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1/30/25

Tomorrow is gonna suuuuuuuck. The electric company is doing maintenance or something, so power will be off from 8AM to 4PM. I'm thinking I'll get up early, go to the gym, and by the time I get home, power will be off. So, I'll maybe try my next reading marathon goal? I'm working up to a 24hr read-a-thon, which is gonna be really hard for me because I get distracted easily and can't stay still of a long time (unless getting a tattoo, apparently). And maybe watch a movie on my laptop or something before it dies. I'll charge everything ahead of time. Today I just donated some stuff to Goodwill, played Marvel Rivals for a bit, got laundry done, and now I'm watching a movie.

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Goth Morning ....

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1/12/25

I'm training a new guy at work and this man does not listen for SHIT. I don't expect him to be perfect, he's still relatively new, but I would hope he has some common sense. In drive-thru, if we get a mobile order, we're supposed to have them confirm that their order looks correct on the screen. I have told him this at least five times and he still doesn't do it. It's alright "right, sorry", "oh, I forgot", "oh yeah, got it," but he never corrects it. If I'm taking an order and i finish it, and they pull up to the window to pay as i'm taking the order of the car behind them, it's common sense that he should be cashing that car out, right? Apparently not. Because every time this happens, I see him just standing there, looking around. I have to micro manage him. I have to ask "hey, can you cash them out?" every single time. If i'm busy, he's not, and theres a customer waiting at the window to pay, it should be common sense that it's his job to cash them out. He also never bumps the orders that are gone off the screen. I understand doing this every now and then, even I forget sometimes, but he never does it. So then we both wind up getting lost in the line because he doesn't know which order we're on, because he hasn't bumped the last five orders. He also doesn't pay attention to the orders. Instead of reading the screen, he'll as me. "They have a large pepsi, right?" Idk man, read the screen and you tell me. He didn't do that earlier and it wound up fucking up the drawer because he didn't realize the payment didn't go through, and he had already handed out the food. So I asked the manager if she wanted me to cash out instead. She said yes. So i tell him i'll be cashing out, and this dude says "So should I take orders then?".....obviously....Anyway....I just played Marvel Rivals for a bit and now I'm about to read. I'm practicing for a 24 hour read-a-thon. I read three hours straight a few nights ago, and now I'm about to read for five. This is especially difficult for me, because though I love reading, I struggle to sit still for long periods of time.

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1/1/25

Happy new year!! Many big plans. I'm going to retake the written test to try to get my driver's permit again, and I also gotta study for the CNA skills test. Trying to get my shit together

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12/24/24

Though this christmas season doesn't feel christmassy like past christmases, today was good. I went to Barnes and Noble and got some new books, then stopped and got me a drink from Dutch Bros. When I got home, I ate, then later, my mom, grandma, and I did a christmas movie marathon like we do every christmas eve. After the marathon, I settled down with some eggnog and read some chapters of one of the books i'm reading. I am worried about giving gifts tomorrow, though, because my bf's mom's gift hasn't arrived. I feel bad. Tomorrow, I'm opening gifts with my family, then going to my bf's house for the rest of the day. I'm spending the night there after that, and I'm excited because I haven't seen my bf since thanksgiving. I rarely get to see him and honestly, it's starting to get to me :/

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12/9/24

Today was alright. I woke up at five to let my dog out, and couldn't get back to sleep, so i had to stay up. I had coffee to wake up more, then went to the gym. I don't usually have coffee before the gym, but I needed it today. I had scrambled eggs for breakfast, then got some laundry done. I read another chapter of One Of Us Is Lying...it's gotta be Bronwyn, bruh. I also started a new book called Court Of The Vampire Queen (?)...and it's very to the point, straight from the beginning. I've been feeling nauseous lately and Idk why :( I just ate dinner, and now I need to study for my written CNA test because it's on the 21st

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12/1/24

Soooo, I did not make that cake for thanksgiving. Didn't have space in the fridge. I'm just hoping the stuff doesn't go bad before I can make it. A few days before thanksgiving, my bf got in an accident. He's okay, but his car was totaled, so Idk when I'll get to see him again, other than christmas. I DNF'd a few books again too. I still feel guilty every time I do that, but I just couldn't get through them (The Magus, and Sense and Sensibility). Thanksgiving was pretty good, we're still eating leftovers. I'm back in the gym consistently again and my body is so sore. I have my written CNA test coming up and might also have to start looking for a new job. I wanted to wait until i get my CNA license before leaving my job, because I don't want to have a temporary job in between for just a month or two, but I may have to. My work is getting a new automated board for drive-thru that takes orders, and that's mostly what I do, so without that, I'd only be cashing out and cleaning. That means they'd probably cut my hours, and they're already only scheduling me 7 a week. I still have my other job, but that's one check a month and it's from home. That won't do.

