l-amoureuse

[l-amoureuse]

You are the only person I can't look in the eyes although it's the only thing I really want.

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Your gaze is so intense, I am afraid to break under it.

Your eyes are so deep, I am afraid to lose myself in them.

Your stare is so piercing, I am afraid you'll see through my shield and into my heart.

I

[l-amoureuse]

I honestly, truly wonder if somebody has wished before that I was in their arms on those long and lonely nights - as I wish you were in mine today.

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I cannot stop imagining you beside me at every family gathering.

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You are like the sun.

I want to look at you, feel your warmth and live in your light.

But looking at you hurts. And sometimes you shine too bright and too warm for me to be near your light.

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Today your face makes me sad.

The sheer beauty of it, being close enough to see the details, yet too far away and unable to inspect it the way I desire.

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How long do I need to wait?

How much do I need to carry?

How far do I have to go?

How strong do I have to be?

[l-amoureuse]

Vielleicht liebe ich dich~

[l-amoureuse]

I thought I had loved before.

Strong, hopelessly.

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But loving you now I realize...

that love came from desperation, loneliness, a fear of not belonging.

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Loving you now I realize...

It is you.

It is a pure, warm longing I cannot explain.

It is pain, so much hope and fear.

[l-amoureuse]

I love you

for your eyes are the colour of the sweetest honey

for your smile is infectious and lightens my heart to an extent I never thought possible

for your laugh warms and holds me

for your voice calms even the most stressed nerve

for your soul as it not only is beautiful on the outside but within even more so

I feel drawn to you by every fiber of my being, every nerve and every cell.

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How do I survive you?

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Falling for you couldn't be easier.

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I am scared, anxious, worried, sad.

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And deeply, hopelessly in love with you.

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Each dream I have of you, each second spent with you on my mind when I sleep feels elevating, warm, full of love.

A feeling nothing can recreate when I'm awake.

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[l-amoureuse]

I dreamt of you.

It felt so real, you felt real and so did I.

Our interest in each other hung heavy in the air and flirting secretly we agreed on it.

How I wish this was real.

How I wish his would become reality.

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I. ADORE. YOU!

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I can barely put into words just how much I feel for you.

When I look at you smiling it feels like I'm sitting outside on a sunny day surrounded by warm rays of light.

When you giggle because you made yourself laugh my heart feels light and strong.

When you walk into the room you grab my attention like no one else does and when you're not there I keep looking for you.

When your dark eyes look into mine I might as well burst for I can barely contain my feelings for you.

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But when you look concerned I ache.

When you cannot smile an emptiness I haven't felt before creeps into my heart.

When your eyes are dull and your voice is missing it's energy I only wish to hug you.

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For the first time ever, when I look at you, I see a future. A full future. And those feelings hurt because I don't know if there's a chance for us...

[l-amoureuse]

I dream of spending regular evenings with you ~

Walking your dog in the evening sun rays,

going on calm dinner dates with your, mine and our friends,

cooking simple dishes together,

watching tv and running my fingers through your hair...

All that sounds exciting to me, because you'd be there.