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MAJOR UPDATE!!

I may or may not have dengue (a mosquito borne virus/disease) so I can't update on drabbles and potential fics right now because I have been severely sick for the past two days, so that's it

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When the fever is so bad you got a headache 🗣️‼️

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Help a Trapped Family in Gaza Survive

Hello, my name is Falestine , and I am from Gaza Palestine 🇵🇸. I write to you today with a heavy heart💔, seeking hope and help. The ongoing conflict has put my family's life in grave danger🙏.

Since the latest escalation,, we have been living in constant fear. All the necessities of life have become non-existent. My son, Youssef, was born in the war, and I moved from the hospital to the tent, where there is no clean environment. We've lost our home, safety, and hope for a better future🌹.

We urgently need your support to escape this nightmare and find safety. Your donation will help cover travel, accommodation, food, and healthcare costs. Every contribution brings us closer to safety and stability🥹.

Thank you for your kindness and generosity❤️.

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forgive me father for i have sexualized an older man

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Ghoap Angst | Ghost centered Drabble

Grief wasn't new for Ghost, as far as he knew how to cope, the feeling was like old wounds reopened for him, but now if was more foreign for him as the grief he felt before Johnny was familial, he had already accepted the grief from his family's death, but he didn't know what to label for the grief he felt for Soap, it was new, and it hurt like hell.

Ghost kept some of Soap's ashes and decided to make into a ring during his leave, the band had Soap's ashes, Ghost decided for a ring so that he could have Soap closer to him, he had the ring with his dog tags over his chest so he could feel the cold metal, remnants of Johnny, his Johnny

He was gone before Simon could think of a label, a proper one for them. Now he had a ring of someone who wasn't his spouse, he couldn't love after Johnny, as his heart still beats for him.

Life was cruel to Simon Riley, and he knew that it would continue to be cruel to him.

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I'm on a small hiatus as of right now and the previous few weeks, sorry for not writing as my graduation is in this month and my school needed all senior students to prepare for the senior's grad event (if that's what it's called) and I will try to write during this summer (although it will only be a month and a half, but I will still write) :)

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gaz: friends should be able to get each other off

soap: brojobs are platonic

ghost: i’m not sleeping with either of you

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"You treat your mouth as if it's Heaven's gate"

[Too Sweet by Hozier]

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GhostSoap are so Hozier coded, any song of Hozier is them

Especially with the new song Too Sweet, I don't care which perspective is which I just know them gay bitches are pining so hard that they sabotage each other

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mama “don’t let my crazy son be too crazy” MacTavish

Soap “the craziest mother fucker” MacTavish

and Simon “i love him the way he is” Riley

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"You are a wonderful artist"

'You were everything...'

Angst

We all know Soap is a good artist, but what if Simon, not Ghost, but Simon knew how to paint. His (previous) therapists recommended him to try painting as a way to express his emotions.

In fact he was great at painting, most of his works expressed grief that he couldn't outwardly describe before, his most beloved painting was a portrait of his family without his father, of course.

But he didn't just want to express grief into his art, he wanted to do something more, something positive.

When he met Soap, he was the yellow that was missing in Simon's palette of blues, reds, and purples, the sun that was in the center of his universe, his muse.

Day by day, little empty canvasses filled with yellow, which Simon described as the color of happiness or what brought happiness, he made a proper painting of Soap, his Johnny.

Simon decided he would gift Johnny the portrait when he would ask Johnny out, he made painting with devotion, he poured his heart to it, the yellow on the canvas even stained his bare hands when he worked on it.

It made him very happy that his muse loved his painting, his heart bursted with yellow, the same yellow that stained his hands, the same yellow that reminded him of Johnny.

But painted portraits only immortalize the image of a person, who the painter see their muse as.

Despite the yellow in the portrait, it felt like deep ocean blue, the kind that didn't bring calmness but grief and sadness, the blue that always appeared on rainy days, on stormy seas and dark lonely nights.

Simon grieved again, he swore he wouldn't lose another but a new face was added to his family portrait, Johnny, the warm yellow now turned to lonely blue, despite his efforts to keep himself from falling apart, Simon just couldn't, without his muse, what was he? Johnny was his muse, his everything.

