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These two. THESE TWO 🥺🥺😭😭

I made this tribute edit a few months ago, and even though it is a video that I edited, it still gets me quite emotional, because I wanted to explore the Cherik relationship and then also, through my editing and the quotes/music that I chose and how I intertwined them all, try and convey how much I adore these two characters. I hope I’ve conveyed that, at least a little. If you watched the whole thing, I hope you felt something! If not, then welp 😂

Made with CapCut Pro! (shoutout, CapCut pro is 100% worth it, it has given me the tools to make edits I always dreamed of making, like this one) (specifically a certain few features ALONE make CapCut pro worth it) (not sponsored I promise lol)

Song: Annihilation by Arn Andersson

Quotes/Dialogue retrieved from videos on YT that were compilations of quotes from movies and TV based around a certain theme, like grief, heartbreak, love, etc.

Copyright jargon cuz I’m paranoid:

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I definitely didn't get up at 6:30am to make this because I couldn't stop thinking about it.

Definitely not.

Nope. Not at all.

HEADPHONE WARNING

I'm sitting on my dorm bed still in my pajamas, dying of laughter over here. 30 minutes well spent I'd say 🤣

Made with CapCut pro!

Copyright jargon cuz I'm paranoid:

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I ABOUT DIED LAUGHING. And it was one of those unexpected laughs, the sudden WHEEZE, and that’s when you know something’s truly caught you off guard in the best way possible. God tier X-men humor 😂😂😂

if you stare hard enough he just might talk to you

oh wow it worked

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New fanfic out!

I forgot to post about it when I published the fanfic this morning, buuuuuut–

Title: My Side Has Always Been You

Summary:

Apocalypse has a vision, and he will do anything to make sure that his horsemen are loyal to him. He is not above lying about his motives. Upon meeting and recruiting Erik, he learns of Erik's relationship with Charles.

Erik was told that Charles was only needed to send the message. He was told that Charles would not be harmed in any way. That was a lie, and once Erik learns of that, he realizes that he values Charles more than anything, and his loyalties change in a heartbeat.

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Link to the fic!

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My next fic will probably be some sort of cute X-Men holiday fic, I'm thinking "Christmas at the X-Mansion" kind of thing. We shall see!

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X-MEN HEADCANON: HANK HAS THREE SIBLINGS

Disclaimer: I have no knowledge of the comics whatsoever, so if anything just so happens to overlap with any comic, that is completely unintentional. This headcanon is mainly referring to prequel Hank. Most if not all of my posts will revolve around the prequels because I’m biased.

Anyways.

This particular headcanon sprung up from a few things I made up for some fanfiction, but I ended up liking it so much that it sort of cemented itself in my brain and now is a legit headcanon that I like to believe is true, or as true as a personal headcanon can be. It’s also not grounded in canon at all, it’s just a fun thing that I like to believe. 🤣 But I thought it’d be fun to share it!

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In my head, Hank has three siblings: two brothers (one younger, one older) and one younger sister.

He never interacted much with his family growing up, as he was glued to tech and science from a very young age and went off to Harvard early into his adolescence, then got recruited by the CIA soon afterward. He doesn’t see his family very often at all and doesn’t keep up with them.

His sister is autistic.

I haven’t really created a headcanon for his younger brother, but as I’ve thought about this headcanon, for some reason, I like thinking that he has three siblings.

His older brother is named Harold, he struggled with severe depression.

Hank was worried and was very aware of his decline despite not really being that close with any of his siblings. About a week after Hank went to Harvard, Harold ended up taking his own life and that severely affected Hank, who used his vehement interest in tech and science as a distraction and a way to cope.

That trauma affected Hank deeply, and therefore when Charles started spiraling into depression and addiction, Hank was terrified that he would end up losing Charles like he did Harold, so Hank threw himself into helping Charles and eliminating his discomfort as much as possible, sometimes to an unhealthy amount. This resulted in Hank creating Charles’ serum with no complaint and unconsciously becoming his enabler due to him being terrified to limit him for fear that Charles would spiral again.

Even if Charles’ happiness was fake or drug-induced, Hank preferred that to him being severely depressed because that meant that, at the very least, Charles wasn’t spiraling.

