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[kvmnamjoons]

I am too. It wouldn't feel the same if it happened any other way. That's true but we've come a long way from that which I'm forever grateful that we worked out whatever we were going through then. I do as well. It was a nice throw. Yeah, I get them feeling that way. I wouldn't have been impressed after our little clothing fiasco either if I was them. The tears were just ready to flow it seems. I know you do and it just makes me love them even more. I can tell you put so much emotion into them. Haha, I know you'd say that. Feel everything I write down just shows it's me with how I convey my words. I'm blaming being into poetry for a bit when I was younger. Me either. She really is. She keeps everything that she's given and I love that she does. I still haven't gotten over that. Feel I wanted to hide away when she brought out the baby photos for you to see. I do as well. I do. You take care of the younger members pretty well and I already know that we'd both be amazing parents. I know you do. We are both bad about that but I'm here to assure you that all will be fine.

I'm very glad that things worked out the way they did. Especially since we did bicker a bit when we were first getting to know one another. I remember the clothing fiasco pretty well. I am amazed that I still nailed you in the head with a pair of pants. Hoseok and Jungkook weren't impressed, safe to say. Since they spent all day folding laundry. I saw you get teary-eyed, it was sweet. But I meant every word I wrote down and then some. I loved your vows, they were sweet but totally you coded, and I loved it. Wouldn't trade that moment for the world. That's true, your mom is probably one of the most sentimental people I know. Oh, she made sure to show me all the photos... Even the embarrassing baby photos. I love the idea of kids too. You think so? I believe you, I just overthink sometimes. You know how I am.

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It really has. Honestly, I don't remember myself. Everything feels like a blur at times if you ask me. I mean, I understand that. I have the same problem whenever I've been on tour. Just our minds are pretty occupied is all. Married life has been great. I think we still are and it's nice. We have been talking about looking into things about children since we wanna have some ideas for the future.

been a minute, hasn't it? i can't even remember if we've chatted after you've gotten married. i've been bloody terrible, my mum says i've forgotten how to text people back while i was touring and she's not exactly wrong about that. so, tell me everything. how's married life treating you? still in that newlywed bubble? / @kvmnamjoons

[kvmnamjoons]

Great. I already can't wait to hear what you think of it once it's out. Tossing and turning is the worst. I just end up laying awake in bed as I overthink everything for a bit. I'm sure it will be, just my mind messing with me. I could do that. I'd be a good stand in for a show for anyone. I can wait though and just enjoy my hiatus. My husband might come after me if he saw I was working in anyway when I'm suppose to be relaxing. I'm glad to hear that. Feel everyone should get the chance to unwind a bit when on tour especially for the chance to explore around a bit. I can't help it. I always wanna show my support and you deserve it at least to me.

Noted in my diary! I'll be checking it out, for sure. I'm the same. I toss and turn with the nerves. But, I'm sure it'll be well received, hyung. You can stand in for me if you want? I'll stay in my bed, let you take my spot and kill it on stage! It's been so amazing this time around. We've really took more time to relax and unwind on tour. You're far too good to me, you know that?

[kvmnamjoons]

I don't think so either. I know when we were younger, we imagined different plans that changed constantly as we grew up. Me too. You've always been my person and soulmate so I know no one else would compare. A crazy journey but I wouldn't change anything about it. You did. Brought tears to my eyes when you read them. I think they were pretty perfect but I am biased here when it comes to you. I felt the same way with mine and felt like I had to practice it so many times so I didn't mess it up in front of everyone. I'm glad to hear it does. She's gonna love them so much and she'll definitely hang them up. She loves to be sentimental. She has too many photos of me that I'm sure you've gotten the chance to look through. Yeah? I've just been wishy washy with it but I love the thought of kids. That is a normal fear especially for first time parents. I'm sure we'll both be amazing parents.

I don’t think the younger versions of us would even believe that we married each other. I’m glad we did because I couldn’t imagine myself with anyone else, but our entire journey together is crazy. I know I elaborated on my vows with all of that, which I had such a hard time writing. I wanted them to be perfect. I’ve never even got that nervous about writing music. It makes me feel all warm too. I got some photos copied for your mom to have. I know she’s going to hang them up, she’s probably one of the most sentimental people out there. I didn’t really picture myself with kids until the last few years, honestly. I would always wonder if I’d do a good job but I think that’s a normal fear, right?

[kvmnamjoons]

That sounds gross. Don't think I'd like cheese and pineapple mixed together. Honestly, I think for me it has to be some of the dishes. That could just be due to the fact that I'm not a seafood person so I don't like having to eat it. My mom now usually makes sure there are more meat options whenever I go see her for the holidays otherwise I end up shoving the seafood onto my husband's plate. I used to have the question on if I was gonna get married and have kids. That all stopped once my schedule got super busy. My parents just let me do things at my pace but I know my mom will be asking about grandchildren. I can sense it happening once I see her again.

