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Once again, America is continuing to be the weakest link (especially spiritually)

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGAMIND MOVIE

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the best part of experiencing november 5th 2020 was watching tumblr attempt to describe what it was like to experience november 5th 2020

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In some other universe where Carmy and Syd met in kindergarten:

5 year old Sydney: hey dad, I found a white boy

*Carmy shyly raising his hand while drinking a capri sun*

Emmanuel: his name is Carmen!

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Were Carmy and Syd texting a lot and spending a lot of time together during this time?

I ask because the text from carmy is very casual and sarcastic, there's familarity and humor involved when she asks if Fak has real tools. (Carmy knows this much because he asks for faks real tools when he's ready to fix their table)

Back to the timeline and chance where they spent time together: Sydney comes back to work with Carmy in December (the holiday song that plays at the beginning of 1x08).

2x01 is in March, and at the end, it's 18 weeks until it's open. 2x02 pasta is 12 weeks til open- they had a month to spend time together.

So they have 1.- 3 months to talk- 3 months to discuss plans for the bear, the budget, and plans for renovation from December to March. 3 months to get to know each other.

The another month to spend together before he reunited with Claire.

The scene where Sydney asks, “Still good to jam on menu later?" It’s clear they’ve bonded over brainstorming in the past.

Then there's that moment when Carmy turns back to her once he says, "Yes, chef." It felt like Sydney was about to chime in, too, (maybe asking if she left something at his place??) but then Marcus swoops in and interrupts just as he stood between them a scene later when Carmy asks her if she wants to work at the apartment.

Another thing when Carmy says this- it's the apartment, not my. I believe this was a specific detail.

It seems like Sydney was at his apartment for the first time 2x02 BUT he says the apartment like she's been to his place before.

She walks in and looks around the apartment—does it look different from the last time she was there? It seems messy. She looks at the remote on the table, the crooked curtains, and the nail on the wall—maybe there was a picture there when she went to the apartment last time.

They spent time together, but it was mostly work-related. Aka scrunchie portal, she also asks him if he's still thinking about the chaos menu.

This show loves to play with time, so what if we get a timeline episode of Sydney and carmy being actual partners before season 2 starts or the weeks between 2x01 and 2x02? We still get clues about how close they're getting with the matching sweaters, we know this because this was the one and only time Sydney is comfortable enough talking to carmy about her father with Carmy in the beginning of the episode.

Closer than we thought, perhaps?

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Were Carmy and Syd texting a lot and spending a lot of time together during this time?

I ask because the text from carmy is very casual and sarcastic, there's familarity and humor involved when she asks if Fak has real tools. (Carmy knows this much because he asks for faks real tools when he's ready to fix their table)

Back to the timeline and chance where they spent time together: Sydney comes back to work with Carmy in December (the holiday song that plays at the beginning of 1x08).

2x01 is in March, and at the end, it's 18 weeks until it's open. 2x02 pasta is 12 weeks til open- they had a month to spend time together.

So they have 1.- 3 months to talk- 3 months to discuss plans for the bear, the budget, and plans for renovation from December to March. 3 months to get to know each other.

The another month to spend together before he reunited with Claire.

The scene where Sydney asks, “Still good to jam on menu later?" It’s clear they’ve bonded over brainstorming in the past.

Then there's that moment when Carmy turns back to her once he says, "Yes, chef." It felt like Sydney was about to chime in, too, (maybe asking if she left something at his place??) but then Marcus swoops in and interrupts just as he stood between them a scene later when Carmy asks her if she wants to work at the apartment.

Another thing when Carmy says this- it's the apartment, not my. I believe this was a specific detail.

It seems like Sydney was at his apartment for the first time 2x02 BUT he says the apartment like she's been to his place before.

She walks in and looks around the apartment—does it look different from the last time she was there? It seems messy. She looks at the remote on the table, the crooked curtains, and the nail on the wall—maybe there was a picture there when she went to the apartment last time.

They spent time together, but it was mostly work-related. Aka scrunchie portal, she also asks him if he's still thinking about the chaos menu.

This show loves to play with time, so what if we get a timeline episode of Sydney and carmy being actual partners before season 2 starts or the weeks between 2x01 and 2x02? We still get clues about how close they're getting with the matching sweaters, we know this because this was the one and only time Sydney is comfortable enough talking to carmy about her father with Carmy in the beginning of the episode.

Closer than we thought, perhaps?

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I know joy and amusement are about Sydney because the songs on the show that are about happiness and joy is in Sydney's moments.

And we see Carmy doing the opposite of providing joy and amusement.

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"Because you write in margins"

And it's how she says it it's with a shrug and there's a tone of obviousness. Of course I could see you write in margins and of course I'm thinking of you while I do this.

