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Dear Mr Santa

Dear Santa;I am writing this letter with a heavy heart, not cause I’m hurt but traumatised. I lived a pure life yet I’m suffering like I’ve been in your naughty list, what have I done wrong, Santa?Firstly, you let me be alone. I don’t know mind but sometimes I need someone to help me deal or help me forget a little. My troubles are too much to handle on my own.Secondly, I don’t understand.…

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December Climax

Mind, body and soulI need healing for allYou took my youth And left me cold.Mind, body and soulI need healing for allYou let them hurt meAnd leave a scar in my heart.Mind, body and soulI need healing for allYou left me lonely And confused yet brokenMind, body and soul I need healing for allYou let life take advantage of meAnd left in miseryMind, body and soulI need healing for allYou let me go…

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Numb November

Dear November; I took a pill, so I can breathe, But it still hard to exhale. What's the purpose of my existence, When I feel trapped and cursed. Living seems to be an expense, So, I tried suicide to escape, But it rejected me like I am a virus. All I can do is cry my eyes out, Hoping November would numb my pain. ©Kitty Minaj

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What Is Wrong With My Mind?

What is wrong with my mind?They say I have depression disorder,But I am not stressed at all,Yet I can feel that I am not normal.What’s is wrong with my mind?They say I have anxiety disorder,But I don’t feel anxious at all,Yet it’s hard to control the panic attacks.What is wrong with my mind?They say I have bipolar disorder,But I don’t have mood swings,Yet I do break things when I’m angry.What is…

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Unknown October

The unknown of the morning,Makes waking up very hard.Fearing the outcomes of the day,Makes the soul trembles.The unknown of the pain,Makes life unbearable.Fearing the failure that come with it,Makes the soul trembles.The unknown of the lover,Makes a relationship unstable.Fearing being heart broken,Makes the soul trembles.The unknown of mental health,Makes the patient scared.Fearing that they…

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BROKEN

I will cry till I can’t breathe, It’s only tears I can produce I will regret some actions, Even though I know I was right And I will choke on the bad memories, Cause the goods, dead with our love I endure the pain, Because I believe this is going to last But then I remember I'm broken No one loves a broken vase Thats why I am heart broken. ©Kitty Minaj

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Restore September

Dear September As I close my eyes, chase away the bad,Restore the innocence of my precious life.As I take a breathe, let me live,Restore the purpose I was meant to lead.As I calm myself, help me be humble,Restore the peace that was broken.As I swallow these pills, heal me,Restore the sanity I had at birth.As I write this poem, let me inspire,Restore the positivity of living with a mental…

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Oh, Dear August

Dear August, Why have you forsaken me? You were supposed to make me happy But instead, I am falling apart. I am struggling to breathe, As I watch all my dreams crumble And my love breaks apart. I am in a cold space, Wishing for death again Cause I don't understand Oh, August, please help me. ©Kitty Minaj

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Suicidal Birthday

It's my birthday today, But I woke up feeling like hell Wishing I could go back to sleep Instead, I felt like I could just die. It's my birthday today, But I had a fight with love Wishing it could show care Instead, I felt like I could die. It's my birthday today, But I felt like a failure Wishing I had a chance in life Instead, I felt like I could die. It's my birthday today, But I still had to…

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I Am Not That Strong

I am not that strong I let pain turn into trauma For I fall to deal with it earlier I just pretend that I am okay. I am not that strong I let trauma turn into mental illness For I fail to talk about it I just pretend that I am okay. I am not that strong I let mental health turn me into a mess For I fail to stabilize my brain I just pretend that I am okay I am not that strong Being a mess made me…

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Agoraphobic July

Dear July;It took me time to write to you,Because I am angry and heartbroken.There’s so many things in my life I don’t understand;Like the emptiness I feel when I look in the mirror,Long days I spend without sleep due to insomnia Or feeling unease for no reason at all.Depression has took over my mindAnd anxiety is not giving me a break,As hands keep shivering all the time.But the worst thing is…

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Doubting June

When I Walk in a valley of death,I am afraid.Even when there is light in the darkness,I don’t trust that it’s light.Even when I have a hand to hold,I don’t trust that the hand is real.Even when I can see the road clearly,I don’t trust it will lead to the right path.Even when the love warms my heart,I only see the worst in it.I am way to broken to see the truth,And the voice of negatively keeps…

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Yet Abuse

Stuck in a room filled with light, Yet to me it felt so dark.I am surounded by good people,Yet I felt alone with bad vibe.I laugh and smile when they look at me,Yet I'm breaking and dying slowly Inside.I dont know what's happening, everything is bury,Yet I feel like a zombie in out of space.I thought having Mental Health sucks,Yet to also deal with abue is hell.It took me years to accept my…

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Restless May

May I have a rest?As I wake up in this cold morningTossing and turning avoiding to get upI just want to rest forever.May I have a rest?As I feel the burning in my chestStruggling to breathe every second I just want to rest forever.May I have a rest?As Love breaks my boneLiving me heart broken and abusedI just want to rest forever.May I have a rest?As I become more depressed I swear this mental…

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Mother Of March

Dear Oh Mother of March; I am hurting so much And I am also trying so hard to be alright But this life doesn't seem to have a spot for me I just keep on falling way to hard And I hate every breath that take Yet I can't escape from this reality So, all I do is lie in the couch all day Watching drama, ignoring to think Getting more depressed by the second Waiting for the due date of my death,…

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Twinkle Little Feb

Twinkle, twinkle little star!How I wish to make a wish,A glorious little request To go back to when I was youngDamn, I forgot how painful that wasBeing mistreated and hated by family membersSo maybe I’ll go back to when I was a teen Damn, I forgot that was hell tooBeing bullied and traumatised by everyone So maybe I’ll go back to when I was in loveDamn, I forgot that was torture as wellBeing…

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Not So Happy New Year

Dear life I held loves hands when it strikes 12I felt like everything will be alrightYet my heart was not at easeI’ve been through so muchAnd I’m scared that this trauma will not endBeing strong hurts more everyday I feel like I’m going insane, mentally And I’m tired of taking pills to breathe I wish to be normal for just one yearBut that’s impossible, I know….Therefore I’m not happy for 2024But…