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Dazai is very loved, he is also very infuriating. Both can coexist.

Now imagine everyone already *assumed* they were mated 🤣 like ykno with the scent blockers and stuff and Dazai mostly covering his throat anyways.

The omegaverse soukoku brainrot has consumed me, so here's some more stuff about that. Specifically, mating bites since @kyryedb commented and got me thinking about it.

Chuuya was the was who brought the topic of mating bites up first when they were had settled down into this weird they have, and Dazai immediately booked it out the door and didn't talk to him for a week. They eventually get back to speaking terms, but Chuuya definitely doesn't bring it up again after how badly Dazai had freaked out last time. However, Dazai gets to thinking about it.

He's always had a love-hate thing going on with mating bites as he does with all of his omega traits. He's always secretly longed to have one, the physical embodiment that would show that he's something to be desired with permanence. A mating bite would be the ultimate proof that he hasn't lost everything that would make him a "good omega," that he's still worthy of someone's love and devotion, so much so that they're willing to permanently mark him and let everyone else see their love for him.

On the other hand, it would make him feel trapped. What if the alpha he ends up mating with becomes abusive or ends up worse than he thought? You can't undo a mating bite. Worse, he would have a harder time resisting their commands due to the nature of the bite. He can't afford to give up on that kind of control. Plus, he doesn't need a stupid mark on his neck to be considered a whole person, despite what some bigots might say. He's Dazai Osamu, dammit.

But after a while... the thought of having Chuuya's bite on his neck doesn't sound so bad. The longer Dazai thinks about it, the more accustomed to it becomes. He weighs the pros and cons, and... actually finds himself longing for it more than he dreads it. So he tries to seduce Chuuya into doing it because why the hell would he do something reasonable, like asking for the things he wants. Preposterous. (He's getting better at it, I promise. It's just a slow process).

He tries wearing shirts that are loose around the neckline that shows off his neck, which are bare from their bandages for once (gasp! So scandalous!). He tries wearing perfume that is marketed as irresistible to alphas since his own scent is so unnoticable due to his overuse of blockers and suppressants. He tries building his nest on Chuuya's bed instead of his usual hiding spots. He tries acting like what he thinks an omega should, but it does little more than irritate Chuuya, who has know clue what's going on because of course he doesn't. You never told him anything, Dazai! He can't actually read your mind!

Chuuya's lack of reaction, or worse, annoyance, discourages Dazai, and like the miscommunication king that he is, assumes that this means that Chuuya doesn't and could never want him as a mate. That is until said redhead confronts the omega and asks just what the hell is going on. Dazai breaks down and tells him everything, woefully mourning the fact that Chuuya would NEVER want him like he wants Chuuya.

Chuuya's just like: are you fucking kidding me? Of course you pull this shit. For a genius, you really are stupid. If you wanted to be mates, you could've just asked. I thought you hated the idea with how you ran off last time which is why I didn't bring it up!

As I've said, Chuuya wants to protect those he cares about, almost to the point of being overbearing if he's not kept in check. Throughout their partnership, he's thought about the idea of being mates with Dazai a lot. He desires to be the one that can help Dazai cut through the difficult shit in his troubled mind and offer him some sense of comfort. He really likes the idea, but since how horribly it went over the first time, there's no way he's bringing that up again. Hearing that Dazai went through all of these hoops to try and get him to bite him instead of just talking to him about it is incredibly frustrating. Not to say that Chuuya is the master of communication. He continuously puts the needs of others before his own. They're both idiots (affectionate).

Finally, though, they manage to figure things out and give each other that much-longed for mating bite, matching marks of the love and devotion they have for each other. A promise to always care for the other, even when things get tough. Like when Chuuya steals all of the blankets like the thieving little slug that he is! Why does he need so many blankets when he's so tiny and already hot enough to put a space heater to shame? Truly the worst alpha ever! Neglect! Abuse!

