lennia54

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If I'm going to feel this way for the rest of my live I'd rather not live at all.

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I am so tired of trying, of fighting every day when nothing ever comes of it.

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because it's all over now // all out to sea

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“I do not like who I am. There is nothing good about me anymore. I am sick of wasting my time. I am worn out, I am really tired.”

— there is no point of me being here if I am not doing anything useful

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“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”

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Why am I never enough?

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"I am destroying myself so other people can't," she said, "and it's the worst kind of control but it's the only form I know."

— (via sofijasofia)

[lennia54]

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If the one person who is most important to me doesn't really care...

Then why am I still hanging on?

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One of these days I'll have the strength to take my last breath.

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did you hold me knowing you were going to let me go?

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I don’t wanna get out of bed. I don’t wanna eat. I don’t wanna go to work. I don’t want to go anywhere. I just wanna fall asleep and never wake up.