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Dive deep into my mind with a poetry book that I wrote. The price is 99 cents for the kindle book. Here is a preview of one of the poems to expect from the book. Anxiety Ten minutes flow slowly a text message unanswered mind races through the possibilities what wrong have I committed am I annoying does their hate burn through my words typing a new message through worried fingers am I bothering you I'm sorryA diner lit by floating lights a simple order of well done burger the waitress skips down the aisle with glee a rare burger taunts me do I inquire about it what if I am ridiculed what if I destroy her being what if I'm the one that's wrong words swim out of my mouth No everything is correct thank youAn angel in the eyes of a beholder love in the air arrows soar through the sky words shake out of my mouth my mind races through the phrase mouth never speaking should I speak the words what if she doesn't what if she makes fun of me what if its all a joke who am I to her why should I say it don't say it don't say it don't say it can't say it can't say it words unspoken as time moves onI annoy people what do they think of me who am I what is my future like minds that race through all the questions help me I can't ask for help what if they hate me for needing help help me why won't they help I don't want to be a bother help me minds wish for help but will not seek I don't deserve to be here why am I here I just waste space I'm so sorry I'm sorry you must hate me why don't you hate me what if everyone hates me all thoughts race through the curse of anxiety

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Down the Rabbit Hole Chapter 3

Down down into the hole. Deeper and deeper the hole goes. Those words always repeat in Rabbit's head every floor he falls down. "What do they mean" he wonders. Rabbit's feet once again touch solid ground. He hops around the place once again finding nothing but darkness. "Well I guess all I have to do is wait for another memory to appear" he says to himself. Light flashes through the darkness for the third time and a bar forms out of the light.

"Where am I this time I don't seem to recall this place" Rabbit says to himself. Rabbit hops over to the counter and as he sits down on a stool the barkeep speaks "Welcome to the rabbit hole what will it be". Before answering Rabbit looks around but the entire bar is void except for four stools at the counter, behind the counter is the barkeep a small rabbit who looks a little bit to young to even be in a bar let alone work at one. "Excuse me but are you actually talking to me and not just some memory" Rabbit replies to the barkeep. "Welcome to the rabbit hole what will it be" answers the barkeep. "Where am I, why do you keep saying the same thing over and over" shouts Rabbit. "Welcome to the rabbit hole what will it be" answers the barkeep once more.

"Two beers please" a voice says calmly next to Rabbit. "Whoa you were not here before" Rabbit stutters. "Why yes I was not I just came here to get a drink nothing wrong with that is there?" questioned the stranger. Rabbit looks over to the stranger, he is in a black cloak, his face is completely covered by the darkness of the cloak, he is taller then Rabbit but by about 1 inch. "Wait hold up you can answer me and talk to me and I have so many questions" Rabbit said in a hurried voice. "Well yes I am sure you do but I can only tell you what they have told me, sorry I will tell you what this place is" the stranger said calmly.

The stranger began to speak, "This place is called the rabbit's hole, it takes away your memories and shows you the lost memories one by one so that they are fresh in your mind, now you must know you came to this place of your own will why is that I do not know, at the end of this hole you are to make a choice based on your memories". "What is the choice" asked Rabbit. "Well it's whatever you came down this hole to make" the stranger said. "May I asked who you are what is your name?" questioned Rabbit. "Ha my name is Name yes it's stupid I know that but we don't get to choose them do we ....... Rabbit" answered Name. Just as Rabbit was going to ask some more questions light enveloped the darkness once more. "No not yet I still have so much I want to know Name will I see you again what's happening why did I come here help me I don't know whats happening" Rabbit shouted into the darkness. A hole once again opened taking Rabbit with it. Floor 3 Relaxation

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Down the Rabbit Hole Chapter 2

