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By JimBerton

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Rosalina cosplaying as Berthier from Sailor Moon (90s anime)

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really love her new look!!! aaaa i had to draw it!!!

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But why?

Why is my inner self pushing me to watch all these sorts of things? Why can't I skip over them? Why is my inner self saying that these are for my personal growth? That it's important for me to see things from another perspective?

I've talked about it with my family and close ones. They all told me to not do it if it made me feel uncomfortable.

But why? Why does my mind tell me to lean into discomfort? I can't do it alone.

I tried listening to a song about a man that reached 26 years of age, and his life is a mess (the video is called "Twenty6 - 6Teen Parody" by Cytrusphere) The music was catchy, the guitar riffs were good, but the overall theme was uncomfortable for me.

Isn't there another way for me?

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Hello again.

Something inside me is encouraging me to go beyond, and step put of my comfort zone.

Inspiring me to listen to songs that reflect the harsh realities of being an adult.

About how running away from problems will lead you to becoming a depressed adult.

About how fairy tales wouldn't work the same when given a dose of real world problems.

About heroes if they were villains.

It wants me to write stories that are deconstructed, melancholic.

But a part of me still misses the comfort of the comfort zone.

What do you think I should do?

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Save me from MYSELF...

I really don't want to watch reversed videos or songs...

There must be some other way to feel discomfort.

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Yesterday I realized something —

It wasn't my gut who was making all these suggestions to me. It was my mind.

My gut is as scared as I am about the plan my mind has carried out for me.

My gut... or rather, my inner little girl... would rather want out of it, too.

I want to reignite my creativity, but I also wish there was another way to do it...

I also don't want to lose myself in negativity.

I did a test run yesterday. I felt very brave when I did it. But my mind wants more. Before the test run, I planned out a whole week dedicated to stepping out of my comfort zone...

But I'm still so scared. And upset, and angry. Why does it have to be this way? Why must growth be so painful?

I miss my comfort zone already.

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A huge part of creativity is just shrugging off the fear of being ridiculous.

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Somebody save me.

I have come face to face with the revelation that there will be things I don't want to see and that I'll have to do things I don't want to do.

Plus, I am currently undergoing a period of creative stagnation. My gut (Stella) keeps begging me to do as she says, but I won't listen to her. I know she wants to help, but I just don't agree with her suggestions.

I just want this inner pain to end.

I'm just not ready to experience the weird and the uncomfortable.

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Josh and Justin tearfully embrace each other.

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My brain and my gut are like different people now.

I named my brain "Geraldine" and my gut "Stella".

They sometimes clash on what I should do.

Yesterday was when the problems started.

You see, when I was still in high school, I suddenly became obsessed with watching sad things, videos in reverse, and other things that, to me, were pessimistic... (like, for example, alt-idols). I cataloged that period of time as "the worst summer ever," and I never wanted to experience that ever again.

It seems that now, that obsession and craving resurfaced. My gut, Stella, found out that I didn't watch the videos in full...

I couldn't even sleep well.

What should I do?

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I should have never chosen the Basic course for my Portuguese class.

I learned little to nothing there. I desperately pled my mom to get me out of there. Thank God there's a final exam.

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Who are D-ESTER?

D-ESTER (디에스터) is a South Korean virtual boy group under ONUP. They have yet to make their debut.

The "D" in their name stands for "Day," and "Ester" comes from "Aster"— latin for "star". It symbolizes their wish to become idols that shine like stars in everyone's daily lives.

Members:

TAEO (Lee Tae-oh)

Birth Date: December 21, 2000

Height: 187cm

Weight: 67cm

MBTI: INTJ

Position: Leader, Main Rapper, Producer

JAY

Birth Date: May 16, 2001

Height: 189cm

Weight: 65kg

MBTI: ISFP

Position: Main Vocalist, Producer

HAEL

Birth Date: October 24, 2004

Height: 174cm

Weight: Around 57kg

MBTI: INFJ

Position: Lead Vocalist

DABIN (Cha Da-bin)

Birth Date: February 7, 2003

Height: 178cm

Weight: 60kg

MBTI: ISFJ, ISFP

Position: Lead Dancer

KHAN

Birth Date: July 2, 2005

Height: 182cm

Weight: 72kg

MBTI: ENFP

Position: Main Dancer, Sub-Rapper

Links

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YouTube

Instagram

TikTok

Daum Fancafe

Image sources: D-ESTER's official X

Info source: D-ESTER's introduction video