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Please all of these headcanons are just delightful. I can totally imagone Chuuya being like:

"I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO MATE YOU FOR FIVE WHOLE YEARS YOU DAMN MACKEREL. TF DO YOU MEAN I DONT—" *kisses him hard while they bth get a little misty eyed*

The omegaverse soukoku brainrot has consumed me, so here's some more stuff about that. Specifically, mating bites since @kyryedb commented and got me thinking about it.

Chuuya was the was who brought the topic of mating bites up first when they were had settled down into this weird they have, and Dazai immediately booked it out the door and didn't talk to him for a week. They eventually get back to speaking terms, but Chuuya definitely doesn't bring it up again after how badly Dazai had freaked out last time. However, Dazai gets to thinking about it.

He's always had a love-hate thing going on with mating bites as he does with all of his omega traits. He's always secretly longed to have one, the physical embodiment that would show that he's something to be desired with permanence. A mating bite would be the ultimate proof that he hasn't lost everything that would make him a "good omega," that he's still worthy of someone's love and devotion, so much so that they're willing to permanently mark him and let everyone else see their love for him.

On the other hand, it would make him feel trapped. What if the alpha he ends up mating with becomes abusive or ends up worse than he thought? You can't undo a mating bite. Worse, he would have a harder time resisting their commands due to the nature of the bite. He can't afford to give up on that kind of control. Plus, he doesn't need a stupid mark on his neck to be considered a whole person, despite what some bigots might say. He's Dazai Osamu, dammit.

But after a while... the thought of having Chuuya's bite on his neck doesn't sound so bad. The longer Dazai thinks about it, the more accustomed to it becomes. He weighs the pros and cons, and... actually finds himself longing for it more than he dreads it. So he tries to seduce Chuuya into doing it because why the hell would he do something reasonable, like asking for the things he wants. Preposterous. (He's getting better at it, I promise. It's just a slow process).

He tries wearing shirts that are loose around the neckline that shows off his neck, which are bare from their bandages for once (gasp! So scandalous!). He tries wearing perfume that is marketed as irresistible to alphas since his own scent is so unnoticable due to his overuse of blockers and suppressants. He tries building his nest on Chuuya's bed instead of his usual hiding spots. He tries acting like what he thinks an omega should, but it does little more than irritate Chuuya, who has know clue what's going on because of course he doesn't. You never told him anything, Dazai! He can't actually read your mind!

Chuuya's lack of reaction, or worse, annoyance, discourages Dazai, and like the miscommunication king that he is, assumes that this means that Chuuya doesn't and could never want him as a mate. That is until said redhead confronts the omega and asks just what the hell is going on. Dazai breaks down and tells him everything, woefully mourning the fact that Chuuya would NEVER want him like he wants Chuuya.

Chuuya's just like: are you fucking kidding me? Of course you pull this shit. For a genius, you really are stupid. If you wanted to be mates, you could've just asked. I thought you hated the idea with how you ran off last time which is why I didn't bring it up!

As I've said, Chuuya wants to protect those he cares about, almost to the point of being overbearing if he's not kept in check. Throughout their partnership, he's thought about the idea of being mates with Dazai a lot. He desires to be the one that can help Dazai cut through the difficult shit in his troubled mind and offer him some sense of comfort. He really likes the idea, but since how horribly it went over the first time, there's no way he's bringing that up again. Hearing that Dazai went through all of these hoops to try and get him to bite him instead of just talking to him about it is incredibly frustrating. Not to say that Chuuya is the master of communication. He continuously puts the needs of others before his own. They're both idiots (affectionate).

Finally, though, they manage to figure things out and give each other that much-longed for mating bite, matching marks of the love and devotion they have for each other. A promise to always care for the other, even when things get tough. Like when Chuuya steals all of the blankets like the thieving little slug that he is! Why does he need so many blankets when he's so tiny and already hot enough to put a space heater to shame? Truly the worst alpha ever! Neglect! Abuse!

