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What Is Wrong With My Mind?

What is wrong with my mind?They say I have depression disorder,But I am not stressed at all,Yet I can feel that I am not normal.What’s is wrong with my mind?They say I have anxiety disorder,But I don’t feel anxious at all,Yet it’s hard to control the panic attacks.What is wrong with my mind?They say I have bipolar disorder,But I don’t have mood swings,Yet I do break things when I’m angry.What is…

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Unknown October

The unknown of the morning,Makes waking up very hard.Fearing the outcomes of the day,Makes the soul trembles.The unknown of the pain,Makes life unbearable.Fearing the failure that come with it,Makes the soul trembles.The unknown of the lover,Makes a relationship unstable.Fearing being heart broken,Makes the soul trembles.The unknown of mental health,Makes the patient scared.Fearing that they…

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BROKEN

I will cry till I can’t breathe, It’s only tears I can produce I will regret some actions, Even though I know I was right And I will choke on the bad memories, Cause the goods, dead with our love I endure the pain, Because I believe this is going to last But then I remember I'm broken No one loves a broken vase Thats why I am heart broken. ©Kitty Minaj

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Restore September

Dear September As I close my eyes, chase away the bad,Restore the innocence of my precious life.As I take a breathe, let me live,Restore the purpose I was meant to lead.As I calm myself, help me be humble,Restore the peace that was broken.As I swallow these pills, heal me,Restore the sanity I had at birth.As I write this poem, let me inspire,Restore the positivity of living with a mental…

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Oh, Dear August

Dear August, Why have you forsaken me? You were supposed to make me happy But instead, I am falling apart. I am struggling to breathe, As I watch all my dreams crumble And my love breaks apart. I am in a cold space, Wishing for death again Cause I don't understand Oh, August, please help me. ©Kitty Minaj

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Suicidal Birthday

It's my birthday today, But I woke up feeling like hell Wishing I could go back to sleep Instead, I felt like I could just die. It's my birthday today, But I had a fight with love Wishing it could show care Instead, I felt like I could die. It's my birthday today, But I felt like a failure Wishing I had a chance in life Instead, I felt like I could die. It's my birthday today, But I still had to…

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I Am Not That Strong

I am not that strong I let pain turn into trauma For I fall to deal with it earlier I just pretend that I am okay. I am not that strong I let trauma turn into mental illness For I fail to talk about it I just pretend that I am okay. I am not that strong I let mental health turn me into a mess For I fail to stabilize my brain I just pretend that I am okay I am not that strong Being a mess made me…

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Agoraphobic July

Dear July;It took me time to write to you,Because I am angry and heartbroken.There’s so many things in my life I don’t understand;Like the emptiness I feel when I look in the mirror,Long days I spend without sleep due to insomnia Or feeling unease for no reason at all.Depression has took over my mindAnd anxiety is not giving me a break,As hands keep shivering all the time.But the worst thing is…

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Doubting June

When I Walk in a valley of death,I am afraid.Even when there is light in the darkness,I don’t trust that it’s light.Even when I have a hand to hold,I don’t trust that the hand is real.Even when I can see the road clearly,I don’t trust it will lead to the right path.Even when the love warms my heart,I only see the worst in it.I am way to broken to see the truth,And the voice of negatively keeps…

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Yet Abuse

Stuck in a room filled with light, Yet to me it felt so dark.I am surounded by good people,Yet I felt alone with bad vibe.I laugh and smile when they look at me,Yet I'm breaking and dying slowly Inside.I dont know what's happening, everything is bury,Yet I feel like a zombie in out of space.I thought having Mental Health sucks,Yet to also deal with abue is hell.It took me years to accept my…

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Restless May

May I have a rest?As I wake up in this cold morningTossing and turning avoiding to get upI just want to rest forever.May I have a rest?As I feel the burning in my chestStruggling to breathe every second I just want to rest forever.May I have a rest?As Love breaks my boneLiving me heart broken and abusedI just want to rest forever.May I have a rest?As I become more depressed I swear this mental…

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Mother Of March

Dear Oh Mother of March; I am hurting so much And I am also trying so hard to be alright But this life doesn't seem to have a spot for me I just keep on falling way to hard And I hate every breath that take Yet I can't escape from this reality So, all I do is lie in the couch all day Watching drama, ignoring to think Getting more depressed by the second Waiting for the due date of my death,…

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Twinkle Little Feb

Twinkle, twinkle little star!How I wish to make a wish,A glorious little request To go back to when I was youngDamn, I forgot how painful that wasBeing mistreated and hated by family membersSo maybe I’ll go back to when I was a teen Damn, I forgot that was hell tooBeing bullied and traumatised by everyone So maybe I’ll go back to when I was in loveDamn, I forgot that was torture as wellBeing…

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Not So Happy New Year

Dear life I held loves hands when it strikes 12I felt like everything will be alrightYet my heart was not at easeI’ve been through so muchAnd I’m scared that this trauma will not endBeing strong hurts more everyday I feel like I’m going insane, mentally And I’m tired of taking pills to breathe I wish to be normal for just one yearBut that’s impossible, I know….Therefore I’m not happy for 2024But…

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Depressing December

Dear December,I thought I was happy this yearBut you kept bringing me back.You gave me bits of happiness then took it away,You gave distraction then took it away too,It’s like I’m not meant to be free.I don’t know what I did to deserve this painBut it keeps on hurting and hurtingAnd I just can’t bare it no more.I’m not that strong…I’ve been through a lot in life,Every year is another trauma added…

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Maybe

My heart is heavy,Maybe it’s because of the abuseOr the bruises all over my faceMaybe I don’t want to admit it’s abuseOr maybe I just want it to be a mistake A mistake that keeps happening Then again maybe I am scaredMaybe I am just helplessI’ve never had a script to relate tooOr maybe it’s because I don’t have anyone to run tooMaybe I am truly obsessed with himOr maybe I am obsessed with…

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Nostalgic November

Dear November,Failure is a part of life I understand But disappointments are hard to take inEspecially when you can’t see a reasonWhich takes you back to where you startedA place of endless rejectionCreating lifelong trauma that can’t be avoided It’s easy to forgive and move on But negativity will never let you forgetAnd that wounds will always hurt Until you accept that nostalgia is part of…