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me asking gwenyth if her coke dealer is willing to give me 6k for a fursuit

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why does my entire life feel like a fucked up strategy game

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me, gay as hell: yah.... im going to sexualize religion now

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im going to have an axiety attack XD

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the horrifying thing about government is that if they dont like you, they will erase you. this is not the first time the government has tried to systematically wipe out and forget about a group of people. dont wait to do something until you are the ones they are coming after.

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i think everything changed for me as an artist when i was in middle school drawing ugly ass warrior cat drawings w random art supplies id find around the house and my dad blew $300 of my moms money on getting me an 82 peice prismacolor pencil set

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shoutout all my CPTSD baddies who get motor tics when theyre uncomfortable/feel unsafe

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my moms logic: stalking my kids is ok but sending them money they need to survive is crossing a boundary

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visiting my mom then my twin brother was such a bad idea. all my ideas of the future are tarnished. i keep thinking if i get away from her psychically ill be ok but shes a god damn stalker. all i can think about is how the least she can do is give us fucking money so we can take care of ourselves and she cant even do that. shes beyond useless and she gets off on watching me and my brother slowly die while she hangs money over our head. i fucking despise her so much im reaching a breaking point. i was supposed to be graduated from college now and financially independent but im not and i still have another year and a half. im not pissed im fucking RAGING. twenty two years of SHIT AND IT IS NEVER FUCKING ENDING. i just keep wondering when something big will change and finally let me and my brother be happy and free and healthy. i keep wondering when she will give up but why would she shes been lying to herself her whole life why would she tell me the truth.

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every song that ive listened to on loop while having a psychotic episode has a special place in my heart

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my brain is so mush from the flu that i forgot my bf doesnt look like luigi mangione and i got really confused bc his eyebrows are so far apart and luigi has a unibrow

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man i miss my boyfriend

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guess who has the fucking avian flu <3

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not me being laid up in an ambulance on christmas... lord help me i may die soon

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i dont want to die in this house with this bitch i hate 😭

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my nerves are fucking WRACKED this holiday season

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ive been dealing w my mom p well, when she constantly makes plays for attention i dont engage w her in any way or respond or even let her know that i heard her. when she begins to get pissy or ignorant i walk away and let myself be alone . when she says things that are meant to make me feel bad for not adhering to what she wants i pretend i dont know what shes talking about or i dont respond. and thats on healing babeyyy