Down down into the hole. Deeper and deeper the hole goes. "Where am I, I don't remember falling down this hole" Rabbit thought to himself. "Back there I remember that was a time when my brothers and I were playing in the yard while our mom cooked dinner" Rabbit's mind wandered. Rabbits feet hit the floor with a soft thud, it seemed like the falls aren't causing any damage to his feet. Just like the previous floor Rabbit hopped around what seemed like hours. "Is another memory going to happen or am I going to die here in the darkness all alone" Rabbit thought to himself. Just as his thoughts stopped a flash of light flooded the darkness. A kitchen appeared, cupboards line the walls on the far right corner is a gas stove with an oven door attached at the bottom. A microwave is on the counter next to the stove and in the middle of the kitchen is a large table. Six chairs are seated at the table. On the two chairs sitting across from each other are Mama rabbit and Papa rabbit sitting across from each other. The side chair are occupied by Rabbit and Milo sitting next to each other and Trey and Pito sitting across next to each other. Their heads are deep down into a bowl of carrot soup, slurping noises stretch across the kitchen. "I don't really remember this day but this could have been any day that we ate, we were always like that face in our bowls never meeting our eyes" Rabbit said to himself. The slurping noise grew louder and louder as one by one the rabbits grew larger and larger until they all burst into darkness. "What the fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu" Rabbit's words echoed through the darkness as he fell through another hole. Floor 2 Hunger

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Down the Rabbit Hole Chapter 1

Down down into the hole. Deeper and deeper the hole goes. Rabbit looks around to see darkness stretching to the far corners. Rabbit wanders around but to no avail there is nothing but darkness. Hopping around Rabbit explores for what seems like an eternity. As soon as he is about to give up a light washes over the darkness. A small house appears in the distance, it's windows small but emit a white glow. A small porch with three small steps lead up to a brown door which creaks in the wind. In front of the house a green garden with carrots growing in the ground. Rabbit looks over towards the garden and sees his younger self. The smaller Rabbit has a clean white coat, big bright eyes, large white ears that twitch with every sound. The smaller Rabbit appears to hear something coming out of the carrot garden. He runs over to find his three brothers throwing a carrot around. Milo is the oldest of the rabbits but he has only grown to the size of Rabbit. Pito is the second oldest and also the largest of the family, he has two buck teeth sticking out of his mouth. Trey is the third oldest he has the biggest feet out of the entire family but, that makes him the best hopper.The smaller Rabbit hops over to his brothers and cries out "Hey guys can I play". "Well if it isn't Rabbit have you finished studying yet?". Milo says with a smirk. "Yes Milo I'm ready for my test on monday can I please play". Rabbit cries out. Milo throws Rabbit the carrot, Rabbit strikes it with his feet as they keep passing the carrot around. A beam of light shines into the bigger Rabbit's eyes and in an instant the scene vanishes. Before Rabbit can collect his thoughts darkness envelops him and he finds himself falling again. Floor 1: Happiness

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Santa Claus

It was a dark and storm Christmas night. None of the creatures were stirring in this dark and dreary home. The children were put to sleep under the floorboards, the parents were chopped up and served as dinner. The pets were stuffed full of Christmas cheer and put near the fireplace. Oh what a great Christmas year to the next house to spread the cheer. The next house had the most beautiful Christmas decorations. With a flick of my ax and smash on the door I was here to spread some Christmas cheer. The screams of the children as they saw me Santa Claus, with the tip of my hat and a wiggle of my nose I smashed the ax right down on their skulls. Next were the parents sleeping so sound, I gutted them alive while they were bound. Oh what happy days this Christmas so many presents, a whole new jacket to keep me tight and warm. Maybe next year I can escape again and spread the Christmas cheer all around the world.

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Rabbit Christmas

Once upon a time there was a little rabbit, every year this rabbit would wish that she could get a carrot for Christmas. The first year she had gotten a rock thrown at her cracking her head open, the only present that gave was more debt. The second year she got her leg run over by a car the only present she got was a stub where her leg used to be. The third year she wished and wished for just one carrot, that year all she got was an unwanted baby from a forced pregnancy. This Christmas she think she's finally gonna get it the carrot of her dreams, just one piece of good food. She had been homeless for four years and had not eaten one piece of good food since then. This year a man came up to her dressed in all red with a carrot in hand. Her eyes filled with tears finally what she always wanted. The carrot was shoved down her throat as she gagged and choked she couldn't breath. It was the best carrot she had ever eaten as she lied there on the floor dying. She saw the man in red steal all of her money but she didn't care she finally had her carrot. The last words she heard was ho ho ho merry Christmas.