While carmy is touched by this , she's doing something for him - not only that, but she notices this small thing about him.

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i just want everyone to know that if in the first 3 minutes of season 4 episode 1 syd and carmy aren’t fully making out, i will off myself

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@ambeauty and I were curious in a conversation about what made carmy basically FREAK OUT after sleeping with Claire. I just had a thought that maybe the jeremy was right because Claire scared the shit out of him and she's so great, and, in the end, Syd brought him back to realize it was a good thing. But that was the kicker. He could have used Mikey's words to let it rip if Claire was so great it scared him. He always used that when he was afraid.

So, he’s sitting there, thinking about how Sydney told him he was excellent and wonders why he’s back home, you know, where Claire and the family are. The idea of Sydney coming back and saying “What are you doing here?” actually calms him down a bit, like everything changed, and Syd is the now the reason he's there?

Claire is so great and joyful that it scares him so he needs Sydney to ground him and claire is the peace. Doesn't make sense, you know?

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It's the long pauses before he talks about providing others (or someone) with amusement and enjoyment. In the 3x09 scene, he does not mention joy or amusement, but the subject surrounds Syd and Carmy.

Marcus tells us in 3x03 that it's sometimes better to communicate without words and just pay attention. Did you notice that after Carmy makes the action happen—where he 'provides' or presents joy and amusement to Sydney—he pauses again? He has so much to say about loving something but not having fun, hoping that love comes from a positive and healthy place, and also knowing he has to filter out the bad but not knowing how to until 3x09, where he realizes he's been avoiding facing the 'bad' (David, Claire, Donna) and has yet to filter it out to have a legacy with Sydney that is anxiety-free, joyful, amusing, the dream weave as Richie puts it.

I'm obsessed with this because Carmy wants to say so much more. I hope next season he lets it out what he wants for their relationship.

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Summary:

“Are you sure, you just need it once a week?” He leans against the door frame tapping his spoon in his palm.

“Need what, Carmy?” She looks up at him innocently like she didn’t know exactly what he was referring to.

“Are you just feeding from me? Or are there others?”

“Are you asking me if we are exclusive?”

“I just want to make sure you have what you need. I know I’ve been shitty and I don’t want to be.”

“Well that’s, um, I know you don’t want to be. If it makes you feel better. Yes I only feed from you. Your blood, and other, fluids, leave me completely satiated.”

AHHH It is finished! Thank you again to the wonderful @katiethelmie please please please go check out her art on her blog an on AO3! I hope this conclusion lives up to the wait!

Cousins: @sydneys-adamu @falllpoutboy @escapism-through-imagination @thehouseofevangelista @sutherlins @anxietycroissant @turbulenthandholding @afrofairysblog

Also I am probably taking a mini hiatus from writing so I can catch up on reading. The amount of tabs open on my phone are despicable!

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Syd: These are goals for us to…

Carmy: No, no, no, no, no. ’Cause they’re not goals, okay? They are musts. They are nonnegotiables. If we want to get a star, this is what we’re going to do. You two can keep talking shit, but this is what we have to do, okay?

They’re nonnegotiables. They’re not to be negotiated.

1. This is a sidebar note but Richie was definitely thinking I'm not included in this getting a star thing. As we know later on as he makes fun of the idea of stars.

2.Nonnegotiables remind me of a dating checklist you create to ensure that a relationship works for you, allowing you to feel safe and secure while standing your ground. However, as Richie describes, this list might sound like a way of avoiding things. Could it also serve as a form of protection?

3. He tells Natalie that this is how top-level restaurants operate: through a non-negotiables list. However, I only see Carmy writing this list at the French Laundry and I don't see staff writing their own list.

3. In Season 3 premiere, as Carmy creates the list, we see flashes that highlight the experiences that shaped him into the chef he is today. These moments ultimately lead to Carmy making the best dish Sydney has ever had. This dish reflects rebellion rather than conforming to rules - the level he operated on that night came from the heart.

Although a non-negotiables list may have worked for Carmy in the past, everything has changed since Mikey died. The rules he once relied on for protection—such as competition and perfection—no longer serve him. Today, he can’t rely on those non-negotiables anymore because Sydney has entered his life, and he must adapt. He needs to function differently and break away from his rigid rules.

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Acts of Service, Hurt Comfort, Sick Fic.

The Bear had to be closed for a week because all of its staff, inexplicably, caught the same cold at the same time—well, except for Sydney and Richie. And Richie, the new man he was, offered to help her make soup and deliver them to their staff. They made two routes and Carmen ended up on hers—she suspiciously thought Richie had done that on purpose; he said he’d take care of planning the routes while she was busy filling the deli containers.

