, Josh entered the control room. North was already inside, sitting on a chair with her arms crossed and her jaw tense while observing the news playing on the TV inside the room, so Josh sat in another chair in silence, his elbows on his knees and his hands hanging between his parted legs.

A rather tense and uncomfortable silence fell, but it was broken soon by North clicking her tongue loudly.

“Come on, say it”

Josh looked at North and frowned.

“What?”

North snorted.

“I’m not dumb, Josh. I know you blame me for what happened to Simon”

Josh tensed in his seat.

“I don’t”, his firm tone surprised him, “that security guard was the one who shot Simon, not you”

“Then why are you avoiding looking at me since yesterday?”

Josh was about to do exactly that so he stopped midway to look at North in the eyes.

“Because I do blame you for suggesting killing him”

“I didn’t…!”, Josh’s accusing eyes made North rectify what she was going to say, “look, it was the most logical option to take in order to assure our people’s safety!”

“Simon is part of our people, what about his safety?”

“He knew where he was gotten himself into when going to the mission. The same as us. He knew there would be risks!”

“Yes, but one thing is to be killed in a mission and a very different one that one of your closest friend decides to put an end to your life”

North exhaled a frustrated sigh, rolling her eyes.

“I don’t know why I bother to try to reason with you, the fucking Ultimate Pacifist”

Josh sighed with patience, but just when he was going to reply North the news anchor announced that they had some breaking news about what had happened in the Stratford Tower, so both Josh and North straightened up on the chair, paying attention.

It seemed that a journalist had managed to sneak during the investigation and had taken some unprecedent footage while the police was investigating on the roof. The new images just lasted around 10 seconds though, before a rather old lieutenant with long gray hair suddenly appeared in front of the camera saying an angry: ‘Get the fuck out of here, you asshole. There’s nothing to see’.

But, at least for Josh, there was something to see.

Or better said, someone.

Because even if the footage was short, it was just enough for Josh to catch a partial glimpse of Simon’s body lying on the ground.

During the following seconds none Josh or North said anything, but Josh detected his LED reaching read and his stress levels reaching a peak almost as high as when he became a deviant.

Because he couldn’t keep denying it anymore.

He had tried.

He had really tried to deny what his mind and heart were telling him because he wasn’t ready to assume it.

But he couldn’t. Not anymore.

He couldn’t deny that Simon, his best friend, one of the people dearest to him, was dead.

And probably the fact that Josh had been aware of such a revelation since the start was one of the reasons why North and him could act almost normally when the news changed again and the anchor mentioned their broadcast, being the other most probable reason that they were still in shock without even knowing it.

“Our broadcast is all over the news”, Josh was speaking in automatic mode, without actually paying attention to what he was saying, “now humans know…”

“It was a mistake to reach out to them”, North interrupted him, her voice firm but her eyes absent, “they’ll never negotiate with their slaves. We should have shown them that we’re prepared to fight”

“Violence is never the answer. Dialogue is the only way, I’m sure the humans will listen to us”

It wasn’t the first time that he used similar words with North, but this time even he had problems to believe them.

He stood up and began to walk around, suddenly needed to keep being active, to keep moving to forget that...

“Simon paid with his life…”

Josh didn’t see it, but North actually gulped before talking again.

“Simon gave his life for our cause”

Josh stared at North and, without even noticing, sarcasm slipped in his tone.

“What difference does that make?”

“He is a hero!”, North answered way too quickly and defensively, as if she was trying to convince herself too, “He died for the revolution - and he won’t be the last!”

“I don’t want a revolution that spills blood!”, Josh almost shouted, his LED blinking even faster in red when remembering how Simon’s body looked in the TV.

“Then live as a slave!”, North rudely stood up, her eyes brighter like Josh’s ones, “Because if you are not willing to fight for your freedom, maybe you don’t deserve it!”

Josh’s hands turned into fists and he found himself taking a step towards North.

“North, don’t you dare-”

“THAT’S ENOUGH!”

At that moment Markus entered the room, and for the expression he was hearing Josh deduced he already knew what Simon’s fate had been.

“And now...what are we gonna do?”

Josh didn’t know what Markus wanted to do, or what North wanted to do. What Josh knew was that he had to leave the control room right then, and that’s what he did.

He heard Markus calling his name with a hint of worry, but for the first time Josh pretended not to hear the leader.

Josh didn’t stop walking until being in one of the cabins of the third floor that worked as a storage.

And then, once inside, Josh took a long deep breath.

And then another one, trying to calm down.

And then…

...he broke down.

Because he was the one who said that Simon couldn’t do the jump.

He was the one who didn’t have faith in Simon, believing he couldn't do it.

And finally, he was the one who eventually agreed of leaving Simon behind, sealing his destiny in that Tower.