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Storm

Water explodes out of the ocean Lighting roars through the sky Rain pounds on the ground Tornado races through the town People's screams drown out by thunder Children's lungs fill with water Houses rise from the foundation Elderly smash on the ground Town littered with bodies Food gone stale Survivors look like dead The tragedy of a storm

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Stalker

Her crimson hair flows so gracefully Her eyes watch around carefully Her body dances around with beauty Oh my look at that perfect bootie When will she notice me The window lets peer inside There is nothing she can hide I know her every routine inside and out It just makes me want to shout Does she love me Daytime out of the shower her body glows Noon she eats lunch my appetite grows Afternoon she goes to work Nighttime she watches tv with a smirk I know she loves me In her closet I now hide I know she will love me after this ride She lies in her bed at peace Her sleep I will cease She loves me she truly loves me She screams with a beautiful voice Her loving words makes me rejoice She gives me love taps on my chest I know this is for the best She truly loves me now

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Mental hospital

It was night time and my friends and me decided to go check out an abandoned mental hospital. We scouted it out days before it seemed like the perfect place to start our scary tours YouTube channel. We entered the building and it was your normal abandoned mental hospital. Wheelchairs were sprawled out on the floor, the place had a really musky smell. We decided to split up and yes I know stupid move on our part. I decided to check out the west wing, I had read up on this hospital back in the day they use to perform experiments on the inmates here. The experiments ranged from stupid such as: if you are bipolar will singing opera help you, to horrible like if you cut off someone with Down syndrome arm will that help even them out. I decided to head into the first room, it was a small room with a bed in the middle and claw marks on the wall. I decided to check out the bed it looked like it was barely used. The next room I checkout was similar except there was a tiny hole in the corner, being the oh so brave explorer I was I decided to check it out. I shone my flashlight in the hole and staring back at me was a skeleton, he must have gotten stuck in the hole and died. After I saw that a certain uneasiness came over me so I decided to head back to the lobby. I called out for my friends but no one answered. I decided to head to the east wing where my friend jess was. I called out "jess" "jess" but still no answer. I hear a door slam in the distance so I rush over to see what made the noise. There is a little window on the door so I peer in and my blood drops. Inside the room is jess strapped to a bed with two doctors around her. They are talking to each other but I can't hear what they are saying. One of the doctors grabs a scalpel and stabs it into her heart, then he writes something down on his clipboard. I freeze, the image still burned into my mind. The doctors turn around and stare at me, I step back step by step until I was running back into the lobby. I stare behind me but it doesn't seem like they were chasing me. I go to open the doors and they are locked, try as I might they will not open. Just as I stop I hear footsteps in the north wing, shining my flashlight down the hallway I see Alex walking towards me. I saw something shining in his hand, it was a knife. He was stumbling towards me mumbling something but I could not make out what he was saying. I started to run towards the west wing. I hide in the room with the hole in the wall. My vision goes blurry and I pass out. When I awake I'm inside of the hole with the skeleton staring back at me. Please somebody find me I cannot escape this hole. I write this with the last of my blood if you find yourself in this hospital get out before it's to late.

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Suicide

Where does one go What does one say Why does one act Who is to blame How does one do it Suicide is the answer Where does one commit the deed What do they use Why not another way Who enforced the deed How can they live with themselves Suicide is the key Where does the chair stand What rope do they use Why do they fall Who pushed them How did their neck snap Suicide opens the door

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Knock knock

They say in the dead of night if you hear a knock on your door and the words knock knock never ask who's there. One night such as tonight a little girl was all snuggled up in her bed, her parents had just tucked her in. The little girl starts to drift into slumber when she hears a knock at her door that disturbed her sleep. They're was a moment of silence before a raspy voice broke it saying "knock knock". Knowing the age old joke she answered "who's there". The raspy voice spoke again "orange". "Orange who" spoke the little girl with glee. "Orange you glad I didn't say banana" exclaimed the raspy voice. The room was filled with laughter but, silence soon fell and another knock could be heard "knock knock" spoke the raspy voice once again. "Who's there" answered the little girl. "Open the door and you can know". The little girl hadn't heard this part of the joke before so she leaped out of bed and flung open the door. With the door opened a long hand grabbed the little girl by the neck. The hand started to slam the little girl again and again into the door while the raspy voice continued to repeat "knock knock". The morning soon came and the girls parents awoke to go check on their sleeping girl. They enter her room to find a mangled mess on the bed with the words written in blood on the door "who's there".

