kiwischange

[kiwischange]

I’ve decided to do weekly updates - 14/1/20

Everyday was just to hard to maintain so weekly it is! I’ve have a few trouble meals but whAt I’ve eaten I made up for in exercise! I’ve also done a little sprain to my ankle from running but hopefully it doesn’t knock me off track. Dietitian appointment tomorrow! I’m feeling good about my journey still :)

[kiwischange]

Day 4 - 11/1/2020

MEALS

BREAKFAST

Cheerios

LUNCH 

Bovril on toast

TEA 

Homemade pizza

SNACKS

2 biscuits 

DRINKS

Water

Vimto zero sugar

Green tea

THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS

Today I got my Fitbit, I am aching like crazy today so I decided to have a rest day.

[kiwischange]

Day 3 - 10/1/2020

Today I am making this blog! (I was writing everything in a book before)

MEALS

BREAKFAST

Cheerios with semi-skimmed milk

Actimel

LUNCH

half a pasta pot from Tesco

1 and a half-boiled eggs

4 blueberries 

1 half a green apple

TEA

Homemade chicken wraps - mixed leaf, cucumber, low-fat mayo and sweet chili sauce on half and half wraps (all they had at the shop, normally would do wheat)

SNACKS

2/3 of sushi from Tesco - six set 

4 Maryland biscuits

1 chocolate orange piece

DRINKS

Green Tea

Water

THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS 

I pushed myself today more with my run and my weights. I was naughty having something sweet but at least its getting less and less. I also got a calorie counting membership to keep me on track. 

First time I’ve weighed myself self and this is what the scale said for each weighing measurement - 12st 7lb, 81kg, 175lb.

I plan to get down to - 50kg, 110lb, 8 stone

I would need to lose - 31kg, 65lb, 4st 7lb. 

I am going to give myself a year, let us see if I can do it! 

[kiwischange]

Day 2 - Date - 9/1/2020

MEALS 

BREAKFAST

none

DINNER

wrap from subway

TEA 

Chicken, egg and tomato puree with wholewheat pasta - homemade - ate half

SNACKS 

Sushi from tesco - the set of four

4 blueberries

6 maryland biscuits

DRINKS

Pepsi max 0 cal

Water

Green Tea 

THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS

Day 2 went better but couldn’t stay away from the biscuits. I will try better tomorrow. I went for a 15-minute run and did weights and squats. Found out these pants that I bought yesterday don't go over my hips so that has given me more motivation. Also, I bought a new Fitbit today, I can collect it on Saturday evening from Curries. 

[kiwischange]

Day 1 - Date - 8/1/2020

MEALS

BREAKFAST

- Banana

- Green Apple

LUNCH

- Footlong sub - Terriyki Chicken, lettuce, cucumber and sweet onion sauce - on wheat

DINNER - EATING OUT - CHEAT MEAL

2 Halloumi fries (sets)

2 pieces of flatbread with garlic and parmesan

3 pieces of calamari 

SNACKS

None

DRINKS

2 glasses water

1 Green tea

1 Juice  (at restaurant) 30 cals

THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS

I feel as though I haven’t done too bad as it is only my first day and I wanted to ease out of bad food so I can maintain a balance of food at first. Tomorrow I will be starting exercising properly but today we did walk around the Trafford Centre for four hours. 

[kiwischange]

Research

Weight loss tips and research:

Eat fish 2-3 times a week

Cauliflower - steamed topped with curry powder and turmeric 

USE ROCKET - ALWAYS SPINACH

Superfood for me - Mussels

Water with lemon - helps bloating, detoxifies 

Organic low-fat cheese

‘Artichoke’ - Good for IBS -Sooth 

Brocolli - fights harmful bacteria 

yogurt and honey

Almonds/tuna helps maintain weight

strawberries, berries, and melon 

Take apple cider vinegar Tablet and vitamins 

cup of green tea a day 

Homemade leek and pot soup

Leeks and salmon are both life-extending vegetables 

Mushrooms fight cancer

Blueberries and Kombucha

10,000 a day GOAL

Squats, Lunges, Bicep curls, pelvic lifts, running AT HOME WORKOUT

Calorie Count for successful weight loss 

Diet consisting of fruit, veg, whole grains, Reduced Fat dairy, lean meat, fish and poultry

[kiwischange]

Hello Change - How I got to my decision.

I am making this blog to motivate me and to keep me going when the challenge is too much. I need to see my progress and thrive by reminiscing on my achievements. 