Falling on his knees Josh leaned his forehead on the ground and gritted his teeth. He shutted his eyes closed and tried that his sobs weren’t too loud so the deviants sleeping inside the other cabins were not awaken, conforming himself with rhythmically hitting the ground next to his head with his fisted hand.

Definitely, the clever humans that said that androids didn’t feel pain couldn’t be more fucking mistaken.

#joshappreciationweek #josh #dbh josh #dbh

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lili-typos · 6 years ago

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Johnny Depp is officially innocent.

So I hope everyone who decided to boycott him, talk shit about him as Grindelwald, and try to ruin his career think about how overreactive and wrong they were this whole time.

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lili-typos · 6 years ago

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Josh Appreciation Week - Day 2: Resentment

Eventually forgiven but never forgotten

Almost exactly one month had passed since that September 5 in which Josh arrived at Jericho, after a female deviant disguised as a simple caretaker android touched his arm and rapidly interfaced with him, letting him know the location of Jericho, the place which was now his home.

However, even if he didn’t have to worry anymore about having to run in the middle of the night when he heard the Police getting close, or when humans seemed to look at him more longer than necessary, Josh didn’t feel at ease yet.

Because with deviancy, the bad dreams had begun to appear.

Nightmares in which he was taken by force to be destroyed; in which he tried to run away just to discover that his legs had turned into jelly or were too heavy and he was unable to move; in which he was standing in front of a classroom that looked infinite in the distance, being mocked by students while he was unable to spell a word because his throat was suddenly closed.

And the worst nightmare of all, the one which recurrently pushed him out of his dormant gasping for air that he actually didn’t need, was the one in which he revived the day in which he became a deviant, but with a different result: in the dream, instead of letting those students go, he reacted. He fought back. And eventually, he won, causing the dead bodies of the students to fall motionless at his feet, while the palm of his hands ended stained in dark, red blood.

Josh took a deep breath, trying to concentrate in his task in hand that now consisted in organizing the supplies that the scavenging group had managed to gather that day.

It was a simple, mechanic task that, supposedly, had to help him relax, but also the fact that it wasn’t too complicated allowed his mind to wander about things that he honestly preferred to forget.

“Oh, there you are”

Josh found himself tensing a little when hearing that familiar voice behind him. He turned around in time to see Simon enter the cabin, smiling with his usual calm.

“Hey, Simon. Did you want something?”

While talking Josh avoided to look at Simon in the eyes. The PL600 was the one who welcomed him when he arrived at Jericho, and was also the one who lead him to the infirmary so that Lucy took care of him. They got along well, and usually Josh enjoyed spending time with him. But this time it was different, since Simon was scarily perceptive and the last thing Josh wanted to do at the moment was to talk.

“Listen, Josh…”, the PJ500 tensed even more, because he knew that tone well by then, “...do you have a minute?”

“For what?”, damn, he had sounded ruder than he intended too, but Simon didn’t seem to mind because he talked again with the same smooth tone.

“Just to talk for a moment”

Josh suppressed a sigh. Definitely Simon couldn’t have worse timing, and suddenly Josh wished that there were more deviants around so that he could avoid that conversation.

“Sorry, Simon, but right now I’m quite busy so can we talk later? I still have to catalog all this supplies and Lucy told me she needed help relocating the new harmed deviants so--”

“I’m in love with you, Josh”

Josh’s eyes snapped open while staring at Simon in disbelief.

“WHAT?”

“Good! Now I finally have your attention”

Josh didn’t usually curse, but this time he did with such sentiment that Simon began to laugh.

“Dude, don’t joke with that”

“Oh, sorry, a simple PL600 deviant is not enough for you?”

“It’s not that, you idiot, it’s just…”, Josh took a deep breath, not knowing very well what to say and neither to explain why his thirium pump was pulsing so fast when Simon said that, “nevermind. You do have my attention, so what the hell you want?”

Simon half-sat on the side of the table where Josh had been organizing the supplies and crossed his arms, his clear blue eyes diggin in Josh’s brown ones. However, despite his inquisitive gaze, Simon’s tone was soft when talking next.

“Well, I will go straight to the point. I know you are not as fine as you want to pretend to be. Caretaker habits are hard to beat, and it is evident you aren’t getting too much rest. And I may not be in love with you but I do care about you. So….”, Simon smiled gently at Josh, “...would you tell me what’s wrong?”

Josh gulped and averted his eyes, letting the thirium bag he had in his hands on the table to lean against it, next to Simon.

During the next seconds Simon didn’t pressure him to speak, and simply waited until Josh was ready to talk.

And once he began, Josh found himself unable to stop.

He told Simon everything about his nightmares, about all of them. And when he reached the one that scared him the most, Josh couldn’t prevent his tone from hardening.