"You are a wonderful painter, Simon" Johnny's voice echoed in his head as he stared back at the portraits of his muse, the yellow that warmed his heart, now taken from him.

"..You were.. Everything..." Simon muttered back to nothing, he missed Johnny, his blue eyes, his smile, his warm touches, just everything.

He painted and painted like he did before, he had forgotten how Johnny's voice sounded like, the smile he carried, the pout he did, his laugh... His everything, Simon only remembered how he looked in his hazy memories, and now, he couldn't remember what he looked like at all, he didn't look right, his smile wasn't the same.

Yellow turned to orange, then to red, to purple and now blue. Simon had forgotten his muse, his everything, the only reminder he had was his family portrait with his muse.

Johnny who was once yellow was now a part of Simon's blues.

Sorry for the angst, I recently got my shark week as an afab person and it feels like shit

And I felt like being sad so dinner is served

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Ahmed Saad, a Palestinian man who had to jump through an insane amount of loops to get the funds necessary for escaping Gaza, is asking us all to donate to his friend’s family fund.

Mohamed is a hemophilia patient who needs access to medicine and to do surgery on his knees, his 11-year-old daughter also needs thigh surgery (she was supposed to do it outside Gaza in November but couldn't travel due to the border issues). Mohammed’s condition is worsening rapidly and, with Israel destroying the last functional hospital in Gaza, things are looking dire.

Please donate generously!

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What I won't/can't write

Nsfw/Suggestive (I can't write smut even if held at gunpoint)

Children (Will make exceptions for Ghost's nephew or Soap's nieces/nephews |fanon|)

Pregnancy trope (Uncomfortable topic for me)

Pass around fics/Barracks bunny fics

Cheating trope (except for other people outside of the ship ex. Ex partner or something)

Any type of kink

Ships I don't write for

AleGraves

PriceGaz

SoapKönig

GhostKönig

AleVal (Alejandro x Valeria, sorry I see them as exes that are still connected/frenemies)

KatePrice (Laswell x Price, I see them as wlw and mlm solidarity)

Ships I do write for

Ghoap/GhostSoap

GhostSoapRoach, SoapRoach, GhostRoach

RoachGaz

SoapGaz, GhostGaz, GhostSoapGaz (can be platonic or romantic)

PriceGraves, NikPrice, NikGravesPrice

AleRudy

Körangi

Laswell x her wife (HC/Fanon)

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how you can help palestine

*i regularly update this post with any new info i find so please always reblog the original post*

Donations

donations currently reaching gaza:

help buy e-sims for people in gaza

donate to get food packages to gaza - care for gaza

palestine children's relief fund

world food programme

donate to ahmed (@/90-ghost on tumblr)

he is born, raised and based in gaza. please help him reach his goal of $37.5K to get his family to safety across the rafah border into egypt. as of right now… it’s $7.5K per person to evacuate gaza.

support palestinians: buy a keffiyeh from the last and only factory in palestine - hirbawi

secondary donations:

emergency relief for gaza - pious projects

palestine red crescent society

save palestine - islamic relief canada

send medical supplies to gaza - palestinian american medical association

click to donate - arab.org

help bring down israel's weapon trade - palaction

donate for the recovery of hisham awartani - gofundme

one of the three palestinian students shot by a racist in vermont for wearing kufiyas and speaking arabic. hisham’s injuries have left him paralysed from below the chest.

Petitions

petition to investigate war crimes committed by israeli military

demand ceasefire - amnesty international

open call for immediate ceasefire

american government call for immediate ceasefire

american government to stop funding israeli military

ceasefire and increase humanitarian assistance - oxfam au

petition to get canva to address their pro-israel stance

invoke the genocide convention to call for ceasefire in gaza - world beyond war

suspend israel from international sports - diem25

UK to expel israeli ambassador - change.org

gaza healthcare workers for nobel peace prize - change.org

teachers around the world demand ceasefire - teachers for palestine

location specific petitions

gaza call for lasting ceasefire - oxfam (UK)

end israeli occupation - parliament uk (UK)

email your MP - medical aid for palestine (UK)

protect gaza civilians - islamic relief (UK)

stop fuelling genocide - action network (USA)