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Just had another idea. This is omegaverse, so if you don't like it, you can just scroll. It's nothing explicit, just a couple ideas.

Okay, so omega Dazai, but he has a habit of hiding his nests. He doesn't like to have them out in the open. He feels exposed, vulnerable, especially something that displays so clearly that he's an omega, something that's viewed as weak and lesser. So he hides his nest. He builds them in closets, the corner of attics, basements, etc.

He doesn't want anyone to know he's an omega, yes, but he also doesn't want to fall victim to the stereotypical omega stuff. He doesn't want to cower before alphas who would use their power over him. He doesn't want to lose his mind, the thing that keeps him safe in life, during his heats. He doesn't want to be some breeding machine.

So he takes measures against it. He takes heat suppressants to the point of abusing them. He hides his nest. He trains himself to resist the scent of alphas. He hides his own scent with blockers. He does everything in his power to keep up the reputation he has as the Demon Prodigy.

But then it gets to a point where instinctively, he feels like a failure of an omega. He feels undesirable. He's achieved what he wanted, but who would ever want an omega like him? The suppressants made his heats completely unpredictable and almost nonexistent, even when he stops taking them. He's completely ruined his fertility with them. He's flighty, aggressive, defiant. Who would ever want that in an omega?

And he hates that he feels this way. He wants so badly to be proud of the decisions he's made. And in a way, he is. He isn't the weak little omega he feared of being. But there's also a part of him that mourns what he's lost, thinking for sure that he'll never have a mate, that he's completely lost his desirability as an omega.

And then Chuuya comes along and loves him anyway. He himself isn't the perfect alpha, according to stereotypes. He's shorter than most, more emotional, and doesn't revel in dominating others. But he loves Dazai, even if it takes a while for them to come around to it (because they're Soukoku, nothing comes easy for them). They love each other, even if they don't fit into the molds expected of them of strong, dominating alpha and weak, submissive omega. They work together, embracing their faults and learning to love themselves at the same time.

This got kinda long, but I hope it makes sense. Omega failure Dazai and supportive Alpha Chuuya.

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Nono please add more souloku omegaverse headcanons. I was listening.

Sure! I have many thoughts, so I'm glad to see that others were interested in my ramblings lol. Let's get into it!

Looking at Chuuya, he is clearly someone who could easily have power over others from how strong his ability is, but as we see with the Sheep, he doesn't enjoy it. He doesn't enjoy being in positions of power. What he does enjoy is looking out for others, people he considers his family. Orginally, he thought he had to lead them to that, but as we see at the end of the 15 arc, he learns that isn't the case. I imagine that Chuuya tried very hard to be the big, strong Alpha that one thinks of when hearing the word while he was in the Sheep, but it never felt quite right.

As I see it, I don't think Chuuya would enjoy being the stereotypical Alpha who flaunts their scent all over the place, taking up as much space as they can, being dominate in every sense of the word and reveling in the power they have over others. Chuuya's "Alpha-ness" would manifest as more of a protective feeling rather than a possessive one. He doesn't want to OWN someone, but PROVIDE for them. He wants to be the person they can come to for support. Like, he if he were to smell an Omega in heat, his thoughts wouldn't be that he needed to claim them, but get them to safety. Does that make sense? I hope it does.

At first, this instinct clashed with Dazai because Dazai takes it as Chuuya looking down on him for being an Omega, and rejects it. He doesn't need protection. He's perfectly capable of taking care of himself without some bleeding-heart of an Alpha sniffing around in his business. Because from Dazai's point of view, he needs to be in charge of absolutely everything, so he can't afford to be some weak Omega submitting to the will of whatever Alpha he comes across.

