a folky track inspired by ted's description and experience of his father's death in 2x10 no weddings and a funeral. his story in this episode struck me so deeply and this song spilled out of me. enjoy <3
cw: heavy themes of parental death, referenced suicide, funerals
lyrics under the cut!
i'm getting dressed for a funeral
and it's not yours
i am thinking of my close friend's father
like i'd rather be
sun coming through white curtains
when it shines it pours
i'm remembering this suit is a symbol
of someone else's grief
you left me too long ago
to be this angry about it
but i still don't understand
how you could up and leave
put your death in my hands
and i am sixteen without it
i now won't understand
why you quit mom and me
i'm gonna be late for this funeral
i didn't go to yours
I was thinking about you treating
yourself so badly
my hand heavy on the church door
better late than not at all
i'm remembering you lift me from the car
when i fell asleep
you left me too long ago
to be this angry about it
but i still don't understand
how you could love me and leave
put your death in my hands
and i am sixteen without it
wish you'd tell me firsthand
why you quit mom and me
didn't you know
i was coming home
didn't you hear
the door open
didn't you see
my bag by the stairs
did you not know
or did you not care
'cause i didn't know
the sound of a shot
until i heard
that gun going off
you didn't see
your body on the floor
i knew and i cared
wasn't that enough
it wasn't enough
(i knew, i cared)
it wasn't enough
(i knew, i cared)
it wasn't enough
(i knew i cared)
it wasn't enough
(i knew i cared)
i'm getting dressed for a funeral
and it's not yours
Watch with headphones in 1080p
Warning: flashing lights/transitions
This video was a bit of an experiment. Stylized, effects-heavy editing isn't really in my comfort zone, and I haven't opened After Effects up in years. But what better character to edit a video to while trying something new and challenging?
S3 wasn't my favorite season for Keeley. Her storyline suffered a lot from disorganization and an unclear through-line (like the season as a whole) but there were still things I really loved. Also, let's be real, forget Jamie or Roy (or Jack). Keeley's best love stories are Rebecca and Barbara.
(I continue to be terrible at mixing audio, but I'm trying lol)
Love that in a season of big reveals, the quietest reveal of season 3 has been Trent Crimm’s utter lack of social skills. The man puts up a good front, but he also really did think ‘Huh. Rainbow mug didn’t work. Guess I’ll stalk Colin to a gay bar and jumpscare him. Yeah, that’ll work, that’s the natural next step. There’re absolutely no in between approaches I could try here. Can’t think of any reason he wouldn’t appreciate that!’