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TW/CN: judgement of cravings

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.WOW. I just have this overwhelming desire to eat candy today. I’m kind of struggling! I *have* been enjoying several pieces of candy today, and it typically doesn’t grab a hold of me like it is today. If I tell myself “you enjoyed it, you’ve had enough,” that’s still a form of mental restriction. I’m not hungry, I enjoyed my dinner. But I have literally cannot stop thinking about candy. The desire is to eat candy until I feel sick. In my eyes I’ve “had enough” but my mouth is watering thinking about it. I don’t even want it as a form of stomach hunger. What in the diet culture is going on here?!

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I am in college and am taking a creative writing class and one of our units is poetry. I write poetry often but usually not “Ode to” poems and I decided to write a poem about my fat body. I hope you can all find comfort within the words of this poem!

Ode to my Fat Body:

Ode to my goddamn glorious body, holder of many rolls.

To these boisterous thunder thighs that never fail to shake and quake

A reclamation of the word “fat” that so many have stole

Struck with, “you’re pretty for a fat girl, but I ensure you that I will not break

To this voluptuous belly, set of drums, holder of all

Sculpted by the gracious hands of Aphrodite herself, goddess of beauty and love

How glorious it must be to never feel the need to shrink or be small

To realize this body, this fat-this chub, will be your one true love

Ode to this thick skin, this blanket of armor surrounding me

Silly smears and side comments won’t stop this thunder from rolling

Fat positivity planting seeds in my mind, waiting for self-love to flourish and grow into a big great tree

No longer allowing society to set the bar of beauty and become controlling

Ode to my fat, this blanket of love hugging each curve

Deserving always of security when placed in the hands of another lover

A candle wick, waiting to be lit, dancing and shining bright

You strong resilient girl, unapologetically reaching for the stars, ready to recover

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I went to see a psychiatrist who didn't give me a diagnosis because she needed an assessment, yet despite disclaiming that she's not a family doctor or nutritionist, she mentioned my weight/exercise/nutrition multiple times during the consultation.

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Hi Lovelies! Does anyone have a heart condition that’s not down to their weight? Mine is hereditary but my doctor is always on at me to loose weight 😔

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Big Tobacco's role in weight obsession. There have been a few post lamenting fatphobia in the media. While prejudice is part of it, clandestine marketing in entertainment has a long history. Scroll down to about the middle to read about sneaky early efforts to promote thinness as a way to boost cigarette sales! https://centuryofpersuasion.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/fs2-lucky-eddie/?fbclid=IwAR27eTrpRXCEtziAemF0KF8C3fB7W5EttClLTp_yo00hXFS8eACdnBRxDWQ

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Shoutout to the TERF lesbians who are mad that they supposedly “lost a lesbian icon” when Elliot Page came out as the main reason for my ire today. Elliot does not have to compromise his comfortability with himself for your benefit. There are other lesbians out there who have done brilliant work. They still exist. Follow and celebrate them. Let Elliot be a symbol of hope for trans people. For God’s sake let them have something.