They clash and argue because from their respective views, the other is being unreasonable. Chuuya just wants to look out for Dazai, not out of pity, but to be partners that face the world together. Maybe he wants to prove he's capable of protecting people after how badly he failed with the Sheep (and later, the Flags) and sometimes, he pushes past the boundary to the point of being overbearing. Dazai, on the other hand, is fighting with the deep insecurity that he isn't something worthy of being protected, and once Chuuya finds out that he can't do the things other omegas do (he barely has heats anymore and getting pregnant is basically impossible at this point) that he'll leave. So he pushes Chuuya away before he has the chance to get close, snarling and biting with all his might to show him he's wasting his time.

They're both hurting and bad at communicating, but eventually, they learn to let their guard down and say what they're really feeling. Chuuya learns to be less overbearing when it comes to his need to protect, to give Dazai space when he needs it. Dazai learns to let his walls down and let Chuuya see him for who he really is; hurt, but still worthy of love and care. They both don't fit into the expecting that come with their secondary gender, but that's what makes them human.

Tldr; Chuuya isn't the dominating kind of alpha. He prefers to protect and provide for people. Dazai hates his omega qualities and tries to get rid of them, but slowly learns that it isn't something to be ashamed of and learns to let others in and lend a hand.

These always end up being longer than I wanted, lol. I hope this satisfies your desire for more. I love these two so much. They're my babies. I want them to be happy. My boys!!

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I grew up being gaslit and queerbaited by media, now you're trying to tell me that I shouldn't be filtering AO3 by >10,000 words, angst, hurt/comfort, canon divergence, pining??

what do you want from me fr??

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Soukoku pajamas must be the funniest thing bc I bet Chuuya only wears monnogrammed, imported silk and then there's Dazai in some ratty sweatpants and a T-shirt he stole from Kunikida at some point.

Bonus points if Chuuya ends up in the t-shirt for some reason and ends up sparking rumors bc someone sees him and gets the wrong idea.

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we need to take more advantage of how it’s canon through dapples that when 22skk are too tired to keep up pretenses dazai just immediately starts calling chuuya beautiful and chuuya’s yapping abt how much he trusts Dazai and knew Dazai wouldn’t die on him blah blah blah like theyre so embarrassing

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Here's Chuuya after a long day

Just imagine a starstruck Dazai looking at that

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Welp, the Chuuya in a robe brainrot from my last post took over me ig. Imma color him in a bit .

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I'm gonna end up drawing this, aren't I?

Hc that 22!Chuuya has taken to wearing robes at home (might be Kouyou's influence, might not) because they're comfortable and he feels stylish in them. He even has like warmer ones for winter and more breezy ones for summer.

Then after the whole shebang with metsault and Fyodor (I am being delusional here, hell knows how that's gonna end up), Dazai randomly decides to revisit old habits and breaks into Chuuya's apartment for some inane reason.

Only to have his teenage crush refreshed by the sight of Chuuya unwinding after a long day with a smoke, a glass of wine, and some music in the background.

Chuuya has the nicest muscle definition in his legs, and Dazai forgot that for a moment.

He promptly gets a pillow thrown in his face.

But Chuuya doesn’t throw the whole man out, at least.

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Hc that 22!Chuuya has taken to wearing robes at home (might be Kouyou's influence, might not) because they're comfortable and he feels stylish in them. He even has like warmer ones for winter and more breezy ones for summer.

Then after the whole shebang with metsault and Fyodor (I am being delusional here, hell knows how that's gonna end up), Dazai randomly decides to revisit old habits and breaks into Chuuya's apartment for some inane reason.

Only to have his teenage crush refreshed by the sight of Chuuya unwinding after a long day with a smoke, a glass of wine, and some music in the background.

Chuuya has the nicest muscle definition in his legs, and Dazai forgot that for a moment.

He promptly gets a pillow thrown in his face.

But Chuuya doesn’t throw the whole man out, at least.

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I think somewhere along the line, probably after storm bringer, chuuya would be a little bit scared of his ability. Not enough to stop using it in everyday use, but enough that he'd seek out dazai so he could stop feeling it.

But of course, that requires direct skin to skin contact.

And dazai is both touch starved and completely and utterly in love with chuuya.