Eventually though, once Logan came along, Charles was pretty much forced into recovery, and Hank saw how much his own unconscious enabling had been negatively affecting Charles. Together, they both grew from their trauma and pain to a point where they could finally commit to reopening the school and pursuing the life that they both dreamed of.

And there’s my random headcanon for Hank’s family! :)

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GIFs made by me in Canva!

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THAT CHARLES X GLOW UP THOUGH???

My favorite Charles Xavier look is his Apocalypse look- men with long hair like that are my weakness, so I wanted to make an edit that somewhat encapsulates the beauty and badass-ness that is his Apocalypse look. 😜

One of my fav edits I’ve done! I found a song that was the same BPM as On The Floor by Jennifer Lopez so I could make that transition smooth, and I knew I wanted the transition to visually be the switch between the clips of Charles being scanned into Cerebro from DOFP and Apocalypse. I made this one a few months ago, but I see people occasionally posting their edits on here, so I’m doing that too! :)

Copyright jargon cuz I’m paranoid:

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Fair use is a use permitted by copyright statute that might otherwise be infringing.

All rights and credit go directly to its rightful owners. No copyright infringement is intended.

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I’ll probably do more posts like this as I start sharing how I experience the X-Men movies but

X-MEN HEADCANON: Charles Xavier is an Empath

I’ve had this headcanon for a while, in the back of my mind, but only recently have I begun exploring it in my fanfiction and actively looking for hints in canon that could potentially point to it.

I myself am an empath in the sense of feeling/taking on other people’s emotions and feelings to the point of if someone is venting to me about something, their tone, body language, and what they’re saying can almost ‘transfer’ their emotions to me, and when it comes to feeling people’s emotions, there was a time where I felt someone’s frustration directionally, like I knew the person feeling the emotions was on my left. Interesting stuff. But I like to think that Charles is the same way.

James McAvoy has said that he thinks one of Charles’ strengths is his “empathy and his capacity to care for others.”

And mind you, though telepathy lends itself to direct connection to someone’s thoughts and mind, I don’t think that necessarily means that Charles feels their emotions too. Thoughts are thoughts, and emotions are emotions.

In X-Men: First Class, before Charles even sees Erik, he senses him, whether through Erik’s power, emotions, or perhaps all of the above. Maybe it was Erik’s blinding and powerful rage that Charles sensed.

Charles has shown to be incredibly intuitive and in tune with certain characters, their emotions, and their pain. Especially in Days of Future Past, he suffers from hearing people’s thoughts all the time and feeling their pain. Not just hearing their thoughts, he says he’s feeling their pain, and he says to Logan that “…I don’t want your suffering.”

Also shoutout to James’ incredible acting- that subtle muscle twitch in his face in the second gif??? Just with that tiny movement, you can see Charles’ fear and pain.

And a very telling scene is, of course, the scene between past Charles and future Charles, in which future Charles says:

“If you allow yourself to feel it, embrace it, it will make you more powerful than you ever imagined. It’s the greatest gift we have to bear their pain without breaking. And it’s born from the most human power: Hope.”

I relate to this quote so much though, especially the ‘bear their pain without breaking’ and the ‘born from the most human power’ parts. Empaths unite??

Then, in X-Men: Apocalypse, when Charles talks to Erik through Cerebro, he says, “I feel your pain and your loss.”

And then Erik responds, “You think because you can see into my head, you know how it feels?” This implies that Charles IS feeling some sort of emotion from him, and Charles even sheds a tear soon afterward, maybe feeling Erik’s second hand grief.

And to wrap this all up, there’s a scene later on in X-Men: Apocalypse when Jean, Scott, and Kurt are in the helicopter and Scott is crying over Alex’s death. I think Jean’s experiences as a telepath are still relevant to this character study because in terms of telepathic powers specifically, she and Charles have essentially the same power in that regard.

Anyway, Jean comforts Scott by saying that Alex felt that Scott was the one who was gonna do something with his life, and Scott asks, “How do you know what he felt?”

And Jean responds:

“I know what everybody feels.”

