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is there not a niche for people who fixate on gross anatomy WITHOUT it being a fetishistic thing? or at the very least.. not sexual. it is so interesting how many resources have become available to me solely due to people who are cardiophiles.. but I am not one. and I am certainly not a med student, I don’t know that I would become one.. there would be no endgame, i’m only autistic.. I’m too disabled anyhow

but.. yesss.. i’m purchasing a Littmann classic iii. one day I really want to own an ultrasound device..

i wish there were more resources for… an interest in organs… I never know what to call it. ‘Vitaorganum’, of course, falls under that umbrella.. but I know not where I would find other amateurs in my demographic who just fixate deeply on organs

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they never tell you that the actual hardest part of being a lady isn’t the senseless violence and microaggressions you’re constantly subjected to.. it’s actually learning every single terf dogwhistle so you can blacklist them

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there’s going to be a meteor shower soon.. i hope to see it with my loved ones. i can’t believe it but i’ve never even seen a shooting star before

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Credit: @sweatermuppet

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The anatomy of humane bodies : with figures drawn after the life

High quality printables 

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These are my assignments in Vet Gross Anatomy. Feelin’ like an art student XD! Yeah, I took ages to finish these things.

การบ้านวิชากรอส��ับบบ สัดแพทย์เอกสินกำมีอยู่จริง กว่าจะทำเสร็จนี่ใช้เวลานานมว๊ากกกกกกกก

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Anya from mouthwashing!!!!!

(Played through the game a couple times now I love it to bits)

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tbh the longer u think about polle being a vessel/mouthpiece for anyas pain (like bro their text colors r the SAME COLOR. in a game that assigns everyone unique text colors) and her hatred/resentment toward jimmy and the fact that would mean hes aware of what he did to her on a subconscious level and haunted by it (literally personifying it as a giant pursuing monster) and yet he STILL refuses to regard her as a human being. filling her in his mind as a mascot

the 'ive found myself sexually attracted to cartoon horses'

the fact that anya places her sleeping bag underneath polles statue, who is motion activated... likely as a way to protect herself...

the final speech polle gives. 'poor you. caged and alone'

and importantly. when jimmy tries to throw anyas words back in her face - 'our worst moments dont make us monsters-' polle cuts him off. 'HOLD ON! WAIT A MINUTE! if thats true... why are you still so concerned with HIM' accusatorially... like THATS who you feel sorry for? THATS what you think your worst moment was?

anyway sometimes the relationship between a woman who deserved better and a little cartoon horse mascot is so beautiful. to ME

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this morning i’m cozy. i wonder what i’ll do today

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i don’t not want to be a lady.. i like being a woman so much. but many people won’t let me have that. i do grow so tired of it. i want to be treated like everyone else.

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i’m so tired tired tired tired of casual misogyny. of the microaggressions and the little things that are just SO deeply ingrained into this society’s execution of gender roles. and no one believes it! because they think “haha, what is this, the middle ages? everyone knows women are people”. why am I still being treated like i’m not, then?!

i hate it!! I hate how normalized it is! I hate that I’M the one who looks crazy if I call out microaggressions. if I insinuate that our structure is all wrong. if I step out of ‘line’. I heard SO many times within the past TWENTY-FOUR hours from people my age in my demographic that what I’m interested in is a man’s job. from another woman, even.

my heart wouldn’t stop pounding. i could feel my blood burning. but God forbid I snap. because then I’m the brown, traumatized, used-goods harpy who’s being hysteric. I have every right to be upset. I’m so tired of having to be reassured that I’m strong and independent, and that I deserve autonomy and respect. I KNOW that. I will ALWAYS know that. It will NEVER matter until people TREAT ME like it matters.

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I just want you to be happy Anya.

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i really like when i can see the planets and stars despite the light pollution

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Mouthwashing AU where Polle is the co-captain instead of jingle bells

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probably one of the most misogynistic rhetorics I’ve ever heard is that any display of anger or fear is irrational because you were ‘diddled’ and that’s why you’re, I guess, incapable of making decisions. That you’re nonsensical and clearly too touched in the head for your say in any matter to have any weight. Putting some sort of blame on MY shoulders for being raped. Because it happened I’ve been doomed to just permanently be a pretty broken doll with a head too addled to allow me any autonomy.

I am a victim… I don’t see why that makes me unallowed to have any sort of strong opinion. Or unable to set boundaries. Or say “hey, I don’t think we should be doing this”. I want my autonomy back.