What's one thing about the holidays that gives you the ick? Could be anything -- a dish, a stereotype, your distant cousin Jan that can't help but continue to ask why you haven't landed a significant other yet -- nothing is off limits. I'll tell you mine first, obviously; fair is fair. It's my sweet aunt's pineapple cheese casserole. Yeah, you heard me -- canned pineapple, slightly drained, topped with shredded cheese. I've never had anything like it in my life, and not in a good way -- but she's too good of a person, and I can't let her down, so there's always at least a bite of it on my plate every Thanksgiving. Your turn! @hfrpstarters

[kvmnamjoons]

It really is and I love that they are eager to see what else I'll share with them about. It's nice honestly and I do miss getting to connect with the fans a bit more. It really is honestly. You gotta hope that schedules line up perfectly so you can see friends. Sometimes I don't see my friends who are also in the industry unless we happen to be performing at the same award shows around the same time. Exactly, but we all try out best. Yes. It's such lovely instrument and I've enjoyed getting the chance to learn it. It does feel that way. Like there's always that small hope there but I try to wish them all the best and hope they get successful no matter what they do. They really do and seem to know things before you do. Guess she knew I was being obvious compared to even my husband back then. She also made sure to tell me to stop crushing from afar and say something. She just has her own way of showing her love it seems but I adore her. It really is. I have that as well. When I'm not with my family, the only one who really knows what's going on with me is my husband since we have known one another for almost 14 years now.

It's such a cool way to share a piece of yourself with them. I know how it is when work gets all-consuming, but it's nice to hear that you're getting a breather now on hiatus. It's always a "whenever we can" kind of thing, innit, when schedules get crazy? And most of the time, no one can, ever and it's a miracle when you finally get together. The saxophone? That's such a cool instrument, a very beautiful sound. I can only imagine how much fun you're having with it. It really does feel like losing a bit of your own life, right? You always hope they'll get back together, even if it seems unlikely. There's always that small hope they'll figure it out, but in the meantime, you just wish them well. Mostly, you just wish them success even if it's on their separate ways. Siblings are something else. They have this way of just knowing you like no one else can. There's just that level of understanding. I had to laugh when you said she already knew about your crush on your husband before you even told her. Classic sibling behavior. It's such a relief to have someone like that in your life, I keep most of my things bottled up, too, there are only like a couple of people I tell what's in my mind.

[kvmnamjoons]

It does! Honestly, I haven't done too much since getting married. My documentary is coming out next month to cinemas which I can't wait for everyone to get the chance to see. Other than that, I've just been enjoying my hiatus.

Feels like it's been forever since we've gotten to talk, and I feel like I've fallen so behind on all things you! What've you been up to these days? @kvmnamjoons

[kvmnamjoons]

I always feel that and then feel bad for not getting to interact with everyone I can. They do. Feel we need more time at events to get a chance for more interactions. I know! I'm sure we are more than ready. That's good to hear. I've been relaxing though the itch to do something work related is tempting but I know my fiancé would come after me. I'm glad to hear that and I can imagine they are the cutest. Hoping that the time they sleep properly comes quickly for you. Need all the rest you can get.

You're probably right, I've seen so many I wish to talk to more and then, I just don't. Events need to give us that chance. Not the friendship invitation - that's a big one. Fuck, are you sure we're ready? Pretty good, just a bit busy, obviously. The little ones are good as well and the cutest but so ready for them to properly sleep so I can.

[kvmnamjoons]

I'm glad he's taking his time. I'm sure love will pop up for him at some point. Know plenty of people who love sappy romantics. You should take a vacay there. It's a beautiful place and I'm sure you'd enjoy being there. I did! We saw everything possible there and took plenty of photos. Love you too, man. @jackscunie

Life did~ I was waiting for Yugyeom to get married first, weirdly. He's a sappy romantic, so I legit kept waiting for him to announce it, but I'm glad he's taking his time and focusing on his career. Making me wanna take a vacay there~ Did you do all the sight-seeing? Aye, ditto. Love ya man. @kvmnamjoons

[kvmnamjoons]

It's gonna be out in cinemas worldwide in December which I can't wait for. I am. I know the day before, I'm gonna be awake for longer than I should due to the nerves. If not, I can see it another way if possible. That's always great to do. Making me miss being on tour myself. Gotta make sure you explore as much as you can in Europe. It definitely lets them know out thought process with everything. I'll make sure to keep an eye out for it next year. I'll give you all the support. @jvnolee

Let me know when it's out and I'll check it out, hyung. Are you nervous about the reception? Taeyong's was in cinema's recently. I dunno if it still is, though, but hopefully! Same. Been relaxing between dates for the tour. We've got the European leg coming up, so we're grabbing as much downtime as we can right now. Agreed. Love when we put out things like that, give the fans an insight into our daily lives. I'm planning to drop solo work next year, so we'll see how that timeline goes. It might change~ @kvmnamjoons

[kvmnamjoons]

I couldn't agree more. Something about finally getting married makes everything feel so much better in my eyes. I can believe he did. I think younger me would have expected I'd get married but not for quite a bit still. I know you were and I don't blame you at all. I enjoy getting to call you my husband. Makes me feel warm inside. I'll let her know. She'll love that and I already know she'll have the photos framed somewhere around their home. I'm all for us looking into it. I always felt I would be and even though I've changed my mind many times on having children, I know I want to be a father

Me too. I truly never felt happier with my personal life than I do now. Younger me would have laughed if someone told him that all of this would play out the way it did. I was calling you my husband well before it was official but it rolls off the tongue so nicely, so can you really blame me? We can visit your mom and take some of the photos from the wedding that she's in. I'm sure we can make some copies for her to have. I definitely want to look into it. You'd be the best dad, you know that, right?