That’s it right there! It’s still a headcanon to me, but I love love love imagining it and picturing it and imagining him with the same experiences as me. And it’s something that I think is plausible in canon. Still, I like to think about it. And character studies through Tumblr posts and headcanon discussions are fun too.

GIFs made by me in Canva! ☺️

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New fanfic INCOMING!

I'm currently writing a new fanfic that probably won't be too long, just a simple one-shot, but this one explores and what-if scenario that I randomly thought up of What If Apocalypse knew about Erik and Charles' history so when he recruited Erik, he didn't tell him the full extent of what he planned to do to Charles. Therefore all he told Erik would be that he needed him to send a message, not that he was planning on hurting him in any way. So Apocalypse ends up getting super rough with Charles when Charles resists against his evil villain plan, and Erik gets SUPER protective and pissed off because Apocalypse reportedly told him that he wasn't gonna hurt Charles and Apocalypse is like "i lied, i'm the villain bitch what did you expect" 🤣

Pretty stoked about this simple little one-shot! I'll post here when it's finished 😄

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MORE DETAILS MORE DETAILS MORE DETAILS

In X-Men: Apocalypse, Charles is captured by Apocalypse, and I saw a random Pinterest screenshot at one point of someone pointing out that someone put a blanket or something under Charles’ head, probably Erik:

Which, yes, obviously, but then I realized that IT’S NOT A BLANKET

IT’S HIS FKING BLAZER.

WHICH MEANS THAT SOMEONE MUST HAVE TAKEN IT OFF AND PUT IT UNDER HIS HEAD SO HE WAS A BIT MORE COMFORTABLE.

DON’T EVEN TRY TO TELL ME THAT IT WAS APOCALYPSE. CUZ IT WASN’T.

Nor was it Storm or Warren or Psylocke. None of them have any connection to Charles. Apocalypse would likely know about Erik’s connection/relationship with Charles.

And I don’t think any of THEM would even think about making Charles a bit more comfortable. Erik is likely the only person who’d even think about doing that. The others don’t care- they serve Apocalypse and Apocalypse wants Charles for a selfish purpose. None of them care about Charles being ‘comfortable.’

Picturing Erik delicately and gingerly taking Charles’ blazer off and lying him gently down on the rocks and putting Charles’ own blazer under his head so he wouldn’t be laying fully on the rocks heals something in me 🥺🥺🥺🥺

GIFs made by me in Canva!

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Rules: Without naming them, post a gif from ten of your favourite films, then tag 10 people to do the same!

Thanks for tagging me, @alien--cookie! This was lots of fun, and I love talking about/mentioning my fav films. I’m in college for film right now and I love delving into film 😎

Idk who else to tag so I’ll tag @amethystgoldenwind!

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New Donnie and Charles fanfic!!!

This is a spin-off of the crossover fic that me and my best friend @amethystgoldenwind wrote that combined the Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles fandom and the X-Men fandom. We’re now expanding on the universe/relationship with one-shots!

Each one-shot is split into two chapters, with each chapter being one of the two characters’ POVs.

This time, Donnie has a nightmare and Charles is there to make it better ☺️

A Mental Embrace

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Wait wait hold on-

I realized something about this moment:

“You have the first move.”

UHHHHH:

CHARLES LET ERIK GO FIRST????

😭😭😭😭

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hey 😁 i’ve been wondering how you make your gifs on canva?

i tried myself but it didn’t end up so well 😔

I screen record the scene and then upload it into the site from my phone!

Thanks for the ask :)

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Cherik vormir fic posted! (sorry not sorry)

Idea fetched from the poll by @velvet4510 about whether Charles or Erik would die on Vormir, I didn't look at the comments much, but I commented myself on the post about potentially writing a fic, and I DID:

(i'm so sorry)

Title: Upon the Prophetic Mountain High

Summary:

“In order to take the stone, you must lose that which you love. A soul for a soul.” Erik and I absorb his words…then look back at the cliff. “So…one of us has to die?” I ask with a trembling voice. “That is correct.”

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WHAT IF: Charles and Erik were in Endgame and they took the trip to Vormir?

Dark Phoenix-era Cherik.

Link to the fic!