@ biden: call for ceasefire now - move on (USA)

ceasefirenow.com - jewishvoiceofpeace (USA)

call congress and demand a ceasefire - uscpr (USA - they provide a script of what you should say, so don't worry about it)

note: you can call everyday. they tally the number of calls per issue. so more calls = higher chance for them to take action. p.s. you mainly go to voicemail so don’t worry about phone call anxiety. fight through it just this once please.

australia call on israel to stop attacking palestinians - apan (AUS)

immediate ceasefire and increase in humanitarian aid in gaza - actionaid (AUS)

email your MPs - stand with palestine (AUS)

‼️ australian senate to investigate australian citizens in the IDF for war crimes allegations - fpm (AUS)

‼️ arms embargo on israel - cjpme (CANADA)

sign to send letter to MP for ceasefire - nccm (CANADA)

ceasefire now! - ijv (CANADA)

ceasefire and allow aid to enter gaza - oxfam (CANADA)

call on your local mayor and council to demand ceasefire - LeadNow (CANADA)

cessez-le-feu et un couloir humanitaire - le mouvement (FRANCE)

écrivez aux député-es et sénateurs-trices - association france palestine solidarité (FRANCE)

write to your député - assemblée nationale (FRANCE)

skydda civilbefolkningen i gaza! - mittskifte (SWEDEN)

singaporeans call for immediate ceasefire (SIN)

contact your elected reps and demand a ceasefire (GERMANY)

write to the EU demanding a ceasefire (EUROPE)

template of letters you can send (EU)

guide on how to contact your MPs in EU

p.s. if the template is outdated, just use it as a guide and add a few sentences here and there that reflect the current situation. i can’t find any recent templates so :/ at least this is something

multiple actions you can take to help palestine - plant een olifbloom (NETHERLANDS)

includes: links for donations, emails to MP, emails to media, links to petitions and demonstrations

den haag, maak nú werk van vrede in israël/Palestina - the right forum (NETHERLANDS)

māori call for palestine - ourActionStation (NZ)

special visa for palestinians in gaza with family in NZ - NZ parliament/pāremata aotearoa (NZ)

deem israeli actions as war crimes - NZ parliament/pāremata aotearoa (NZ)

basta ao genocídio em Gaza! - awaaz (BRAZIL)

globo e grande mídia, parem de desumanizar civis palestinos - the intercept (BRAZIL)

Campaigns

‼️ justice for palestine

reach out to countries to back up south africa’s invoke genocide convention at the ICJ

friends of al-aqsa

❥ UK-specific

urge your MP to speak up for palestine

hands off al-aqsa

stop administrative detention

petition for UK to stop arming israel

❥ International

boycott puma — email them to end their partnership with israel

boycott coca-cola

palestine action

join the resistance

islamic relief canada

urge your MP to rally for ceasefire

decolonise palestine

poster campaign to raise awareness on the war crimes being committed against palestinians

text/call campaign for people living in USA

text CEASEFIRE @ 51905 to call for a ceasefire

text RESIST @ 50409 to send a letter to your representatives to pass HR3103–a bill that prohibits tax dollars from going to israel

download 5Calls app to contact members of your congress | (more info)

fax campaign for people in the USA

go on this website to send 5 free faxes per day

here’s a link to a pre-written fax copy you can download to send (the first link on the linktree)

here’s a video that explains how to fax your senator (it’s very easy and all you need is a valid email address)

‼️ BDS movement

get involved in boycotting companies associated with israel

please let me know if you have any more links. i will add them in. and please reblog the original post!!

UPCOMING PROTESTS

PALESTINIAN LITERATURE READING LIST

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Ghost kneeling at soaps feet, between his legs. His arms wrap up and around soap's waist tightly enough to indent his flesh, and his skin would splotch white for a second if he were to pull away. He doesn't. He looks at johnny like he's his world. Like he matters. Like he's the only thing that matters. Like he's worth something. Like he's the only thing that's ever worth anything.

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Merry Christmas to anyone who celebrates!