kittychosis

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drunk asf high off coke at the rave w my bf throwing it back on me

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in the past 10 years ive only ever really been able to reflect on the bad parts of my childhood. but lately ive been remembering things that were good. like being with my twin brother and drawing our dream rooms together or our dream pets. now im an adult and im starting to dream of what we could do together again. im starting to dream and hope again. my twin brother is like my missing peice and i havent seen him in a year. but when i dream about the lives we could have once were finally all the way out of this hole weve spent half our lives climbing out of. i feel happy. i want to keep going. i want to witness both of our dreams come true and i want to keep sharing the joy w him. i want to keep sharing the grief. i want to keep sharing my life w him because despite our aurguments he is the one thing that will always make me happy. i love that man through thick and thin and you bitches dont even know how thick and thin its gotten. despite it all, if i had nothing in this world i would still have him. what we have is what familial love is supposed to be, not what we were taught it was. i am so proud of the both of us for learning and growing and greiving anf forgiving. i am proud of us for giving each other the family we always deserved. where theres a will, theres a way and where theres my brother, theres gonna be me.

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i miss my brother sm this isnt fair

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sigh. im just like my dad. jewfro full of spiders.

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we were jack twist and ennis del mar for halloween and he was ENNIS DEL MAR FOR A FUCKING REASON

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im just tired of pretending. tired of pretending i dont see these things that hurt me so much. pretending that i dont notice. pretending that it doesnt hurt.

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mr. face buried in his phone 24/7 like its keeping him alive cant seem to text back when im not around

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and my doordash drivers name is braeden

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i just cant stop being angry thinking about the small things that have happened recently and then reflecting back on the bigger warning signs i shouldve paid more attention to

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me when i dont even give a fuck anymore

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deciding today that i dont need to interact w someone who treats me like a burden everytime i try to interact with them

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god striking me down for my bday just makes so much sense w how life is going

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i can feel myself slowing transforming during this time period and becoming more congruent with who i am inside and out

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asked oliver if he would ever go to a furry convention w me and he just said:

as long as youre there id have a good time :)

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wildlife lab so bad i genuinely started crying and throwing up

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gettin lit off the bacardi while my partner has a family-oriented crisis

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