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I literally giffed this entire exchange just to talk at length about this:

The airplane chess match scene in DOFP where Charles and Erik talk is loaded with facial expressions and tiny details that absolutely kill me every time and add so many layers to not only the conversation but their relationship’s entire history up until this point. AND I WANNA TALK ABOUT IT!! LET’S BREAK IT DOWNNNN

So first, they’re talking about Paris and Raven and their mission and all that stuff. Erik closes out the topic by saying:

“…Not if we change history tomorrow.”

Charles’ face kills me 😭

He looks like he doesn’t even care about talking about Paris and Raven anymore, he’s just losing himself in Erik’s gaze and his presence and is lost in the nostalgia of their relationship and thinking about everything that’s happened between them.

And this is the first time they’ve talked, REALLY talked, since Cuba. There’s a lot of baggage between them, lots of memories, lots of pain. You can SEE the history in their eyes, in the way they look at each other.

And Erik probably sensed the tension and that there are some things that need to be said, because he says:

“I’m sorry, Charles.”

And what does Charles do????

He has THIS expression:

This look says so much without him saying a word. To me, his expression is his response to Erik’s apology, he’s saying “For what? You’re sorry for what?”

And what Erik does next kills my Cherik heart a SECOND TIME (my Cherik heart does not survive this interaction).

He says:

“For…what happened, I truly am.”

AND HE LOOKS/NODS AT CHARLES’ LEGS. He says it with such softness and sincerity, this is their first genuine conversation in years.

And what CHARLES DOES KILLS ME EVEN MORE:

He IMMEDIATELY backs down and stretches, releasing all his tension. An apology, specifically about Cuba, was ALL he was waiting for. That’s ALL he wanted. After he gets that…

…Charles goes one step further and immediately settles down to play chess when just minutes earlier he had been so against playing.

After they get settled, Charles says,

“You have the first move.”

And THE WAY ERIK LOOKS AT HIM 😭😭😭😭😭😭

THAT MAN IS IN LOVE

FRIENDS DO NOT LOOK AT EACH OTHER LIKE THAT

Cherik make playing chess simultaneously full of tension and so goddamn sexy.

I fkin love them so much.

I love this scene so much. I love breaking down and discussing shit, especially if it’s tiny details that make the viewing experience that much better 😍

BASK IN THE CHERIK LOVE EVERYBODY

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GIFs made by me in Canva! ☺️

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New fic posted!

Title: German Lies in the Dark

Summary:

Erik is enjoying a casual party with Charles and the rest of the team, unwinding and spending time together, genuinely happy. For once, he manages to forget about his feverish hunt for Shaw and his quest for revenge.

That is until the song that is played next on the record is La Vie En Rose by Edith Piaf. The same song that Shaw played, the day he and Erik met, the day Erik's mother was murdered, all because he couldn't move a single damn coin.

Excerpt:

(Charles' POV)

Hippy Hippy Shake starts playing as I make my way out of the room, and I leave the joyous atmosphere behind. The uneasy feeling in my stomach is slowly caving into a tight worried knot as I hunt around in the hallways. “Erik?” I call into the dim shadows. No answer. I quicken my pace to a power walk, turn a corner, and a few yards down, there’s a dark shape huddled up against the wall, and I realize nothing else before I realize that it’s Erik.

“Erik?” I quicken my pace to a light run and hurry to his side, dropping to my knees and taking in the sight.

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Link to the fic!

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New Fanfic Coming!

So, thanks to the poll that I stumbled upon from @velvet4510 discussing whether Erik or Charles would be the one to die on Vormir, I may or may not be writing a Vormir Cherik one-shot and despite the fact that I've only been writing it for 30 minutes, I've almost made myself cry like two or three times in the middle of my college dining hall.

I swear to God, this is gonna be so goddamn sad, but the whump is so good. But honestly, why do I do this to myself????

I've also never written a Major Character Death fic before. So there's that. I've always said "oh I'll bring a character inches from death but I always keep them alive so they can suffer more."

UHHHH, YEAH NO. NOT TODAY

Hopefully I will have it finished by the end of the week! I just started my first week of college tho so no promises. The fic has been started and I feel the writing streak flowing like fire through my fingers so I ain't stoppin anytime soon.

I shall post here when it is finished!