So chuuya would just walk into dazais office, and sit in there holding his hand while he did paperwork, and dazai would be bright red and a stuttering mess and unable to concentrate on anything.

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Atsushi: What is wrong with you?

Dazai: Loaded question. Elaborate.

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An expansion on a post I made a while ago, about dazai and chuuya getting married as teenagers:

Dazai goes to chuuya with an idea for a prank, all like 'chuuya! We should get married!' And chuuyas all like dazai, Mackerel, waste of bandages, what the actual fuck. Because this is before they've even started dating, they're like 16/17 and both pining so hard.

And dazais like, well, tax benefits. And that means you get all my stuff when I die, instead of it going to mori. And I get all your stuff if you die! And we can be roomates and save money. Plus, it'll be so funny. Imagine everyone thinking we're in a relationship!!!!!

And chuuya agrees, because he's physically incapable of saying no to dazai, and so they get married. And it's a big deal for a week or two, that soukoku got married, and then everyone just kinda settles down and forgets about it. They bury their marriage certificate in a drawer somewhere, and dazai ends up in his shipping container anyway, so they don't think about the fact that they're married.

And then dazai leaves the mafia, and both of them do their best to forget about the other completely, so the fact that they're married stops being applicable. Chuuya find their marriage certificate while drunk, and burns it, and then completely forgets about it, and then there's no record at all.

Then dazai resurfaces, and they're reunited, and apologies are made, and they finally get together. And then one of them (chuuya) eventually gets down on one knee and proposes. And dazai is just standing there, in front of all their colleagues, and he catches chuuyas eye and he's like. 'Wow. Can't believe I'm so great you had to marry me twice!' And then they both start laughing hysterically. The agency is hella confused and the port mafia is sighing in dissapointment.

They end up having a wedding anyway, and making vows, they just don't have the official document.

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Speaking of jealousy, wouldn’t it be terrribly funny if word got around that Chuuya was dating someone? Like misunderstanding or not, idc.

It'd totally make sense then for Dazai to start popping out in the strangest of places, interrupting because he's got 'sensitive information' or 'an important question.' At first he's just curious, but it devolves quickly the more of Chuuya he starts seeing.

It's a vicious circle, he can’t help wanting Chuuya when he's seeing the man much more often, can’t leave Chuuya alone when he wants so much to see him.

Can't leave the whole thing well enough alone when Dazai's good intentions die right in the scant space between Chuuya's hand and that person's.

It gets ridiculous.

It gets destructive.

And yet nothing he does seems to change things.

Even a little bit, even though Dazai knows this is the consequences of his own actions, far reaching and mocking him as they laugh.

And still he can’t take the high road out.

As for Chuuya, he knows. Of course he knows, this is Dazai after all.

Some days the vindication he feels at the chase is not enough to outweigh the bitter little feeling, the hurt that seizes him every time Dazai doesn’t go far enough.

Chuuya's jealousy is more like stewing in the bitterness of the betrayal. Like "I still know him better than anyone" when he sees Dazai laughing with someone else.

Dazai's is more overt, he knows deep down that he changed things . Yet, he can't help but walk over and do something, even if it's just to enrage Chuuya bc that means his slug's eyes are on him.

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So I am being plagued by sad Soukoku thoughts. Someone send help.

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So I have been skulking around this tab for a couple of weeks ( yes, I am in skk hell, my brother made me watch bsd and I just latched on) and I do think that as much as it is common, the hc that skk were eachother’s firsts in much everything is so very precious and raw and painful when we think abt how they so scarcely meet in the future.

Like knowing Dazai can look at Chuuya and know that's who he trusted with his first kiss (bc that's one I personally hc, Chuuya had already had), it must be fucking crazy. And then Chuuya having to know Dazai's touch was the first thing he felt in that context. Like all the tentative, discerning touches, and Dazai being a little shit but also making sure it always broke Chuuya down a little.

Ugh they make me soft.

(I will probably continue the random posting, the brainrot is real)