Before I get into my daily updates and achievements, if anyone stumbles upon this blog, Hi, I’m Molly, I’m a 21-year-old student from Manchester/Lancashire and I am here to give you the 411 to why I have decided to, a) lose weight and b) have a dramatic lifestyle change. Also if you know me reading this, please try not to cringe at my ‘thinking people would actually read this’ way of typing. I find it easier to type and tell my story as though I am speaking to someone, so please be kind to me. 

SO! The change... let's go back to June 2016, the smallest I’ve ever been. I was 17 years old, had a part-time(pretty much full time) job as a waitress. I was barely eating due to my busy schedule of WORK and COLLEGE but I drank sooooooo much water, like the water bottle I would take with me to work and college was an 800ml VOSS water bottle and I filled it up at least eight to nine times a day. I was about 47-50kg. OH, forgot to mention, I am 5″1. 

Then at the end of July, I quit my job, I hated it and I definitely wasn’t appreciated. Also, I and my partner I had booked to go to Florida for the first time in August and I was going to Plymouth University with him in September, so work was the last thing on my mind. 

So the holiday was amazing, I gained a little weight but nothing major, weighing in about 49-51kg. Then I packed my bags and went to Plymouth... This is where things start to get messy. 

So I moved to Plymouth with my partner, we stayed in different accommodations but I pretty much stayed in his room every night. So I started Uni, long story short I absolutely hated it, I had no money because I couldn’t get a job down south and all my money was going into my accommodation, I missed my family like CRAZY as my little sister was only 2 and I was terrified she would forget who I am, and the course wasn’t for me. All of these things combined sent me into a spiral of depression and you can guess what happened next... I used food as comfort. I overate massives amounts of food, I wouldn’t leave my boyfriend's dorm room for weeks, I skipped university a lot and I stay awake till five in the morning and sleep till 3pm the next day. You see, you could say my boyfriend should have helped me get out of it, he tried really hard and failed. I would eat behind his back, overeat when he went into uni, I’d be nasty and shout at him if he even tried to ‘challenge’ me but he also didn’t want to upset me any more than I already was. 

The year went by and we both agreed Plymouth wasn’t for us. We both left our degrees to start fresh back home but I was bringing my biggest problem with me... my weight gain. In a little less than a year, I went from being 50kg to being 90kg!! I was extremely overweight and hated myself for it. When I got home my mum realized that that was a ridiculous amount of weight to gain in 9-10 months, so she took me to the doctors. After a few tests and an ultrasound scan on my pelvis, I was diagnosed with PCOS - Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (if you don’t know what it is, google it, this story is already long enough, lol). So in July 2017, I started to lose weight, I got down to 80kg in two months due to water weight and restricting my food portions. I then went on holiday, in September and that is where my weight loss can to a halt... for three years. I have been stagnating, gaining and losing but mainly maintaining for three whole years. 

You would think that me maintaining for so long would be the kick up the bum I needed but nope. In March 2019 I had my last normal-ish period. From April to October, I didn’t bleed once. Then at the end of October, I started streaking, I was on and off streaking from the end of October to mid-Decemeber. After this I started to bleed really heavy, it is the 10th of January 2020 and I only stopped heavy bleeding one day ago. 

I visited my doctor (back in August) and he basically blamed me for my weight which made me cry, really bad. After calming me down he offered for me to go see a gynecologist(which I should have been referred to years ago). My visit was short but very effective, she referred me to a dietitian and sent me to get a colposcopy just to make sure everything was okay. My Colposcopy was on the 12th of December, it was a very traumatic experience and very uncomfortable but I was just glad to have been referred. So this is my reasoning to shift the weight, she told me that the build-up of my periods had caused abnormal cells to form. She told me not to worry as she didn’t think it was anything serious but she took a smear and a biopsy of my cervix for further testing. She then offered me to get the cells blasted which she told me could cause more problems so I said no as she told me previously these cells go away on their own in most cases. 

After doing my own research, I wish so badly I had taken her offer to get the cells removed, which is why losing weight is so important to me now. I do not want a repeat of this again because it has been HELL and if it is anything serious I can be a stronger fighter(It apparently takes six weeks to get your results back so I still haven't received them or had my appointment with my dietitian, it’s on the 15th of January). Anyway, after tears and tantrums to all my problems, I read that weight loss is the only solution to the problem so here I am. 

Sorry, that was sooooo long, urgh, my exhausted from typing it and that was the briefest version I could give!

So today is Day 3 of my diet, I only decided today I wanted to make a blog just for my own motivation and also, to tell my story for anyone else suffering PCOS trying to just live a healthy life. 

Thank you for listening, here’s to a longer, healthier, HAPPIER life! x