“When I let those students go, I knew that not attacking them was the correct thing to do, because otherwise I wouldn’t be better than them. But still, every time that I dream about that, every time that I picture how killing them would be, I feel…”, Josh gulped, “...I feel…”

“...good?”

Josh bit his lip and nodded shakily, not daring to look at Simon when the PL600 guessed right what he was going to say.

“And I know it is wrong. I know I shouldn’t feel that way but--”

“Why not?”

Josh looked at Simon without understanding.

“What?”

Simon smiled again.

“Why not?”, he repeated, “I mean, those students were about to kill you, and it is clear you suffered a lot during those six years. Six years, Josh. That’s a lot to bear with. So as far as I’m concerned, there’s nothing wrong in feeling that way, as long as you don’t let those feelings overcome the good ones”

“But that’s the problem, Simon. The bad memories greatly surpass the good ones”

“Maybe, but there are good ones, right?”, Simon insisted, continuing when Josh nodded, “and those are the ones you should treasure, the ones that should help you push aside the negative ones. I’m sure there’s at least one”

Josh remained silent for a moment, and then, suddenly, a memory that he thought forgotten appeared clear in his mind.

“There was this one student. Her name was Dominika. She was really brilliant despite she sometimes doubted about that, and she always attended my classes with a smile. She even defended me once after classes when some other students unfairly protested for the grades they got. She had to leave the classes because she got pregnant and wanted to focus on being a mother but the last day she attended she came to talk to me...and hugged me”, Josh exhaled a trembling laugh, his vision suddenly getting blurry, “how could I forget about that?”

Simon settled a hand on Josh’s shoulder, pretending not to see the way they were shaking a little.

“Being surrounded by too many unpleasant memories usually make us forget the truly important ones, but they are still there”

Josh exhaled a deep breath and nodded with determination.

“You are right. I should focus on that. Also, I know I won’t forget what those students did to me, so I will just accept it happened. And who knows, even if it’s not now because it’s still too recent, maybe I can even forgive them for it. After all, as ironic as it is, they helped me wake up and be free”

Simon chuckled.

“If that’s not positive thinking, I don’t know what is it”

Josh chuckled too before playfully hitting Simon’s shoulder with his own.

A comfortable silence fell between them, but it was soon interrupted by a ruckus coming from the first floor.

After interchanging a worried glance Josh and Simon rapidly abandoned the cabin and climbed down the stairs, approaching the source of the conflict.

It was a WR400.

She was still dressing in the Eden Club uniform and was standing in the middle of a group of deviants that looked rather scared, mainly because the female android had adopted a defensive posture and she seemed about to attack at anyone who dared to get close to her. Also, it was evident that she had just turned into deviant because her angry expression also seemed lost, and it was probably similar to the one Josh had when waking up.

“Anyone who dares to touch me will have to buy a new nose, understood?”, the female shouted, probably to mask that she was probably more scared that she was willing to show, “I want to talk to the one in charge”

“Here you have it”

Josh wasn’t expecting when Simon suddenly patted his back with force, making him give a be about to stumble in front of the female deviant, who raised an skeptic eyebrow.

“You are the leader?”

After glaring at Simon (who looked completely unbothered by it), Josh turned towards the female deviant.

“No, I’m not. This is a community so no one has more importance than others”, the female deviant didn’t look very convinced but Josh continued nevertheless, “what’s your name?”

It took the WR400 some seconds to answer, but she didn’t lower her guard yet.

“North”

“I’m Josh. And that coward behind me is Simon”, while the named one smiled at North, Josh offered a hand to the female deviant, “you can relax now, North. There are only friends here”

“Oh, really?”, North made no attempt to take Josh’s hand, “well, sorry if I have trust issues but the past fucking three years haven’t been easy”

Josh didn’t even think about mentioning it had been six years in his case, because he could clearly feel that whatever North had gone through those years was even worse than what he had experienced.

“You have all the right to be. And it will take a while until you feel at ease here. I have been here just for a month, and I was still trying to cope with everything that happened to me until barely five minutes ago. But that anger we feel, that resentment, we can fight against it. I know that now, and how to begin to do it. So if you are willing to try it…”, Josh dared to take a new step towards North, his arm still extended, “...we are here to help”

North’s expression didn’t change, and for a moment Josh thought that he was going to be rejected. But after some long seconds, North clicked her tongue and with a rude gesture she took Josh’s hand with firmness.

“Tsk, you will never me convince to play the good, forgiving girl, but if you have the guts to try, you are welcome”

Josh smiled when hearing Simon begin to laugh behind him.

Maybe North was right and that was an impossible task, but he wouldn’t give up that easily. Not anymore.

#joshappreciationweek #josh #dbh josh #dbh

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