kvmnamjoons

[kvmnamjoons]

@tvnymontana

Another Christmas together and I get to spend it with you as my husband. I still can't help but feel happy getting to call you that. Hope you enjoy everything I got you and know that you are forever a light in my life no matter what. I know I don't always say exactly what I'm feeling as easily but I appreciate that you understand no matter what. Hears to many more years of us together and making more memories.

Love,

Joon

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fairytale prince? no, kim namjoon! cr. @jung-koook

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That's just bad. Wouldn't try it at all. I mean we typically have everything when it comes to seafood but I due to my love of crabs, I don't eat seafood at all. I tend to like meat much more. Both are pretty awkward for sure. I feel that's just the next step family thinks about when you get married. We've been looking into things so I'm sure that will keep her from asking too much.

It absolutely is gross; that's the whole thing. I typically like seafood, but what kind of seafood dishes make it onto the menu for your celebration? I want to know if they'd give me the ick, too. Ah, yes -- the good 'ol 'when are you having kids?' question. I'm not sure how that one compares to the question of if you're seeing somebody. They might be equally awkward in their own ways.

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I get that honestly. This is the first time I've done one and wanted to show off how everything went when I worked on my last album. I know showing the fans the how my mind was working then and the whole process would be something they enjoyed. It's been out for a bit so I hope you can find see it at a movie theater. I know it has released at a few overseas. @hrrystles

i'm always so impressed when people do documentaries of their lives. did a couple when i was younger but i don't think i would do one now. feels too invasive and intimate for me, but maybe that's because i'm an extremely private person now. when does yours drop? i need to make sure i check it out.

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We have and I know others have seen it. I didn't expect it either but honestly, I was so moved by her speech that I almost cried myself. She must have been honestly and I'm glad I got to hear it all. It was an emotional day for a many it seemed. I know many tears were shed. You're welcome. Basketball really did come in handy then. I get that but it's all in the past now. We have but I still feel bad. They were and I will have them on my mind forever. It did work. I was pretty much crying as you said them and I expected to cry. I'm glad they did. Spent way too long trying to find the perfect words to write down but being into poetry helped a ton. I get that honestly. I love that you are that way with me at times though I don't mind if you are shy like that either. I mean, I get that and I believe that as well. I'm always all for making you shy still. Haha, I'm glad you think so. I know she showed you everything possible especially when we first started dating. Oh? I'd love to hear about what you'd learned from your research but I'm all for doing so together as well.

We've definitely grown and matured a lot together. I know that's one of the things my mom said as well. She got all emotional during her speech at the wedding, which I did expect but not to that extent. She's definitely been holding those feelings in for a little while, safe to say. Thank you, thank you. It was a good throw, and playing basketball was handy. Although I wish I used my words rather than reacted the way I did. We made it up to them for ruining it but I still feel bad about it to this day. I knew that my vows had to be perfect. Writing is what I'm best at, and I will admit that I locked myself in my studio to let myself feel and be vulnerable for a little bit. Safe to say that it worked. Your vows were great, and it for sure made my stomach flutter. It's rare to get me to feel like that in general cause I know I'm a bit shy with all of that stuff, even if we've been together for as long as we have. Then again, my parents say that you still getting me to feel so shy and flustered after so long means the spark won't ever die and I truly believe that. You were a cute baby! I loved getting to see all the photos and videos of you. That's true... I'd love to start looking into it. I mean, I have done some research in my own time but I'd love to do it together as well.

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We gotta change that then. Can't have you upset. I'm glad to hear that. Yeah? I'm sure both will go well for you. We do. I'm free anytime. Been trying not to do to much and just relax more. Not too much. Got plans to see my parents and Yoongi's parents for the holidays and we're prepared for whatever questions they throw our way.

"We really haven't and that's terribly upsetting to me. I've been pretty good! Life has been crazy, I have a couple big projects coming up. We do need to catch up though, when do you wanna hang out? What's been going on with you, hyung?"

[kvmnamjoons]

So how have you been, Kookie? Feel like we haven't spent time together since Yoongi and my wedding happened. Feel we both deserve a good catch up with one another. @jecnjvngkcok

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I am too. It wouldn't feel the same if it happened any other way. That's true but we've come a long way from that which I'm forever grateful that we worked out whatever we were going through then. I do as well. It was a nice throw. Yeah, I get them feeling that way. I wouldn't have been impressed after our little clothing fiasco either if I was them. The tears were just ready to flow it seems. I know you do and it just makes me love them even more. I can tell you put so much emotion into them. Haha, I know you'd say that. Feel everything I write down just shows it's me with how I convey my words. I'm blaming being into poetry for a bit when I was younger. Me either. She really is. She keeps everything that she's given and I love that she does. I still haven't gotten over that. Feel I wanted to hide away when she brought out the baby photos for you to see. I do as well. I do. You take care of the younger members pretty well and I already know that we'd both be amazing parents. I know you do. We are both bad about that but I'm here to assure you that all will be fine.

