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i think the strongest headcanon i have is that dazai is completely and utterly surprised by sskk having an openly romantic relationship. Like he turns the wrong corner and sees sskk making out against a wall and just goes "THIS IS NOT WHAT I MEANT." and walks the other way and cries

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I just love contrasting skk/sskk dynamics in fic like, they're so fun to read I need more.

Like gimme Dazai and Chuuya who have spent the last few years spiting eachother for fear of this thing between them that refuses to die no matter how much hurt and resentment they throw at it.

And then one day they realize they're watching Atsushi and Akutagawa slowly work through their issues and grow closer like a pair of magnets eroding away at all obstacles between them.

Sure, they're awkward as hell about it. The landscape of Yokohama suffers their growing pains with them, but everyone can see them gaining terrain until it's commonplace to see one waiting for the other outside their workplace or to spot them sitting together in some random fire escape.

Through it all, skk watch them with this sort of awe-pride-envy that eats them up inside in both a good and bad ways. Chuuya grins a little to himself when Akutagawa makes it a thing to introduce Gin and Atsushi, Dazai indulges Atsushi's planning of a first date that ends up going so very wrong it's funny. Deep, deep down they both wonder what might have happened if they had made the effort.

Now, if it's the other way around it's even more hilarious. Bc you have skk who grew back together like a fungus after Dazai reappeared. They've both matured a lot and lost a lot, so now it's a lot easier to let themselves be and enjoy the time they have, because in Yokohama you never know. Their relationship somehow strongarms the city into peace because now they're partners again and it's a little terrifying.

And in the meanwhile, Atsushi and Akutagawa watch and kind of simmer in all the pent up rage that they have, not even necesarily at skk (although there's the Akutagawa and Dazai situation) but just at the world in general.

It may be a bit more noticeable in Akutagawa, but Atsushi too still has so much rage within himself. Because of the past, and the divine being, and everything. It's the kind of rage that they can't direct at anyone else, —because no one else would understand, because they only want eachother in some twisted way, because they're both livid at themsleves for having feelings for the other— so they give it to eachother and they're damn right insufferable about it.

And somehow the skk situation makes it worse? Like what do you mean Akutagawa drops by Chuuya's office and Dazai is sitting on the desk, boucing a rubber ball off the wall and humming whle Chuuya finishes his work? What do you mean Atsushi comes back from some errand to find Dazai curled up with Chuuya on the ADA couch? Asleep, to boot.

There's a gala and skk dance together like they've been going to ballroom classes the whole time, and Atsushi gets so irritated that he gets drunk and Akutagawa ends up carrying him home gagged with Rashomon.

Idk I think its a fun dynamic. Kind of like the ultimate punishment of having to watch what you can’t have be rubbed in your face.

Ofc in both cases the couple that actually has their shit together ends up nudging along the one that doesn’t.

Long live happy endings but also truckloads of angst.

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Today I am consumed by one thought and one thought only.

Soukoku switches.

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On a lighter note I have this hc that skk start getting back together after the Guild thing (it's a process) and the first couple-y thing that they do outside of fucking (and aside from being incredibly obvious in battle) is sit together in the dark in Chuuya's fancy-ass apartment having quiet breakfasts together.

Dazai's sitting on the floor, sipping at some coffee and leaning into Chuuya's leg. Chuuya in on the couch, he has a hand in Dazai's hair and sometimes feeds him little bites of whatever he's eating. They don’t even really talk, just kinda settle into that terrible knowledge of : 'Oh, he's here/I'm here/We're here, and it's looking like we'll still be here even if I close my eyes and let go of the load for a bit.'

Also sometimes they watch dumb foreign soaps together while they do this later on. Chuuya mistranslates the french ones and Dazai starts creating weird scenarios for the latin american ones.

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A dynamic that I find myself gravitating (heh) to a lot later is smitten!Dazai and a Chuuya with trust issues the size of the moon.