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Sounds of nature

Grass rustling in the wind Trees speaking as family Apples strike the ground Flowers bloom from the ground These are the sounds of nature Birds chirp happily Wolves howl in the night Deer frolicking through the meadows Lions roar a mighty roar These are the sounds of nature Bees buzz through the skies Spiders weave their webs Ants carry food home Lighting bugs light up the sky These are the sounds of nature Lighting strikes the land Rain funnels down onto the ground Clouds cover the sun Snow gentle covers the land These are the sounds of nature Axes smash into trees Gunshots fly into flesh Tree crack on the soil Death follows along Nature is quiet

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Heart

Heart beating for an angel Eyes sparkle so bright Sweat oozes out of the pores Words thought but not spoken Who could ever love a demon Angel so beautiful so bright Eyes shine with light Voice that soothes beasts Laughter echoes through the world What a sight to behold Looks that breaks mirrors Voice that scares children Eyes dark with sadness Body that could crush buildings Run run away Who could love a demon Angel flies far away Demon alone forever Angel happy as can be Demon dies alone Angel surrounded by love

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Sounds of a killer

Dip dip cut cut just another slut bang bang bash bash I don't care about cash rip rip tear tear oh that doesn't go there crack crack crunch crunch how would you like to be lunch gurgle gurgle bloop bloop now look at all this mess I have to scoop whack whack hack hack I shouldn't slack scratch scratch help me just another day filled with glee

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Anxiety

Ten minutes flow slowly a text message unanswered mind races through the possibilities what wrong have I committed am I annoying does their hate burn through my words typing a new message through worried fingers am I bothering you I'm sorry A diner lit by floating lights a simple order of well done burger the waitress skips down the aisle with glee a rare burger taunts me do I inquire about it what if I am ridiculed what if I destroy her being what if I'm the one that's wrong words swim out of my mouth No everything is correct thank you An angel in the eyes of a beholder love in the air arrows soar through the sky words shake out of my mouth my mind races through the phrase mouth never speaking should I speak the words what if she doesn't what if she makes fun of me what if its all a joke who am I to her why should I say it don't say it don't say it don't say it can't say it can't say it words unspoken as time moves on I annoy people what do they think of me who am I what is my future like minds that race through all the questions help me I can't ask for help what if they hate me for needing help help me why won't they help I don't want to be a bother help me minds wish for help but will not seek I don't deserve to be here why am I here I just waste space I'm so sorry I'm sorry you must hate me why don't you hate me what if everyone hates me all thoughts race through the curse of anxiety

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Poisonous Skin

Pure white like snow scaly as a lizard itchy as if injected with powder scratching the blood my poison of psoriasis judging eyes venture to my poison words of disgust shoot out of their mouth inquire if I contacted poison ivy fear wells in their body waiting for the answer my head journeys downward eyes no longer meet disgust as myself rises my mouth trembling with hatred an answer that shakes my cored No my poison of psoriasis a curse of the skin never going away always staring into my soul no cure for the wicked a poison I will live with until my last breath is drawn eyes venture to me a freak my own skin is against me my poison of psoriasis

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This body of mine

The struggle to wake up from a dream world like a zombie crawling out of bed the world has wasted me my body fat ugly a beast What if I were to disappear my disgusting body burned to a crisp this body hurts the world with its looks disappearing would bring the world happiness No love for this body of sin no light at the end of the tunnel just hatred for this freak hatred of what lurks in the mirror This body of mine a sin to just exist the putrid stains of living in it why won't it just die How much longer must it linger who could ever love this body just call me what I am no sugar coated words Just call me a freak a person who doesn't deserve the life that was given a waste of space just tell me the truth Why won't anyone just say it the words they all think the hideous nature of it this body of mine