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How far along are you

19 weeks today.

~Calla Maven

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What city are you from? And once the babies come, will you be open to play dates?

We are currently in Los Angeles, but we are thinking about moving to New York City soon. 

Play dates would definitely be something in the future, we’d need to adjust to having the little ones before I would want to do any type of play date.

~Calla Maven

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How's your pregnancy going

It’s going alright, I’ve just been beyond exhausted throughout it so I haven’t been able to do much.

~Calla Maven

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So, we have been a little MIA for the past two weeks. The reason being that I have been struggling a bit with my depression and loss of my mother. The fact that my children won’t ever know my parents has begun to take a toll on me and it worries me. I may never know things about my family history that they want to know. Coming to terms with this has been hard, but I have been managing with the help of Aleron. 

How far along? 18 weeks and 1 day How big are the babies? The size of a sweet potato! Baby B is a bit smaller though, they are more the size of an average 16 week old which is the size of a pickle. Total weight gain/loss? Since the last time I weighed myself I lost about 3lbs. Maternity clothes? When I wear my own clothes, yes. I mainly stick to wearing dresses and Aleron’s t-shirts. Sleep? My sleeping schedule has leveled out. I get about 8 hours a night and sometimes I take a nap during the day. Best moment this week? Feeling the babies move for certain Symptoms? I am eating a LOT more, I get vertigo from time to time which is annoying, and I don’t know if this is a symptom but it seems that I am getting more and more forgetful. Stretch marks? Sadly Food cravings? I eat pretty much anything and everything that is in sight, except for meat. Food aversions? Meat, mainly red meat though. Gender? We are finding out on tomorrow, 5-10-18! Gender prediction? I have begun to lean more towards two girls just based on how most of my family’s pregnancies have gone. Movement? I have been feeling little flutters and rolling Labor signs? No, thank God Belly button in or out? In, but I have a feeling not for much longer. What I miss? I really miss being able to do stuff for myself. Due to my high risk pregnancy I have to rely heavily on Aleron and his family to help me with everyday things. His mom and or sister typically spend the day with me while he is at work. What I'm looking forward to? Finding out the genders of our little ones! Happy or Moody most of the time? Lately it has just been one mood, and that’s been sad or lonely, but it lessens when Aleron gets home.

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How far along? 14 weeks and 4 days How big are the babies? about the size of a beet Total weight gain/loss? I have gained 15 lbs, but my weight fluctuates a lot anyway Maternity clothes? No, but I have to wear bigger clothes and I steal Aleron’s stuff majority of the time. I also don’t really wear pants too often. Sleep? I sleep all the damn time, I feel like I am only up for maybe 6 hours of the day and that used to be how long I slept daily so the things have definitely reversed. Have you told family and friends? We just announced it the other day to everyone, but Aleron’s family knew first, mine still doesn’t know and I don’t plan to tell them. I wanted to keep it quiet until I was through my first trimester. Best moment this week? Convincing Aleron to look at baby stuff at the store with me Symptoms? Nausea, fatigue, headaches/migraines constantly, and tender breasts Stretch marks? Nope, not yet Food cravings? Sweets, like seriously bring me all the desserts Food aversions? Meat Gender? Don’t know yet Gender prediction? I hope it's one of each, but I think that it’s both boys due to how big I am and such.  Movement? not that I can really distinguish, slight flutters maybe but not really Labor signs? No, thank goodness Belly button in or out? In What I miss? Sleeping on my stomach What I'm looking forward to? The next sonogram so I can see my little miracles again Bump? I definitely have one Happy or Moody most of the time? MOODY AF

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So about three weeks ago I found out that I was expecting. Pregnancy has always been a really hard thing for me. I have gotten pregnant numerous times before, but they had always ended in a miscarriage. Some of the miscarriages were later into my pregnancy and the only reason my doctor could give me for this reason was that my body was not strong enough to carry a child. That due to my size and overall health that me carrying a child to be full-term would never happen and that ultimately if I did get pregnant I would lose the baby 99.9% of the time. 

I met Aleron at the beginning of December and things have always been different with him, been special. We didn’t officially become a couple until about a month ago, but since the day after we met we have basically become inseparable. He became my rock and made my life a million times easier. I didn’t know it at the time, but he was different, he was going to be my everything, my chance for a life that I never knew I could have. 

We definitely didn’t plan for this to happen so early on in our relationship, but honestly we both feel like it’s right so we don’t have a problem with it. We are both over the moon about our little miracles. Yes miracles.

About a week after I found out I went to the doctor and we found out that we were having twins. When I first found out that there were two I was beyond freaked out and I honestly didn’t think that I could do it or handle it, but I’ve realized that this happened for a reason and it just gives me another little soul to love and care for.

I am currently 14 weeks and 2 days.

My life has changed so much since I found out that I was pregnant. About a week after I found out my mom passed away, I found out that it was twins, I was raising two rebellious teenagers and four other kids under the age of ten and then had them taken away from me because my family thought I couldn’t handle it. There definitely are something I wish I could have changed, like the fact that my children will only have one grandparent and that they will never know my side of the family, but all that matters is that I get to experience the one thing I have always wanted to, being a mother.

I found a new doctor for this pregnancy because Aleron requested me to and she thinks that my last doctor wasn’t good at their job. They didn’t give me the proper things to help my body support a child. She said that it would be safe to announce this pregnancy and that this may be a high risk thing, but that I will make it through this. So that is why I decided to make this blog with the man I love.