She stared at the paper he shoved in her hands and let out a sigh. Her relationship with Carmen had been… off, to say the least. Can’t avoid him forever, Syd, he shrugged.

Now, she was standing in front of Carmen’s apartment door, with the spare key he gave her between her fingers. Drawing one last, steadying breath, she opened it.

“Nat?”

“No. It’s me,” she dropped her bag on the floor.

“Syd? What’re you doing here?” He sounded surprised.

“I brought you soup,” she made her way over to his kitchen, grabbing a plate and a spoon. When she went back to his living room, he was sitting up.

“Listen, I’m sorry—”

“No. You listen,” seating on top of his coffee table, she shoved the plate on his hands. “You’re gonna eat and I’m gonna talk, capiche?” He nodded, grabbing the spoon. “When I told you about Shapiro’s offer, you begged me for a second chance, Carmen. You promised me things would be different,” she put a hand up before he could interrupt her, “Yes, I know that you’re working on it, but I told you from the beginning, you’re either a piece of shit or you aren’t.”

“I’m sorry, Syd. I really am,” he put his fist on his chest, drawing the goddamned circles and staring at her with his kicked-puppy eyes. God, he infuriated her.

“It isn’t just about compromising with the nonnegotiables list and finding ways to save money; the screaming has to stop. I know it’s hard to keep your cool during service, but you need to. Screaming at the staff only makes things worse, you know that better than anyone else.”

“I know. When we get back to work, things will be different. I promise you.”

“Yeah, I kinda need you to stop promising me things you don’t know whether you’re gonna keep it or not,” she scratched at her forehead. It wasn’t her intention to be mean with him, he was working on it, but she was tired of playing mediator every fucking service.

“What can I do, then?”

“Right now? Drink your soup and rest. You need to get better so we can go back to work ASAP,” she sighed, tapping his leg so he’d make room for her on the couch.

She settled beside him, laying her head on his shoulder.

“The soup is fire, Chef,” he said between spoonfuls. “I’d kiss you right now if I wasn’t so fuckin’ sick.”

“Don’t even think about it. I’ll kill you.”

——— A collection of SydCarmy ficlets inspired by prompts of the #SydCarmyWeek2024.

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Drawings, Tattoos & their Creative Process.

“Syd, I need you to hold still.”

“I’m trying, but I don’t like needles, Carm.”

“This isn’t even your first tattoo.”

“Yeah. I suffered through all of them.”

Carmen stopped.

“You know you could’ve said no, right?”

“Yes, but I want this.”

“Then I’m gonna need you to hold still.”

“I’m fuckin’ trying!”

“Try harder.”

——— A collection of SydCarmy ficlets inspired by prompts of the #SydCarmyWeek2024.

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Thinking about how Carmy initiates so many things in his relationship with Sydney. I went back to read some of Jeremy’s thoughts about his relationship with Claire and he said some things that I just don’t agree with. I do think he answers questions from Carmy’s perspective and not from a viewer perspective and that provides more insight into the character but not actually insight into what we’re seeing as viewers if that makes sense.

Here I am looking around for what walls Carmy had up with Sydney to begin with. Instead of Sydney coming in and knocking down his walls, Carmy has been trying to knock down hers. Let’s take a look:

Their first conversation at family when he makes sure she eats and asks her what’s going on with her. This is a conversation that is constantly happening between them. Jeremy views Carmy as some who communicates with actions and little words, but with Sydney it’s a little of both.

Their altercation in review fills him with much regret that he can’t even open Mikey’s note without making things square with Sydney first and even in their short conversation he manages to apologize and she manages to make him smile. Oh Carmy is that amusement?👀

Carmy invites Sydney on the food tour. Carmy asks Sydney what she is going to do now that the restaurant is closed as if he wants to do something with her but she leaves before he can gather the courage.

Carmy asks Sydney about her personal life more than once because he’s genuinely curious and wants to know her better. He asks her to be vulnerable with him under the table. He asks her under it to begin with, because does he really need help? No he just wanted to talk to her.

Where are the walls Jeremy?! With Sydney his openness is not something that she really has to breakthrough, it’s the opposite. Is it because of their position as partners in the relationship is something he’s more equipped to handle than a romantic relationship? That could be the case but I also think it’s because he’s genuinely interested in her and feels at ease with her presence. As heteronormative as it is, I think it’s important that he’s the one actively pursuing a deeper relationship with Sydney. It shows that he is capable of coming out of his shell, if it’s for the right person.

I also wanna address that line about Carmy being cared for but it’s pretty obvious who makes Carmy feel cared for especially in s3. The quote is right after s2 came out. I just find his thoughts on the love triangle from Carmy’s perspective really interesting….