[kvmnamjoons]

I have as well. It almost feel surreal but I couldn't be happier. It really does plus now we get to throw around calling each other husband which has been my favorite thing. He was. I've been looking through the photos many times due to how much I love them. Gotta thank him again when I get the chance. I'd love if we did. I know she'll be happy to see us. I mean, I don't mind us looking into it still. It will be helpful to know for when we decide to have kids.

Me too. I've been making sure to take it all in. I know we were already living like a married couple well before it was official, but to have it all on paper just makes it that much more meaningful, you know? Taehyung really did great. He was really into it all which made it all that better. We can visit her soon if you'd like? I'd love to go and visit her. As do I. I'd love to have kids eventually. Even if we're now ready right now, we can still look into it all, cant we?

[kvmnamjoons]

Seems we left off on a lot. I can't wait till it's out for everyone to see. I know I'll be a bit nervous but I'm ready for the feedback. It's been nice especially since I can focus on more than making music. Hope you are enjoying yourself on tour. I already know I'll be there at your wedding when the two of you pick a date. I know wedding preparations can be a lot but it feels so great when it all comes together.

update on my life, where did we leave off? oh hell yeah can't wait to see your documentary. hey that's good to hear, always enjoy your time off, that's always a great time. me, well you know back on the road just in a different country right now. wrapping our tour within the next few weeks, then i get to go home and spend the holidays with my fiancée, and hopefully talk more about our wedding preparations so we can pick a date and get excited about that.

[kvmnamjoons]

I like showing them different artist and songs they haven't heard of. It really does especially when work decides to fill up your schedule. I can catch up with them now due to being on hiatus but usually when I'm working, it's a whatever we can kind of thing when it comes to seeing friends. I have. Also got me into playing the saxophone as well which has been a lot of fun. You really would. It really does and makes it all feel so fresh. You really do and it's the best feeling in my eyes. I have to many friends that I admire their work and it's honestly so great. It really does but I always hope that they are doing well. There's always that sliver of hope that they might get the band back together but we never know what they'll decide. Siblings are great for that. Like they just understand you in a way others don't. My sister is my best friend too but I can tell when I annoy her. She does. Like when I told her about my crush on my husband before, she told me she already knew. It makes it all better. I keep a lot of things inside so getting to share that with my sister when I feel I can't with anyone else just makes me appreciate that I have her in my life.

I can relate. I think you do them a solid by expanding their playlists. Ohh, I get that. Life can definitely get hectic, and it becomes nearly impossible to see our friends as much as we'd like to. Do you still manage to catch up with them often, or is it more of a "whenever we can" kind of thing? Exactly! And that's so interesting. Have you found yourself getting into more jazz now because of that? I agree, you'd get bored so fast if everything was the same. I've been switching between a few genres lately, with books, music and films, it keeps things from getting stale. It's so cool! You get to admire them on another level now too, with the friendship that unites you. Yeah, it sort of feels like losing a part of your own life in a weird way. Makes you wish you could go back and fix whatever went wrong behind the scenes. It's kind of wild how siblings can have that instinct, like, they just get you on a whole different level. My sister is my best friend, she gets me like no other. Does your sister ever surprise you with her insights? I know how nice it is to have that kind of bond where you can share stuff, even before you're ready to be vocal about it.

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I appreciate that you think so. I already can't wait to see what you think about it. It will revolve around everything I did for the eight months before my hiatus. I might have to check out his documentary when I have the chance. Been just relaxing mostly lately. You'll enjoy them both plus a good documentary that allows you to see the ins and outs about someone is great in my eyes. It really is and I don't wanna put out something I'm not happy with. I get being nervous but maybe one day you'll be ready. I'm sure your solo work would do well. @jvnolee

I'll bet! It was an amazing collab. I'll be checking out your documentary! Does it take a deep dive into your life on and off stage? Taeyong hyung just dropped his solo concert documentary in cinemas, so I gotta check that out too. You guys are giving me all the things to watch lately. Yeah, it's good to take your time with it all, even if we wanna hear new material~ Same. Been working on some songs myself. Dunno if I'd ever be properly ready for solo work, though. Nervous as hell about it. @kvmnamjoons

[kvmnamjoons]

Alright, it's been a bit since we talked so I'm asking for an update on your life. The only thing going on in mine is that my documentary is releasing soon which I can't wait for everyone to see. Other than that, I've just been enjoying my hiatus and trying not to work on anything if I can help it. @notnickj

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Swear we've seen each other in passing at so many events and never got the chance to talk. I'm taking that chance now and bringing the invitation of friendship as well. How are things going for you? How are the little ones? @therestayzakhar