But like, they're both still huge assholes.

Like Dazai will absolutely moon over Chuuya in his head and then somehow go on to show it by nearly giving him an aneurysm durning an ADA/PM meeting.

And Chuuya knows but he is not having it.

I do like my canon Chuuya having had feelings for Dazai, honestly. Having known it and having done his due mourning when Dazai left and Chuuya (rightfully so) figured he might as well get over it and go on with his life however much it hurt.

Because we know he wouldn’t wallow, that'd be giving the stupid Mackerel too much satisfaction. And now, in present time, he'd be ice-cold when anything's so much as mentioned about that. A sore spot if you will.

So they do dance about eachother like that, like two cactuses playing MMA.Chuuya makes it evident that ofc he doens’t care anymore, he doesn’t even really hate Dazai for that, but more for betraying the mafia blablabla.

But then when shit goes down...

(This is actully sounding like just canon skk 🤣)

But anyways, when shit goes down Dazai loses the assholery, even halfway (touches Chuuya's hair unbidden, lets something that's on the right side of sour slip when Chuuya is hurt) and it nearly sends Chuuya running for the hills.

Because he's supposed to have healed from this, godammit, but now the scar from it is itching.

And ykno, he needs to correct course, it never ends well...

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I may or may not be writing a timeloop soukoku.

With like extra pain.

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I'm writing smth where I hurt these two a lot. So here's a lil sweet doodle

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@noxious10 ‘s art!! support them & their art pls!! 🥹🥹

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Thoughts on the take that some people think Naruto and Sasuke are toxic and that they are codependent on each other and are just obsessed with one another. Personally, I enjoy both their intense connection and their healthier moments, but I also find the notion that their love can become so overwhelming and possessive that it becomes unhealthy. I know you been busy and haven’t had time to write, but have you ever considered exploring that perspective in your writing?

sasunaru's toxic codependency is the most appealing thing about them lol. the thing about fiction is that taking things to their extremes makes for a much more impactful story. Sasuke and Naruto are fully willing to die for and with each other literally since land of waves. sasuke's body moves on its own, because protecting Naruto is literally written into the code of his character, which in turn gives Naruto the same desire to do the same for him in turn.

people who take these fictitious extremes and equate them to real life morals are not only boring as fuck, but completely lack media literacy. the point of stories since the dawn of time is to make us feel emotions. you can have a character say that they would do anything for their loved one until the paper of the book tears from the ink, but Naruto physically gives his actual right arm to the cause of making sure Sasuke has someone who loves him in his life. the gore exaggerates the meaning of Naruto's words so we the audience can feel how endlessly he loves Sasuke as if we were in his body. we know the love is unconditional because of the extremes.

putting our society's morals onto fictional characters defeats the entire purpose of creating fictional characters to begin with

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dazai be saying "im not into hugging men" then he does this shit with chuuya

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Set out to doodle a bit and ended up with a messy Chuuya

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Snow white and her prince

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“the arts and sciences are completely separate fields that should be pitted against each other” the overlap of the arts and sciences make up our entire perceivable reality they r fucking on the couch

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Reaching the end of the line together only to realize you wanted it to go on forever

OR

The prelude to Osamu Dazai Groundhog day-ing the world to save Chuuya (who sometimes helps and sometimes doesn’t).

This idea keeps rolling around my head 🥲 I do happen to be an angst whore so sorry.

(Sorry for my godawful handwriting)

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ichiruki is what bakudeku, narusasuke, itafushi, killugon and every single other shounen mc x his bsf is to their own respective fandoms.

it isnt canon and never will be, however it will alwaysalwaysalways outdo what is canon. the characters yearning leaks off the screen and into the watchers minds, and it is so captivating.

no where else will you find someone who is so willing to give up their life for another person. especially in the situations shounen mcs face.

it's love. they are in love, your honor.

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Mersault bbs in my style. There may be a lil fic in the works.