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Is this all

Darkness

Is this all

Is this all I waited for

To be again in a place

Where all I want to do is

Die

Just Die

Or disappear

Seven years ago

I holded on

And look where it got me

Wishing

I jumped under the train

That seven years ago

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Running

Im running

Away from the darkness

Im tired

I can’t anymore

What If I fall

Will I ever get back up again?

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Time

The clock is ticking

What have I accomplished?

Have I accomplished

Anything meaningful?

Am I

Anything meaningful?

What is meaningfulness based on?

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How broken people love

Why won’t you love me?

How can I

Make up

All the things I’ve done?

I want to feel loved

But I broke you

And you don’t

Know how to love anymore

Now we just

Hurt each other

Because

Thats how broken people

Love.

-Saara’s poetry

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Love runs circles

Love

Runs circles

When you live

The live you sent

Comes back to you

If you want to feel loved

You need to make others

Feel loved

Remember that,

Always.

-Saara’s poetry

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How will I heal?

Im tired

I can’t TaKe this anymore

I’m Not good enough

For anytime

How can someone

Be this faulty

So broken

Unlovable

How will I

Be enough

How will I learn

How to love

So I can

Love you back

How will I

Heal my broken heart

From million pieces

Into one

Pumbing

Love

And kindness

For you

-Saara’s poetry

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Secret

Secret

He said

Don’t tell anybody

He said

He destroyed me

You can’t tell

He said

Even when all I truly wanted

Is to tell

Atleast to someone

Atleast to my dearest ones

So that they know

So that they understand

Why am I this way

You destroyed me

Again and again

With your words

With your hands around my neck

And nobody knows

You made me bleed

You cut open

My still healing wound

You knew what is the best way to destroy me

I let you in

Now

Look in to my eyes

You broke me again

- Saara’s poetry

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Nightmare

I woke up

But it’s still a nightmare

I’m Not sure

Am I awake

Or not

Alive

Or not

I don’t know what is real

And what is Not

I see and hear things

Im Not sure anymore

What is true

And what is Not

Do I see demons

Or am I just insane.

-Saara’s poetry

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Flames

You don’t understand

What I am going through

And I can’t tell you

What it really is

The one thing I know

Some part of me

Wants to end my life

I can’t tell you what it really is

I can tell you only

What I feel like

But you still do Not understand

The hell I’m going through

You are just watching me burn.

You get mad

When I try to get a peace in the hell

For a while

Just a second

You just throw gas

Into my flames

-Saara’s poetry

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Fight

Im tired of fighting

The same fight

All over again

The fight inside my mind

There are so many voices,

So many

That I can’t hear my own

And I’m fighting to Not give up

To them

Because they are Not good

They’re Evil

Atleast most of them

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I can handle this and also not

How can it be

That at the very same moment

You feel joyful

And sad

You feel God is near

But the next

Second

He is milloin stars away

And I’m left all alone

To handle the monsters

Just by my own power

Why God

You allow this

I ask

But then I say

I can handle this and I trust you

- Saara’s

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Fragile

I am fragile

Like glass

I fall into pieces

Crack

Every time I fall

For one second I fly

But then I crash into the floor

Once again

I’m like sugar

When the sun shines

I am whole

But when even one dropp of Ester

Falls down the sky

I Melt

I break

But I always

Somehow

Have the strenght

To put myself together

Just to fall apart again

After every fall

After every raindrop

I come out

Even stronger

I am

Streght

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Maybe I just know better

What is reality

What is real

Are they real

Things I see

I don’t know

If I just know better

That there are monsters

Inside my head

Under my bed

And lurking

Behind every corner

Maybe I just

Know better.

-Saara’s poetry

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Monsters

There are atleast one monster

In every room

In the corner

Lurking

Watching

Staring at me

But I am safe

The monsters just stare

Like the Salla

They are there

You just know

That they are there

Even though I close my eyes

They never disappear

But they don’t scare me anymore

Because

I can Take pills

That take the monsters away

From my eyesight

Never of my mind though

I still know

They are there

Like walls and windows

You know they are there

Even if you didn’t see them.

-Saara’s poetry

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Who am I

Why am I myself

Why can’t I be

someone easier

Someone more lovable

Someone who has all things right

Someone strong

Someone brave

Who am I?

Am I what I want to be?

Am I the one I so hard try to be?

Or just a shadow from it….

- Saara’s poetry

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What remains

When you don’t try anymore

When you don’t have the strenght to see the light,

The rainbow during the Rain

Just are, who you truly are

-Saara’s poetry

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I look in the mirror

Who is she

Someone different

Someone happy

Someone so strong

It’s Not me looking back

I can’t recognize her

Should I?

She is someone so distant

From another planet

Sunbeams to follow her

For me they hide away

Two so different

Two opposites

-Saara’s poetry