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i binged today.

f me

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i’m drinking so much water now

like already drank over 3L of water, and yesterday i drank 6L

like is that dangerous? i’m drinking so much because i don’t want to get hungry and eat. and it’s working, but 6L is maybe too much? idk

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10.08.24

starting to log what i eat and suff again, like i did before. because i relapsed this month and been fasting regularly since 1. august

trying to loose the weight i gained over summer before school starts because i’m starting at a new school. help

so today i worked out and burned 590 kcal

ate dinner with my family but ate mostly salad so it was maybe around 500-600 kcal

cw: 59.9kg

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when i relapsed i thought it was gonna be hard not to eat,

but it’s harder to hide that you’re relapsing again…

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Hotel breakfast inspo

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Well, this is going to haunt my brain for a very long time.

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02.04.24

starting a “omad-diet” now. on sunday i did not eat dinner, and ate not much on monday. today i fated for 23 hours and ate dinner with my mom.

i have eaten so much food and sweats on easter break and now i have to lose all the weight i gained. i’m going to a party on friday and want to look good so for now that is my motivation.

i fast the whole day and eat dinner with my mom, since i cant get away from that. i try to eat as little as possible, but i can feel my mom’s stare when i say i’m full and my plate isn’t even half empty. I’ll have to take some food from the kitchen so my mom thinks i eat breakfast and lunch.

and what happened to €d-tumblr??! like i have been gone for like 2 months and no one is posting. now i read trough my old post for motivation

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These movies made me who I am

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being sick so i loose my appetite and have an excuse not to eat>>>

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ok so yesterday i finished my 48h fast!! this is maybe the hardest fast i ever finished

i also weighed myself and i was 57.8 kg, a little higher then what i was expecting, but its fine

i was at a family dinner and i eat so much so fast! like my stomach hurt the whole night, i thought i could maybe be period cramps, but i don’t have my period yet. but now i have learned that i have to take it slow when breaking a fast!

im at my dad so there is no way for me to fast or skip meals, but im just going to eat small portions and stuff.

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Does anyone else rewatch a lot of 3d media but always turn it off before the main character recovers so they can stay triggered, or is that just me?

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31.01.24

today i fasted since dinner yesterday, had to eat dinner with my mom, it was a thai soup so not so bad in kcal. and some bread on the side, felt guilty so i only ate a little piece.

i don’t need to eat dinner tomorrow so I’m starting a 48h fast. when I’m done I’m going to weigh myself for the first time in months, I’m like so scared its going to be a lot more than last time i fasted (October)

i am going to work out tomorrow too so hope I’m not so tired.

dinner: 326 kcal

walking: -200 kcal

net: 126

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i either eat nothing or the whole kitchen

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goal for february: step on the scale

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29.01.24

today i fasted for 24/23 hours

after school i worked out and burned around 500 cal

later we ate dinner at a restaurant, think i ate 700 cal

before that i ate i think a lot of popcorn because my mom was there and it would be weird if i didn’t take some, but i over ate… so it was like 100/150 cal

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NEVER FUCKING MIND!!

my mom reminded my that we are going out to eat tomorrow!!! FUCK

at a PASTA RESTAURANT, WTF

now i have to eat and pasta!?!!!?!

and i was supposed to workout tomorrow too! now i can stay at home till we go out or i can workout right after school, but then i have to be quick and take change to school 😣

this makes it a hundred times harder

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fasted 2 days!!

omg så proud

i was at a friends house and was planing on leaving before they ate dinner and tell my mom i ate at their house, but i stayed.

i could’ve gone longer with the fast but i thought it would be nice to eat a little, but it didn’t feel like i thought it would, like i wasn’t hungry! idk, weird…

But what i HATED was that my friend was saying maybe 10 times that she was starving, like bitch, no your not, i am!

she hadn’t eaten breakfast before i came over so she was making it when i was there, and she asked me like hundred times why i wasn’t hungry, and if i wanted something, which is nice, but it sounds so weird when i have to say no so many times.

now i’m starting a new fast, but i think i have to eat dinner tomorrow, but maybe i have to make it myself so i can lie, idk!

but if i don’t eat lunch my friends know something is wrong, and i just don’t want to use my energy on that!