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Classic and Remake versions of the little Aerith from my previous post! <3

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Take my hand, and believe we can be together forever more.

Holy shit, it's been actual years since I've drawn my girl! To celebrate, time for a ramble that no one will read, lol.

Aerith has been my favorite character of all time for almost 2 decades now. Her death traumatized me and despite the fact that it took me actual years to get past the Jenova LIFE fight she never left my mind.

No, seriously, I had to watch her die again every time I got a game over, aqualung is the reason Aerith's death scene is PERMANENTLY burned into my memory!!

Anyway I eventually beat the game. But even before that, I remember trying on and off for years to put my love for Aerith down on paper by drawing her. I tried SO many times to draw her, but it never felt right and I eventually gave up on it. I thought something was wrong with me, that I just wasn't good enough at art or that I just wasn't a good enough Aerith fan.

Smash cut to 2021, and I play Remake! My love for Aerith is only made more intense, and with an outlet for my special interest, FFVII becomes my entire life again. I attempted to draw her more, but again, no luck.

I now realize that my inability to draw Aerith was the result of my mental health issues working together with feelings of being undeserving or too stupid to really call myself a fan. Early this year I cut out the people in my life that made me feel that way, and sometime later I was finally able to get a PS5 and Rebirth.

My relationship with minigame hell aside, I love the characterization. I love Aerith. I've been mowing through the game and plan to Platinum it.

All this to say, I just recently got to see the No Promises to Keep scene. At first the different voice was jarring, and I stubbornly refused to give the song a chance.

But today, I decided I wanted to try drawing my girl again. So I listened to an arrangement of the song in the OG game's style, then a music box cover, and then finally I gave the actual song a chance.

I need to inject it directly into my veins.

The music, the lyrics, the way Loren Allred's voice carries the emotions directly into your heart, they all scream so so much love for Aerith and FFVII as a story. I have my gripes with the Remake project's plot/writing, but I can never deny the team's love for the story and characters.

Listening to that music and looking at both Aerith's OG and Remake designs, I finally managed to draw her in a way that felt right. I nearly cried at having that way to show my love for her.

So thank you, Loren Allred. I know you're never gonna see this, but thank you. You helped me put my love for this character out into the world, and I think this was my first step toward being able to properly make progress in my fanfic.

I love you Aerith qwq

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"Did I do that?"

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insert witty fish caption here

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oh look, it’s the rito arc in a nutshell

Nami is @majestically-fangirling‘s lovely lovely sidlink fankid, and jfc Courage to Love is going to be the death of me

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when being accused of murder hits

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i binge read all of @majestically-fangirling's Courage to Love series in like two days and HOOOOOOOO BOY DID I FALL IN LOVE WITH HER WRITING

the kids in the series especially got me invested because they're all big lovable dork and i wanna hug them and never let go.

so naturally, i tried drawing them! unfortunately my phone's camera is garbage but i'll describe each photo in an attempt to make up for that. last night i was able to get some doodling done of Nami, Nikko and Mipha, with WAY too much time spent referencing fish and sharks and running around looking at Zora characters in the game on the first two.

also i took a break to doodle my summary of Sidon's Epic Pining Adventure. hope you like my take on your OCs!!

1 - headshot of Nami. i had her dorsal fins lower on her tail since she's based on a nurse shark! i also added the little barbels but i'm not sure how well it turned out.

2 - headshot of Nikko. since i don't know what fish specifically they're based on, I kind of just looked at Sidon and a bunch of other Zoras and tried to picture Nikko in my head while i drew.

3 - an almost full body shot of Mipha! since her description mentioned a "striking resemblance of a Twilight Princess", i looked at Midna for reference as i drew while also making sure Mipha looked like her own person. i looked at Midna's outfit and tried to replicate/twist it a bit for Mipha's (see the design on her pants and shoulders) and i think i like the weird switched up twilight mirror circle thing i ended up making.

4 - doodle of Nikko. this was so i could get a better feel for drawing them and also try to get some emotion on their face that their headshot doesn't have. they're VERY fun to draw honestly.

5 and 6 - a mini comic. Nami is saying "Papa and Daddy going to get things done, I don't think so!", then calling to Mipha with "Baby, come here" while her sister has a cookie jar in her arms. is she allowed to have those? i dunno, i'm not a knark.

7 - Sidon standing next to the words "TRAUMA? In MY me? It's more likely than you think." because if that ain't what his journey in SEPA was all about then i know nothing.

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holds the fish prince so gentle,,,,,,

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give me a stack of sticky notes and I'll turn it into a stack of sticky gays

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i tried to draw gurren lagann from memory. this is the plot, right

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when the autopsy report is updated

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One cannot put back the clock.

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Save me with your kiss, bring back those memories I’ve missed

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Made pride icons with the little Kirbies I drew awhile back!! Shoot me an ask if you want some more icons of these little guys. Happy pride month!

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