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han for nylon japan

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“Emotional abuse works like this: You are screamed at, and then, not knowing any better, you stand up for yourself. You think this is a way of being strong. You think this is a defense tactic.But this only provokes more screaming. Going silent provokes more screaming too, but usually it keeps the threats to the minimum. It keeps it just at screaming and not: a shove down the stairs, or order to pack your stuff and get out. So you learn how to go silent. How to play dead. How to cry without making a noise. How to swallow noise. How to wipe your cheeks, get out of the car, and go about your day. You learn. And when the screaming has stopped, when the two of you are in the car or out to dinner and they’re all smiles, all asking for favors, all questions, you are still hurt and annoyed and want to ask them, how? How can you speak to me like that? How can you pretend you did not say those things? How can you have forgotten? But you’ve learned. So you listen to, “Can I borrow your key”s and “how was your day”s and you play dead. You swallow the noise. And sometimes it doesn’t matter who is speaking to you, it doesn’t matter if they’re a friend, it doesn’t matter if their criticism is constructive, it doesn’t matter. You’ve learned. Any sort of speaking, any raising of the voice, any insult and you play dead.”

— Good Girl, Lora Mathis (via lora-mathis)

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250322 📸 uu_245

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🎪 Ateez Circus - The Knife Thrower 🎪

Others from this set: Hongjoong - Seonghwa - Yunho

Please do not repost. Credit peachatini.

Thanks @atinysocialclub, you did it again!

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ANITEEZ IN TREASURE | BEHIND

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Yeji x Air Challenges ft. Jang Wooyoung

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Yeosang | Enough 250323 | cr

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Seonghwa spent a year on tour with this character, tweaking and refining his act: gradually adding new layers and emotions; evolving from pain and sadness to anger and grief. The result is a masterclass of dramatic performance. No one in kpop is doing what he's doing.

Also, the way he gradually shed items of clothing, as his body transformed and he became more comfortable showing skin. It adds another layer of storytelling to this performance.

(thank you to whoever made this. I hope your pillows are always cool)

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okay but there is something disquieting about this urge to cast fan writers as altruists. they give us all this for free!! well, no.

they’re sharing

it’s a key difference in perception. fic isn’t given. it’s shared. it’s part of a fandom community— in which readers are also an integral part.

it’s probably inevitable mission creep from the increasingly transactional nature of the internet and fandom-as-consumerism, which was always gonna happen after corps worked out how much bank there is to make from those weirdo fan people

but like. fandom is sharing. i think we’ve lost that somewhere.

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His smile...🥺🫂 I'm so happy that he has such good friends in his real life 🫂🫂

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The music and Wooyoung's face are taking me OUT 😂

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Hongjoong | MATZ 250322 | cr

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yunho DEMANDS yaoi

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i. gustav vigeland eros and psyche / auguste rodin ii. triton and nereid, iii. the kiss, vi. eternal idol / iv. miklós ligeti / v. stephen sinding the mennesker

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Yeji x Air Challenges ft. Hoshi