I'm very glad that things worked out the way they did. Especially since we did bicker a bit when we were first getting to know one another. I remember the clothing fiasco pretty well. I am amazed that I still nailed you in the head with a pair of pants. Hoseok and Jungkook weren't impressed, safe to say. Since they spent all day folding laundry. I saw you get teary-eyed, it was sweet. But I meant every word I wrote down and then some. I loved your vows, they were sweet but totally you coded, and I loved it. Wouldn't trade that moment for the world. That's true, your mom is probably one of the most sentimental people I know. Oh, she made sure to show me all the photos... Even the embarrassing baby photos. I love the idea of kids too. You think so? I believe you, I just overthink sometimes. You know how I am.

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It really has. Honestly, I don't remember myself. Everything feels like a blur at times if you ask me. I mean, I understand that. I have the same problem whenever I've been on tour. Just our minds are pretty occupied is all. Married life has been great. I think we still are and it's nice. We have been talking about looking into things about children since we wanna have some ideas for the future.

been a minute, hasn't it? i can't even remember if we've chatted after you've gotten married. i've been bloody terrible, my mum says i've forgotten how to text people back while i was touring and she's not exactly wrong about that. so, tell me everything. how's married life treating you? still in that newlywed bubble? / @kvmnamjoons

[kvmnamjoons]

Great. I already can't wait to hear what you think of it once it's out. Tossing and turning is the worst. I just end up laying awake in bed as I overthink everything for a bit. I'm sure it will be, just my mind messing with me. I could do that. I'd be a good stand in for a show for anyone. I can wait though and just enjoy my hiatus. My husband might come after me if he saw I was working in anyway when I'm suppose to be relaxing. I'm glad to hear that. Feel everyone should get the chance to unwind a bit when on tour especially for the chance to explore around a bit. I can't help it. I always wanna show my support and you deserve it at least to me.

Noted in my diary! I'll be checking it out, for sure. I'm the same. I toss and turn with the nerves. But, I'm sure it'll be well received, hyung. You can stand in for me if you want? I'll stay in my bed, let you take my spot and kill it on stage! It's been so amazing this time around. We've really took more time to relax and unwind on tour. You're far too good to me, you know that?

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I don't think so either. I know when we were younger, we imagined different plans that changed constantly as we grew up. Me too. You've always been my person and soulmate so I know no one else would compare. A crazy journey but I wouldn't change anything about it. You did. Brought tears to my eyes when you read them. I think they were pretty perfect but I am biased here when it comes to you. I felt the same way with mine and felt like I had to practice it so many times so I didn't mess it up in front of everyone. I'm glad to hear it does. She's gonna love them so much and she'll definitely hang them up. She loves to be sentimental. She has too many photos of me that I'm sure you've gotten the chance to look through. Yeah? I've just been wishy washy with it but I love the thought of kids. That is a normal fear especially for first time parents. I'm sure we'll both be amazing parents.

I don’t think the younger versions of us would even believe that we married each other. I’m glad we did because I couldn’t imagine myself with anyone else, but our entire journey together is crazy. I know I elaborated on my vows with all of that, which I had such a hard time writing. I wanted them to be perfect. I’ve never even got that nervous about writing music. It makes me feel all warm too. I got some photos copied for your mom to have. I know she’s going to hang them up, she’s probably one of the most sentimental people out there. I didn’t really picture myself with kids until the last few years, honestly. I would always wonder if I’d do a good job but I think that’s a normal fear, right?

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That sounds gross. Don't think I'd like cheese and pineapple mixed together. Honestly, I think for me it has to be some of the dishes. That could just be due to the fact that I'm not a seafood person so I don't like having to eat it. My mom now usually makes sure there are more meat options whenever I go see her for the holidays otherwise I end up shoving the seafood onto my husband's plate. I used to have the question on if I was gonna get married and have kids. That all stopped once my schedule got super busy. My parents just let me do things at my pace but I know my mom will be asking about grandchildren. I can sense it happening once I see her again.