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11/19/24

SIIIIIIGHHHHH. Yesterday was pretty good but now I feel so empty. My anniversary was on the 16th, but he worked, so we went out yesterday. We went out to Cheesecake Factory then went shopping at the mall. He bought me a dress, a bow, a choker, and fishnets. I love the dress, I wore it today. My makeup also came out pretty good, I felt so pretty. Mom and I went out to get the ingredients for a pumpkin cake I'm making for thanksgiving, then we tried the new dulce de leche frappe from McDonald's. When we got home, I made a salad and watched a movie with my mom and grandma. Now i'm just relaxing with a candle lit. Might watch a movie or something, but I also need to study. I also finally started reading A Court of Thorns and Roses a few days ago, and i'm already pretty into it. Gonna read some more tonight. Though, still pissed I bought it and Barnes and Noble for $30 just to find out Walmart had it for $12.

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10/12/24

Finally, the fall weather is coming. Things are going alright. It's not hotter than Satan's ballsack anymore, and Aftershock is tomorrow. I'm so excited. I also was able to schedule the written portion of the CNA test, but it's not until the end of December. And Halloween is coming!

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Archived Entry: 12/16/15

Dear diary,

I'm losing it...

Grades, tests, friends, my appearance, it's all challenging me right now. My grades have really dropped. It's mostly because i have zeros, but I'm about to fix those. I feel like an idiot. We take a science test every friday, and I keep getting a C or a D. I feel like I'm losing my friends, like they secretly hate me. I hate everything about myself. My weight, skin, legs, eyes, hair, all of it. Christmas is in nine days and I'm not in the spirit at all.

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9/9/24

I woke up early today because I planned to do my makeup and go grocery shopping. I wound up procrastinating and not having the time to do my makeup, but I still went to the grocery store. After my dumbass forgot the important first step of cooking the noodles when I was making mac and cheese from scratch the other day and completely fucked it up, I went out today and rebought all the ingredients to make it properly. When I got home, I just relaxed the rest of the day. Since I had to get up early and it was hella hot when I got home, I didn't go to the gym today. I still made progress though, because I submitted my application to move forward with scheduling my CNA tests :) Now we wait.

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8/31/24

Feelin' pretty good...for now. Yesterday, my boyfriend and I went to SacAnime. I didn't get to cosplay like I wanted, but I still had fun. Unfortunately, we had to wait in line outside for three hours, because we thought they opened at nine but they actually opened at 12. I got a Loki comic, X-Men comic, Spider-Man comic, a Sailor Moon print, a Wolverine print, a snake ring, and a fancy pair of scissors that look like a dagger. For my my birthday, J got me a Nightmare Before Christmas mini backpack. The Wolverine print is by the same artist that made the Winter Soldier and Ghost Face prints I have, that I got from SacAnime last year. And the ring I bought matches a pair of earrings I already had. Today, I woke up early and went to the gym. It's a little irritating because they completely remodeled so almost everything is moved, and they got a bunch of new upgraded equipment, so I have to learn how to use them all. When I got home, I started some laundry and I cleaned up my room. I need to find frames for the new prints now. I'm about to read a bit and relax until dinner. Tomorrow, I work.

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8/19/24

We got a new dryer! Finally, I can do my laundry and not worry. The last one was becoming a fire hazard so we bought a new one a few days ago, but it was finally delivered today. I started yesterday, so I didn't go to the gym this morning. It was nice getting to sleep in. I don't work again until Wednesday. I just spent today watching a movie and writing. I decided to start a new story, it's gonna be a Tom Hiddleston fanfic. I prefer completely original works, but sometimes it's nice to write a little fanfic. People seem to enjoy those more on my Wattpad anyway. After I write a few chapters, I'm probably gonna read a bit. Tomorrow I'm gonna do my laundry and get some cleaning done. I'll also need to study.

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Archived Entry: 12/18/23

I'm worn out. The original plan was that I'd wake up early, do some laundry, get some cleaning done, then meet up with an old friend. There was a thunderstorm last night, so I didn't sleep well, and didn't wake up early. I woke up at 7 instead of 6. I did some cleaning and got some laundry done. It was still pouring this morning. Since it was raining, I texted my friend and asked if he wanted to reschedule. We were supposed to meet up at a park not far from my house. He said he doesn't mind the rain, and even offered to come to my house. I don't like bringing people to my house, plus I don't feel comfortable in my room with a guy who's not my boyfriend. So, I gave in and we met up despite the weather. I got ready quickly and left at noon. It was fun. We talked and laughed and caught up. After I got home, I finished some chores I needed to get done. Now I'm unwinding in bed. I might work on some art, I haven't done that in a while. Tomorrow I have to get some groceries and run some errands.