lightweight-storytime

[lightweight-storytime]

Just imagine. Soon they’ll notice. They’ll say things like “wow you look slimmer”. They’ll be able to pick you up with ease. You won’t be embarrassed to sit in their lap because you’ll know you’re lighter than ever. They’ll be able to scoop you up and spin you around in hugs the way you’ve always wanted. You’ll feel petite and fragile and they’ll want to protect you. Soon you’ll feel that you finally deserve their love.

[lightweight-storytime]

Just imagine. It’s late in the evening and you receive a text “let’s go out dancing! 💕”. This is something that used to terrify you but the excitement you have tonight is like no other. The scale is finally reflecting numbers you’ve waited so long to see and tonight for the first time that sexy dark red mini dress you’ve had hanging on the wall as a reminder of what you’ve been working for FITS! It shows off the tiny waist you’ve dreamed of for so long, you’ve finally done it. You feel so small and fragile, you’re no longer the fat friend in pictures, now you’re the smallest of the group and you can’t wait to show that to the world.

[lightweight-storytime]

Ana whispers in your ear as you stand naked in front of the mirror. You can clearly see your ribs, your figure looks like an hour glass and your see your lovely hip bones poke out. You’re thighs now like neighbors rather then roommates. You look at your arms, so delicate all the way down to your slim wrists and thin boney fingers. You begin to smile looking up to your faces reflecting, as your eyes makes their way up you admire your prominent collarbones on display below your slim neck. You’re jaw line looks sharp, as dose the rest of your lovely facial structure.

That day is coming you just have to keep going.

[lightweight-storytime]

A is for Always thinking about food

B is for Body checking

C is for Counting calories

D is for Diet plans

E is for Energy Drinks

F is for Fear foods

G is for Going without dinner

H is for Hiding food from yourself

I is for Insecurity

J is for Just one more hour of a fast

K is for Kilogram

L is for losing weight

M is for Minimizing calories

N is for No food after 7pm

O is for Only drinking water

P is for Posting thinspo

Q is for Questioning everything you eat

R is for Rationalizing your disporder

S is for Starving

T is for Telling yourself lies

U is for Unsatisfied hunger

V is for Very few friends

W is for Wanting a new body

X is for Xanax to stop the anxiety

Y is for Your desire to be thin

Z is for Zinc supplements with your vitamins

[lightweight-storytime]

Just imagine,

You wake up to the sound of rain outside your window, as you stretch in your bed shaking off the sleep of the night you can see your delicate rib’s poking through your tank top. You gracefully climb out of bed and glance at the mirror, you’re able to smile as you admire your body you’ve worked so hard for. You can see your collar bones beautifully defined, your thighs haven’t touched in ages. You feel a confidence you’ve never felt before. You step to the scale excited knowing you’ve done everything you’re supposed to, and just like that you see it. You see the scale read at your UGW. You spin your around with ease as you grab a warm sweater to you can go enjoy the rain on your porch while having a warm and soothing cup of coffee and you sit knowing you finally did it.

This could be you.