What's one thing about the holidays that gives you the ick? Could be anything -- a dish, a stereotype, your distant cousin Jan that can't help but continue to ask why you haven't landed a significant other yet -- nothing is off limits. I'll tell you mine first, obviously; fair is fair. It's my sweet aunt's pineapple cheese casserole. Yeah, you heard me -- canned pineapple, slightly drained, topped with shredded cheese. I've never had anything like it in my life, and not in a good way -- but she's too good of a person, and I can't let her down, so there's always at least a bite of it on my plate every Thanksgiving. Your turn! @hfrpstarters

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It really is and I love that they are eager to see what else I'll share with them about. It's nice honestly and I do miss getting to connect with the fans a bit more. It really is honestly. You gotta hope that schedules line up perfectly so you can see friends. Sometimes I don't see my friends who are also in the industry unless we happen to be performing at the same award shows around the same time. Exactly, but we all try out best. Yes. It's such lovely instrument and I've enjoyed getting the chance to learn it. It does feel that way. Like there's always that small hope there but I try to wish them all the best and hope they get successful no matter what they do. They really do and seem to know things before you do. Guess she knew I was being obvious compared to even my husband back then. She also made sure to tell me to stop crushing from afar and say something. She just has her own way of showing her love it seems but I adore her. It really is. I have that as well. When I'm not with my family, the only one who really knows what's going on with me is my husband since we have known one another for almost 14 years now.

It's such a cool way to share a piece of yourself with them. I know how it is when work gets all-consuming, but it's nice to hear that you're getting a breather now on hiatus. It's always a "whenever we can" kind of thing, innit, when schedules get crazy? And most of the time, no one can, ever and it's a miracle when you finally get together. The saxophone? That's such a cool instrument, a very beautiful sound. I can only imagine how much fun you're having with it. It really does feel like losing a bit of your own life, right? You always hope they'll get back together, even if it seems unlikely. There's always that small hope they'll figure it out, but in the meantime, you just wish them well. Mostly, you just wish them success even if it's on their separate ways. Siblings are something else. They have this way of just knowing you like no one else can. There's just that level of understanding. I had to laugh when you said she already knew about your crush on your husband before you even told her. Classic sibling behavior. It's such a relief to have someone like that in your life, I keep most of my things bottled up, too, there are only like a couple of people I tell what's in my mind.

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It does! Honestly, I haven't done too much since getting married. My documentary is coming out next month to cinemas which I can't wait for everyone to get the chance to see. Other than that, I've just been enjoying my hiatus.

Feels like it's been forever since we've gotten to talk, and I feel like I've fallen so behind on all things you! What've you been up to these days? @kvmnamjoons

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I always feel that and then feel bad for not getting to interact with everyone I can. They do. Feel we need more time at events to get a chance for more interactions. I know! I'm sure we are more than ready. That's good to hear. I've been relaxing though the itch to do something work related is tempting but I know my fiancé would come after me. I'm glad to hear that and I can imagine they are the cutest. Hoping that the time they sleep properly comes quickly for you. Need all the rest you can get.

You're probably right, I've seen so many I wish to talk to more and then, I just don't. Events need to give us that chance. Not the friendship invitation - that's a big one. Fuck, are you sure we're ready? Pretty good, just a bit busy, obviously. The little ones are good as well and the cutest but so ready for them to properly sleep so I can.

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I'm glad he's taking his time. I'm sure love will pop up for him at some point. Know plenty of people who love sappy romantics. You should take a vacay there. It's a beautiful place and I'm sure you'd enjoy being there. I did! We saw everything possible there and took plenty of photos. Love you too, man. @jackscunie

Life did~ I was waiting for Yugyeom to get married first, weirdly. He's a sappy romantic, so I legit kept waiting for him to announce it, but I'm glad he's taking his time and focusing on his career. Making me wanna take a vacay there~ Did you do all the sight-seeing? Aye, ditto. Love ya man. @kvmnamjoons

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It's gonna be out in cinemas worldwide in December which I can't wait for. I am. I know the day before, I'm gonna be awake for longer than I should due to the nerves. If not, I can see it another way if possible. That's always great to do. Making me miss being on tour myself. Gotta make sure you explore as much as you can in Europe. It definitely lets them know out thought process with everything. I'll make sure to keep an eye out for it next year. I'll give you all the support. @jvnolee

Let me know when it's out and I'll check it out, hyung. Are you nervous about the reception? Taeyong's was in cinema's recently. I dunno if it still is, though, but hopefully! Same. Been relaxing between dates for the tour. We've got the European leg coming up, so we're grabbing as much downtime as we can right now. Agreed. Love when we put out things like that, give the fans an insight into our daily lives. I'm planning to drop solo work next year, so we'll see how that timeline goes. It might change~ @kvmnamjoons